After rebirth, I became the boss's little heart

After leaving the professor's house, the two walked along the staff building to the nearby small lake.

There are many retired old professors living in this area. Some are doing academic work at home, and some are helping their children with their children. When the weather is good on Saturday, they all take their children out for a walk in the sun. The children gather together to play games. Chasing each other, laughing loudly, Chi Xu couldn't help but stop and look sideways at his innocent, lively and carefree appearance.

"Let's sit here for a while..." Zhao Ruihuai looked at him and suggested softly.

"Ah."

Chi Xu sat peacefully on the bench by the lake, his legs stretched out, slender and straight, and the diary was pressed on his knees, and since it appeared, it has not opened a single page.

Of course he didn't need to open it. Everything on it was written by himself, not long ago.

Zhao Ruihuai suppressed his sourness and curiosity, pretended that the diary did not exist, and said casually, "It's really warm today, just like summer."

Yes, you won't feel cold in short sleeves.

Chi Xu didn't even know why his hands were so cold, like in winter, like holding a ball of snow, he suddenly wanted Zhao Ruihuai to hold him, Zhao Ruihuai's hands were always dry and warm.

This sudden idea became more and more intense in the biting cold, but Chi Xu never made any movement. He silently looked at the sparkling water on the lake and the blue sky and white clouds inside, trying to let his mind go and enjoy the joy of this moment. Tranquility, but that pale face was filled with real pain and suffering.

It turned out that no one liked him.

When these words appeared in his mind, Chi Xu could no longer restrain his tears, and the big teardrops slipped down silently, especially crystal clear under the sun.

"You, why are you crying?" Zhao Ruihuai was really confused, even a little angry, "You know what kind of person he is, and you still cry for him?!"

Chi Xu also felt ashamed when he said it. He wiped his eyes with his cuff, but the tears flowed more quickly, falling down in a string, and he couldn't wipe it clean. Chi Xu gave up, and he lowered his head , with a hoarse voice, almost pleading, "Can you please let me stay by myself for a while."

"No!" Zhao Ruihuai had already tried his best to show the generosity of a man, but Chi Xu looked like he was in pain because of a broken relationship, like a dagger that was stabbing at his heart and kept stirring, he could no longer bear it without saying a word .

He is so jealous.

Since the day when Chi Xu expressed his love to him, Chi Xu's eyes were always full of various emotions when he looked at him. Those eyes were the most beautiful love words in the world. Zhao Ruihuai heard the love words without opening his mouth.

"Anyone or thing in the world is not as important as you"

"I'm going to give you everything"

"I will always be by your side"

This made Zhao Ruihuai grow wings and fly to the clouds, feeling light and light all over, intoxicated by this dreamlike love affair.

Even if Chi Xu lost his memory because of Fu Yichen and forgot all about him, he could still take this little disturbance as a passion, and he was full of thoughts about telling him about this period of time after Chi Xu recovered his memory. happened.

Zhao Rui was born with a golden key in his arms. He is the favored son of heaven. He grew up under the wings of his parents and received higher education. He is neither arrogant nor impetuous, and is full of patience for everything. Therefore, he can always easily get what he wants. His life is smooth and smooth, and he has never had any setbacks. Even in love, he is also the one who is held in his hands. The one who loves with all his heart, he has the best of everything in the world, so why talk about jealousy?

But this time, Chi Xu's memory returned to the moment when he loved another person. As long as he thought that Chi Xu's joys and sorrows when he was young were all for another person, and that look did not belong to him alone, Zhao Ruihuai's heart would be shaken. Jealousy gnawing madly.

It was all the more humiliating and embarrassing that the people he had to envy were maggots in the gutter.

Zhao Ruihuai grabbed the diary and held it up high. The black cover was like dark clouds covering the sun, and the bright sunlight suddenly disappeared, "Touch, touch your conscience and say, how do I treat you, what do I say, You don’t believe in anything! Okay, don’t believe me, you, you want to prove it, I don’t care about work, I’ll come with you!”

If it was possible, Zhao Ruihuai really didn't want to quarrel with him, he wouldn't quarrel at all, and it would be difficult to say anything when he was excited, but if he didn't say anything, Zhao Ruihuai would be too aggrieved, he felt that he was about to vomit blood, "Then can you No, can you treat me as a person! Also consider my feelings, I am your boss anyway!"

In fact, at this point, Zhao Ruihuai was deliberately provoking. He wanted Chi Xu to fight back. Although he was also angry that Chi Xu would always fight against him, it was better than sitting here crying alone.

Let it out, and feel at ease.

He just experimented, and the personal test is effective.

Chi Xu raised his head, staring at him with red eyes, like a little rabbit caught by a hunter with long ears, lost the ability to struggle, and could only make a small voice, "Give me back..."

Zhao Ruihuai felt distressed and angry, but he couldn't just return the diary. To be honest, that would be too embarrassing. "I'll return it if you don't cry, or I'll throw it into the lake for you."

"You give it back to me!"

Seeing that he regained his energy, Zhao Ruihuai felt even more awkward, "I won't pay it back!"

Chi Xu suddenly stood up and went to grab his diary. Even though Zhao Ruihuai was fat before, he was also a nimble fat man. taller, even standing on tiptoe.

Chi Xu really forgot his sadness at this moment, he just wanted to get back the diary that hid his shameful past, he threw himself on Zhao Ruihuai, grabbed Zhao Ruihuai's sleeve, jumped up and snatched it, "Give it back to me!"

"I won't pay it back!"

Zhao Ruihuai was playing with Chi Xu, but Chi Xu was really deadly. Seeing that he couldn't touch the diary at all, he jumped up and stepped on Zhao Ruihuai's instep. Ben snatched it back, then moved away from him.

