Personality was once a disqualification in the world[Comprehensive]

Osamu Dazai and the Dark Ages-3

The nightmares became more and more frequent.Mochizuki Tsushima could hardly tell if the world he was in was real or just a lucid dream.

Green eyes are erratic.

"Hello! Have we met in a bookstore?" asked the dark-haired young man named Taki Fumura.He had a pretty face, with gleaming green eyes, and an ugly scar on his forehead.

Tsushima Mochizuki flinched.

"Ah... ah." He uttered meaningless words.

Tsushima Mochizuki often goes to a place called [Island Bookstore], which has the most books in Yokohama.While there, he often ran into this young man named Shenmura Taki.The other party's smile is quite shy, and he looks like a very easy-going young man.

But Tsushima Mochizuki was very afraid of him.That kind of fear goes deep into the bone marrow, as if it is rooted in the depths of the soul.

He moved away tremblingly.

"Wait a minute, please! I want to ask who wrote the disqualification in the world you read last time?" Fukamura Taki shouted.His hand hit the back of Tsushima Mochizuki's hand, and then grabbed his wrist tightly.

Taki Fukamura loves literature.

And... this boy really looks like Nakajima from the orphanage.

Tsushima Mochizuki was about to collapse in almost a second.He jerked his wrist away and ran forward.

"sorry, I do not know!"

He didn't know how long he ran and how much time passed.He didn't stop until Tsushima Mochizuki was almost out of breath.He stood on the bank of the river, and the afterglow of the setting sun fell on him.

This evening he went to work at Lupin's Bar.

"You won't deceive other people's feelings, right?" He was referring to the daughter of the Yamazaki family, Motoko Yamazaki.

"No way." Osamu Dazai looked at his beautiful hands, "How can being together willingly be called cheating?"

He fiddled with his mobile phone, "Ah, Miss Motoko invited me to spend the night at her house today."

"Then you don't want to touch others." Ango Sakaguchi, a member of the intelligence department with a good-looking skin, sighed, "Why do I think you established a relationship with him because of malicious intentions?"

"If Oda Saku was here, he would definitely give you a lecture."

"Hey. No way."

"Today! If you don't get drunk, you won't go home!

Ango Sakaguchi said: "Who wants to get drunk with you? I have to go back to work. Who told you to squeeze our intelligence department one by one? Do you know how many people there are in our intelligence department? Almost all the jobs are mine. I'm doing it!"

Dazai Osamu pretended to cry, "Ango suddenly became very irritable. Sure enough! It must have been invaded by some aliens."

Tsushima Mochizuki delivered the wine ordered by the guest to that table.He didn't expect that the guest was Taki Fumura who had been separated not long ago.

green eyes.

Green eyes and moonlight.Heart is flustered.

"Hello, I don't quite understand why you are so afraid of me?" People are always curious.Fukamura Taki seemed to smell some secret, like a cat following the smell.

But for Mochizuki Tsushima, he is a beast.

He put down his glass and ran.

"Hey, Mochizuki-kun, who is that?" Osamu Dazai asked.

Tsushima Mochizuki shook his head, "I don't know him."

"It feels like a pervert."

"Please don't make such personal attacks, Dazai." Ango Sakaguchi frowned.

"I can see people's eyes very accurately!" Osamu Dazai gave himself a thumbs up.His brown eyes reflected the boy's pale, thin face.

Like a layer of powder.

[Osamu Dazai says:]

"Thanks for the hospitality," I said to the woman.Women are all liquids, whether it is breasts and buttocks full of fat, they will become strange shapes during the process of making love.

Their voices are also very strange.

The so-called sex education of the pervert leader is simply a tormenting thing.

Motoko Yamazaki pulled off his jacket from the side and put it on.

What a shameless woman.

The lady from the Yamazaki family brushed her black hair away from her ears with fingers that were still slightly stained with ink, and she said: "I feel that Dazai-kun is unexpectedly resistant to such things as love and love... Ah, please don't love me so much, It's my first time too."

Combination of virgin-male and virgin-female.

It's funny.

I was bored watching this woman sitting in front of the mirror and taking care of herself, those slender hair, red skin... The woman's body exudes a smell like a rotten peach, which attracts perverts.

It is seven o'clock in the morning.

"Hmm... I don't want to go to work." I lay down on the tatami, "Anyway, Zhong will take care of it by himself."

