[Comprehensive] Fruits of Love and Sin

Why did things become like this?

The young female head of the house looked at the phone, and she couldn't help muttering to herself.

Even though he was still smiling, and even though he still had a cheerful and happy look on his face, his heart was actually broken.

Even so, smile.

Since there is nothing left, I must act like I don't care at the end.

It's ridiculous, but there's no other way.

This was the last thing the man—the guy she called her brother—taught her.

The ability to persevere is only because of obsession.

When exactly...

She also learned to smile and give others harm and disaster?

"I'm sorry Judaime, this incident was an accident, no one thought of it..."

The same young mafia godfather fell into silence without saying a word. He heard Lin Sheng speak briskly on the other end of the phone.

"Gang-jun, are you angry?" She propped her chin and tilted her head, she looked a little childish, and her tone was light and cheerful, "Gang-jun, are you angry with me?"

Sawada Tsunayoshi didn't say anything.

He was just speechless and hung up the phone.

what is he thinking...

Lin Sheng guessed and knew it very well, but she didn't feel that she had done anything wrong at all.

He will be my sun,

But he can't be my sun forever.

Her world had gotten so bad, and so had she.Except for utilization and calculation, there seems to be no other possibility between them.

But it does not matter--

The young female head of the house stood up. In front of her was a huge floor-to-ceiling window. The sunlight passed through the glass, dancing happily on her face and hair. The Siamese cat obsessively bit her. trousers.She slightly helped the suit jacket on her shoulders, squatted down and hugged the Siamese cat, the ponytail tied behind her head was swaying, without hair covering her, her smooth and full forehead and delicate facial features were fully exposed.

The young female Patriarch narrowed her eyes slightly, probably because she felt that the sun was too harsh.

Now that we have come to this point, there is no turning back.

Igarashi Taichi walked in.Lin Sheng heard the voice, but she didn't turn around.The blond-haired young man tidied up the messy things on the desk in an orderly manner. He muttered and complained: "There is no need to leave this kind of thing to me."

"But Taiyi is the only one I can trust."

Even though he knew that this was not what the other party mentioned, Lin Sheng still replied, "I have no one else I can trust, and the only one by my side is Taiyi."

"so--"

The young man bent his lips and smiled, his expression was not as impatient as in his tone, "Can you only rely on me now?"

As if he was missing something, he said, "It's rare to hear you say such things."

After all, from childhood to adulthood, what Ome repeated was nothing more than

——"Don't leave my side, Taichi won't leave me, right?" Such words.

She is like an addiction to dependence, envious of everyone who treats her a little bit better, and has never asked anyone for help, let alone relying on the other party.

Cautious, suspicious, paranoid.

The bad habits developed since she was a child made her not trust anyone at all.

So that when he suddenly asked him for help, Igarashi Taiyi agreed without even hesitation.

"It's not impossible to say that."

Unexpectedly, Lin Sheng actually agreed with his statement.

Her back was still facing the door, and the sun shone on her delicate face more and more lovely.

It's just that the slightly pale complexion washed out the light taste.

——She seemed to have this pale and sickly look every time she appeared in front of him.

When facing him sideways, the slender and slightly curly eyelashes trembled slightly with the frequency of speaking, like the quivering wingtips of a butterfly before dying. The light golden fluff on the face can be seen so close that it is even clear.

"Sometimes it just sucks that someone like me is alive."

She said so, and then laughed: "But I don't want to die no matter what—even when there is nothing in this world that I can miss, I never want to die in the past."

Igarashi Taichi's face darkened.

"I always thought Taiyi was my sun."

"The Taiyi who has always lived differently from me, the Taiyi who has been growing freely, has become an adult who can be relied on, the Taiyi who is enough to be proud of..."

"I'm so jealous... As long as I want these things, I feel jealous and crazy."

"But if that person is Taichi—there will be no more messy thoughts."

"Maybe it's a bit strange to say that, but I can't lie to Taiyi anyway, as long as I think that I might hurt Taiyi, I feel so sad that I would rather die."

Lin Sheng smiled at him: "Would it make me appear too hypocritical if I say that?"

It is undoubtedly extremely hypocritical to say these words hypocritically after using them and dragging the bamboo horse into the quagmire.

——But, she did think so in her heart.

