one way indulgence abo

Luo Chengcheng ignored Gu Yan, and directly opened the phone book in Gu Yan's mobile phone. However, there was only his phone number in it.

However, Luo Chengcheng was not in the mood to explore Gu Yan's phone book, because he had just picked up a lot of trouble for himself.

Gu Yan closed his eyes again at some point, Luo Chengcheng patted his face: "Don't pretend to be dead, what's your driver's phone number?"

Gu Yan held Luo Chengcheng's hand, shook his head, his eyes were a little dazed.

Luo Chengcheng withdrew her hand like an electric shock: "What about the assistant?"

Gu Yan glanced at his empty hand, but didn't answer.

Luo Chengcheng turned his face to the side and said: "Is the domineering president in vain? You don't even have an assistant driver, do you still want me..."

Luo Chengcheng didn't finish the rest of the sentence. He felt that he was quite boring, and he actually tried to communicate normally with a drunk.

In the end, Luo Chengcheng helped Gu Yan up from the bench and carried him to the side of the car with difficulty.He didn't call his people over because he didn't want anyone close to the Luo family to know that he was still in touch with Gu Yan.

Gu Yan looks well-proportioned on the surface, but he is really heavy. Luo Chengcheng probably knows this better than anyone else. Gu Yan's whole body is full of tight muscles, without a trace of fat.

However, at this moment, the weight on his body is not the most terrible thing.Gu Yan was not polite to Luo Chengcheng at all, her whole body was pressed against him, her scorching breath hit the back of his neck impartially, unintentionally provoking the sensitive nerves there.

Luo Chengcheng was going crazy, he gritted his teeth and restrained the urge to throw Gu Yan on the road.

Who knows who Gu Yan got into such a mess, and in the end he was required to take over... Thinking that he did the tiring work that should have been done by his subordinates, Luo Chengcheng felt uncomfortable for a while, and violently stuffed Gu Yan into it. the back seat of the car.

Luo Chengcheng originally planned to take Gu Yan to a high-star hotel where he was a member. When the car was about to reach the hotel entrance, he suddenly turned around and drove the car directly outside the Fourth Ring Road.

He searched all the way along the dilapidated suburban streets, and finally found a small hotel that he was very satisfied with.

Entering the hotel, the waiter at the front desk was dozing off on a peeling computer chair. When he saw a guest coming, he wiped the drool from the corner of his mouth with his hand.

"Do you want to stay?" The waiter looked up and down Luo Chengcheng and Gu Yan on him with sleepy eyes. These two people were dressed in extraordinary clothes, and their identities did not match this place.

"Well, I want the cheapest room."

With the help of the waiter, Luo Chengcheng finally transported Gu Yan to the bed.

There was no window in the room, only a bowl-sized vent. The musty smell and humidity were mixed together. Luo Chengcheng had to adapt for a long time before she could barely breathe normally.

A drunk person cannot lie on his back, Luo Chengcheng stretched his muscles and bones, and turned Gu Yan's body sideways, his hands were not gentle.

Due to the friction, the hem of Gu Yan's shirt slipped out from the waistband, revealing the hideous scar on the back waist. Luo Chengcheng's original rough movements stopped, and the strength in his hands suddenly relaxed.

It was not the first time he had seen this scar, but no matter when or where he saw it, it would make him shudder.

Gu Yan said it was a fall when she was a child, which is an understatement, but Luo Chengcheng knew that something sharp must have penetrated hard and opened a big hole, so that she could be in a place with a strong self-healing ability. This irreversible mark was left on the Alpha.

Gu Yan used to not allow him to touch it every time he went to bed, even if he touched it by mistake, Gu Yan would take his hand away directly.

Luo Chengcheng touched it lightly with his fingertips, and seeing that Gu Yan didn't respond, he used his hand to measure the length, which was at least fifteen centimeters.

The tactile sensations of all kinds of scars in this world seem to be unexpectedly the same, uneven but extremely soft, implying the trauma and fragility of the past.The scar on Gu Yan's waist is no exception, very similar to the scar on Luo Chengcheng's stomach that suppresses labor pain and loneliness.

Luo Chengcheng's hands trembled.

He finally knew why Gu Yan didn't let him touch it in the first place, because even if the wound scabs, the painful memory will never disappear.

At that time, Gu Yan must have been in too much pain.

At this time, Gu Yan who was on the bed suddenly murmured something, and Luo Chengcheng suddenly realized that he actually felt sympathy, even empathy, for what happened to Gu Yan.

Luo Chengcheng hurriedly straightened up, turned around and wanted to leave, but was held by Gu Yan's hand. Because she was too anxious to stand still, Luo Chengcheng lay back on her back with an "ah", and in the next second, she was held by Gu Yan. pressed down.

