[Comprehensive horror] I am convinced of this system task

As he said, if the triangular head appeared in Silent Hill as a symbol of "judgment", the person he wants to judge is of course me.

Logically, there is no problem at all, but if you want to accept it, it is another matter.

If you follow this brain circuit and go around in Silent Hill for such a big circle, and finally look back, to get out of this broken place, the last thing that needs to be conquered is... myself?

In this way, I thought I was more like a big boss before, and it was really not an illusion.

This idea is also completely in line with the setting of Silent Hill.

——There is a Silent Hill in everyone's heart, and the horrible monsters that appear in it are just a portrayal of the depths of the heart.

Therefore, the biggest enemy, as it should be, is yourself.

Maybe it was because I finally showed an expression of enlightenment, and the system also smiled: "You finally understand?"

"Probably." I lowered my eyes.

I have been trying to find a way to help the triangle head out of his predicament, but unexpectedly, the solution lies with me.This makes me feel a little sorry for the triangle head.

However, now that you know the method, you should do it next.

But, what do I have to face about myself...how should I face it?

If it's just talking, you can say whatever you want.But I can't do that, it would be extremely irresponsible to me and to Triangle.

"I have to face, my last fear?..." I whispered, not like asking the system, but more like talking to myself.

"Ah, that's right." The system seemed to have discovered this, so he wasn't answering me, but just pushing the boat along. "Actually, didn't you already know it?"

Myself……

Maybe, it really is.

I buried my face in the palm of my hand to hide myself. The dark scene is more suitable for thinking and talking to myself.

Yes, there are some things, didn't I already know?

Not only was it never said.I kept running away, even I couldn't believe it myself.Every time I have to think about such a problem, I deliberately shift my attention to other things.Because of all kinds of things before, and the "fear" of the church, I have not been able to face it head-on.

The result is that the triangle head has been restrained unconsciously for so long.

Now is the time to solve this problem.

"Then... when should I go?" I raised my face and looked at the system.

Anyway, this is the last time.I think there should be some sense of ritual.

However, as before, the system easily read my thoughts: "As long as you want, any time."

"I'll go now."

I quickly gave him an answer, without any preparation or mental preparation at all.I am afraid that I will suddenly be afraid, and then regret it.

The system smiled at me again.He took two steps to the side, and let out the door that he had been blocking behind just now.As I approached to open the door, he patted me on the back again, as if to relax me.

"I'll wait for you here."

I didn't speak, just nodded.

I put my hand on the doorknob and hesitated before entering the room that would almost be my home in Silent Hill.

Now I feel much more relaxed than I thought.Not the kind of nervousness that is going to lie.

Indeed...not a lie.

I should have recognized these things long ago.

I opened the door.Even without me calling Triangle Head up, he didn't know when he had already woken up.

Only then did I feel that I was a little ashamed of the triangle head because I slipped out without saying a word.But even if he woke up and found that I was not there, he didn't come to look for me, but sat quietly by the bed as before and waited for me to come back.

I hesitated and sat on the edge of the bed.I knew he wouldn't be mad at me, and that made me feel even worse.

Why there is such a reaction, I obviously already know.

"Are you awake?" I calmed down and asked him.Maybe because he felt that the place where I was sitting was a little far away from him, the triangle head reached out and put his arm around my shoulder, making me squeeze towards him.

My shoulders are against his, which is...not bad.

"Well, there is something I want to tell you." I turned to look at his pyramid-shaped iron head.

It doesn't make me feel cold at all.

I licked my lips, feeling a little sick at the dead skin rising from them.I tried my best to make this conversation a little easier, so I said in a brisk tone: "Let me tell you, I seldom talk so seriously, so you have to listen carefully. Otherwise I... I won't talk anymore It's the second time."

If he doesn't respond, that's the default.

I took a deep breath before continuing: "During this time, you have been helping me. Although I don't know why, thank you very much. Really, I don't know how many times I have died without you."

I thought it would be less obtrusive to start with such shallow things.But in fact, it had the opposite effect, and the atmosphere became even more embarrassing.