The expression on the face of the blond-haired young man gradually restrained: "So...you have found your real sun."

When he said this, he even had a slight malicious sarcasm that he didn't even know.

But now Lin Sheng will not be injured anyway.

In the past, Taiyi would always point out everything about her mercilessly and seemingly innocently—the blackened part.But now, no matter how satirized by him, it is impossible to feel sad.

It's already so bad that it's impossible to feel sad again.

If sadness means being sorry for herself, then now, among the parts she cares about, there is not even a little bit of her own.

So, it is impossible to feel sad.

"It's not..." She even laughed: "I like him, I love him, I would rather burn everything I have to chase him... But he is not my belief, let alone my salvation."

"He is my sin..."

The blond young man couldn't understand, and he frowned slightly.

"That's probably why I can't be with him forever."

Lin Sheng said: "He is so good - at least for me. As long as I am with him, I will always feel dirty as hell, and I will always feel that I deserve to go to hell. He is my sun , but he will not illuminate me... he will only burn me, with his tenderness and tolerance, he will burn me mercilessly, making me feel even more ashamed."

"This is not a way of getting along between lovers. Instead, it's like a robber rescued by a witch. You know... This kind of gentleness can't persuade him to change back to the right way. It can only make him more crazy and paranoid."

"Until one day, I was burned to the bone by this undeserved desire."

"so--"

"I'm looking forward to seeing his unbearable side, whether it's angry at me, possessive, or even jealousy or other emotions—" Lin Sheng was silent for a while, "I would have such a desire , In fact, it has already been broken, right?"

"Sometimes I think, if this goes on, what will I do?"

After a pause, she said, "So I have to leave him—so—even if I don't want to, I can't let my evil thoughts continue to grow."

"If you continue to let it go like this, I will, I will, I will,"

She smiled wryly: "I will do things that I regret and hate having to be human again."

Since I was a child, I have been forcibly indoctrinated into the concept of selfishness, for my own benefit, and not hesitate to hurt others. Now, it is difficult to correct it.

It's like Tai Yi who was forcibly dragged into the water by her after she had already escaped.

No matter how much you cry about your misfortune, there is no way to change the fact that you really wanted to take advantage of the other party at the beginning.

But there is still a way.

【"Sometimes, I envy Taiyi's courage... because I don't have that kind of thing. I just love him, love him with all my strength... I just understand the fact of 'love him', that's all. I don't have any plans for the future of how to go in the future, and now when I mention this matter, I feel at a loss..."

"Because I love him so much, I don't know what to do."]

That's what she told Tai Yi back then.

Now, when I understand the 'fact that I love him', I naturally understand what to do next.

Her life... has no value worth existing.

No?

The young female Patriarch laughed. It was the first time she smiled sincerely in front of the other party, but it was because of this kind of thing. It sounded really ridiculous.

The blond young man's fingertips trembled, and he slowly frowned, only feeling a little dazed.

Why on earth...became like this...?

Looking at his best friend with a brisk smile, he couldn't help but recall the soul that was about to be dyed black when he saw through the skin when they first met.

Greed, jealousy, ambition.

None of these themes that revolve around the eldest lady are good things.

Whether it is the elder brother who wants to use her marriage to gain benefits, or the father who is wholeheartedly on guard against the sexual abuse of his children, or even the mother who only cares about her own enjoyment and takes pains to maintain her young and beautiful appearance——

No one really cared about her.

The expression she showed wasn't bored and about to die, but... numb.

It seems that I have long been used to the numbness of all this.

But what she didn't even care about was that she kept saying that she should go to hell for her sins, but her eyes were purer than anyone else's.

As innocent as a newborn baby.

Witnessing all this, the Siamese cat was silent for a while, then bit hard on Lin Sheng's fingertip that was stroking it.

Beads of blood slowly condensed from the fingertips, and the turbid blood looked more exciting than gems.

[You should die. ] Mr. Cat still said so.

The author has something to say:

Thank you Wanwan baby for mine~

For you every day... Cough, although it's not everyday, I will give you something.

I'm sorry, Mina [Dogeza]

I went to Liver Onmyoji.

#On my daily life with African foxes#

A face, you useless trash!

You were so energetic when you were fighting against Hongye and Ibaraki, you thought you were a noble European fox

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