"Gu Yan, you bastard, you pretend to be drunk!"

Luo Chengcheng was still in shock, subconsciously raised her fist, but stopped when she was about to touch Gu Yan's face.

He stared blankly at Gu Yan's eyes, the eye circles turned out to be reddish like he had never seen before, and the deep sadness in his eyes seemed to turn into something transparent and flow out...

Luo Chengcheng was taken aback by her own thoughts.

Gu Yan was obviously still in a state of drunkenness, but he looked at him very seriously.

Luo Chengcheng's heart missed a beat, and then missed another beat, he even forgot to push Gu Yan away.

Gu Yan tried to caress Luo Chengcheng's face, but in the end he put his hand next to Luo Chengcheng's ear, as if he was afraid of something and trying to hold back something.

"Chengcheng, don't go...don't disappear suddenly again, okay?"

Luo Chengcheng tried hard to get back the chaotic heartbeat rhythm: "Didn't you take the lead in things like disappearing?"

Talking about this to a drunk person is like playing the piano with a cow, but Luo Chengcheng couldn't help but say it.

At this moment, he was suddenly very tired of himself. He was almost like a grieving husband who talked about old sesame seeds and rotten millet. He could only add trouble to himself, without any benefit.

"Chengcheng, you must not know how much I want to look at you like this..." Gu Yan traced the outline of Luo Chengcheng's face with force, greed and restraint.

"Gu Yan, what are you talking nonsense about?"

"But I asked for all of this. I made a mistake. I was wrong." Gu Yan looked at the longing but hard-to-approach person in front of him, his voice choked up.

It was he who made a mistake. Everything he had known for more than 20 years was wrong. Just like Fang Lao once said, he was even born a mistake.But he has never regretted coming to this world, because there is only Luo Chengcheng here, and for this little bit of warmth, even if he has to be entangled in darkness first, he is willing to do so.He is still selfish in nature, because he knows very well that Luo Chengcheng would be better off without him.

The room became quiet at some point, except for the sound of each other's breathing. Luo Chengcheng was waiting for Gu Yan's words, because he suddenly became interested. What will be wrong.

After a long time, Gu Yan said: "Three years ago, it wasn't that you couldn't leave me, but that I couldn't live without you. It was the same 13 years ago..."

If these words were placed three or four years ago, Luo Chengcheng would have hugged Gu Yan excitedly, ecstatically vowing never to let go, but now his heart is full of complicated emotions.But it is undeniable that no matter whether Gu Yan is pretending or serious, these words carry so much affection that Luo Chengcheng's long-silent heart moved slightly because of it.

Unbelievable, he was once again confused by Gu Yan.

Humans are so ridiculous and pathetic. Obviously, none of them are not their own emotions, thoughts, and instincts, but none of them can be completely controlled by themselves.

Gu Yan's deep voice sounded again next to his ears: "Cheng Cheng, I love you."

These five words were inserted into the back like a charged needle, finally waking Luo Chengcheng up.He pushed Gu Yan away vigorously, and stood up defensively.

The chest was suddenly empty, and Gu Yan felt lost.

Alcohol can dull the sharp brain, he thought Luo Chengcheng didn't hear it, so he repeated it again.

"No, you don't love me!" Luo Chengcheng took a few steps back, and because the room was small, she quickly retreated to the door, "I asked you three years ago."

In the hospital three years ago, Luo Chengcheng had already asked him personally, but it turned out that he had humiliated himself. Gu Yan had no love for him at all, only hatred and teasing.

This is not the first time Gu Yan said these three words. In the Hyacinth Paradise in Country D, Gu Yan also said the same thing.But he didn't believe it, and it was impossible to believe that Gu Yan would suddenly fall in love with him in the air while he was abroad.

"Chengcheng, I love you." Gu Yan stood up staggeringly like the stubborn retort of a drunk person, but he was drunk too much at the dinner party, he was really drunk, his whole body was weak, and he could only The rest of the tone is determined and strong.

"I love you."

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Afraid of being entangled by the "spell", Luo Chengcheng fled hastily, separating Gu Yan's repeated confession and the musty and stale air of the room with a door behind him.

Those three words are not like a confession, but more like compensation.

Luo Chengcheng counted, and before he left, Gu Yan repeated it a total of nine times.

But he didn't want to give Gu Yan a tenth chance.

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Under the strange eyes of the front desk, Luo Chengcheng fled into the car.

Gu Yan's coat was left in his car, and he took it over to touch it. Gu Yan's wallet and mobile phone were indeed inside. By the way, he also found a sky blue lucky star.