Follow along all the way, don't ask the ending

Because the sum of solitude keeps us clinging to each other

Embrace each other's sadness even if we can't have it

We are the sum of solitude so come together

How to get rid of the ups and downs because of you

——Wu Wenfang "The Sum of Loneliness"

The third stop of the date, the restaurant.

The candlelight flickered gently, reflecting on the shiny tableware, and the aroma of creamy mushroom soup slowly drifted into his sense of smell under the stirring of the spoon in Shiho's hand.Crisp and elegant classical music rippling throughout the restaurant, creating a peaceful and beautiful atmosphere.Listening to the melody, Shiho murmured softly, "Shostakovich."

"what?"

"Oh, I mean, this piece is by Shostakovich."

He didn't answer.Zhibao admired the beautiful melody and said, "It's a piece composed by Shostakovich for a Soviet movie. However, listening to me, it feels more like a pair of lovers who are fighting each other. On the eve of the decisive battle, the girl's dress A dagger is hidden in the sleeve, and a gun is hidden in the skirt of the boy's tuxedo. After dancing to the end, goodbye is to wear different battle robes and fight for the home and country behind him. If there is such a movie , I really want to see, when they dance lightly, that kind of tragic picture must be very beautiful."

Gin's knife went awry, and accidentally slipped a cut steak. He calmly used a western knife to gently scratch the steak back to its original position.Then he lowered the knife accurately, cut the steak neatly, and exchanged it with hers.Just like eating with her to dissipate her negative emotions many years ago.She didn't resist either, and just asked:

"Western food etiquette is not about exchanging plates, is it?"

He stopped holding the knife and fork, then smiled and said:

"If you don't want it, I can change it back."

The dinner plate can be exchanged, and the memories of the past, if you don't want it, I don't know if you can exchange it.

"What if what I want is your life?" she asked.

He smiled: "You should think about it first, if I want your life, will you give it?"

She suddenly felt a little choked up, and her nose was sore. The familiar lines and scenes were so different. She blinked her watery eyes and said, "You can give... as long as Equivalent exchange, first give me your life..."

The joke at the beginning, but today, it is so sad.Gin took a tissue from the table and put it in her hand.Zhibao pushed his hand away and said, "I want to drink, do you want to accompany me?"

"Of course I'll accompany you to the end if you want to drink." He lit a cigarette casually again, remembering that smoking was banned in restaurants, so he choked it out ruthlessly.

Gin brought Zhibao to a small bar. Zhibao took a glass of Dutch gin, took a sip, and coughed unconsciously.But she didn't let go of the cup.

"Bold, remember? I told you before, if you dare to get drunk, I'll make you tremble at the sight of it."

She smiled: "Remember, haven't you already done the second half of the sentence?"

"I don't think you're scared at all."

"Probably because I know that you won't hurt me, at least until the task is completed." The alcohol slowly started to work, and Zhibao's eyes began to change from sharp to hazy, his cheeks were slightly red, and he looked like a well-cooked girl. The dried peach is as white as pink.

He asked softly in a deep voice, "Do you hate me?"

"Can you stop talking nonsense? Don't you hate me?"

"Of course..." He shook the ice cubes in the glass lightly, then stared at her and said, "You have changed."

"what?"

"You've changed," he repeated, "you're not the same as you were before."

"Of course, after leaving a black world, I will naturally be much happier and more cheerful than before."

There was a strange light in his eyes under the bangs: "Do you hate life in the organization so much?"

"If it wasn't for protecting my parents' research, I wouldn't choose to change back to Miyano Shiho. Being Haibara Ai is much happier than being Miyano Shiho. You will never experience happiness in this life." Shiho sneered, He drank one cup after another, but he didn't stop her, allowing her to be unrestrained.Fortunately, Zhibao had some sense of propriety and didn't get drunk, as if he just wanted to put himself in a state of confusion.In order to wake her up quickly, Gin carried her to the park outside the bar and put her on a bench.

