[Comprehensive] When you become a native Mary Sue

Destiny is the most elusive thing, whether it is happiness or misfortune, it is in its hands.

Matsunai Ruri, who had just subsided from the high fever, sat up with difficulty, looked at the white hands spread on the quilt, and smiled weakly.

"I can't hold it any longer..." She lowered her head and muttered to herself, clutching the corner of the quilt tightly, her tears fell on the quilt, dipping into dark patterns, "Really, it's so painful."

Seeing the person she loves walking towards the cliff step by step, no one knows better than her how despicable she is as a bait.

Songnai's mother has just recovered from a serious illness. Although she is very worried about her, she doesn't have the energy to stay with her daughter all the time.There was no one else in the room, and the system didn't show up.

She struggled to get out of bed, walked to the dressing table with the furniture, and looked at the most familiar face in the mirror.

"What a beautiful face," Matsunai Ruri gently brushed the ends of her eyebrows and the corners of her eyes with her fingertips, with a sarcastic smile on her lips, "How about scratching it?"

It would be nice to scratch it, she told herself with a smile on her face, then no one would fall in love with her.

No need to bear so much guilt, no need to bear so much pain, no need to worry about how to reply Ah Guang's marriage proposal.

When she thought of the word "marriage proposal", her heart became sour and swelled, and the sweetness was mixed with melancholy that could not be ignored.

I am so, so in love with him.But how can such a despicable self be worthy of him?

"Miss Liuli—" the housekeeper's wife knocked on the door, interrupting her contemplation, "May I come in?"

"Come in," she regained her senses and put on a gentle smile, "what's the matter?"

"It's Mr. Tezuka," the housekeeper's wife stood at the door and told her hesitantly, "His elbow seems to have been seriously injured..."

Matsunai Ruri stood up suddenly, dizzy and almost fell down.

Overwhelming fear surged out, she stumbled out without saying a word.

"Mr. Jiu Mu has already gone to drive," the housekeeper's wife quickly supported her, "Miss still needs to change her clothes."

Rushing to the hospital in a hurry, her hair was disheveled and she was in a panic.

Holding the doorknob of the ward, he carefully pushed it open.

He was in tracksuit, with a bandage on his arm, and he was standing at the window watching her.

"Ah Guang," the tears couldn't stop falling, she shook her head, tried her best to raise a bright smile, choked up and called his name, "I miss you so much..."

Tezuka Kunimitsu's agent told her he would never play tennis again.

A boulder is tied to the heart, pulling the whole person into a deeper, darker abyss.

It's all my fault, me, for ruining the ones I love.

"I miss you too." He raised the corners of his mouth, and his brown-black eyes were full of tender love.

"I'm sorry, Ah Guang, I'm sorry..." She looked at him and repeated these words over and over again.

"Don't cry, Liuli," Tezuka hugged her tightly and comforted her softly, "It's not your fault."

"What if, it's really my fault?" Tears dripped down his neck, and each drop carried her confession.

"I don't blame you, and I will never blame you." Tezuka leaned his face against the top of her head, and patted her back with his right hand to comfort her.

His embrace was still warm, but Matsunai Ruri felt cold all over, as if she wanted to draw strength, she hugged his waist tightly.

Why should family members and lovers bear the sins of oneself?

Such a despicable me, such a cowardly me, what qualifications do I have to live in this world?

The boulder in my heart is getting heavier, and when I close my eyes, there is boundless darkness.

So be it, so be it.

Stop trying to break free, give up struggling.

Matsunai Ruri let go of her hand, wiped away her tears, and smiled brighter than ever.

"You look the best when you smile." Tezuka wiped the tear stains on her chin with his uninjured right hand, his brows and eyes were gentle.

"Such a smile is only for you to see." She solemnly promised.

The sadder in the heart, but the brighter the smile.

"It will be Christmas Eve in three days," he took her hand, "let's go on a date."

"Is the gift ready?" Matsunai Liuli tilted her head and acted like a baby at him, "Don't let me be satisfied and come out."

"I give myself to you." Tezuka wrapped his arms around her waist with a smile in his eyes.

"There is no better gift than this..." She raised her face, obviously wanting to laugh, but couldn't hold back her tears.

"I'm obviously very happy..." Ruri Matsuuchi held Tezuka Kunimitsu's face and smiled with tears in her eyes, "Very, very happy..."

"I'm very happy too," he lowered his head and kissed the corners of her reddened eyes, "very, very happy..."

"So, you have to be good." She rubbed his face and told him with crooked eyes.

"do not get sick."

"Don't be picky eaters."

"do not be unhappy."

"Don't mess around regardless of your body."

"Eat on time, sleep on time, rest on time."

"I see." Tezuka strengthened his hand around her waist, and looked at her steadily, "You have to watch me carefully."

Such Matsunai Liuli made him feel uneasy.

"Looking at me like this, I'll be shy." She took off the other's glasses and kissed his eyes.

Looking at me like this, I will be reluctant.

"Ah Guang," Matsunai Liuli quietly wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes, "don't make me worry."

"It's done," she pouted, and stretched out her little finger to hook Tezuka's little finger to stamp, "Don't worry me."

"I won't worry you anymore." He was even more uneasy, but looking at Liuli with a bright smile, he still held back his doubts.

"You are not in good health, go back quickly." Seeing her pale face, Tezuka frowned distressedly.

