Are you there?brat

how to say.

I feel that my brother's mind may be more serious.

I don't know if the doctor scared him.

Obviously sometimes, I feel that he is still very normal, and he should not need to take medicine.

but……

He still grabbed handfuls of medicines.

Once, I stole his medicine box, took out the largest piece of medicine in it, ground a little powder and tasted it.

I was so bitter that I frowned.

What is this medicine for?

Xiao Shou never left any packing boxes, they were all in his medicine box.

Two brown ones and one white one are very big, the size of my fingernail.

And a few capsules.

Anyway, I counted roughly, I should not be able to swallow one bite.

We should be living together now.

But except in the company, he basically never saw Xiao Dou anywhere else.

Sometimes I didn't turn my head around and asked Xiao Shou: "Didn't your brother come to see you before?"

He shook his head and we all fell silent.

I don't know much about their situation.

His parents never showed up either.

It feels like hanging in the name of a loved one.

In the past, I would still call my mother. When Xiao Shou heard me talking to others, he would come over to listen to what I was talking about, but he would not interfere.

Not anymore, he will look at my chat records for a long time to make sure I have no contact with strangers.

I'm not used to it, but I understand his behavior.

Little wolf dog, possessive.

I comforted myself like this, watching him sitting there, the sunset was slowly setting outside the window, and the afterglow reflected on his side face was very beautiful.

I turned on my phone again to check the balance of my bank card.

11.

The combined wages of these two months are only three-half of the previous month.

I have a feeling of sitting and eating.

I didn't dare to tell Xiao Shou, and I couldn't say something like "Your brother deducted my salary, and I have no money, so give me some money."

I hugged him from behind and rubbed against him: "Brother."

He grumbled, and I got up and put my arms around his shoulders.

After hesitating several times, he still didn't say it.

Can you spend a few days by yourself?

I'll go out and kill the dragon and come back to marry you.

He turned his head and asked, "What's wrong, bro?"

I lowered my head and sniffled: "It's nothing, you're blocking the light."

Well, that's a really bad reason.

Now he not only blocked the light, but also pinned me on the bed.

But rare, he didn't go any further with me.

I'm still a little surprised, what's going on, my brother is so good today?

It's over, it's over, the sky is falling.

I wonder now what the hell the doctor told him.

But Xiao Shou will not let go.

Hey.

He goes back to school occasionally.

I didn't know that his school was so perverted before, and he had to go back to work after the summer vacation.

But thanks to this decision, I finally found time to go to that doctor alone.

Sitting in front of the doctor, I hesitated for a while: "Hi, I... am Brother Xiao Shou."

The doctor pushed the glasses: "I remember you didn't look like this before."

I am a little embarrassed.

Of course it doesn't look like this, can Xiao Dou, that old bastard, be more handsome than me? !

I made a haha: "I'm his...other brother. The one before was his own brother. It's not convenient for his brother to come here recently, so I may contact you in the future if Xiao Shou is ill. Last time I also Those who have been to the hospital, sit at the door."

He asked me several questions about Xiao Shou, and finally dispelled his doubts: "It's better to send him out for his illness. The foreign equipment may be more stable. Now it's too risky to just take medicine."

I nodded desperately: "Yes, yes, yes, I see that my brother eats so much every day. If he doesn't eat, he will feel uncomfortable. It hurts so much."

The doctor showed me his medical record and described it, and now I know how serious he is.

Doctor: "Now he may be a little addicted. I told him when I prescribed this medicine to him. If he doesn't control it, he will feel particularly dependent. He still insists on taking it."

I grabbed the corner of my clothes and asked naively: "If you stop taking his medicine, will it be better?"

The doctor looked "Are you a two hundred and five": "If he can carry it, then it must be good to stop. Have you ever learned about mental illness before?"

I shook my head and listened to his description.

The doctor said that some people's diseases are congenital, and some diseases are acquired.

If it is congenital, it is carried in the genes, and it is impossible to cure it directly. It can only be intervened slowly and adjusted as much as possible.

In the case of the day after tomorrow, it is basically caused by the environment. It may be better to change the environment, but it may also go to the other extreme.In acquired mental illness, the attitude of the family is very important.

Now the medicine Xiao Shou takes is more about calmness, so as not to make him aggressive.

I snapped my fingernails: "Then is my younger brother a nature or a nurture?"

He pushed his glasses: "According to his brother, there is a little inheritance."

hum.

My heart fell directly to the bottom of the cliff: "That is to say... there is basically no way to cure it?"

The doctor looked over there with the medical record: "But I think it should be more affected by the day after tomorrow. His mother has mild irritability syndrome. It is reasonable to say that it is not serious if it is inherited, and it is possible to actively adjust it. It is his current condition. The situation is already very grim.”

I nodded: "Yes, sometimes I feel that after he took the medicine, his whole eyes are very dazed, and he is out of shape."

He made a metaphor: "You have been staying in that kind of particularly noisy vegetable market, how do you think you will react?"

I hesitated: "I will have a feeling that there are voices all around me."

The doctor nodded: "Then now, when a thunderbolt strikes suddenly, all the previous sounds have disappeared, and it's very quiet. What will your reaction be?"

I looked at him and thought for a long time: "Scared."

The doctor smiled: "Understood, right? This thunder is his medicine. There are fewer sounds in his world and more tranquility. He is afraid and longs for it at the same time."

"Then he tried his best to create thunder, boom boom boom in his world," I smiled wryly, "Is that what you mean?"

He nodded: "Yes, that's what it means."

I got up and thanked the doctor, and then took several deep breaths before I opened the door and went back to the unit.

Xiao Dou is at work.

This is the first time I took the initiative to find him.

I sat in front of him and told him straight up that I had seen the doctor.

Xiao Dou's expression changed: "So? After you understand it, do you think the same as me? It's better to send him out. At most, I'll be merciful and send you out too."

I propped my chin and tried to formulate: "So you've already contacted me?"

He laughed, and leaned back on his rocking chair: "Of course. The complete set of equipment costs over one million yuan. On a resort island in Hawaii, four nurses follow him all day, and doctors come for regular checkups. There is no such environment in China. I It’s been very thoughtful.”

I laughed too: "What about you?"

He frowned: "Me?"

I stared at him: "Aren't you going to see him?"

He waved his hands: "I have to be busy making money, otherwise who can afford it, with your salary? It's not enough to cook for him."