It is clear

Before going to Qinghai, Tan Yu sent Xu Yan a timetable and asked him if there was anything to add or change.After all, this trip is half public and half private, and there is plenty of room for adjustment in time.

It took Xu Yan two days to reply him with a "yes", and in the middle of the night he added a "no".

He is not a hot and cold player, Tan Yu knew that something must have tripped him, after thinking about it, he decided to go to Ah Qing.

Ah Qing had a good impression of him, and she started waving from the moment she saw him walking in the alley, but Tan Yu didn't dare to stand in the gate, so she asked her to come over in a low voice.

"Old Xu has gone out, you just go in."

"Sister Qing, I'm here to find you." Tan Yu glanced at the door and asked in a low voice, "What's wrong with Xu Yan these two days?"

Ah Qing was a little surprised, and looked him up and down: "Why are you asking this?"

Tan Yu didn't intend to hide it, and said bluntly: "I'm chasing him, afraid that he will get into trouble, and also afraid that he won't tell me, so I ask you to ask, so I can feel at ease."

He spoke frankly, and Ah Qing could understand.She coughed twice, shouted to the door to get out, and led Tan Yu out of the alley.

People in Sanmi say that Main Street is down and out, and it is now a famous local red light district.

Sitting in the alley, Ah Qing is a "proper worker" in that environment, but outside those narrow alleys, she is a chicken.

Passers-by never concealed their likes and dislikes in the eyes of the pick-up girl, not to mention that the chicken was accompanied by a rather decent man, those eyes were even more unscrupulous.

Ah Qing has long been used to it, she turned her head to look at Tan Yu, the young man was not in any embarrassment, and his brows and eyes twitched with joy.

This joy was naturally due to Xu Yan. She lowered her head and smiled, then bent down and got into the small stall built by the plastic shed.

"Cook me a wide noodles and lettuce."

The female boss responded, quickly cooked the dishes, and went to the side to make a mixing bowl for her, only then did she bother to look up and saw Tan Yu.

She is a regular customer, the female boss saw that she was with a young man, and whistled first: "Ah Qing has developed."

"What's the matter with development, Xiao Xu's friend."

"Xiao Xu's friend?" The female boss winked at Tan Yu, "What would you like to eat?"

Tan Yu has never eaten these. When he was a child, he saved face when he was greedy, but when he grows up, he is really not interested.He didn't want to spoil the fun, so he took a few bunches of vegetables and gave them to the male boss.

The lettuce had been cooked and put into a bowl. Ah Qing was going around the stall to pick up other vegetables he wanted to eat, chewing as he walked, not caring about any end, and sat down after working for a while.

She sat down and said, "His uncle is back."

Too suddenly, Tan Yu let out an "ah", and after realizing it, he asked, "His uncle?"

"I haven't seen it either. His mother ran away from home after she died. It's been at least ten years."

Although Tan Yu doesn't know the specific situation of Xu Yan's family, he has experienced many common forms of struggle in the family.Sighing inwardly, he didn't show any surprise.

"It is said that my daughter is going to come back for the college entrance examination, and I took Lao Xu to Beijing for a trip. After the holiday on November [-], the whole family will come back."

Seeing that Tan Yu didn't eat or talk, Ah Qing simply took some of his skewers into her own bowl, she picked the vegetables and said, "I heard from people in the backyard that his aunt has never had a job all her life and spends her days thinking about it at home. Before his mother had an accident, the family had a fight."

"Auntie came back together too?" Tan Yu felt that he hadn't performed well after speaking, which was nonsense.

Sure enough, Ah Qing sneered with half of her face wrinkled: "Has Mr. Tan never seen a fight in the nest? If his aunt doesn't come back, why would Xu Yan worry about it?"

"Want property?"

"Too elegant, they want to drive Xu Yan away." Ah Qing finished eating, grabbed some paper and wiped his mouth, "He has been looking for a house these days, but he can't move, Lao Xu and him need alimony. People are wasting it."

One asked, one answered.

Tan Yu sent Ah Qing back to the sign of the fat woman's barbershop, and didn't leave immediately, smoking a cigarette on the spot.

He actually asked what he wanted to know, but he had no position to help Xu Yan, not even to express his concern.

"Where is the military posture?"

Following the sound, Tan Yu felt his ears get cold, and his earlobes were pinched by his fingers, and he rubbed them affectionately.He put out the cigarette, thinking it was a coincidence and a little pleasantly surprised.

