those years of loving you later

I just don't know why, Fang Xu felt so flustered, that kind of flustered feeling that made him a little scared, and it came unexpectedly.

will be fine.

"Song Yuanming, please wake me up." Ji Chengyu looked at Song Yuanming in his arms and bit his lips and squeezed out a few words. The night was very dark, but if you pay attention, you can find that there is a pool of blood under Song Yuanming. The hand tightly covered Song Yuanming's chest. Even so, it still couldn't stop the blood from flowing out from between the fingers.

Song Yuanming's consciousness had already begun to slacken, Ji Chengyu chewed his tears, and called Song Yuanming again and again, just now, he should have suffered, Song Yuanming, who suffered a thousand knives, pushed himself away.

"Song Yuanming, you can't sleep, Fang Xu is still waiting for you at home."

Song Yuanming used his remaining strength to pull a wry smile, yes, Fang Xu is still at home, I haven't coaxed him well, I clearly said in the morning, let him wait for me to go home, although I don't know, did he? I heard it, but I'm going to break my promise.

Song Yuanming looked up at Ji Chengyu, "Help me give Fang Xu a message."

"No, if Song Yuanming has anything to say, go back and talk to him."

As if Song Yuanming didn't hear it, he said to himself, Ji Chengyu bit his lips tightly, he was afraid that he would cry, until the moment Song Yuanming held his hand and slowly fell down, Ji Chengyu was stunned for a second, shouted suddenly.

"Song Yuanming, you bastard, I don't care about your man, wake me up"

Sheng Wen'an who came from a distance, when they heard Ji Chengyu's heart-piercing voice, slowly stopped in place, especially Sheng Wen'an, who used to take care of him in every possible way in his eyes and taught him a lot Team Song, right in front of his eyes, left like this, but he had nothing to help him.

When Fang Xu, who was far away at home, got up, he accidentally broke Song Yuanming's cup. Fang Xu stared at the broken glass shards on the ground, and suddenly murmured: No, no.

Do you know what parting feels like?

Maybe at a certain moment, they will really connect with each other. At least, the moment before Song Yuanming closed his eyes, he wanted to go back and see Fang Xu, and tell him that it was just a misunderstanding that night. It's him, you see, he still wears the ring and necklace that Fang Xu gave him.

He wanted to buy durians for him to take back, and he wanted to take Fang Xu to play his favorite escape room. He wanted to take him to see the scenery he saw when he was a child, but he couldn't go back.

While Fang Xu was cleaning up the pieces of the cup, for some reason, tears flowed down unconsciously as he cleaned up. Fang Xu wiped the tears from his face in surprise, "Hey? Why are you crying?"

But the tears wiped more and more and couldn't stop.

The author has something to say: I'm about to finish, the knife should not be heavy

☆, farewell

Fang Xu packed his things and sat at the dining table in a daze until dawn. When the sky was already bright, the door had been quiet all night, and finally there was a knock on the door. God knows, Fang Xu almost rushed over and almost fell, but he opened the door. The door, outside the door, is not Song Yuanming, but Sheng Wen'an.

Fang Xu remembered that it was mentioned by Song Yuanming. One of his little apprentices, Sheng Wen'an, was holding a box in his arms. Fang Xu was stunned when he looked at it for the first time.

Because, that is an urn.

Fang Xu looked at Sheng Wen'an almost blankly. He didn't know Song Yuanming's occupation. To be precise, Song Yuanming never said it, nor asked himself, so he didn't know what he did, and neither did the people around him. I mentioned it, but why did it happen?

He suddenly remembered that after a certain incident, Song Yuanming put himself in his arms and said, if something happens to him one day, don't ask too much.

Withdrawing his thoughts and suppressing the tears in the corners of his eyes, Fang Xu took the urn from Sheng Wen'an's hand and smiled at Sheng Wen'an, but in Sheng Wen'an's view, he would rather his teacher "mother" could cry one game.

"That, my master's funeral, I want to help you clean up."

He remembered that the master said to take good care of the teacher's "mother", and not let the teacher's "mother" bear everything alone.

With his back to Sheng Wen'an, Fang Xu calmed down for a long time before saying, "Okay." After all, he has no identity.

After notifying Song's father, mother, and Song Yu, Fang Xu started planning Song Yuanming's funeral single-handedly. Fang Xu's calmness made Song Yu a little startled, as if he couldn't even shed tears when his grief and joy reached the extreme. that look.

Song Yuanming's funeral was finally hosted by Song Yu, and Fang Xu stood in the corner and stared at it.

The day after the funeral, Ji Chengyu, who had just been discharged from the hospital, showed up at Fang Xu's house with a durian in his hand. Sheng Wen'an happened to be there too. Sheng Wen'an stared at Ji Chengyu with a puzzled expression on his face, but Ji Chengyu's face was full of tears. Without a trace of a smile.

After handing the durian to Fang Xu, and Fang Xu turned around to put down his things, Ji Chengyu mustered up the courage to say, "At that time, Yuan Ming asked me to bring you a few words."