"Isn't it dangerous to run outside?" She asked in a whisper.

He looked around and said, "There is no hiding place suitable for sniping around here. I am here, and the people in the temple dare not get too close." He sat next to her, and she leaned against him gently, then suddenly reached out to snatch her. Gin's cigarettes are gone: "I know smoking all the time...the quit smoking candy I bought for you, you never use..."

Did she snatch her own cigarette a long time ago?

"I used it... Sherry, are you drunk?" He raised his head to look at the quiet lake in the park, dealing with this little confusion one by one.Zhibao's voice is very sweet, affected by a small amount of alcohol, her face is still slightly red, her ice blue eyes are like pools of autumn water, shimmering, her voice is not loud, but it is just enough for him to hear, as if As if dreaming, she looked at his side face and said:

"I saw you this time, and you didn't even smile at me."

"Why not?" He clearly remembered that he pinched her neck with a smile.

"Sneer, it doesn't count."

"It's been too long since I smiled, I forgot how to smile." He had a cold face.

"In the past, you seldom smiled at others, you only smiled at me... In fact, I know that you are terrifying, cruel, and cruel. Everyone is afraid of you, as if when you appear, it means killing and execution. In fact, I am also a little scared You, but when you smile at me, I just feel so gentle, you don’t talk much, you only talk a lot when you talk to me..." She seemed to be really drunk, stretched out a finger, and poked He gently pushed the corner of his mouth, trying to push it up, but he didn't move, and let her poke him, his expression as cold as ever.

She withdrew her hand: "I know you hate me, and you know I hate you, but I really haven't had anything to do with others. I know you don't believe it, and it's useless if you believe it... Even if you are willing to treat me like you did before... I'm good, I can't be good to you, seeing you treat me well, I think of my sister, so we should hate each other and torture each other..."

She said like a tongue twister, he really couldn't understand how a scientist's brain can still speak logically and coherently under the influence of alcohol.The wind picked up, rolling away with a few sycamore leaves, looking at her open skirt, he stretched out his hand to tighten the open coat for her, when he stretched out his hand to pinch her collar, his hand stopped, He wanted to take his hand back, unwilling to give this woman half of his care.A drop of hot tears fell on the back of his hand, and he turned his head to see that she stared at him with hatred in her eyes, as if she wanted to kill him, but also seemed to be full of fragmented sadness.

Was it really her tears just now?But her expression was so calm.

He was in a daze at that moment, and unconsciously stretched out his hand to button her coat, Zhibao didn't resist in a daze, the wind was a bit cold, she shrank back and looked at him who was buttoning herself, The proud figure like a pine and cypress in the cold wind did not flinch in the slightest. I was fascinated by his strong willpower at first, but later I realized that his strong willpower can resist even the temptation of his lover, and he is rational and calm He sent himself and his sister to hell.

"Go back," he whispered.She didn't speak, he stretched out his hand to hold her hand, and she let him lead her, and walked back to the car step by step.He stretched out his arms and fastened the seat belt for her, and he heard her half-awake whispers with her eyes closed: "Lesson one, don't indulge your feelings; Lesson two, be careful of the traitors around you; Lesson three, you can't beat it." Just retreat, lesson four..."

He turned his head to look at her, and she remembered all the personal experiences he taught her since she was a child. The images of him teaching her these lessons flashed countless times in his mind like a revolving lantern, and she suddenly felt that he and she were the same. Like two whales with different frequencies from other people in the vast sea of ​​people, they have been looking for each other in the sea. There are too many languages ​​between them that only they can understand, which is a frequency that no one can interfere with.Joy, anger, sorrow, love, hatred, and hatred are all related to the other party, and they cannot be integrated into the third person.

He imprinted a kiss on her forehead.

The sum of this loneliness brought them together in an instant, even if it was short, it was enough for each other to enjoy the seven hardships of life.