Xu Yan saw him as soon as he came from Shidun in the South Market, but he didn't expect that the other party wouldn't even give the outside world a single look along the way.

Seeing that he doesn't speak now, but only sends a soft look, he feels that his heart is like flowing cheese, sweet and salty, sticky and moving.

"What are you doing?"

"Leave early the day after tomorrow, I'll come and see if you packed up." Tan Yu explained.

Xu Yan slumped his shoulders and leaned against him: "It's just that your 'death talisman' won't bother me... I didn't clean it up, I didn't care about everything, so you can just lead me away when the time comes. "

"That can't be done." Tan Yu said solemnly, "You have to put my priority ahead."

Xu Yan didn't speak, just looked at him and smiled.

So Tan Yu couldn't hold back anymore, and answered honestly: "I don't think you will reply to my WeChat, I want to come over and see if there is anything I can help."

Guessed it earlier, Xu Yan told him to go to the side, and said as he walked: "There is nothing to help, but I have no experience in many things, and it is inevitable that I am in a hurry now, so I won't delay your priority."

"I think it has been delayed." Tan Yu's voice was muffled, and his fingers naturally touched the back of Xu Yan's hand as he walked.

He didn't hesitate much, and took his hand the next time they touched.

Xu Yan, on the other hand, looked at the hands they held together with great interest, pointed to his ten fingers and said, "To be honest, I haven't done this kind of thing with anyone since I passed Twelve and Thirteen." .”

"Then try it with me."

These words had other meanings, Xu Yan didn't answer rashly, but it didn't affect his mood.

In addition to all kinds of dirty alleys in the main street, there are also spacious and accessible old roads.

When these old roads were first built, they were the ministers of the Sanmi.After so many years, it is old, rotten, and narrow, like old dusty silk, replaced by another kind of beauty.

They are walking on such an old road.

Xu Yan said: "This road is so close to my grandfather's house, but I've never walked it. Do you know where it is?"

"A familiar new place." Tan Yu shook his hand, "Even if it's a dead end, you'll know when you come next time."

Xu Yan turned his head to look at him, and was about to say something when his phone rang.

He looked down, hung up the phone with an unhappy face, and quickly withdrew his hand.Afraid that Tan Yu would think too much, he leaned forward and kissed her on the lips: "It's not because of you."

Xu Yan made sure that he was not unhappy, turned around and waved his hands back and forth.

After walking a few steps, Tan Yu called him behind him.

He turned his head, Tan Yu said: "You have to be prepared, don't forget."

With this joy, Xu Yan and Yan Xueke met.

When he arrived, Yan Xueke was anxiously crushing cigarette butts on the ground, when he heard footsteps scolding: "Why are you so slow?"

"I'm dating Tan Yu."

Yan Xueke was choked, digested for a while, lit another cigarette: "I've found a house for you, three bedrooms and two living rooms, you can move anytime."

He paused, and said, "Are you going to see Ruan Zhou?"

"See, why don't you see me?" Xu Yan unbuttoned his cuffs, took a puff of Yan Xueke's cigarette, "I told him about Tan Yu, I didn't expect him to react so strongly, and maybe he just didn't want to make me feel better."

Yan Xueke sneered: "There is no basic law for your open relationships."

"Don't talk nonsense." Xu Yan patted the back of his hand with a cigarette in his mouth, took out his cell phone and made a call.

After almost no waiting, Ruan Zhou's voice came from the other end of the phone.

It has to be said that Ruan Zhou's voice alone can attract many people away.

Xu Yan blew out his cigarette butt, and said blankly, "I'm here to see you now, give me your address."

In the familiar hotel, Xu Yan bent down to say goodbye to Yan Xueke, took off his coat, and went in wearing only a vest.

He didn't look at the expressions of his friends behind him, nor did he look at any acquaintances who might exist, and went straight up to the seventeenth floor.

The seventeenth floor is the suite reserved for important guests by the hotel owner, and the only light in the dark corridor that is waiting for Xu Yan is really like that.

He stepped on the thick carpet and walked in.

Ruan Zhou's tall body was sunk in the low sofa, with the light behind him, his expression could not be seen clearly.

Xu Yan closed the door behind his back, walked to the sofa, and sat on Ruan Zhou's lap.

From the first time we met, Xu Yan wanted to say that Ruan Zhou was not a good name, and those who hadn't seen her just thought she was a pretty girl.

But Ruan Zhou's real body is more than 1.9 meters tall. Due to industry reasons, he is still a practicing family. No one dares to say that he is beautiful.

