[Comprehensive] Be a good person from now on

Emiya Kiritsugu's short life so far is actually very sad and pitiful.

In the beginning, Emiya Kiritsugu lived in seclusion with his father on a small island, and the living environment was already so isolated from the world. Kiritsugu spent a carefree and happy time here in his youth.

The only period of the purest happiness in his life also ends here.

The father studies the dead disciples, the girls who are as important as sisters, and the gentle and good-tempered villagers... overnight, with the boundless karma under the moonlight, they all came into the eyes of the young Emiya Kiritsugu.

The girl who was more important than her family pleaded painfully covered in blood, and the boy who was pleaded chose to escape.

Facing the girl named "Xia Lei", what lingers in the hearts of young people is the most hazy and pure beautiful feeling called first love.

How to get him to send the blade of the dagger into the chest of the girl he likes the most.

can't -

Even if I was begged with a piercing voice that seemed to tear my throat, I couldn't do it——

So he stepped back, turned around, and desperately suggested that there must be a way——

But maybe the seed called "regret" was planted at that time...

At the moment when the whole village was destroyed, the thought of "if I did it at that time, nothing would happen later" must have existed.

Natalia Kaminski, this indifferent woman is indeed the savior in the boy's imagination, but he is the only one who really saved her.

Then shot and killed his own father with horrific calm.

Or it can be said that since his father told the truth in an understatement and without guilt, the existence named father has died.

——This is the culprit.

This is no longer his father, this is the culprit who caused the death of the whole village.

He was taken away from the island by a woman named Natalia, and he lived with her since then, and began to learn the skills of killing and hone his ability to become a "hunter" like her. This is Emiya Kiritsugu life in youth.

It is obvious that the two parties acquiesce in the relationship similar to the relationship between the helper and the master-employer, and in a few years, a relationship similar to "relatives" has also been derived.

...No, that woman and Kiritsugu had already acquiesced in a certain corner of their hearts.

The relationship between "mother" and "son" is the same, even if neither of them will admit it, but this warm family relationship does exist.

but……

"But I still chose to kill her without hesitation— together with a plane with [-] ghouls, they used surface-to-air missiles to shoot down the passenger plane of my adoptive mother. Among them and my only adoptive mother, I chose the former."

Xia Chao in white lit a cigarette and held it in his mouth, and slowly exhaled a puff of smoke ring.

She leaned against the door frame with calm eyes, neither disgust nor pity, Irisviel carefully looked at her husband's stiff and silent back in the room, sitting alone among a pile of books, looking lonely.

Emiya Kiritsugu was forced to sit in the room, "History of World Civilization", "General History of the World", "A Brief History of Humanity", "Social Psychology", "Capital", "Principles of Economics"... Countless thick books were piled up in his Around him, there are all kinds of human, social, psychological, etc., as well as the painstakingly compiled works of great thinkers in modern times, all of which are placed within his reach.

"Any book is fine, just read it—you haven't calmed down to take a good look at this world, have you? This world you curse and look forward to, whether human beings or society or the world, this experience Having lived countless times in a world of pain and war, you have feelings of pain and curse in your heart, and what you see in your eyes is always the shadow corner of this world, right?"

Compared with his previous attitude, Xia Chao's tone and expression at this moment can almost be said to be gentle.

Irisviel was puzzled by her attitude, Xia Chao looked at her sideways and smiled.

"You don't need to look at me like that, Emiya Kiritsugu... just take a look at his heart and you will know that for the sake of ideals and correctness, he killed his father and adoptive mother, and since then he has saved the world with a desperate and desperate heart. His savior will drag this world into the abyss sooner or later."

Xia Chao flicked the cigarette ash lightly with his slender fingers.

"No, saying that the savior is actually a bit of a compliment—your husband is actually only seeking self-salvation from the beginning to the end, and then he gave himself a fair reason, and because his wife is a man-made, pure like It is a blank sheet of artificial man who has no knowledge of this world, so he instills in you his desire, his pain, and all his knowledge of this world, making you feel that "Kiritsugu's wish is painful but Undoubtedly true'; he made himself a loyal companion."

Even if he could see hope, he would despair.

Even with my beloved wife and daughter by my side, I still feel the pain on my own.

The peace that Emiya Kiritsugu is looking forward to is a "quiet habitat". In a sense, isn't it the self-salvation he himself is looking forward to?

What happiness would make him feel was a betrayal of his past, a betrayal of those he had killed, but Emiya Kiritsugu did not have the courage and state of mind to bear the countless lives that died at his own hands.