Zhao Ruihuai squatted down, pressed his toes, and gasped, "Hiss—you're crazy!"

Chi Xu stared at him indifferently, "You did it first."

"You!" Zhao Ruihuai was supposed to argue with him, but when he met those dark and indifferent pupils, he couldn't even utter a word.

Zhao Ruihuai suddenly realized that this Chi Xu in front of him was his true appearance, seeing through the cold and warm world, his heart was as tough as a rock but also hard, he was already so young, so what if he had been immersed in a more cruel society for a few years?

Zhao Ruihuai didn't think how soft and innocent he would become when he was by his side and dealt with those old fritters all day long.

So, what kind of luck did he hit to heat up this stone that had a grudge against him?

Fu Yichen and why?

The toes were not so painful, Zhao Ruihuai stood up, and asked him softly from a distance of three to five meters, "Do you still like Fu Yichen now?"

Chi Xu held the diary and shook his head. He was sober and rational. When the old professor said that Fu Yichen's attitude was disgusting, he knew that the circulation of the diary and the spread of rumors were the result of Fu Yichen's connivance and even support. It will not go to the professor.

Standing in the light, Zhao Ruihuai felt a lot better, "Then why are you crying?"

Chi Xu was silent for a long time, showing a bitter smile, "Because no one likes me, not even you like me."

Zhao Ruihuai choked, and his eyes were moist.

Angry because of jealousy, sad because of pity.

All the emotions are due to Chi Xu in front of him, Chi Xu who is not yet nineteen years old.

Zhao Ruihuai wanted to tell him that a long time ago, I knew you as you are now, and I liked you a little bit, although the liking at that time had nothing to do with feelings.

But Chi Xu didn't give him a chance to speak, "You were drunk last night and asked me why I like Fu Yichen, the answer is here."

Chi Xu pointed to the diary in his hand, suddenly raised the corner of his mouth, and threw it forcefully towards the lake.

The diary that was torn apart by him "someday in the future" fell into the lake in the breeze at this moment, like floating in the blue sky and white clouds, Chi Xu looked at the papers that were quickly soaked, with a smile on his face , "If you want to know, just watch it."

He thought that the new life and warmth brought to him by the university were all due to his own sentimentality.

It doesn't matter, he doesn't care, he has already seen the end, he gritted his teeth and survived again, he graduated smoothly, found a decent job, and there will be a very good person who likes him very much.

If you read this diary, maybe you won't like him.

In this way, no one will see it again, and those secret feelings will never become a weapon to hurt him again.

"Chi Xu..." Zhao Ruihuai murmured his name, his eyes fixed on those papers floating on the water.

No wonder the professor said that it was torn apart, not shredded.

In that case, Chi Xu couldn't bear to tear it up, but now it was thrown into the water.

Zhao Ruihuai's mind went blank, he moved his legs unconsciously, and walked down the steps step by step.

"What are you going to do?" Chi Xu's voice was not loud, but full of shock.

Zhao Ruihuai's pair of valuable leather shoes had already been soaked in the lake water. He bent down and picked up the nearest piece of paper. On his arm, he turned his head and said to Chi Xu, "Didn't you tell me to see it?"

"...can't see anything."

"Then I want to see it too." Zhao Ruihuai's gaze was firm and unshakable.

These diaries thrown into the water will become weapons to hurt Chi Xu "someday in the future".

Although Zhao Ruihuai did not witness it, he is well aware of human nature, and he can imagine what will happen to a homosexual who harassed his roommate, ridiculed, ostracized, and discriminated against. What the world despises, has become a pebble that anyone can kick at will, and the cause of all this comes from this diary.

But before it was made public, it was the only consolation in Chi Xu's hard and boring life.

Before it sins, it is happy.

This is the value of its future existence. After many years, Zhao Ruihuai will ask Chi Xu to hold these vague diaries and recall his college days. Chi Xu will not think of Fu Yichen, but those young and ignorant feelings, and writing diaries Sometimes a little ridiculously wary.

Zhao Ruihuai must not let this diary and that part of the past sink into the bottom of the water and turn into silt, then there will be a knot in his heart and Chi Xu's heart.

"You don't want me to see it again?"

"As you please." Chi Xu dropped these three words, turned and left, walking very fast, as if running away.

"Where are you going?"

"go home!"

Zhao Ruihuai made up his mind and continued to pick up those papers.

He didn't sleep well last night, and he only ate a few mouthfuls of breakfast. His body is in a sub-healthy state. The lake water is not deep but cold. It's getting colder.

Zhao Ruihuai spread the diary on the bench to dry while shivering.

Chi Xu used different pens, and the degree of blurring of the handwriting was also different. Some of them were completely unreadable, while others were vaguely legible.

——It’s going to be a holiday. I borrowed his mobile phone to call my grandpa and told him that he would not go home during the winter vacation and was going to work in a restaurant. He said that the restaurant was not suitable for me and wanted to help me find a job as a tutor. I knew he would do this Said, in fact, besides the restaurant, I also found a part-time job as a tutor. He doesn't go home during the holidays, so he should go to the restaurant where I work for dinner, right?Hope he can go.

——The restaurant work is really not suitable for me. The boss said that I can't order or push dishes to customers. I called and told him that he should be busy. I was a little impatient and didn't know what he was doing.Let the holidays be over.

—It's snowing again, but I'm not cold at all.

——I heard that his Mid-Autumn Festival is his birthday, and I should give him a gift. There are still a few months... I should owe it first. When I can make money, I will give it to him together.

——Today he treated me to beef noodles and gave me the beef in his own bowl. Dad, I suddenly miss you. How are you and mom? Take care of grandma.