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On days without announcements, An Xuan quietly went back to Shenjiang to see a psychiatrist.He knew that it might be more appropriate to see a psychiatrist, but he didn't want to face the risk of being admitted to the hospital at any time, even if that risk was minimal.

The qualifications of psychiatrists vary, and not everyone is lucky enough to meet a good doctor.An Xuan's original doctor left the country shortly after he stopped taking the medicine, and lost contact with all the old patients.For patients, the only doctor they can trust may be the only one; but for doctors, they deal with too many patients, and there is no difference between patients and patients—it is just work.

The new doctor is a middle-aged man with a strong desire to express, and he likes to use words like "I think" and "I think".When An Xuan was interrupted for the third time, she chose to get up and leave.In fact, he hasn't said anything yet, but the doctor has already made many predictions about him.

He wasn't angry, he just felt a little down.There are many doctors, this one is not good, he can change to another.But An Xuan stood in the hospital corridor for a while, and finally chose to leave silently.

In fact, it has been so many years. Compared with the pain in the early years, his current ptsd symptoms are much milder.Calm down and think about it, the reason for the recurrence is also very clear.Just wait until the filming is over and leave the environment.

In fact, when he was standing on the busy street in Shenjiang, the flashback of the uninterrupted scene has been far away and faded a lot.While he still feels anxious and miserable about it, at least he's sane now.

Sobriety can sometimes be a strength.

Zheng Dajiang obviously did not recognize him.It happened more than ten years ago.His name changed, he moved, and his appearance changed over the years.The little boy named Cheng Can is dead.

The one who survived was An Xuan.

An Xuan didn't say anything about seeing a doctor.When Su Jingyao came back halfway, An Xuan behaved as usual.But Su Jingyao was always suspicious.

It is not easy to deceive Su Jingyao.As a woman, she can be overly perceptive at times.Although she didn't know about An Xuan and Zheng Dajiang, she knew that An Xuan had taken medicine for psychological reasons.It may be for this reason that she always has a tendency to overprotect An Xuan.It is precisely because of understanding this that sometimes An Xuan doesn't want to tell her what's on her mind.

Negative emotions are too heavy, just keep it to yourself.

So when Su Jingyao finished her work and was about to leave, An Xuan quietly breathed a sigh of relief.

He felt that Su Jingyao still knew something.She originally accepted a variety show from a local station for him, but later she turned it down on the excuse of being too hard.It's not easy for a young actor of An Xuan's level to make a serious announcement, but Su Jingyao gave up when she said she would give up, and she didn't show any regrets.

Although she deliberately concealed it, she always looked at An Xuan with a little worry.An Xuan didn't know how she communicated with the film crew. In short, the scene that was supposed to be filmed in April could be finished in March, because the announcement time was adjusted more tightly.

After dealing with these matters, Su Jingyao stayed with him for a few days, and then had to leave again.Xinghui recently intends to sign a few newcomers, and Zhao Xiaohui has been taking Su Jingyao around all the time - because she recognizes her work ability and wants to cultivate more.

She has been following An Xuan all these years, but she hasn't made any money, but she hasn't left any of the hardships and hardships. It can be said that the pay and rewards are completely out of proportion.Whether as a friend or a colleague, An Xuan always has a sense of guilt towards her.So no matter how he develops in the future, he always hopes that Su Jingyao can live well.

Zheng Dajiang is like a shadow, firmly entrenched there.But after a long time, it seems to gradually get used to it.There are very few opportunities for An Xuan to meet him head-on, because they are not in the same group after all.Occasionally meet in the hotel, An Xuan will choose to stay far away before being discovered.

Several times, he stared at Zheng Dajiang in the shadows, and also examined himself.He was still afraid, but that fear was not because of that person.He is also angry and disgusted.Rather than saying that he hates Zheng Dajiang, it is better to say that he hates himself more to some extent.

In the end he still chose to turn around and leave.The doctor once said that deliberate recall and confrontation would allow him to establish the correct response to the trauma.An Xuan didn't know what the correct response was.All he knew was that he didn't want to recall anything about the man.No matter the treatment, no matter what the doctor says.He would still be delusional that it never happened.

However, everything cannot be changed and cannot be repeated.It was because of his powerlessness that he felt a deeper despair.

There are many reasons, and he understands them better than anyone else.But he still couldn't restrain the pain.This is another kind of despair.

They form shadows, form abysses.He curled up in it, unable to shake it off for the rest of his life.

In such anxiety, Shen Yuanshu became a special existence.When An Xuan is with him, she can be Ming Xi.The focus of Ming Xi's life is Yue Wang.The dislocation of identity will make An Xuan temporarily forget what he was anxious about.The further the scene is filmed, the deeper the tacit understanding between the two people.Although many times, An Xuan would feel that this might be due to Shen Yuanshu's high EQ when dealing with people - as long as that person is willing, he will always make people very comfortable.

Shen Yuanshu was obviously very interested in An Xuan, but he didn't know whether it was out of politeness or self-esteem, he restrained his curiosity well.An Xuan has always been grateful for this.

In mid-March, An Xuan finally ushered in her last and most important scene - assassinating the King of Yue.

For the whole drama, this scene is very small, but for the character of Ming Xi, this scene is the final climax.He thought about it for a long time, and finally took the initiative and proposed to communicate with Shen Yuanshu in private.

At this time, he was glad that the person who cooperated was Shen Yuanshu.There are no small dramas in the starring dramas, and any of Shen Yuanshu's later dramas are listed, most of them are much more important than this assassination scene.This made him very busy-because he had to deal with many important actors.From the perspective of the play itself, An Xuan's importance is very low.

