Bloodline Survival Guide

Have you ever watched a person sleep all night?

Look at the one you love.

Shen Mingguang couldn't bear to close his eyes all night.

After doing it twice, Chen Zhen was so tired that he pestered him and talked a lot in a daze, and fell into a deep sleep halfway through.

Shen Mingguang hugged him, feeling that Chen Zhen's body cooled down a little bit, and returned to the cold body temperature that the blood race was used to.

Shen Mingguang still hugged him tightly, looked at his face, and listened to his inaudible breathing.

Shen Mingguang thought a lot that night, but he didn't seem to think about anything.His heart was full, and as the passion cooled down, Chen Zhen's body temperature gradually emptied out, emptied, and turned into a sad shell.

The night was very quiet.He spent many such silent nights alone in the past, when he missed Vidal, when he missed Vidal crazily, when he couldn't sleep, when he had nightmares...

He would always sit by the window and look at the moon, thinking, recalling the fragmented past over and over again.

But the moon doesn't appear every day.Just like the past with Vidal in his mind, sometimes it is as clear as before his eyes, and sometimes...even if he holds it in his arms like now, it doesn't seem real.

The night is too short.It was so short that Shen Mingguang even hoped that Chen Zhen would never wake up.If they don't wake up, they don't have to face tomorrow, and they don't have to face the future that they still have so many obstacles.

In this way, you can still lie to yourself and say: I still have him.

There is a feeling of greed for a while.

Although he actually did it, Shen Mingguang was not happy at all.He still has a lot to face, and he doesn't know how to face Chen Zhen in the future.

is it wrong.

He's missed it once in the past.He loves that unattainable Vidal wishfully... Although the love ends up hurting both sides.

Also killed by him.

Shen Mingguang hugged Chen Zhen naked, feeling extremely complicated.

Chen Zhen slept very deeply, maybe he really got used to sleeping.

In the middle of the night, an owl flew into Shen Mingguang's house.It flapped its wings and stopped at the door of the bedroom, quietly confronting Shen Mingguang.

Shen Mingguang and it looked at each other for a while, then lightly let go of Chen Zhen's hands and feet wrapped around him, picked up a pair of trousers and walked over to catch the ball of paper in the owl's beak.

The ball of paper is wet, and the owl comes from the wind and rain.

Shen Mingguang closed the bedroom door, walked lightly to the piano in the living room, sat down, and opened the ball of paper.

"Reported by the blood shadow, I learned that Fenrir did not abide by the agreement, and the relationship with Vidal has developed viciously. Please remember our promise, stop the loss in time, and don't make the situation worse. -L."

After reading it, Shen Mingguang crushed the ball of paper in the palm of his hand, turning it into fine dust.

Stop loss in time.

After doing everything, Chen Zhen is going to fall from the sky?

Shen Mingguang buried his head wearily, and lay down on the piano cover in front of him.

There seems to be a taste of each other on this.

He wanted to be selfish and didn't care about anything... Indeed, he was too complacent.

Shen Mingguang decided at the beginning...not to provoke Chen Zhen anymore, he knew he couldn't help it, and something would happen if it continued like that.

Originally, I wanted to... shallowly haunt the sea of ​​Chen Zhen's life, just show my head.

But that "Moonlight" and that poem had washed his mind clean and he had forgotten everything.

Before, he thought that they would live in peace, that Chen Zhen might not fall in love with him, so he just acted as a person who was indifferent... He was wrong, he underestimated their previous bond too much.

It was because he couldn't help getting closer, and when he got closer, he forgot the damned promise... But when he got close, he was reluctant and greedy. He wanted Chen Zhen to like him, wanted to respond, and wanted to be loved.

He let the devil in his heart let that secret idea develop to this day.

Very well, Chen Zhen fell in love with him, they have done everything they should do now, he got Chen Zhen's liking as he wished, everything seems to be perfect.

Then what?Then Raphael immediately wrote to make him realize the reality.

Anyway, cheated once, cheated again?

Shen Mingguang vacillated as he thought, he didn't know what to do.

He picked up the book of "Tagore's Poems" and the dried gardenia flower on the ground, and turned the book to the song "The Only Light".

"If everyone gets scared and leaves you—

so you,

an unfortunate man.

Just open your heart and go alone!

If no one holds a torch aloft in the stormy night—

so you,

an unfortunate man,

Let pain light the lamp in your heart,

Let it be your only light. "

Shen Mingguang caressed the word Guangming with his fingers.

