your time

The sky wants to be clear.

Waking up in the middle of the night, Tan Luyu threw off the quilt and took a deep breath, carrying the unique damp smell of the seaside.

The sound of waves beating faintly came from outside the window, and with the smell of sweat in the bedding, she carefully recalled the past event that happened seven or eight years ago in a trance in her dream just now.

Tan Luyu suddenly discovered that, except for the white shirt and a pair of frayed jeans that he was wearing when she was young, she seemed to not even remember his appearance clearly.

Stepping on slippers, he walked to the desk, turned on the computer with one hand, and pulled out the rubber band that was clipped in the bookmark with the other hand, picked up the long hair that was bleached and dyed blue behind him, tied it in a random ball, and picked up the glass beside him to drink. A full cup of cold water was opened, and then I sat down.

She has been working on this big thesis for half a year, typing and revising the densely packed English words. It was almost finished last month, but due to some reasons, she couldn't make up her mind.

Tan Luyu leaned over and took out the metal cigarette case on the edge of the pillow, took out one and held it in his mouth, but did not light it.

Taking a deep puff of an unlit cigarette, without the cover of a sponge filter, the dry and strong smell of tobacco rushed straight into her nostrils, and she blinked the wetness from her eyes, staring at the dazzling white light of the computer in front of her with complicated eyes.This big thesis is one of her preparations for returning to China, but now she is hesitant.

In a flash, the dream appeared in her mind again. She was standing on the curb with people coming and going, tiptoeing and using her cheek to rub the stubble on the chin of the person in front of her. Reluctantly, with a shake of his hand, he pressed the backspace key with his fingertips and directly deleted a large section of the conclusion just written.After realizing what she had done just now, Tan Luyu twitched the corner of her mouth, spat in her heart, and pushed down the screen of the notebook, making a "pop" sound.

The thick dark flower curtains separated the morning light outside the window. She drank the cool white water in the cup in one gulp, got up slowly, and moved her limbs that had been stiff and numb after sitting for three hours.

Tan Luyu rubbed and pressed the stiff back of her neck with her right hand, and walked to the bathroom to take a shower. The cold water poured down her head, which made her tremble all over. She frantically turned the heat in the opposite direction, and wiped her face with warm water. , Only then did I feel a trace of anger.

He took a bath towel and draped it over his body, and sat cross-legged on the carpet in front of the TV in the living room.With an unlit cigarette between her fingers, she stretched her arms lazily and hooked the lighter thrown on the table. She pulled the trigger and printed the cigarette but didn't smoke it. The past and reality are intertwined and confused in a trance while drifting away.

With her elbows against the edge of the glass table, she picked up the courier bag thrown aside and slowly opened it. A box of discs fell out of it. She squinted her eyes and looked at the words on the case, but she gave up because of the dim light in the room.He stuffed the disc into the DVD player casually, then got up and wandered to the kitchen to look for food.

Tan Luyu froze for a moment when he heard the Chinese reading from the TV, and sat down on the sofa with a piece of bread in his mouth.

Thinking of the gift my friend Jiang Shuyan mentioned on the phone in a mysterious tone half a month ago, and calling every day after sending it to ask if she had received it was this movie, Tan Luyu felt a little powerless, but seeing The male protagonist's face is good enough to be eye-catching, and he looked at it seriously.

120 minutes is considered long. When Tan Luyu came back to her senses, the credits at the end of the movie had passed halfway through. She silently picked up the bread that had fallen on the sofa and ate a couple of bites. Her cheeks were moist when she touched her fingertips. With a daze on her face, she grabbed her cell phone and dialed Jiang Shuyan's number.

"Hey my dear~ Did you get my gift?" Jiang Shuyan on the other end of the phone said while pinching her throat.

Tan Luyu couldn't help but rolled her eyes: "Speak well."

"You haven't seen it yet!"

"Why, is there anything special?" Tan Luyu unconsciously stroked the frosted particles of the disc shell with her fingers, and said casually, "It's worth your special post."

"Hi, this is Wuli Jiayu's screen debut! He was also nominated for Best Newcomer at the China Film Awards before. Although he didn't win the award, it's still very good." Jiang Shuyan's voice on the other end of the phone floated quickly. , like a deeply poisoned fan girl, talking endlessly about Amway's idol.

"Nonsense," she snorted coldly, "You gave up on Amway half a year ago and I fell into the trap."

"Hee hee hee... Luyu, did you not read it, you, you should take a look first."

Tan Luyu's heart skipped a beat at her friend's faltering remarks. Holding her mobile phone in one hand, she opened the floor-to-ceiling curtains in the living room with a "swipe". He raised his hand to cover it in front of his eyes, and squinted at the shell that was just thrown on the corner of the sofa.

When her eyes were refocused, looking at the eye-catching familiar name on the cover, the weeds in her heart began to grow wildly as if they had finally absorbed nourishment after many years.

Emotions also seem to be scratched by the rapidly growing branches and leaves, itching and pain, I can't tell.

"Hello? Luyu, are you still listening?"

......"

She came back and said, "Well, I'm here."

The tone is calm.

"..."

I couldn't hear what the other side was saying, so I responded casually, my eyes were distracted by the sunlight outside the window, and my eyes hurt.

I don't know when the chatter on the other side subsided, and I couldn't help but recall the dream in the early morning.

That white shirt has clean eyebrows.

