[Comprehensive British and American] Devil's Handbook

My name is Albus Percival Wulfric Brian Dumbledore, and I think most wizards would know me if my name were spoken, although for what they call the greatest wizard of the century The White Wizard I beg to differ, but it sure made my reputation run deep.

When I was young, I was like most children, lively, selfish, always thinking about all kinds of big ambitions, and then I met Gellert at that young age.

When I first met Gellert, he had beautiful blond hair. He was much more handsome than me. At that time, I wanted to agree to any proposal from him. I knew that he was expelled from Durmstrang for studying various black arts. You must know that Durmstrang itself is a school notorious for black magic, but this kind of emotion of wanting to get close has not dissipated for one reason or another. At that time, there seemed to be nothing else in my mind

I spend my days with him planning to build the biggest wizarding organization ever, and I think it's been the best time of my life so far.

However, these are only the beginning of the tragedy.

My brother, Aberforth, he is a good man, at least he was better than me then, he came home from Hogwarts, only to find that I did not take good care of my sister Ariana, yes, at that time my eyes Only Gellert can be seen here, but no one else can be seen.

But at that time, I didn't understand those reasons. I only saw Aberforth who resisted me inexplicably. We quarreled and pulled out the wand. Oh, now I can't remember what I wanted Why did he point his wand at his brother.

I might have been secretly happy at the time, because Gellert was very angry because of this incident and for me. He probably thought Aberforth was a stupid kid. After all, we were still working on that grand plan at that time. So things turned sour again into three wands facing each other.

If that was the case, then things weren't too bad, but the problem is that in the melee between the three of us, I injured the innocent Ariana, my sister, and she died because of it.

After that, I parted ways with Gellert. Maybe I still have some nostalgia, but the gap in my heart cannot be ignored, after all, she is my sister.

However, what I didn't expect was that after this incident, we went further and further in the opposite direction.

I was invited back to teach at Hogwarts. At that time, I wanted to reconcile with Aberforth. He has never been able to forgive himself, and certainly not to forgive me. This has always been a stick in my heart. Thorn, it hasn't been better for decades.

Before I had been a teacher for a few years, rumors about Gellert had spread from Germany to England, but unfortunately it was not a good rumor.

Dark Lord, this is the title given to him by others, it represents his strength and brilliant name that everyone fears.

When I met Gellert again, he was still so handsome, but I have lost my former glory, at least for a long time, I have not cared about appearance.

Ignoring the discomfort, I told myself that I was here to stop Gellert, I was here to defeat the Dark Lord, but in the end, Gellert confessed to me!

At that time, I didn't know what I was thinking. Anyway, I failed to achieve my original goal in the end. I just thought that it was not just my wishful thinking.

I didn’t know until I came back that Gellert had rumored that he had been defeated by me and was now imprisoned in the tallest tower in Nurmengard. I don’t know why he made this address so clear, whether he Waiting for me to find him.

Because of defeating Gellert, I gained a preliminary reputation, but I have never been to Germany again. After these few incidents, too many branches have arisen in the original relationship, and the relationship between us is completely in two directions. , I can never go back to the past, even if I am obsessed with it in my heart, I try my best to control myself not to think about it, I am afraid that another tragedy like Arianna will usher in.

I have taught countless students since then, but in terms of impressiveness, probably no one can compare with Tom Riddle, not even Melia.

But compared to his intelligence and leadership, his personality is the focus of my attention. In order to let him go on the right path—at least the right path I think—I sacrificed most of my spare time teaching him, even Including Christmas holidays, Easter holidays, and summer vacations, I invited Tom to spend time with me. During that time, I even took care of him as my son. In fact, I think there is nothing wrong with it. After all, it is impossible for me to have offspring in my life. .

But maybe I was doomed to spend this life alone, and what happened later broke my extravagant hope again. Aberforth once said to me: You don’t regard Tom as your son or someone you can trust, you don’t If you give him trust, how can you blame others for staying away?

Yes, I have no way to accuse others of staying away, not to mention, I actively pushed them away, and even pushed them away.

And the bigger mistake caused by this mistake is Qiuli and Harry. When Tom's daughter died, I couldn't help thinking of Ariana. I thought Qiuli was dead, so I lived in the next ten years In pain, and because of this, I let Harry's childhood also live in pain.

In my plan, Harry bears a heavy responsibility. I have to hide him until the final battle. Harry, who owns the Dark Lord's soul piece, is probably the Dark Lord's biggest nemesis.

But I didn't expect that the real Dark Lord had lost his mind, but the former Tom came back and disrupted my plan from the very beginning. Although I didn't want to admit it, I felt relieved at a certain moment. Is it a kind of compensation for my past mistakes?

Maybe I'm old and confused, I didn't talk to Tom in a peaceful way, but adopted the most violent and rude way. At that time, I had already violated the principle of love, so I was surrounded by Qiu Li's father in the end. I didn't have too many negative emotions like anger and so on. Maybe I should have thought of all kinds of consequences when I made a move.

It's just that I didn't expect a few Muggles to be so powerful. I didn't lose to the Dark Lord, but I failed at this time when I didn't expect it at all.

Not only failed, but also lost the position of Headmaster of Hogwarts.

Of course I've never left Hogwarts, I'm already familiar with it, and if I try to hide, no one can find me.

Here I can even know all kinds of news from the outside world, including those Muggles who are the Dark Lord's people, including that Qiu Li is actually the Dark Lord's daughter, and blame him for never knowing the name of the Dark Lord's dead daughter, including Snape became interim headmaster.

When I learned that the Dark Lord's daughter was not actually dead, one of the stones in my heart was let go. Maybe this can't cover up my mistakes, but killing someone unintentionally is always different from hurting someone unintentionally.

After grasping the outside situation, I found Harry. I knew that I shouldn't disturb Harry's life anymore, but I thought this was the last time. It was just a letter, and there would be no danger.

But I didn't wait for Snape, what I waited for was the scene where Harry was isolated, bullied and attacked.

This seems to have nothing to do with me, but I know better than anyone else that this is all caused by me. Whether it is the reputation of the savior or the occurrence of this incident, my responsibility is inevitable.

Looking at Harry lying pale on the hospital wing, I finally decided to let go.

Why bother, I want to save the wizarding world, but these things are all caused by myself. If I want to make up for my mistakes, it depends on whether others can make up for it.

Tom has gone to the United States now, he is no longer crazy and no longer harms the world, so why do I have to die because of his past mistakes?

Speaking of mistakes, I am afraid that I am the one who made the most mistakes. Now that everyone has resumed their lives, I am the only one holding on to it.

When I saw Tom again, he looked the same as when he first had Qiu Li. We didn't have any horrific battles like ordinary people imagined. I didn't even fight.

Of course, he didn’t hurt me either. He sent me to Germany. I saw Gellert after many years. He is already an old man like me. The first sentence he said made me feel mixed: After so many years Waiting for you.

In fact, I also know that Gellert has been waiting for me, willing to give up his rights and influence, just to fulfill my wish that sounds great, looks good, but is actually extremely stupid.

Maybe I will never return to England in my life. I will be here to atone for my past mistakes. For me, even if I can't leave here for the rest of my life, as long as I am with Gellert, it is not difficult.

The author has something to say: Regarding Dumbledore, he is a homosexual in the original book, which was admitted by JK Rowling, the original author of Harry Potter, so there is no change here~(つд?)