Personality was once a disqualification in the world[Comprehensive]

"I don't know when you also like to pick up children." After telling the story to the little girl he adopted, Oda Saku said helplessly.

Dazai was doing business on the sidelines.

"Hey—how does Dun Jun feel about black?" He put his hands on the hair of the child he just picked up from the side of the road.

Atsushi Nakajima, a 16-year-old boy who had just been kicked out of the orphanage and was cornered and fainted by the roadside, nodded silently.

Unexpectedly, the gentleman who was willing to buy him food would like to dye other people's hair.It's quite a special hobby.

Nakajima and Leah soon arrived in Hosu.This is only a medium-sized city. Since Stein, the hero killer, had a bad influence on this place last time, the population of Hosu City has become a little deserted than before.

Leia walked in front, and Nakajima followed slowly.

"Mr. Mochizuki, do you still remember that house?" This is a rather remote community, the houses are all one-story bungalows (this kind of house does not exist now), sparsely, and there are still trees on the trunks from time to time. Crows fly by.

As long as he thinks of that night, Nakajima will once again feel the fear that choked his heart.Three long whistles and one short whistle...the dim pale moonlight...street lamps...the little girl...all the images swirled in his brain, and the lights on the sea flickered on and off.

"Here..." He pointed to a house under a large leaf.At that time, through the only window in the house, he saw a small advertisement posted on a pole outside at a rather high position.

The ad is still posted in that location, but months have actually passed.

Lea walked up to the house, "Ah, the door is locked."

Nakajima was a little nervous, "Can you still open it?"

"Of course." There was confidence in the other party's tone.Then, the door opened with a click.

Nakajima stood at the door, not daring to take a step inside.There was the source of all his fears, the motherland where the darkness was born.

"Come in, Mochizuki-kun."

He was so frightened that he wanted to run away.

What man fears is fear itself.

The young man grabbed his wrist, his reddish-brown eyes were dim in the blackness.

"He's still..." Nakajima said softly.Mr. Fukamura, with green eyes, was standing just under the window, holding a book of poems, or Dostoevsky's "Crime and Punishment." "He's behind you."

The young man didn't turn his head.

"You read wrong, there is nothing here."

The boy stood helplessly behind the threshold. "No, he's here." He refused to enter.

Leia turned on the light.

Under the light, all darkness is invisible.Those new or old books were piled up one by one, and those beautiful words were also dripping on the ground like pus.

Nakajima vaguely remembered where the books were placed during those nights.He was so scared that day, he thought everyone was dead, and he finally ran away... "Idiot's Love" was placed at his feet.There was an ugly pool of blood on the cover.

"Look, there's nothing here." Leah waved his hand, "Ghost stories are all used to deceive people, Mochizuki-kun, don't take it seriously. Hey... If it's true, how about the one who sleeps next to me?" Aren't they all beautiful female ghost ladies?"

How could you still be in the mood to joke around at this time?

"Thank you...Mr. Leia." Nakajima hesitated for a moment and took a step forward.As soon as his footsteps stepped into the ground that he could not escape from, the terrifying sense of shock surrounded him.

He was a tiger cub with its claws cut off, softer than a kitten.

Leah moved the pile of books on the floor to the table, and then lay down instantly.

"What are you doing?"

The young man said seriously: "I was thinking about the use of installing the windows so high."

Nakajima tilted his head, and there was a cold sweat behind his back, "If this is the case...you won't be able to see the light."

"Then that person must be an anorexic patient. Sunbathing can replenish calcium in the body. The person who designed the windows so high must be an idiot!" Leah "accused" the designer loudly like a child ignorant behavior.

"The ground is dirty, get up quickly." In order to keep the evidence at the scene, no one will come to clean up the traces on the ground.So there were condensations of various medicinal liquids, dried blood stains, tears and so on.

After the investigation of the case is over, the house without its owner becomes even less likely to be cleaned.

