sin of lumen

"Then I won't cry, boss, I won't cry." Lu Ting began to wipe away his tears. He hurriedly lifted up the corner of his denim jacket, rubbing his skin with a rustling sound, and waited until he put it down again. He has returned to dryness, but his cheeks and eye sockets have become redder than before.

Deng Mochi was puzzled by this reaction, the two of them were silent for a while, and he said, "You might as well cry when you're like this."

Lu Ting simply stood up, "Then I'll go out for a while." He looked down as if startled, his chest heaving violently.

Dun Mochi didn't stop him, and began to close his eyes and meditate: "There are wolves, be careful."

Lu Ting wrapped his clothes tightly and ran out of the studio, the cold wind blew him several times.There are wolves?The area covered by this film must be as wide as possible to accommodate the already endangered beast.He felt that Deng Mochi must be embarrassed to keep himself, and was scaring people.But why did he sneak out on a whim - so as not to cry and make Deng Mochi feel sad again?With only a pistol loaded with twelve bullets and a dagger stained with sheep fat, he was not going to run into the dark wasteland bravely.

So Lu Ting sat down by the wall of the "goose egg", specially estimated the angle of sight, and picked a corner that Deng Mochi couldn't see.The embarrassment still has to hide.But from the outside, the room was only blurry from the glass, and he couldn't be sure where Deng Mochi was at this time, and whether he was looking for himself.

"Mr. Cosmic Huge Monster," Lucy said abruptly, "I must remind you that it's only minus nine degrees Celsius outside."

"I just need to cool off." Lu Ting sat down cross-legged.The ground is very cold and the grass is prickly. He said to himself, the trousers are too thin, you are so worthless.

But he didn't make much progress after blowing the wind, the weird red moon was blown into the clouds, and the light that was exposed was a circle of bright and clear light, but he still looked weak and wanted to cry very much.He kept thinking about the way Deng Mochi said "I will hurt too", it was so touching, he almost said "I love you", but this was obviously his own over-speculation, how many times did he think of it, those words from Deng Mochi He would rather shed the blood that flowed from Chi's body, but he couldn't.

Could the symptoms be due to excessive use of the brain?In addition to the fast recovery speed, Deng Mochi's physical fitness is not particularly superior to ordinary people. Will the overused brain be a burden to his body?

Lu Ting pondered and lit a cigarette.

Probably because of the detection of tar escape, Lucy reminded again: "Research shows that people can only get temporary pleasure when smoking, but they cannot get a clearer brain and better performance afterwards."

"Why are you talking so much today?" Lu Ting frowned, "It's agreed to go out and keep quiet."

"Because you did a lot of things today that lovelorn humans are keen to do, you look like a fool, for your physical and mental health, I can't see you going astray—"

Lu Ting took off the headset, but he didn't think it was thorough enough, so he simply turned off the bracelet.

Then he hummed an out-of-tune song in a low voice, and continued to smoke his Seven Star Peach.

After smoking for a little while, he heard wolves howling. It was not like an auditory hallucination. They echoed each other in a far away place, and they were suddenly blown to his ears by a strong wind like a rising tide.But for some reason, Lu Ting couldn't grasp a trace of tension in his heart, as if the wolf was coming, he could just start a fight, yelled a few times happily, and turned himself back to a normal state.

He didn't wait for a beast until the end of a cigarette.Hiding the frozen filter in his trouser pocket, Lu Ting returned to the door, pointed his face at the security screen, and tapped the red button marked with a visitor icon.

Before the bell rang, Deng Mochi opened the door.

"It's really cold." Lu Ting sneezed.

"You're smoking." Deng Mochi took Lu Ting into the house with the door panel, and inserted the electromagnetic door lock.

"Just now, you were waiting for me to knock at the door?" Lu Ting saw a little blood stain on the glass door frame, and at the same height, Deng Mochi's nose tip was also not wiped clean.

The image of the man pressing his nose against the door frame and waiting in a daze came before his eyes.

Deng Mochi stretched out his hand: "I want one."

Lu Ting handed him the cigarette, lit it for him, and watched him squint his eyes like a big cat, biting the fruity beads hidden in the cigarette roll.Lu Ting's pretending to be calm didn't stop until he closed the lighter cover.He followed Deng Mochi to the circle of writing desks, and suddenly the mountain of manuscript paper was brushed off the edge of the table and fell to the ground with a clatter. Deng Mochi cleared a piece of the desk and sat on the left half.

He looked over and exhaled smoke evenly, as if he had something to say.

Lu Ting wiped the sweat from his palms on his trouser legs, and sat down in the empty seat on the right side knowingly.

"My nosebleeds are not that big, and they are easy to stop," Deng Mochi said slowly, "so you don't have to worry too much."

Lu Ting wondered what kind of logic this was. He stared at the man's flickering cigarette butt: "I really want to take your cigarette away right now."

The cigarette rod was hidden on the other side of the body, and Deng Mochi looked at him innocently: "Nosebleeds have nothing to do with cigarettes."