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In the medical school where autumn is becoming more and more intense, apart from the falling leaves, there are students in a hurry everywhere, with different hair colors and accents, the only similarity is the thick black under the eyes.

Carefully closing the heavy oak door behind him, Tan Luyu, who had just faced the mentor's anger directly, let out a long sigh of relief.

Slightly relaxing her stiff back, a gust of autumn wind made her shrink her neck subconsciously.Squinting his eyes, he looked at the approaching figure in front of him, and quickly made a gesture of silence in front of his mouth before he opened his mouth.

The visitor looked at her with raised eyebrows inexplicably, Tan Luyu didn't bother to give an explanation, and quickly stepped forward, pulled up his sleeves and walked towards the stairwell.

After the dark wooden door could no longer be seen, Tan Luyu stopped, observed the expressions of the people behind her, and reassured when she saw that there seemed to be something urgent.

"...Today may not be a suitable day for talking about serious business." Tan Luyu frowned, and it took her a long time to say this.

Shen Jingchuan looked at the annoyed woman in front of him with a funny face, shrugged his shoulders, and didn't answer.

"..."

Tan Luyu really couldn't think of any reason to prevent him from watching the professor who was like a fire-breathing dragon, and she was the one who lit the fire.

Simply sighed, and said frankly: "Okay, okay, I'm afraid you will be burned when you go in."

"..." Shen Jingchuan froze for a moment, and immediately realized, "What good thing have you done?"

"Well... I unilaterally announced a decision to him, and the professor probably didn't agree with it... So," she raised her finger and pointed in the direction she just walked, "'Bang!' The volcano erupted." She said with both hands It also waved randomly in the air, simulating the action of magma ejection.

"..."

Shen Jingchuan burst out laughing.

"..."

Tan Luyu was expressionless.

Shen Jingchuan laughed so hard that she couldn't straighten her waist. She covered her stomach with one hand and pointed at her. Tan Luyu thought to herself, "This is my senior brother, or my teacher. I can't beat you. If you beat me, no one will clean up the mess." The urge to go up.

"...If you keep laughing, tomorrow you will receive harassing letters in your mailbox from all over the world." Tan Luyu said slowly, "I promise."

"..."

Shen Jingchuan restrained himself a little bit, but the corners of his mouth still couldn't help but upturned, and was interrupted by Tan Luyu just as he was about to speak.

"Take you to dinner." He squinted at him, "Don't talk, I'm afraid I'll go back on my word."

"...Then I'll eat expensive ones."

"It's ok, you won't return the set of pathological diagrams you lent me last time."

Shen Jingchuan was not angry when he was choked for a while, he stepped forward and walked beside Tan Luyu, tilting his head to look at her.

"what happened?"

"I think," he thought for a moment, "that you're in a good mood today?"

Tan Luyu was taken aback by his question, and was thinking about how to answer when she heard the people around her speak.

"Shall we go to the Chinese restaurant near the school? It feels pretty good."

Turning his head to look at him, Shen Jingchuan, who was concentrating on tapping on his mobile phone to make restaurant reservations, didn't notice it.

"This may be the last meal I treat you here, Mr. Shen."

Tan Luyu walked forward on her own, not noticing that the eyes of the people beside her had shifted from their mobile phones to her side face.

"I'm going back to my country, the kind to settle down."

She stood still and looked at him, with emotions all over her face.

Since Shen Jingchuan knew her, it was the first time that he saw Tan Luyu smiling so relaxed, as if a tired traveler had finally reached the destination and threw away all the burdens in one go.

His eyes were soft: "Have you thought about it?"

"Yeah!" She nodded heavily, "I've been willful for too long, and I forgot that puberty is over long ago."

Shen Jingchuan couldn't help laughing when he heard the words, and rubbed the top of her hair with his big hands regardless of the struggle of the person in front of him.

"So because of this incident, you made us Peter Pan want to knock the roof off?"

Tan Luyu's tutor, Professor Daniel, is old but has a naughty personality. He is nicknamed "Peter Pan" by the students.

"I turned down the offer the professor gave me." She spread her hands, "And said that I would go back to China to work on the front line. The professor thought I was crazy."

She is the youngest student under the professor, and she has always been favored. Since she started writing her graduation thesis, the professor has already started all kinds of strong words to ask her to stay with her and do scientific research. Even her graduation thesis is not too harsh. Although she was beaten back several times, it was much better than her senior brothers and sisters.

"That's over, it seems that I won't be able to eat this meal."

Tan Luyu raised her eyebrows, her eyes were threatening.

"I may not be able to help you, little junior sister." Shen Jingchuan expressed helplessness.

"Because I don't want you to go either."

Seeing that the person in front of you was sick with a straight face, Shen Jingchuan put away his faint smile.

"There are many ways to grow up, and you don't have to force yourself to face it. If you cling to the past, it only proves that you haven't come out of the past."

"Don't look back, go forward, look up."

Tan Luyu looked at Shen Jingchuan who had a rare serious expression, and couldn't help but become serious.

"I never pushed myself."

"what?"

There seemed to be a flash of light in her slightly narrowed eyes, and Shen Jingchuan on the side seemed to be caught by the flash, and for some reason she suddenly became flustered.

I only heard Tan Luyu's clear voice: "I will not look back, let alone live in the past. Every step I take is moving forward, towards the direction I want to go."

"Because someone is so stupid that he doesn't want me to embarrass himself."

Suddenly, she smiled, her deep black eyes shining brightly.

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