"If you abandon your companion at will, you will be approached by Mr. Nakahara." Yamazaki Motoko gathered up her long black hair and tied it high on her head.

"It doesn't matter."

I asked about the smell in the room.The fishy smell of turbid liquid.

Why do men bond with women?

Why do men have to bond with women?

I haven't found an answer to this question yet.

There was also a call from Batong in my mobile phone. After thinking about it, I happily added his phone number to the blacklist.

The new black trench coat was neatly folded aside, as were the pants, and so were the socks.The tops of the black leather shoes were polished to a shiny shine.

I didn't expect it to be a high-end leather shoe...

I remembered that Zhongye's salary card is still here. Next time... just go to the hat shop and order a hundred high-end hats and throw them away for fun!

That's it!

Motoko Yamazaki left.

I broke out in a cold sweat after she left.

Women are horrible.Women are really the most terrifying existence in the world. It's really frightening... Is the world creating women to suppress men?

Not feeling happy at all.

Only pain.Only pain.

I was completely defeated by shame.

It's so strange, I was the one who clearly proposed to do-love, and in the end it was also me who was afraid.

This must be because of shame.

……bath.

I have to take a shower.

I smell bad all over my body.

The pervert leader called me and asked me if I wanted to eat red bean rice.

Has he not counted in his mind?Even if you want to eat red bean rice, it must be made by Odasaku himself.

"Mochizuki-kun... I'm lost. There's an ugly park nearby. Come and find me quickly." He said words that made it impossible for people to get effective information.I sat on a park bench and waited quietly.

He didn't come even after dark.

Is it because the stench on my body has spread thousands of meters away?

Women are horrible creatures.

Bad, bad, bad, bad!If you mean this...doesn't it mean that no one passing by will ask about this smell?

I didn't expect the world to have such a keen sense of smell.Obviously the dog didn't make any strange movements when it walked past me.

When did people's sense of smell overshadow animals?Or... the smell on my body is something that only the human species can smell.

"Hey, have you smelled it?" I asked a cat passing by here.It is very similar to the cat in the lupine bar that everyone affectionately calls [teacher].

Ah...too much, it actually rolled its eyes at me.

It gets dark very early in winter.Early in the morning, the street lights began to flicker.

I've decided to take the black little man's phone off the blacklist.And started a video call.

"Bastard Dazai! Where have you been?"

After I sighed with emotion, "If Zhongyuan is so irritable every day, he will never grow taller", Zhongyuan Zhong also calmed down instead.

"The leader said that he arranged a special mission for you yesterday, is it true?" Nakahara asked.

"Oh, that's true. I said it was a special mission, so how could Zhong Ye know about it. I'm super dedicated."

"Hello? Hello? The signal here is not good! Zhong-Ye-you-heard-see-did you-?"

"Dead mackerel, someone walked behind you, you dead liar!" Nakahara Chuya immediately turned off the video call after the explosion on the spot.

"Mochizuki-kun, why didn't you come here until now, I'm so hungry."

lie.I'm actually a person who doesn't quite understand what hunger is.It's not that I don't have to worry about food and clothing, but that my stomach seems to have lost the feeling of hunger.

Mochizuki-kun seemed to be running over.

"Sorry... the description is too vague, I ran to the west before."

Oh, as expected of the stupid Mochizuki-kun.The park I'm in is on the east side of the whole avenue.

"I'm so hungry...I'm starving to death."

"Buy something to eat on the way...I have to work until twelve o'clock in the evening today."

"Do you work overtime?"

"Tomorrow is Christmas, everyone is a little excited, and there will naturally be more guests."

"So it's Christmas tomorrow."

"Will Mrs. Santa come down the chimney and put presents in my stocking?"

"Uh... probably not."

I guess Mochizuki-kun must be thinking about whether to pretend to be a Christmas teacher.

"Don't sneak into my room and put Chuya's hat in."

Mochizuki-kun's face was full of embarrassment.

"Why did you put Mr. Zhongyuan's hat? This is considered stealing."

"How can something between minors be called stealing! It's clearly borrowing."

"Eh."

On the way back, I made unreasonable demands all the way.

"I want to eat canned crab meat from the Qingkou group." The Qingkou group is a mafia organization in Yokohama, and their sideline is selling canned seafood.

"I want to go to the seven hot springs in Hakone." Hakone is on the other side of Kanagawa.