"What?"

Ji Chengyu didn't know why he suddenly remembered Song Yuanming's dying appearance at that time, and tears fell uncontrollably.

"He said, sorry, I couldn't bring you back your favorite food."

"He said, sorry, he promised to go back, but I didn't come back."

"He said, my parents are going to be taken care of by you."

"He said, I'm sorry, I'm going to leave you alone in this secular world."

After saying that, Ji Chengyu squatted down and began to cry, while Fang Xu, who was carrying the durian, was already crying in a mess.

Song Yuanming, you bastard, you said clearly the day you left that you wanted me to wait for you to come back. I made so many things you like to eat, but you didn't come back.

What's the use of talking so much, you should come back.

After clearing his mind, Fang Xu looked back at Ji Chengyu. Song Yuanming had an accident. Except for Song's father and Song's mother, the most sad person was Ji Chengyu. He remembered that these two were brothers since childhood. Smile "Thank you."

Thank you for bringing back Song Yuanming's words, thank you for bringing back what he wanted to bring to me, thank you.

Then there are some things, and it is time to make a decision.

The author has something to say: counting down the chapters

☆, leave

Fang Xu disappeared again.

Two years later, when everyone thought that Fang Xu might have slowly accepted it, he disappeared.

This was the most troublesome thing for Ji Chengyu today. Song Yuanming had told him before his death that he must take good care of Fang Xu, but he still lost him.

But he really can't be blamed for this. After delivering some things to Fang Xu's coffee shop that morning, Ji Chengyu went to work. Now he has randomly mixed up a position in his own company and changed his original job.

Originally, he wanted to invite his wife, friends, and Fang Xu to have a meal after get off work, but in the evening, there was no one there.

He went to ask Uncle Song and Aunt Song, Fang Xu went to them during the day, and then left a key to the old house, saying that if he wanted to come and live there, there were still Song Yuanming's things, but he took When the key went to Fang Xu's house.

There are still people, there are a few clothes left in the master bedroom, and all the rest are Song Yuanming's things. Oh, probably the only thing missing is the photo of Fang Xu and Song Yuanming.

When Ji Chengyu returned home, he rubbed his head anxiously. In the end, he had to ask his friends to help him find someone, just in case, in case there was any news.

At this moment, Fang Xu looked at Yu Yi in front of him in the hospital in City F, who looked like he wanted to kill himself but was helpless, and shrugged, "Are you sure, you won't be hospitalized, just do dialysis?"

"kindness."

"Fang Xu, do you know your current situation? If you don't pay attention, you may not be able to last for two years." For Fang Xu, Yu Yi has always hated iron for steel. As early as two and a half years ago, Fang Xu's Problems had already started to appear in the body, but at that time, he was required to treat the illness.

This guy actually blocked himself.

Now, when he came to find himself, he had already reached the point where he needed to rely on dialysis to continue his life. What did he do here?

Two years ago, it was to take care of Song's father and Song's mother.

Now, he was afraid that he would die beside Song's father and Song's mother, and the two elders couldn't stand it, so they escaped.

"It's not, what about you?"

Yu Yi sighed and prescribed medicine for Fang Xu. His girlfriend went abroad, and he happened to be alone at home, so he simply dragged Fang Xu to his home, so that he could take care of her under his nose.

Fang Xu was cooking as usual at home. Yu Yi looked at Fang Xu's back and kept wondering if he had never had the desire to continue living.

But Yu Yi knew his friend's character very well, so he kept the tacit understanding between the two without asking, until one day, Fang Xu sat at the dinner table and handed Yu Yi a will, "This, you help me keep it." good."

"...What is this, Fang Xu, you don't need..."

"Yu Yi, keep it for me. If something happens to me one day, I will take this with me and go back. The old house is left to Song Yuanming's parents. As for the coffee shop, I will give it to you. Except, it will be divided into two points every month. One of the income will be given to his parents."

"Fang Xu, you are enough..."

"Next Monday, the three years of Song Yuanming, I want to go back, and then, before I die, I won't go back."

This time, Yu Yi paused for a long time, sighed, and nodded, "I'll accompany you back."

However, Yu Yi looked at Fang Xu who was thin and out of shape in front of him, and his fingertips could not help but embedded in his palm. Everyone said that Song Yuanming loved Fang Xu badly, but why not Fang Xu?

The author has something to say: the end of the next chapter

☆、Yongjue

On this day in the third year of Song Yuanming, Ji Chengyu came only after Song's father and mother of Song came to see Song Yuanming. Fang Xu.

There is still a person standing beside Fang Xu, who carefully supports Fang Xu and looks like he really cares. Is it his new love?

"Fang Xu, where have you been this year?" Ji Chengyu said, and held Fang Xu, but this grip made Ji Chengyu feel that something was wrong, why was he so thin, and looked at Fang Xu carefully, compared to A year ago, Fang Xu lost too much weight.

