Chadan's young lady [entertainment circle]

"Don't you feel like you're suffocating like a dehydrated fish once in a while?"

"Eh?"

Rong Frame really didn't understand why he appeared here, in such a happy atmosphere around him, so he looked a little majestic from the expression, after all, his brother's words were too harsh, what is dehydrated fish?

That is to say, after his expression, Brother Xuan immediately skipped this topic and turned to talk about other things, as if he was worried that he would not like this question.

The elder brother in the Rong frame image has always been gentle and loves music. It seems that the labels and colors on his body are too obvious, thus covering up other parts that belong to ordinary people.

The lyrics and tunes of many of SHINee's songs are written by Jin Hyun. This brother is also good at arranging and composing music, and it happens to be the style that Rong Jia likes. Compared with his own main songs, he seems to prefer the unique songs of each senior , This is a huge difference that has existed since the beginning of the group positioning. Unless he is a solo, he can't change anything.

But if the aura of music is removed, I only have a very gentle concept of understanding of my brother. As for any particularly obvious habits, hobbies other than music, relatives and friends, I don’t know about these frames. It can be said that he knows relatively little among the male and idol seniors of the company.

After realizing this fact, Rong Jia was surprised, not because of his ignorance, in fact, as long as the senior's private life is not often involved in the other party's life circle, it is normal that it is not so clear.

What surprised him was that before this, he always felt that he knew what kind of person Brother Yan Xuan was. After all, just looking at it from the outside, this brother is also a more perceptive type.

Because he was too curious, Rong frame finally went back to the question at the beginning, "Why do you feel suffocated? As an artist, isn't it normal to receive attention?" This question came from seeing him swiping his INS with his mobile phone. up.

It seems that the conversation between the two of them is very boring. The brothers around them have all left. Today they came to have dinner and have fun. The group photo has not been taken yet, so there is no time to discuss some philosophical issues with them here.

"But everyone thinks that you should do well, don't you? You won't ask others like that."

"Then just keep doing it."

"But... there will always be times when you can't do well, right? You've worked hard but feel that your ability is not enough. At that time, not only can you not accept it, but everyone will also blame you."

Rong frame tilted his head and thought for a while, he always felt that what his brother said didn't mean what he said on the surface, and seemed to contain a lot of expectations, looking forward to what he could say, but he didn't understand what the other party was expecting.

So in the end, he could only express his own thoughts, "People are not omnipotent, there will always be times when they do not do well, right? Everyone should not be so harsh."

After this sentence, Yan Xuan knew that Hua Er and himself were not on the same channel at all. The core meanings of the two people's words were different. What Hua Er said was a macro concept. Everyone has advantages and disadvantages. There are things that can’t be done well. If one day the news reports that Frame’s grades in physical education are only in the middle and lower reaches, the public really won’t care too much. As we all know, that’s not something that Frame is good at.

But what he meant was that he made mistakes in the field he was originally good at, or that he did not do as well as everyone and himself expected. At that time, he would be very tormented if he was not recognized by everyone, because similarly, he did not get own approval.

Knowing that the topic should end here, unless it is fully explained, Chiu'er will not fully understand what he means, and it is impossible for him to speak so clearly in the current place with Chiu'er who is too young.

But maybe the conversation with his relatives yesterday was not very pleasant, and he was also worried about the current situation of the frame, and he still couldn't hold back his words. At that time, he even had a feeling that even if he hated him in the future, he would Desire to say.

In fact, it doesn't matter if you hate it, anyway... you may not see it often in the future.

"Then what if it's something you're good at? Studying or singing, if you don't do well one day, you'll be very sad, won't you? At that time, everyone will say some sarcastic remarks. If this situation lasts for a long time, it will be very sad. Alright."

Today was obviously a very happy day, but the two of them sat in the corner, exuding a weird atmosphere that was rarely seen on weekdays.

Rong Frame's animal intuition told him that something must have happened to his brother, and it would not be a pleasant thing, which led to all the conversations now.

It can be said that his meager opinion of his brother, even if he suffers an inner shock in other places, will probably not implicate other people. Brother Yanxuan is really gentle and outrageous, so Rong frame can only infer that maybe the incident itself It has something to do with him, that's why I remind him now in a roundabout way.

In order not to worry my brother, I should have used those answers to comfort people, but Rong frame thought for a while, and said honestly: "Although fans always brag about my singing skills, but I left the idol Halo, I don't seem to be that outstanding."

