special stargazing

The end of the month comes quickly.

Ever since Sheng Yexing realized that something was wrong with him, he began to frequently enter and leave the dormitory building at night.He didn't say what he was going to do, he just waited for the lights to be turned off at eleven o'clock, put on his coat and went out over the wall from the downstairs of the dormitory, and it was early morning when he came back.

It's a night away.

Once I met Li Dingxi who got up to take a shower in the morning. The two brothers stared at each other in the dormitory. Li Dingxi was silent for a long time before asking: "Boss, did you run out again last night? It's winter, wait Don't you think it's cold outside? There's nothing you can't stay in the dormitory, it's warm and convenient."

"Go out for a walk." Sheng Yexing unbuttoned the collar of his jacket.

"If you ask me...you really don't want to go out for a ride, it's so boring," Li Dingxi said, "They are all older than you, and they are all from the society! Who knew that the blades were tied to the back seat of their motorcycles. Or steel pipes? In case something happens to you one day, you..."

Sheng Yexing laughed, and asked while taking off his clothes, "What about me?"

Li Dingxi rubbed his hands, and said seriously: "Call us, it will take time for us to rush over from the third ring road. Can you just play around the school, and you can take care of everything. It's too much for you alone. wild."

"The road near the school? I might as well ride a bicycle."

"Isn't a bicycle pretty environmentally friendly?"

"Pedaling is not as fast as I can run."

"What are you asking for? Cool?"

After Li Dingxi asked, Sheng Yexing subconsciously wanted to say "beg to die", but he stopped what he was about to say and took a deep breath.

It's ridiculous to say that he doesn't seem to want to die so much recently.

In the past, Sheng Yexing always felt that "death" was something very close to him. Maybe it was a car accident or a weapon fight, and the pain was nothing more than the side effects of taking too much medicine.But now, when it comes to feeling "death", he feels that life is gradually becoming more interesting.

Thinking of this, he took off the leather gloves and hung them on the hooks of the closet, and glanced at the opposite bed.

Lu Jianxing was falling asleep when he suddenly turned over.

Not very stable.

"For excitement." Sheng Yexing said.

After he finished speaking, he took off his boots and stepped on the ladder to the upper and lower bunks, grabbed the railing, stood up and glanced at the Lujian star bed.After confirming that Lu Jianxing hadn't kicked the quilt, Sheng Yexing opened a corner of the bedroom curtains to let some light in, and called Li Dingxi to come over for breakfast.

"How was Lu Jianxing last night?" He asked.

"It's better to sleep with your back against the wall, no matter how much you persuade. Oh, and you have to pinch your ears to sleep. I asked him to take his hand in, saying that it would catch a cold, and he said 'oh' a few times to agree. The result Hey, I turned my head and went to sleep, and he stretched out his hand again!" Li Dingxi laughed, "But he made me a glass of juice last night."

"Is it."

Sheng Yexing sneered, "Stop showing off. I didn't leave when he made juice for you last night, can I not know?"

"Oh, this is a big event and needs to be recorded."

"He also soaked for me," Sheng Yexing emphasized, "It's not just for you."

Li Dingxi quickly took a sip of plain water to calm his shock, "Boss, my glass...is a bit cold. How about yours?"

Sheng Yexing lowered his voice, "It's a bit hot."

Li Dingxi: "..."

Lu Jianxing, who was on the opposite bed, suddenly turned over again, and Li Dingxi was startled. He quickly stuffed the bread into his mouth and ate most of it, and then picked out the ham and ate it.He drank a few sips of milk, carried his schoolbag and said that he would go downstairs to the off-campus newsstand to help Zhang Ma get today's new daily newspaper, to make up for his mischievous mistakes before.

As soon as Li Dingxi closed the door and went out, Sheng Yexing grabbed the towel and dried his hair, taking off his whole body with only a thin sweater left.He felt that the person on the opposite bed was tossing and turning again, so he stepped on the ladder and said he wanted to take another look, and he saw Lu Jianxing stretching out his legs.

Little autistic and sleeps without pants.

Sheng Yexing stretched out his hand to touch it, feeling that his leg was icy cold.