"I'm leaving, don't miss me." She put her arms around his neck and tiptoed to kiss his lips.

I want to say goodbye to you, Guang.

Don't worry me, Hikari.

You have to forgive me, Guang.

Goodbye, Guang.

"I'm leaving!" Matsuuchi Ruri pushed Tezuka Kunimitsu away and fled.

"It can be said that the success rate of a marriage proposal at Christmas is higher than that at the station. At that time, Liuli will agree."

Trying his best to ignore his anxiety, he touched his lips, remembering the agreement between the two, and couldn't help but smile.

Matsunai Ruri ran to the dead corner of the stairs in one breath, sat on the steps without hesitation, buried her head in her knees and wept silently.

Occasionally someone sees it and ignores it. In the hospital where life comes and goes, the most indispensable thing is tears.

"Cheer up, Liuli," the elusive system appeared in front of her eyes, "Mom is cured, you should be happy."

She raised her face and glanced at it expressionlessly, her eyes filled with unresolved melancholy.

The perfect Matsunai Ruri is not worthy of tears at all.The system approached her, wanting to reach out.

Realizing that it wanted to wipe away her tears, Matsunai Ruri turned her head and silently refused.

"I promise," Xiaozhen's smile twisted for a moment and then recovered quickly, touching her cheek with a cold hand, her tone was as sweet as ever: "It will be over soon."

"Be obedient, Liuli," it coaxed, "be patient for a while..."

Its eyes were dark, and it said softly, "I don't like you being coveted either. Those people, you should all be damned..."

She was immersed in her own sorrow and did not hear the words.

"As long as you're good," it tried to make her laugh, "nothing will hurt you."

"Will he die?" She stared blankly at the corner and asked it softly.

The system's eyes are dim, but the smile is very standard, "Xiao Zhen doesn't know."

"Also..." Matsunai Liuli sneered and stopped talking.

Why didn't that man named Tezuka Kunimitsu die?It pulled a malicious smile and muttered to itself.

"Can you disappear for three days?" She wiped the tears from her face and looked straight at it.

"Are you afraid that I will interrupt your date? Xiaozhen won't..." It joked.

"Please, disappear for three days." She looked at it with unusually firm eyes, not a request, but a notification.

Not wanting to hesitate for a few seconds with the system that had a deadlocked relationship, she agreed to her request.

In the early morning of December 24, it snowed in Tokyo.

"Christmas Eve and snow, it's really romantic." Matsuuchi's mother looked out the window and sighed with a smile.

"It's a vast expanse of whiteness, it's really clean." She looked over and saw that the courtyard was covered in a thick layer of snow, and it was pure white from a distance.

Ruri Matsuuchi drove to a villa in the suburbs of Tokyo.

The suicide note to his family has been written, but he doesn't know what to say to Tezuka Kunimitsu.She hesitated for a long time before spreading out the paper on the table.

Write down his name stroke by stroke, every stroke is full of her love.

The sentence "Please forget me" was not finished, but it was soaked in tears and became a ball.

I don't want him to forget me at all, I want to be the most important person in his life...

I want to marry him in a white wedding dress, have children with him, and live my whole life...

Unexpectedly, I remembered what I said in a joke before, no matter whether it is a boy or a girl, it must be beautiful if the eyes are like his.

Gentle and peaceful, only the brown-black phoenix eyes reflect the reflection of the pine glass.

Tears dripped down on the paper, wetting his name too.

The love is separated by mountains and seas, and the mountains and seas are not flat.

Matsuuchi Ruri tightly clenched the pen in her hand, crying bitterly in the deserted villa.

Don't cry, she laughed at her cowardice, how many more tears will you shed?The weak have nothing to do but cry.

Go to hell, you are dead, and everyone can be happy.

When the knife was inserted into her heart, she could even feel how the warm and viscous blood poured out of her body and wet the cloth on her chest.It hurts, but not as much as the pain in my heart.

Bai Xue fluttered down one after another, and there was an illusion that the sins were covered up in a trance.

That's great, she smiled, everyone is safe, and I can also be relieved.

Consciousness began to become blurred, and the eyes were hazy.Father, mother, Kashu, and Tezuka appeared in front of her one after another.

At the last moment of memory, he held out his hand to her with his back to the setting sun.Her short tea-brown hair had a warm luster, her white shirt was dyed orange, and her eyes were gentle and tender.

He raised the corners of his lips, "Liuli, let's go home."

OK, she smiled wryly, and let's go home.

In the blur, someone is reciting poems,

"I use all the ways in the world

fall back

from where to where to go as

the moon returns to the center of the lake

wild cranes running towards idle clouds

i step into you

then

A heavy snow will seal everyone's mouth"

"This is a letter from my sister," Jiashu handed him a piece of letter paper after the funeral.

In just a few days, he has matured and looked like a qualified adult.

Tezuka unfolded the crumpled letter paper, "Tezuka Kunimitsu" was soaked, and the only sentence left was so blurred that it was hard to see what was written.

"I will never forget you..." After reading it for a long time, he carefully folded the letter paper and put it in his breast pocket, smiling sadly and indulgently, "I promised you, in this life, Tezuka Kunimitsu will only love you Matsunai Ruri."

The author has something to say: I tried my best to write Matsuuchi Ruri's previous life after holding back for two days.

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