……

"I want to buy that super cool "Complete Suicide Manual"." Every time I mention this wish, Mochizuki-kun always rejects it.

But Mochizuki-kun just kept nodding.No matter what he heard, he nodded mechanically.

"Mochizuki-kun, do you have a fever today?" I suspect something is wrong with his brain.

Mochizuki-kun raised his face and looked at me, with black circles around his eyes.

He seemed to have not slept well for a long time.

Nightmares kill people.

"I'm just a little uncomfortable."

It's not just a little uncomfortable, it's downright uncomfortable.

There were large patches of blood in his dark eyes, and it seemed that he would fall to the ground in a second.

"Ann~ Dreams and reality are opposite. You see, I have dreamed so many times that I was killed by Chuya, and I am still alive and well."

Mochizuki-kun turned his head away, and said in a low voice, "That's all words to lie to children."

"Hey, Dazai." He called out.

"What would you do if someone closest to you died suddenly?"

"Hey—it's a pity that all my family members died when I was 11 years old." I said it, but it was the truth.

Mochizuki-kun looked a little at a loss, "Hold, sorry... I forgot."

No one will know this matter better than him.The villain realized this when he moved into my house.

What a fool... Sure enough, a fool.

"Then, who died? If you don't have a designated target, you can't even speak nonsense." Things that are fabricated out of thin air cannot be taken seriously at all.Those who show concern across the Internet are a bunch of liars. They don't know your real situation, but they must use their own experience to apply to others.

Hate!Hate!Nasty guys!

Mochizuki-kun showed the hesitation and hesitation of the world.

"I didn't force you to say it." I stared at his profile.

To be honest, I also guessed who it was.The answer to the riddle is written exactly after the question.

Mochizuki-kun showed a very tired expression.

Ah... I also want to be able to show this expression so easily.But it will definitely be chewed by others.

Who the hell labeled me a comedian.ha?me?Is it actually me?Real comedians don't label themselves.

Unqualified!undone!

"I always thought that the teacher was somewhere... living somewhere. But I think she might not be there anymore." Mochizuki-kun began to cry to me, the second closest person.Actually, I think that teacher should also be dead.Although there is no evidence... ah, intuition.

That teacher is definitely dead.Even if it is not dead, it is not far from death.

"Why do you think so?"

Showed a pitiful expression.

"Because I've been having dreams about my teacher's death recently."

"Actually, I don't understand why Mochizuki-kun has such a deep obsession with the teacher." What is the story, is there any story that connects you and her who are inseparable?Always teacher teacher teacher teacher teacher - what kind of story is it?

Hey, tell me.

As a human being, I too have that vulgar curiosity.

"I do not know."

No matter what you ask, you will prevaricate with an "I don't know".

Is shame stopping you from speaking the truth?

"Oh, all right then."

"Then will Santa Claus come tomorrow for Christmas?"

"Ah...probably, yes."

……

Santa won't come.

I still vaguely remember the candy stuffed into the big socks I hung last year.But if you get a toothache after eating...then it's not worth the candle.

I decided to use wine instead of candy.Wait until you can't take it anymore, then go to smoke.

Anyway, the effect is the same... and there will be no Miss Liangzi from the cigarette shop to persuade me to quit drinking.

"Why hasn't Oda come back yet?" I asked Ango.Half of the head of this extremely haggard intelligence officer was about to collapse on the table.

"You've asked me eighteen times. Just for today. Can you leave me alone?"

"Tsk."

"By the way, who are you going to spend Christmas with today? Didn't the leader give everyone a holiday." Although all the staff were a bit exaggerated, the basic staff still gave them a short holiday.Even the most vicious person needs to take a rest.

...But I didn't expect it to be in the way of celebrating foreign festivals.

"Hey, if there is a lady who is willing to accompany me to die in love, then I will go to Christmas with her."

"Who will accompany a scum like you to Christmas, don't even think about it!"

"Mochizuki-kun! Look at Anwu, he yelled at me!"

But even if she acted like a baby like this, Mochizuki-kun would be indifferent.

really……

grim guy.

"I'm going back today." Mochizuki-kun said to the store manager.

"Oh, I'm a little busy today." The store manager looked very troubled.

"Feel sorry!"

"Are you out on a date with a beautiful lady?" I asked.But that's about zero.Motoko Yamazaki hasn't appeared since she went to bed.