Taking out his watch and taking a look, Sheng Yexing felt that he could let Xiao Zishu sleep for another half an hour, so he decided to wake Lu Jianxing up after a while.

He pulled the quilt lightly and put it on Lu Jianxing's leg.

Lu Jianxing quietly opened his eyes, buried his face in the soft pillow, clenched the quilt cover tightly in his palms, and suddenly began to miss the feeling of being hugged by Sheng Yexing that day——

That feeling of burning all over your back.

That feeling of caring for each other.

He hugged me so tightly that day, I don't know if he heard my heartbeat.

He thought vaguely, and pulled the quilt in front of him, exposing his entire back to the cold air.Sheng Yexing was dazed by the beautiful exposed back, Lu Jianxing turned over again and fell asleep on his stomach.

People are still confused.

He put his palm on his lower abdomen and counted his abdominal muscles.

Lu Jianxing closed his eyes, feeling the muscle texture on his waist and abdomen in a half-dream and half-awake state.

One, two, three...

five dollars.

He grabbed the hard object, and could vaguely discern it was a person's hand.

Sheng Yexing lay down following his pulling motion, turned sideways to block between Lu Jianxing and the wall, and pinched Lu Jianxing's ears with his hands... wanted to laugh.This is the first time I've seen someone pinch their ears while sleeping.

From the corner of the curtain, the morning light has already flowed in obliquely.

"Lu Jian Xing, it's only 06:30 now," Sheng Yexing embraced him from behind, leaned closer and whispered in his ear, "Don't wake up, sleep for a while, okay?"

Hearing the words "sleep a little longer" when he was sleepiest in the morning, Lu Jianxing's mind was muddled, so he could only nod his head, and replied in a low voice, "Yes."

The day before Christmas Eve, Lu Jianxing's parents came from the next province.

When they arrived by car, it was not during class, and they did not inform the teacher in advance, saying that they happened to be passing through the city and said to come and see.Lu Jianxing couldn't accept the sudden change in the fixed itinerary, and pulled Sheng Yexing to stand at the school gate, not knowing whether to stop or continue walking.

It was the end of school time at the school gate, parents and students were making a noise, and the cries of small vendors were all weakened.The Lu family's vehicle was parked on the side of the road, and Lu's mother stood at a loss by the flower bed at the school gate, calling "Xing Xing" in a low voice.

The moment this title was called out, Lu Jianxing took a step back.

He's never "people" first, so he'll be abrupt about greeting and communicating.Apart from the chaotic crowd and fluent conversations, what Lu Jianxing first felt was the dust raised by speeding cars on the road, the foggy sky above his head, and Sheng Yexing's shoelaces that were almost half loose.

Instead of responding to his mother, he lowered his head and kicked Sheng Yexing's heel.Then, he started to get restless because his plan to go back to the dormitory was interrupted.

Five minutes later, Lu's parents still ran over. They took Lu Jianxing into the school security room to avoid the cold wind, and chatted unilaterally about what happened at home within two months after Lu Jianxing left home.

Lu Jianxing listened in a daze, his eyes kept falling on Sheng Yexing who was waiting in the guard room.

The back of the head is black.The hair is very short, and it is very sticky to the touch.

His ears were red from the cold, and he didn't pinch his ears when he slept.

nice neck...

The neck is tilted, what is he looking at?

The shoulders are broad, comfortable to lean on, and can block the whole of me.

"Son?!" Father Lu interrupted his distraction.

Lu Jianxing came back to his senses after being yelled at, turned his head to look at his parents, said "um", and then he saw his mother's eyes were red.

"I... I'm sorry, you can respond to us so quickly now, mother is very happy," the middle-aged woman quickly took out a tissue to wipe her tears, reached out to hold Lu Jianxing's, "I will live with my parents tonight Is the hotel okay? Your younger brother drew a new painting and said he would ask his parents to give it to him."

Lu Jianxing shook his head.

He couldn't tolerate another change in his changed life, even a little "episode" would make him uneasy.

He felt uncomfortable seeing his mother, as if his throat was choked by fate.He will always remember that when he was seven or eight years old, he bumped his head on the wooden floor at home for half a year when he had nothing to do, and went to the clinic downstairs to apply medicine. The grievances his mother had endured for many years finally broke down and kept asking the doctor , I am not going to have children.