His name is Mingguang, which was chosen for Chen Zhen.

Chen Zhen said that she is his light.He is afraid of the dark and wants to rely on others.

But in fact, Chen Zhen is his light.

He was looking away, when suddenly a pair of cold arms circled behind him.

Shen Mingguang froze for a second, and Chen Zhen behind him moved barefoot in front of Shen Mingguang, sat down on Shen Mingguang's lap, bent his legs, curled himself into a ball and hooked him around his neck, and sent himself to Into Shen Mingguang's arms.

Shen Mingguang quickly put down the book and supported him.Wanted to hug him, but held back.

He held back.

Chen Zhen didn't wear anything, her whole body was cold, she seemed to have just woken up, and she was still a little confused.

Chen Zhen woke up because the heat source around her was gone.He followed the smell to find it, and his face was a little unhappy.

"I woke up and you weren't here, I thought I was dreaming again." He rubbed against Shen Mingguang's heart, his voice lazily said, "You don't sleep, you are here to read my confession love poem...do you like me so much?"

Shen Mingguang froze for a moment, and only replied with one word, "En."

Chen Zhen has been very good at acting like a baby with Oran and Lilith since she was a child, and she opened her mouth to act like a baby with someone she likes: "In the future, don't sneak out when we sleep together, I'm afraid."

He took it for granted that they would sleep together in the future.After all, such an intimate thing has been done.

Shen Mingguang closed his eyes, suppressing the ups and downs of emotions.

He stroked Chen Zhen's soft hair and said, heartbroken, "We're not together every day...you also have your own life."

These words made Chen Zhen wake up immediately.

He raised his head slowly, thinking about the tone and meaning of that sentence, and looked into Shen Mingguang's eyes.

what happened?

They were entangled a few hours ago, right in front of this piano.

"What do you mean?"

Chen Zhen said with some uncertainty, "According to my understanding of human relations... I thought that if you wanted to be with me...you should have agreed to my confession. We are...together now, aren't we?"

Shen Mingguang didn't answer, he looked at Chen Zhen calmly.

His heart throbbed and ached, as if being pinched in someone's hand, kneading from side to side.

Shen Mingguang felt that he was really pitiful.He obviously loves Chen Zhen so much, but he is Fenrir, a werewolf, an existence that Chen Zhen cannot get close to.

At such a time, he could only say to Chen Zhen, "I never said we were together."

Chen Zhen's face changed suddenly.

He slowly lowered his hand around Shen Mingguang.

There is a floating dead silence in the air.

After a long time, Chen Zhen subconsciously... hugged himself helplessly... and his voice was trembling, "Why... what? Because I am... a vampire?"

Chen Zhen looked flustered for a moment, and then hurriedly said: "I said I won't suck blood casually, you believe me... If you think I'm too cold, I will... I will... I always have some Human blood, if you drink it often, I will get a little warm... Or do you think I am too old? In fact, I..."

"Chen Zhen." Shen Mingguang interrupted him, "No, not at all."

If you want blood, I can give it to you.

Body temperature is cold, I will always cover you, it will always be warm, it doesn't matter.

age?Is this important?

Shen Mingguang thought sadly.

"Why is that?" Chen Zhen looked terrified, "Don't you like me?"

Shen Mingguang said in his heart, no, I love you like crazy.

But he still pretended to be a scumbag, and said to Chen Zhen: "I told you before, I liked someone."

Chen Zhen asked confusedly: "So?"

Shen Mingguang looked deeply into Chen Zhen's eyes, looking very affectionate.

"I have loved that person for a long time, so long that I am almost numb. That person...has hurt me, and I have hurt him, and we have tortured each other...I have been convincing myself to forget him all these years, but just now I sit It was here that I realized that I would never, ever forget that person."

It's true, Shen Mingguang said in his heart, quickly find out Vidal, what I said is true, I kept my promise.

Following his words, Chen Zhen's eyes began to glow slowly.

When Shen Mingguang finished speaking, tears finally fell down.

Chen Zhen felt very strange. He didn't know whether he was pitying himself or Shen Mingguang now... Chen Zhen had an illusion in his trance that Shen Mingguang's eyes looked into his soul and sent all his affection... It seemed that the person he said lived in his past was actually him.

After all, that look is too real.