Rong frame himself only recognizes his talent, but singing skills are not equal to talent.

From the various rankings at the end of the past few years, it can be seen that everyone still recognizes his singing skills. Idol's lead singer singing skills rankings are always in the top ten. together, but he himself couldn't tell how much of it was the bonus of fame.

There are more fans, everyone praises more frequently, and there will definitely not be fewer people who believe it. No matter how his singing skills survive the silence, it is absolutely no problem. It seems that it is indeed similar to what the fans praise.

But there are too many excellent people in this circle, and Rong Jia doesn't feel that his ability has reached the peak at all, and there is still a long way to go. Even in terms of study, he has a master's degree after graduation, and after that As far as architectural design is concerned, it is really a loss if you can't produce your own design works.

"It's nothing to do well or not. I'm just improving. It's an honor for people to think that I'm good. But when they see the real me, I don't accept their criticism. It's all just them. It’s just my own cognitive error, and I can’t blame others.”

In the process of negotiating with his relatives and psychiatrists for several months, Kim Jin-hyun heard many kinds of statements, most of which were comforting, and his relatives even told his family about it. He didn't fully realize it until yesterday. , The topic of life and death is too heavy for even best friends to bear for a long time.

In the eyes of fans, he is still a person who can give them sunshine and warmth, but in fact, it is not the first day that he feels that he is not suitable to continue living in this world. He is not sure when this thought first appeared and depression It doesn't matter whether he has the disease, anyway, the longer the time, the more he feels that this is the right idea, and he doesn't want to drag the people around him into the water.

So he finally gave up talking to his relatives, and everyone’s words were similar, right? Either he said that the reason for his depression was his own personality problem, or he was just trying to persuade him to think about it, and persuade him to appreciate life. .

Most people can't understand his pain, and after no progress in treatment, his psychiatrist asked him to look at people who are worse than him, look at people who look weaker than him, I want him to use this to find the meaning of his life.

However, this is an extremely bad idea. Those who seem to be worse than him and weaker than him must be more miserable than him?Everyone thinks that as long as they have money, they will be happy, right?

Thinking about it, I should know that his psychiatrist must be amazed at why he feels pain. It’s hard to understand why he collapsed just because he couldn’t write good music that everyone likes?I really think that he is moaning for nothing, so I suggest him to look at more difficult people.

Since then, he has no expectations for a psychologist, and he doesn't even want to think about whether this is a quack doctor, and he doesn't have the mood to change another doctor, so let it be, there is no hope.

It’s just that, as discussed with everyone before, the situation that frame frame is carrying is also worrying, so he wants to remind him that he is really afraid that the cub will develop into the next him.

But I didn't expect to wait for such an answer, frame is absolutely unaware of his condition, but the content of the words seems to be purely to provide him with new ideas.

Rong frame has completely abandoned the influence of the outside world. Judging from his usual performance, you really can’t say that he doesn’t like the fans who support him, otherwise there would be no such thing as a graduation trip. He also hopes that the fans will be better, best wishes Everyone can move forward together, but the meaning in his words is very clear, he will not lose himself for others.

"Maybe if someone disappoints me, I will also be lost, but that is not the reason why I will change because of this. Then sooner or later, I will not find where I am, and I will not know how to take the next road."

Just like Rong Zhuang felt that he didn't really know Brother Congxuan that much, Jin Conxuan also felt that he had never really known Zhuang'er at this moment.

Such a calm, rational, sensible frame who can see the situation clearly is not at all the same as the youngest member of the company who used to act like a baby when he caught his brother.

"But... one day you will find that no matter how hard you work, you can't do better, right? Obviously it is something you like, and you want to be with it for the rest of your life, but there is still room for improvement Next, you just can't do better, won't it be a pity?"

This problem excludes external factors, so there is no reaction from the market and fans, but personally, I can't do better for the things I like, and it is inevitable that I will have very complicated emotions in my heart, and this emotion will eventually Where it will take you no one knows.

At this time, Rong Jia, who had been answering fluently, finally fell silent. In fact, he never assumed this possibility at all, because so far, his life has been smooth sailing, and he does not believe that his singing skills or learning will not improve at all!

But in the future, no one is sure. As long as he filters this possibility in his mind several times, he will be speechless. If this possibility is true, he will find that his mind is at a loss, except for singing and study, I can't find anything else I love.