Leah tilted his head, "Did Mochizuki-kun lie on the ground like this at that time?" He questioned his soul, and this kind of straight-ball question made Nakajima a little at a loss.He squatted down silently, the hem of his clothes hanging above the ground.

"……Um."

Mr. Fukamura was still standing under the window.always.Always been there.

I had trouble getting out.

"Why are you here..." Nakajima pursed his lips and leaned against the side of the wall to avoid the eyes of the students in Class A.Among them, Hong Jiaodong's eyes were particularly sharp.

"Oops, found out."

"friend?"

"A classmate who used to study." He had only been in Xiongying for so long, and he had just entered high school.

—his high school career ended early.

Sure enough, it was because he was too stupid and especially prone to trouble.

"It's very simple to avoid them. Just ignore them."

"I can recognize it..." After all, the face is here. After all, they have been classmates for a while, and everyone is not blind.In fact, it was enough to just bypass them at first, but those few people scattered, as if they were looking for something...or someone.

Maybe it will be touched.

"That's super simple," Leah blinked, "If you go to the barber shop, it will be solved soon."

"Black hair... It just so happens that there is black in the white hair, Mochizuki-kun, why don't you try it?" Leah twisted the boy's black hair, "Try black." He acted coquettishly like a child Tone, "Or red is fine."

"...It's too bright." White hair is already very eye-catching, wouldn't red be easier for others to notice?

"Then black hair..."

"I'm going to change my hairstyle anyway, why don't you change your image along the way, so that when you pass by your classmates face to face, as long as you keep an indifferent attitude, they won't recognize you." Leah said enthusiastically.

"I always feel that Mr. Leia has some malicious intentions..." Nakajima made a rare complaint, and Laia made a weak gesture like Xizi holding his heart.

"So it's decided?" The barber was already working on his clippers.

"Dye it black, and cut it short." Leah said with a smile, "When you eat soup, your hair will fall into the soup bowl."

"What kind of idiot is that... you can use a spoon." Nakajima closed his eyes, and let the barber put his head in the sink, and the hot water flowed down.

The water flow... is spinning like amniotic fluid.

He felt like he had become a new person.Just like Mrs. Otani in the teacher's "Wei Rong's Wife".Mrs. Otani, who was messed up by her husband and family, finally went to the outside world. When she came into contact with the secular world and realized that no matter how kind people are on the surface, there may be dirt in their hearts, Mrs. Otani found herself It was no longer who she was; she had become someone new, a mediocre person who could live with a worldly mask.

What a blessing.

[Women don't care whether they are happy or not, but men face fear all the time. ]

cheating cheating cheating—

What a blessing.

The boy let out a faint sigh of emotion, which Lea heard.

"What are you talking about? Is it because you feel refreshed after cutting your hair?" There was an indescribable strange expression on the young man's scarred face, "Oh... I'll also cut my hair short before I commit suicide next time. "

"I always feel that I am not myself anymore." The boy looked at himself in the mirror: black hair; the hairstyle changed, the color changed, and the length of the hair changed; he cut off his bangs like a good boy.

Nikugaraki always said that bangs were ugly to a certain extent.

"The bad mood must have been washed down the sewer along with the running water." Laia chuckled twice, "Let's go, let's go, now we can play freely."

——So the fundamental purpose of dyeing your hair is to go out and play.

No one will know him.

Not even a dead wood can recognize it.

When walking out of the barber shop, the breeze blows softly.

What a blessing.

An invisible, gentle air current surrounds the boy.

It seems to have gotten rid of the past.

Or...is the shame washed away like dirt?

Just like boy B in "Confession".

Boy B killed his teacher's daughter and thought he had AIDS after being retaliated by the teacher.He was terrified to death, and kept hiding himself in the dirt: the hair was, the dirt on the skin was, the muddy thoughts were—

Later, Boy B realizes that it is meaningless for him to be alive.

He cut off all the hair and washed all the dirt off his body.

Was washed down the sewer together with shame.