"Okay, fuck it, I'll be straight, I fucking like you."

After saying these words, it seemed that something, something that had been stuck in my throat, had been broken.

What happened next was out of my control at all, it was like turning on a switch, wanting to tell him everything I thought, what I experienced and thought about in Silent Hill.

"I admit that I approached you at the beginning just to attack you, because I wanted to get out of this broken place. I hate Silent Hill, the monsters here, the church, and even the thick fog here, but... I actually I don't hate you, it's... strange, isn't it?"

I bowed my head and smiled a little embarrassedly.This is not only the first time I have spoken out, but also the first time I have truly faced my true thoughts.

I didn't want to admit this before, and even kept repeating to myself that I endured the humiliation in order to complete the task.

However, the process was not as frustrating as I thought.

To be honest, I like it very much, I like to be able to lie on the same bed and fall asleep after fighting side by side.

It's not him who has been bound, or rather, not only him.

I used the identity of "homophobia" to imprison myself. In the final analysis, I locked myself in my memories, and I will never get out, and I don't want to go out.

It was his relief now, and mine at the same time.The thread extending from the depths of my mind in Silent Hill has already tied me and Triangle Head tightly together.

Inseparable, and getting closer.

"I've been stuck in my past... what happened in the orphanage, what happened in the hospital, I can't forget it, and I can't let it go. So they reappeared, turned into fat people and so on The monster came to torture me." I pointed to my chest, and I could easily touch the rapid beating under it with my fingertips, "What has trapped me has always been this Silent Hill here.

"There are so many things I want to run away from, that... I run away from my feelings."

I looked up, even if I was still a little embarrassed, I wasn't going to keep my head buried.

I feel like an idiot, but I don't mind being an idiot at all now.

"That's it, whether you accept it or not, I'll just finish it. Sometimes I feel that it's no big deal if I can't get out. The real world is worth my nostalgia. It's better to stay here with you, attack It doesn’t seem to make any difference if you don’t use strategy, because I already like you, and I’ve slept with you anyway, so it’s useless to regret it now.”

I personally feel that the words are quite domineering, but the tone is getting weaker and weaker, which is a bit unworthy of the content.

I'm really not very good at speaking, my mouth is relatively stupid, so I can't tell what it feels like to hear such a lot of nonsense.I looked at him worriedly, wondering what his reaction would be next.

I guess he couldn't digest so much for a while, but after a short while, he raised his hand, as if he wanted to touch my head like before.

I lowered my head and showed him the top of my head, I don't care about messed up hair or anything like that.I admit, I don't hate the feeling of being touched on the head by him at all, and the feeling of hugging him, even if I have sex with him, I don't hate it at all.

But before his fingers touched me, he suddenly began to convulse violently.

I was taken aback and didn't know what was going on with this sudden turn of events.The triangle head was twitching all over his body, his fists clenched tightly, no matter what he could do, he couldn't let go, as if he was suffering from great pain.

I recall that he had reacted like this once again.

The one time I accidentally touched the nail inside his helmet after killing the Hunter.

But I'm sure I never met him this time.What exactly caused his pain?

"What's the matter with you?" I grabbed his arm, even though he almost lost control of my hand, I still held his hand persistently, so that he could feel that I was by his side , "Can I help you, please... I want to help you..."

Seeing him like this breaks my heart.But the more confused the mind, the more unable to think of a solution, at this moment——

"Jingle--"

I heard the sound of something hitting, and before I could find the source of the sound, it was exactly the same sound again.

"Jingle--"

I lowered my head to look, and saw two long nails that were so rusty that they couldn't see their color, they fell at my feet.

Looking up, it seems that the pain of the triangular head has eased a little.He supported his huge metal head with his hands, and those shockingly long iron nails were falling out of his helmet one by one, hitting the floor tiles, making a crisp sound in the silent room. sound.

The author has something to say: I'm sorry I'm finally back... I had a bad cold a few days ago QAQ reminds everyone to pay attention to your health again! !

Good night~