...It must be because I am afraid that the smell on my body will be smelled by others.

"I'm going back first." He said it to me again.

Is it necessary?

The black clothes disappeared into the night.

I just realized that Mochizuki-kun changed into a black dress today.

An hour passed.

"I can't take it anymore, I'm going back to work overtime."

Holidays are fake, but work is real.

"Che-bye~"

The men at Christmas are all drunk, "Boss, please give me a bottle of whiskey. Pack it!"

The boss smiled and said, "Just bring it back."

It was eleven o'clock at night when I got back to the house.The room was dark, with no lights.Not popular either.

I groped my way to the kitchen, wanting to find a cup or take two sips of cold water directly.

I found a small bottle on the counter.The label paper on the top has been picked off, but not completely, and there are some sticky things left on the bottle wall.

I turned on the light and saw that it was my usual bottle of sleeping pills.Although the label paper is torn off, the color and size are exactly the same.

I opened the lid and smelled it, sure enough.

Because I always go to the pharmacy to buy sleeping pills for suicide, the lady clerk blocked me a long time ago.I haven't used sleeping pills for a long time.

He will be rescued every time, and if he dies after taking sleeping pills, he may become incontinent after death.As long as I think that I will appear in front of everyone in such a dead form, I will be ashamed and overwhelmed by the demon of shame.

After I turned my head when I heard the voice, I saw Mochizuki-kun standing at the door.He took off the black coat, leaving only the white pajamas for sleeping.

I shook the pill bottle toward him.

"Are you going to take sleeping pills to commit suicide? I counted, and there are probably more than 40 pills."

Mochizuki-kun didn't have much expression on his face.

He is very calm.

"Ah."

"Is that why you can't think about it?"

"Suddenly I feel that it's better for me to die." The other party said with a sullen face, expressionless.

"I also bought the best caviar and whiskey. It would be too wasteful to just take sleeping pills and die."

Mochizuki-kun hesitated to speak.

I poured the sleeping pills down the drain.

He didn't even stop me.

"It's cold tonight, go out and buy more charcoal."

"Ah...Okay." He put on his clothes again and went out to buy charcoal.

I sat on the rug in the middle of the living room and watched a boring TV show.After half an hour, Mochizuki-kun came back with a big bag.There is still some charcoal at home, but the brazier has not been used for a long time.

Sparks crackled in the basin, and people's faces were reflected red.

Mochizuki quietly added charcoal to it.

"Dazai, you're only 17 years old."

Do you want to warn me at this time?

I……

My 17 year old...

Faced with Mochizuki-kun's sincere smile, I couldn't help crying.

I started to answer irrelevant questions.

"I really think Mochizuki-kun is so brave, he can actually face death or something." I have committed suicide many times, but it is precisely because I can't die that I keep committing suicide.

"So brave, really brave."

I'm telling the truth, the antonym of cowardice is brave, and the antonym of indifference is caring about everything.

Mochizuki-kun shook his head at me.Firelight flickered in his eyes.

Too much charcoal burning can cause carbon monoxide poisoning.Half an hour is enough to die, right?

If I knew it, I would have taken some sleeping pills.So silent, so silent.The silence of the world is at the hearth.

I have a problem.Why do timid people face death more bravely than me?

I think I can probably find the answer from Mochizuki-kun.

Tears are a strange taste.

The heat in the room kept rising, rising, rising to the point of burning the soul.

The last words I heard came from some unknown dark little man.

"Dazai!!!"

The author has something to say: ooc session.It was so hard to fathom that my head started to hurt.

Sleeping pills from "Disqualification in the World"

I think people who can face death are really brave, and not all people who commit suicide are cowards.In my heart, Dazai is the kind of coward who dare not die. If no one guides him, he will definitely not dare to die.But if you can't die because of your physique, you will be in a state where the person who died for love is dead and he is alive.

[Dazai Osamu]:

Dead... gone... dead dead dead! ! !

The young cadre woke up from the hospital, facing the irritable Chuya Nakahara, he whispered: "Don't say it."

Zhong Yuanzhong also didn't understand what this guy was going to do.

"Don't say it." The boy begged humbly for the first time, "Don't tell Odasaku."

Do you ask for work every day?Good night.I went hiking today and showed my worst side: I collapsed on the side of the road on the way back and was sent back to school by the teacher.