Shen Mingguang didn't dare to wipe Chen Zhen's tears.He squeezed his hands tightly and put them on the side of his legs...He told himself over and over again: Be hard, be hard.

He scolded himself and said: You are a piece of rubbish.

You can't help but go to sleep with someone else, knowing that the ending will be like this, you still have to go in and eat the bitter fruit, and now you are making each other miserable, are you satisfied Shen Mingguang?

Chen Zhen could only hold back his tears.

He knew that it was embarrassing to cry like this to others, but he couldn't help the soreness in his eyes, and the tears kept falling.

He asked Shen Mingguang in a low voice, "What about me? I thought you and I...you like me a little..."

Shen Mingguang looked into Chen Zhen's blue eyes without moving.

He gritted his teeth tightly... he couldn't say the sentence that he had planned, 'I'm just teasing you casually, don't take it seriously when you sleep as soon as you sleep'.

He said to himself: fuck off, I can't bear it, I love him.Take a step back and don't go overboard.

He is still soft-hearted.

Shen Mingguang sighed, reached out his hand to circle Chen Zhen, and leaned over to kiss the tears on his face, "Chen Zhen, shall we take our time?"

He was thinking about words indiscriminately, but he opened his mouth softly, "I said I can't forget that person, but it doesn't mean that I don't like you... I mean, we can take our time, don't be in such a hurry."

Chen Zhen had finished crying and had calmed down slowly.

He lowered his head and said, "I have never loved anyone before. You are the first one. I have only kissed you, hugged you, and been naked in front of you."

Chen Zhen paused, then raised his head again, his expression became firmer, "Shen Mingguang, do you know... I will become the king of the entire blood clan after I reach adulthood in one year... Do you find it ridiculous? Accident, right? .I...can actually be a king, but this is the fact. You may not imagine that I will act coquettishly, be shy, be at a loss, and be mentally retarded in front of you. At the headquarters...I will also slap subordinates I was beaten so badly that I vomited blood for a few days and couldn’t stand up, and I can use knives and guns... I’m not that useless, but why am I like this in front of you?”

"Chen Zhen..."

"It's because I like you, I like you so much." Chen Zhen interrupted him directly, "You are the only human being who knows that I am afraid of the dark, the other... only Elder Oran who raised me and my deacon Lilith, who reads with me, knows that I am afraid of the dark. I was also raised in the blood clan, and all the clansmen must respect me no matter what... I was educated since I was a child, and it is our creed to be loyal to my fellow clansmen and mates. We The blood is cold, but the love given is hot, we will only make a blood oath with one person in our life and complete the blood marriage."

Shen Mingguang looked at him.

"My partner must only have me in his heart, completely only me." Chen Zhen raised his hand and touched Shen Mingguang's neck, with a sour tone, "The future king of the blood clan... If his partner has someone else in his heart, you let me How do I face my own heart?"

How to face it?I don't know either.

Shen Mingguang could only continue to laugh at himself infinitely in his heart: look, look, how sad you make him.Vidal has started to pretend to be strong, what he needs now are kisses and hugs, and you keep feeding him knives, you coward.

He said in his heart that you are so pitiful, Shen Mingguang, that you dare not tell him—the person I love is always you.

He can only say like a scumbag: "I'm sorry, I can't forget that person. I loved him before, I can't forget him, never will. But... If you want, my tomorrow is yours, what do you think? Woolen cloth?"

Chen Zhen's face finally turned completely cold.

He finally asked Shen Mingguang: "Do you just want to be my lover?"

Just want to sleep?This sentence is too hurtful, Chen Zhen dare not say it.

Shen Mingguang didn't answer.

He said in his heart that I don't want to, but no matter how he looks at it now, he can't make Chen Zhen really serious about himself.

Chen Zhen is the kind of personality who will pull him to tell the world the next day...

That's the way to go.

No, and fate does not allow it.

Chen Zhen waited for a long time without answering, and he knew the answer.

He got off Shen Mingguang knowingly, and silently picked up his wet clothes and put them on.It was cold, but he didn't feel anything right now.

Shen Mingguang stared at the "Poetry Collection of Tagore" on the piano stage, and warned himself for the umpteenth time: hold back, don't feel bad, don't call him, hold on, he will leave immediately, and you will cry when you leave, Shen Mingguang.

After Chen Zhen got dressed, she turned her back to Shen Mingguang and said, "Then let's be lovers from now on."

After speaking, he left Shen Mingguang's house.