Why is the child generated like this.

In fact, he doesn't blame his parents for how he treats him, but he is constantly annoyed by his own particularity.

Now that he is a little older and more sensible, Lu Jianxing is becoming more and more independent, and gradually understands the saying "everyone is an individual".

Lu Jianxing adopted the plan of "refusing to answer all questions", and his parents understood, but the disappointed expressions on their faces made Lu Jianxing very hurt.

Everyone who talks to him will inevitably be unable to hide this emotion.

Except Sheng Ye Xing.

Coming out of the guard room, the Lu family's parents once again invited Sheng Yexing and Lu Jianxing to take their car to the dormitory.

Lu's mother felt that Sheng Yexing was not a good boy, but because her son finally made friends, she didn't know what attitude to use to face Sheng Yexing.

"Do you want to get in the car?" Seeing that Lu Jianxing was still reluctant to get in the car, Sheng Yexing asked him patiently, "If you want to get in the car, let me know. If you don't want to, we'll walk back."

Lu Jianxing didn't say a word, he opened a can of Wangzai Kou brought by his parents and handed it to Sheng Yexing.

In the end, Lu Jianxing still didn't get in the car. He and Sheng Yexing walked side by side on the street, with his parents quietly following behind in the car.Lu Jianxing was extremely sensitive to voices, he knew it, and he turned his head, with an indescribably lonely look in his eyes.

We see each other once every two months now, and I don't know how often we will see each other again in the future.

He is still grateful to his parents.

Parents always hope that he can make more friends, but they never ask him, do you want to make friends, do you want to make friends?Making friends was undoubtedly difficult for him.

What most people don't understand is why it is difficult for him to even say "Hello". Isn't this a problem that can be solved by opening his mouth?

Following all the way to the downstairs of the dormitory, the parents of the Lu family unloaded the quilts and food they brought from the car and said they would take them to the dormitory.Sheng Yexing stacked up the things neatly, saying that it's fine to put them here, and he will move them up with Lu Jianxing later.

When the parents left, they stood opposite the two of them downstairs in the dormitory and looked at each other, neither of them took the first step.Sheng Yexing looked into their eyes and knew what they were waiting for.

"Say something." Sheng Yexing pinched Lu Jianxing's ear.

The little self-closing ears are like a switch, and it screams when you pinch it, which is especially useful and easy to pinch.

Lu Jianxing opened his mouth, but made no sound.

"Goodbye!" Sheng Yexing roared, exhaling white mist in the too cold air.

Lu Jianxing turned his face to look at him, and said loudly: "Goodbye!"

Carrying the food and quilt upstairs, Lu Jianxing didn't say a word, his brows were tightly knit together, he took a "hum-chi-hum-chi" breath, and leaned against the railing beside the corridor to wipe his sweat.

The two of them carried about the same weight, and Sheng Yexing was obviously easier.

Lu Jianxing gritted his teeth secretly, and carried the large box of milk in his hand up another step.He was a little helpless.

Unexpectedly, Sheng Yexing was very patient, waiting for him quietly on every floor.

Seeing his expression of resistance all the way, Sheng Yexing tried to ask: "Why don't you like talking to uncles and aunts?"

"They always ask me, autism."

Lu Jianxing walked with his back straight, turned on the lights in the corridor with a loud "ha", and said seriously, "Keep asking me, autism."

Sheng Yexing smiled, "But it's not a big deal, it's just illness."

"I don't like it," Lu Jianxing said, "I don't like it."

They talked slowly, and they had already gone up to the fifth floor after talking.Sheng Yexing took out the key to open the door of the dormitory, then turned around and said, "You don't like others mentioning it."

Nodding, Lu Jianxing walked to the balcony of the dormitory, stretched out his hand and turned on the tap, closed his eyes and listened to the sound of "哗啦啦——".

The sadness in his heart is like these flowing waters, bursting out continuously, and then falling into the invisible deep channel.

He put it aside for a while, raised his face and smiled at Sheng Yexing.

The sound of the water terrified and calmed him.

If someone asks again, just answer it like this!