Then she said to her mother coquettishly: "I killed the teacher's daughter, mother quickly take me to surrender."

Boy B at that time probably could have said something like "I'm so happy".

"Let me see... there's a comedy movie called "Suicide Specialty Shop" at two o'clock."

"The name doesn't sound like a comedy."

"But suicide is like a joke to me."

In the dark theater, there are animations in gray tones on the screen.The bgm ending with "Long Live Suicide" is accompanied by figures of people falling from tall buildings.

There is a store here that sells all kinds of tools and methods for people to commit suicide.

This is the suicide capital.

……

The popcorn was eaten by Leah.

Although I don't really understand what the theme of this animated movie is, but seeing so many people willing to commit suicide makes me shudder.

[Isn’t it all right as long as people live? ] He has always thought so.

Nakajima stared at those who died by drinking poison, those who jumped to death, those who hanged to death...

"It's scary." He whispered.

Leal was in it.

"Won't Mr. Lea feel scared when he committed suicide?" He was really curious.Nakajima has faced death many times, and each time he was terrified to death.Human life is so short, like a mayfly that will complete a cycle of life in a day and night.

The black-haired young man snorted twice, "Hey——it's super interesting. But it would be even better if I could die in love with the beautiful lady~"

So sweet.

"The teacher often said that too."

Leah showed an unpredictable smile.

"Maybe I pretended to be Mochizuki-kun's teacher."

Nakajima shook his head, "No. You are two people."

"But what is the beauty in Mr. Lea's mouth? Does it refer to the beautiful appearance on the surface? Or does it refer to the heart?" People often regard the two parts of a woman's face and heart as two tools for judging, and a prodigal woman looks at her face , plain woman looking at heart.

Leia shook her finger.In the dots of light on the screen, Nakajima began to read the opponent's mouth.

[Whoever is worthy of my soul. ]

Can you really meet someone who fits your soul in this world?

Nakajima silently looked away.

The adult world is really hard to understand.

After the movie ended, it was already around 03:30 in the afternoon.Leah yelled "I really want to eat ice cream" while chatting up those beautiful girls on the side of the road.

Nakajima followed him not far away.

"I always feel that this appearance is too much." When he spoke, his voice was quite soft.

"The world of adults is always colorful. Because Mochizuki-kun is too stupid, he is as simple as an elephant."

Is it a compliment?

"—ah, oh," he responded awkwardly.

The two of them walked through the windows one after another, and the reflections on the glass were fresh and bright.

"I'm not used to it." Nakajima stared at his newly dyed black hair.But indeed, the man on the glass was no longer like him.

If he wasn't Nakajima, Atsushi, or even Mochizuki, just an ordinary person who didn't matter—

What a happy thing that should be.

"Ice cream?" Leia asked. "Raspberry ice cream?"

Nakajima shook his head, "It's too sweet..." Because he didn't eat any candy when he was in the orphanage, he sweetened himself for the first time after he came out.He hasn't eaten anything so sweet since then...but every time he drinks coffee, his hands keep shaking the sugar cubes in.

piece.

two pieces.

Three pieces.

...no more.

Teeth will rot.

No one wants a child with rotting teeth.

Nakajima's thoughts drifted so far away that he almost blocked all the sounds in his ears.He has become a piece of soul, and he is about to leave the terrible body that controls him.

"Nakajima?" The teacher's son called his name.

Nakajima returned to this earthly world in an instant.

The author has something to say: In the original book, Atsushi met 22-year-old Osamu Dazai, and he was very strict here.Anyway, I'm already ooc like this and I'm not afraid to do it again! ! !

Even if I push myself to death, I will try my best to write the manuscript to the end during this vacation.Come on, Lian Xiaoqi!You are the best!

I’m also asking for income today, ww, thank you to the little angels who voted for me or irrigated the nutrient solution~

Thanks to the little angel who irrigated [nutrient solution]:

1 bottle of Natsume;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!