I thought I had taken on the sins of the world, but in fact I just found a high-sounding reason for my escaping heart.

The essence of Emiya Kiritsugu is still facing the choice to be that poor boy who dared not kill his own Ome and turned around and ran away.

"Tsk, how should I put it... It's not like I haven't met a guy with a personality like Emiya Kiritsugu. If you give me time to break it back, I can break it back anyway, but I don't think this 'me' right now Being able to exist in this world for too long is the most troublesome thing."

"...Then what should we do now?"

Irisviel bit her lip and looked at Xia Chao helplessly.

The woman in white turned her head and looked at her seriously with a brisk smile: "Then it's up to you."

"...Me?" The silver-haired, red-eyed woman was startled when she heard this.

Irisviel is an artificial human, doomed to die from the moment of creation as a lesser Holy Grail artificial human, all her knowledge and cognition comes from the theory instilled in her by Einzbern and Emiya Kiritsugu The part that was shown to her after appearing, so her first reaction to what other people told her was not whether what the other person said was right or not, but whether she could do it herself, whether it was done correctly or not.

"This world is beautiful, Irisviel—even without the correction and judgment of the 'savior', without the guidance of gods, this world is beautiful enough."

Xia Chao squinted his eyes, his voice and expression were filled with sincere joy.

"Self-repair and correction, this is the ability of human beings that has been proven countless times in history; let's use an analogy: the Black Death took tens of millions of lives, and God regards it as a punishment from God, a demon Treat this as a game; those dead souls can only linger on the ground... and 'I', as a bystander, made a difference in this choice."

"Either take in these undead, or watch them quietly without taking any measures; I who chose to take in the undead became a demon king or something similar; and now I am in front of you, and I have no choice but to save them. "

"...Why did you choose to carry the soul of the dead and become the Demon King?"

Irisviel asked suspiciously.

Xia Chao smiled lightly.

"The things I see are different, Irisviel; this is actually similar to Kiritsugu. I, the Demon King, see the darkness of this world and the despair of not being saved by humans abandoned by the gods; so I will choose Accept, choose tolerance, and choose to become the only king of these lonely souls to bear all this instead of the gods."

"And what I see in front of you is the future created by those who survived."

"Because after the Black Death was a turning point in European history, the intensification of the conflict between the rich and the poor, the decline of religious status, the Renaissance, the transformation and development of medical methods..."

That long and tragic death brought about great changes in the world.

Just as war advances technology at the same time, where there is a decline, there must be a rise.

Bai Xiachao has hopes and expectations for everything in the world, even if human beings themselves are finally ushered in destruction, in her opinion, as long as it is "necessary", it is "must exist".

But for the devil, the change only needs to stay at the moment of destruction.

So she would ignore the evil, and choose to ignore the sin that was right next to her; not only that, but she also looked forward to the moment when Emiya Kiritsugu received the Holy Grail to make a wish with great interest.

"Enoshima Dunko should also stay away from her—it's the little girl who sang with me just now, as a way to reorganize Kiritsugu's three views, it's okay to let her mix in for a while, if there is no despair, there is no hope... I kind of like the tone of it, oh, but it's going to be bad over time."

Bai Xiachao touched his pockets, and handed a few small exquisite talismans to Irisviel: "The devil's 'I' is abducted from nowhere. It is a super-high school-level despair with superb brainwashing ability. If you encounter despair and teach it, remember to leave it. She stays away or."

After hesitating for less than a second, Irisviel accepted the small gift.

The self in the state of the devil seems to want to try to see which one will win when the evil of this world in the Holy Grail and the despair of the super high school level meet?

...I have to say it's really a bad hobby.

Bai Xiachao curled his lips, but he didn't intend to stop another evil taste that fits his identity as a demon king.

"...Then what should I do?"

"It's very simple."

Xia Chao chuckled.

"Let him look up at the part of the world he has saved—and see the beauty and hope."

The author has something to say: the feeling of being stuffed with a mouthful of chicken soup for no reason...

Maybe this is the so-called boss of the healing department [smile]

small theater:

In order to take care of the atmosphere, Xia Chao didn't leave homework.

Kiritsugu Papa: ... At the moment when there was no homework, I already felt hope after despair.

Then shredded papa was beaten to death by winky (no)

PS: To keep the homework, I actually want to keep the May [-]rd Simulation and Hengshui papers...

After Lan, I took a look at the title of this article and didn't do it.