Xu Yan lowered his head to kiss the corner of his mouth, stretched his hand along the bathrobe, and stopped: "I've made it clear to you, why are you still here?"

"I want to meet that person." Ruan Zhou answered perfectly.

"I don't want him to see you." Xu Yan summed it up simply, "You are the part of me that I can't see."

"What's so shameful? You are such a person, you can accept everything, and you deserve to be accepted."

Ruan Zhou's kiss climbed up from his fingertips in small pieces, and when it reached the side of his neck, Xu Yan couldn't help trembling, he couldn't sit still anymore, and fell directly on the carpet.

The pain spreading from the tailbone caused Xu Yan to feel some hatred, and he looked up at Ruan Zhou: "I'm really crazy to love you."

Ruan Zhou couldn't help laughing, and helped him up: "I love you too."

"Bah." Xu Yan followed his strength and lay on the bed, "Tan Yu is different from you, he..."

Unable to say more detailed words, Xu Yan was a little annoyed, he rested his head on Ruan Zhou's neck: "He smells better than you, I really don't like you, it's terrible."

"Is it also because he can let you write? Did you also engrave a chapter for him?"

Xu Yan avoids the important and ignores the trivial: "Don't look down on us craftsmen."

Ruan Zhou saw through him, his laughter gradually increased, and he laughed heartily.

He is not a good person. After laughing, he said: "I will do business with you, continue to follow me, and I will help you solve your troubles. Or choose him, you are here, just like before, just continue to bear it."

When meeting Ruan Zhou, it was almost the most difficult time for Xu Yan.

He has nothing, lacks everything, and is full of holes from body to soul.Seeing Ruan Zhou, he was able to write again.

Even though writing is painful every time, as long as he can still write, Xu Yan can pretend that everything is still intact.

Unfortunately, his pretense was a pretense.

Ruan Zhou, that bastard's pretense is also a pretense.

He was so passionate and loved that Ruan Zhou drenched his head, but the other party only regarded him as one of them.

Xu Yan has been one of them for many years, even Ruan Zhou has become his one, this relationship has no interest anymore.

He also gradually stopped writing for himself.

Ruan Zhou tilted his head and waited for his answer.

Xu Yan looked at him, his eyelashes trembling slightly with his breathing, and then he said, "Get out of here."

As soon as the bed beside him lightened, Ruan Zhou got off the bed, stood by the window and was cut by the setting sun, and lit a cigarette at a leisurely pace.

The smoke rising from the end of the thin smoke swirled around and covered his face. Xu Yan couldn't see anything clearly. He also sat up and lowered his head: "I really take it seriously, and I take it seriously every time, what do you think? Can I?"

"What's wrong." Ruan Zhou lit his cigarette ash, "You...you are really worth everything."

Before he came here, he only thought of joking in his heart, but now he is in chaos after all.

To talk about feelings, the beginning of any relationship is naturally a little real.

At the beginning, of course, he also loved Xu Yan, the curve of his back when he was practicing calligraphy, and the beautiful eyes that could replace his mouth when he was not speaking.

In the final analysis, he, Ruan Zhou, was to blame for any ending.

Xu Yan likes to see the decadent aura exuded by his ex. He rummaged through Ruan Zhou's suitcase, and casually picked up two clothes that he could wear.

When he was about to leave, he still looked back at Ruan Zhou: "Yan Xueke told me to break up with you, otherwise I won't be able to remember you."

Ruan Zhou directly smashed the ashtray over.

Xu Yan, however, was extremely happy. He descended the seventeenth floor from the fire escape stairs, and the fire in his heart was rustling and growing against the wind.

It took half an hour to say goodbye to Ruan Zhou the day before, and it took a day to move the next day.

It seemed that he had cut off all ties with the society, except for Yan Xueke, Xu Yan only sent Tan Yu his new address.

Tan Yu made an appointment with him to set off at [-]:[-] in the morning. Before arriving at [-]:[-] the next morning, he looked at many photos of Qinghai on his mobile phone, looked at lakes, temples, and grasslands, and finally got dressed and waited. the door.

Half an hour earlier than seven o'clock, Tan Yu tentatively sent a WeChat message.

Xu Yan couldn't bear it anymore, he rushed out the door, rushed back to grab his luggage, and plunged into the car downstairs with the energy of a sleepless night.

The rising sun has already peeled off the green shell, clearly illuminating the unhidden smile on the corner of Tan Yu's lips.

For some reason, Xu Yan always felt that he jumped out.