Fang Xu pulled out his hand indiscriminately, and looked at Ji Chengyu with a smile, "I'm staying in another city, it's fine."

Without explaining the place, the meaning is that he doesn't want others to know. He turned his gaze away from the people around Fang Xu, and Yu Yi just paused for a moment, then said with a smile, "Hello."

At the moment when Yu Yi helped Fang Xu to leave, Ji Chengyu looked at Yu Yi cautiously behind him. What was not worth doing for Song Yuanming became relieved. Guys, you can rest assured.

It's just that Ji Chengyu didn't think that this time, it was Yongjue.

Ji Chengyu, who was working well at the company, suddenly received a call. Ji Chengyu, who always hangs up when he sees a strange call, finally got through after calling No. 12 times.

"Who?"

"I'm Yu Yi, let's talk."

Yu Yi?Ji Chengyu almost bounced off the bed. Although he heard this name for the first time two years ago, he still remembered it. After all, it was the new love of that guy Song Yuanming, who loved so much. When he received a call from Yu Yi, he was a little puzzled. What are you doing?

The place Yu Yi decided was Fang Xu's coffee shop. Yu Yi ordered a cup of black coffee that Fang Xu had always liked to drink.

When Ji Chengyu arrived, the store was rarely open for business. When he saw Yu Yi, to be honest, at that moment, he was puzzled. After all, Fang Xu didn't come back.

Until, when Yu Yi pushed the thing holding the black cloth over, Ji Chengyu was a little confused, "This is Fang Xu."

"No, it's impossible. What are you kidding? I didn't meet him a year and a half ago. Tell me, this is Fang Xu. What are you kidding?"

However, Yu Yi's performance of keeping calm but not speaking, told him in another way that this is true.

Yu Yi sorted out his mood before handing over the will, "This is what Fang Xu left before his death. The old house was left to Song Yuanming's parents. The store itself said it was for me, and I won't be able to come back later, so , I want to transfer it to you, but half of the monthly income has to be transferred to Song Yuanming's parents."

"..."

Yu Yi paused, and continued to say, "If possible, please bury him with Song Yuanming. If not, let him be closer to Song Yuanming. This is his last wish."

"Impossible, how could something happen to him, when I saw you more than a year ago, you didn't say anything."

"At that time, Fang Xu's body was so bad that it was unimaginable. I didn't know where he got the perseverance to support him for so long. Every time I saw him undergoing dialysis, I couldn't bear it. I want to persuade him not to treat him, but I can’t say it because I also want him to live.”

However, he still left.

"Ji Chengyu, long before Song Yuanming's accident, he was diagnosed with lung cancer. I don't know why he was not willing to treat him at that time, except that I sent him medicine, but he would refuse to persuade him to come back for treatment until three years ago. , When he came to me, his body was already in the terminal stage." Yu Yi burst into tears for some reason, "You all said that Song Yuanming's love for Fang Xu was miserable, but Fang Xu didn't want to treat him, and he just thought that if there was a day Going away by myself can give Song Yuanming a reason to choose again."

You said, Song Yuanming said at the time, I'm sorry, I left Fang Xu alone in this world, but Fang Xu, that idiot, wanted to push Song Yuanming away from that kind of people.

Fang Xu said that when he saw the girl next to Song Yuanming at that time, his feeling was not anger, but relief. He could accept the girl's trial, and in the future, it is possible to return to the kind of person supported by the world inside.

So one thought to guard the other person for the rest of his life, and the other thought that if he left first one day, he could have a love supported by others, but these two fools both left.

Oh, idiot.

The author has something to say: I am thinking about whether to start a side story

☆, Fanwai·They love each other, even if they don't die

After asking Uncle Song and Aunt Song for their opinions, I still buried Fang Xu and Song Yuanming together. You don’t know how I felt when the doctor Yu Yi told me that day that he was just Fang Xu’s doctor.

I originally thought that only Song Yuanming loved him that much, but at that moment I knew that I was wrong.

When I went to the old house to help pack things, I found Song Yuanming’s box with sticky notes in it. There were more things in it than before.

first slide

I was 22 years old when I met Fang Xu, and Fang Xu was 26 years old. He is my nephew's teacher. Tsk, why are you so thin?

the second one

When I saw Fang Xu for the second time, he was flirting with his ex, for some reason he looked a little irritable.

Third

I live with Fang Xu, and by saying that I am his incumbent in front of his ex, tsk, if you tell him that I also like men, will he kick me out

Fourth

I put Fang Xu to sleep... I knew I was done the moment I started

But Fang Xu told me not to care

Why does it feel like I'm a good woman who wants to be responsible and he's a scumbag?

fifth

Fang Xu disappeared

Song Yuanan told me that he had left his job and he was gone by the time I rushed home

the sixth

Fang Xu's first year away

I graduated in my senior year and got a regular job

the seventh

In the second year after Fang Xu left, I accepted the selection and took on heavier responsibilities