An Xuan took the initiative to communicate with him about the script for the first time, but Shen Yuanshu put on airs and gave an ambiguous response, almost writing "You have today" written on his face.The way he raised his chin always reminded An Xuan of a peacock.In the gloom, this recognition is like a cloud of out-of-place colors—outrageous and eccentric, but with a subtle joy.

Shen Yuanshu is a lovely person.An Xuan thought.This man's external personality may contain various adjectives of Su Potianji, but the word "cute" is the only one that doesn't exist.An Xuan felt that this was a bit regrettable.

Just as he expected, Shen Yuanshu's reserve only lasted for less than half a day.After the play in the evening, he took the initiative to ask An Xuan to review the script in the lobby of the hotel.At this stage of filming, Shen Yuanshu also saw An Xuan's logic in sorting out the characters.It's just his own character logic, which has always been subtle.What is King Yue's feeling for Mingxi is always a question worth thinking about.

Shen Yuanshu's acting is emotional, and what he looks like depends on his performance on the spot.Wherever the emotion can go when shooting, it will go there.When it is good, it is naturally very good, but when it is not good, the shortcomings are also obvious.The sequence of announcements and scripts is not completely consistent. Sometimes the emotions of the previous scene are still desperate, and the next scene will be full of joy.It is indeed difficult for actors who are not from a major.

This kind of tricky thing doesn't get used to overnight.Therefore, An Xuan played with him many times, and could only consider the current situation of the two of them.He is Mingxi, and the only person he knows best is himself.As for King Yue, Ming Xi was always separated from him by many things.Regardless of identity or status, there are still many limitations in the perception of each other by the characters themselves in the general environment.An Xuan could only give her own thoughts, and then let Shen Yuanshu sort out the character context of King Yue by himself.

In the end, Shen Yuanshu put down the script and pondered: "Then how does Mingxi hope that King Yue will react to the assassination?"

An Xuan thought for a while: "He expects himself to be understood. He can't say anything, but he hopes that the King of Yue can understand." If the original script is followed, the play is actually very simple. Ming Xi's assassination shocked the King of Yue.If the king of Yue can give the reaction of being betrayed, it is already at the level of performance.

In fact, An Xuan turned the logic on its head, and she was already quietly adding drama to herself.After all, according to the script after the magic reform, the character Mingxi is just an ordinary traitor who is ungrateful for profit.If Shen Yuanshu ignored him, the scene would have simply been filmed according to the original logic.

In fact, choosing to ignore it was relatively easy for Shen Yuanshu.

In the end, the two got their lines right, An Xuan didn't see Shen Yuanshu's emotion.Speaking of this matter, how to deal with it is Shen Yuanshu's business.

When returning to the room, An Xuan thought that maybe he still used Shen Yuanshu.Take advantage of that person's goodwill towards you.

In the darkness, the past began to flash back again.He finally stood up and took out a small bottle of white wine that he had bought for a long time but hadn't drank.

Smoking and drinking are not good habits.He promised Bai Qiuyun to live seriously and cherish herself.So even though he knew that alcohol could soothe his emotions to a certain extent, he still chose to restrain himself.

After filming tomorrow's scene, it will be finished.On the last day, trying to be in a better state is not considered indulgence.An Xuan drank the two taels of white wine, set the alarm clock, and fell back on the bed.

On the last day of the scene, he arrived early and started waiting early.Shen Yuanshu had a scene with Zhou Yikai this day, and the two of them filmed for a whole day.Shen Yuanshu wanted to fight with him in the scene, and there were a few scenes of pushing and shoving. In order to try to get the emotion in place, he kept filming repeatedly.Perhaps because the relationship between the two of them is delicate, Shen Yuanshu's emotions have been told by the director that they are not full enough.An Xuan watched from the side, sighing quietly.Filming is sometimes true and false, and it is not uncommon to make excuses for fake scenes.But Shen Yuanshu's blind restraint like this may not be a proper way.

It's a fake show.This thought made An Xuan feel gloomy almost instantly.

He will never forget his shock and despair when that thing actually happened.What is true and what is false.How much can a person do for so-called art?

That's not for art.Art is just an excuse.As sensitive as he is, he knew it from the very beginning.His faith and enthusiasm collapsed from that moment.

In the end, it was very late, and the scene between Zhou Yikai and Shen Yuanshu was finally over.An Xuan was yelled at by the director a few times before she came back to her senses.The shooting progress has been delayed, and everyone is unhappy about being forced to work overtime.

He glanced at Shen Yuanshu who was waiting to touch up his makeup, and silently closed his eyes.

The assassination was fake.The fake must look like the real one, because it is made for outsiders to see.But the fake is only fake, he hoped that King Yue would understand.

The record is played, and the official start.

The positioning and lines have been pondered over and over again in my heart, and everything went smoothly.Until the end, he stabbed King Yue's chest with a knife.

In King Yue's eyes, there was only a moment of shock, and then there was an instinctive counterattack.In the end, Mingxi was pierced through the chest by him and nailed to the wall.King Yue stared at him: "Even you...why?"

His expression ranged from disbelief, to extreme anger, to ruthlessness.Ming Xi's lips trembled, but she could only murmur the word Your Highness silently.He had no strength left to say a single word.He looked at King Yue with all his strength, hoping that he would understand that he was still loyal to him, even if he had to lose his life for it.

However, all he saw in the end was the man's cold and condescending face.

The blood around him cooled down, and the last light in Ming Xi's eyes went out.

King Yue looked at him indifferently until he noticed a tear slipping from the corner of Mingxi's empty eye.He seemed to reach out his hand, but in the end he didn't do anything, just let the tear slide down.

King Yue, who had always been at ease, sat down on the ground slowly.