"Then what does it matter?" Lu Ting took a breath, and pressed his brow bone hard, "Yesterday Lu Bingyi interrogated you, what exactly did he use?"

"Brainwashing, electric shocks, and a few nerve-stimulating baseline tests," Deng Mochi said frankly, "During the period, I had half an hour alone with your father. I tried to hypnotize him, and when I succeeded, I copied his irises, DNA, fingerprints, voiceprints."

"However, he woke up in about 13 minutes," Deng Mochi said again, "He is one of the most difficult to hypnotize people I have ever seen, and his willpower is very strong."

Lu Ting understood, and he was finally able to understand Deng Mochi's purpose of taking the risk alone - to copy the relevant information of the president, and it will inevitably save a lot of trouble when doing secret deciphering work in the future, Deng Mochi is not The kind of people who do useless work and take advantage of it.Based on Lu Ting's current position, he should also be grateful and excited for this breakthrough, but he still has a sad expression on his face.

"Do you remember what other people looked like during the interrogation?" he asked.

"remember."

"Don't forget it in the future," Lu Ting stared at a line of difficult matrix equations on the ground draft paper. In fact, he just needed a fixed point to look at. Nosebleed."

"..."

"I'm serious." Lu Ting turned around halfway, and started to stare at Deng Mochi's eyelashes again, "I will do it sooner or later."

"The brainwashing didn't work and I don't have brain damage."

"But you have to admit that this process is very painful. I have seen people who were interrogated like that, and they all ended up with mental breakdowns, bleeding from the seven orifices, and various dysfunctions. You can't say that you are an indestructible body just because you persisted." .”

"It instead reminded me of something from the past."

Lu Ting froze for a moment, then suddenly fell silent.

Dun Mochi lowered his head and crushed out the remaining half of the cigarette, "Those I forgot, I can almost remember them now, and if there is a hint, a whole bunch of them will come to mind."

"That's a good thing." Lu Ting interrupted subconsciously, he was actually afraid to let Deng Mochi continue talking.

Of course, Dun Mochi didn't stop there: "There is only one person, and everything related to him is blank." He rested his elbows on his knees and held the splint on his right with his left hand. "I'm sure this person exists. I’ve been thinking about it for a long time, but I can’t remember anything.”

"That's right." Lu Ting whispered.

Once again, the two fell into a common silence, one lowered his head and the other raised his head, their eyes were frozen so that they would not meet each other, and it lasted for quite a while.At least Lu Ting thinks that this is how seconds are like years, his soul has been worn out, so he tightly covered his mouth and pressed his hands, so that he couldn't raise his wrist to look at his watch, or lean into his eyes. Beside him, feel the heavier and heavier breathing under Deng Mochi's spine.

"Why didn't you say it?" Deng Mochi said suddenly.

"Ah? What did you say?" Lu Ting suddenly straightened his back.

Deng Mochi still leaned forward and leaned on his knees, but turned his head and looked at him: "That person is you."

Lu Ting was undoubtedly surprised, but he unconsciously raised the corners of his lips and smiled: "So you remember everything now? What happened between the two of us?"

"No."

"...So it's just intuition." Seeing Deng Mochi's silence, Lu Ting's mouth was still upturned, as if he had no time to react, but his eyelashes drooped, "Those things before... I think so, if I tell you, you listen, it's like listening to someone else's story, reading a book in the third person doesn't mean much to either of us, and you won't feel any better, suddenly throwing the burden on you that it's It should grow on you, everyone will think it's very strange." After waking up from a big dream, he smiled again, as if he was soft before, or listless, "Forget it."

Deng Mochi seemed to ponder over the meaning of these words, and finally sat up straight: "But you smell like me."

"Yes, yes," Lu Ting clenched his fingers, "Then what do you want to say?"

"We're friends?"

"..." For a moment, Lu Ting's expression could be called frightened.

But when he was most frightened, Deng Mochi quietly approached and kissed the corner of his mouth.

It was a very thin, dry, veiled kiss.It's like rubbing shoulders in a crowd, it's over without any warmth.

But no one can say that it didn't happen.

"How do you feel?" Lu Ting tried to calm himself down and asked.

Deng Mochi still looked at him inquiringly, and said honestly, "It's nothing special."

Lu Ting almost couldn't lift it up, suddenly, he held Deng Mochi's shoulders and threw the man on the table, turned sideways, sat on the man's waist directly with his weight on it.This is a restraint that cannot be resisted. Face to face, there are piles of manuscript papers and the backboard of the display screen on both sides, which makes people feel hot. Lu Ting saw that his hands had already been placed on Dun Mo With the back of his head, his upper body did not dare to press down as if being hung by a string, for fear of touching the man's injured hand.He seemed to be tired and angry, and he also felt very ridiculous.

The other free hand was hanging in the air, and the fist did not fall after all.

Lu Ting's whole body was frozen, and Deng Mochi's black hair was tangled between his fingers, and leaked out, spread out on the table, smooth as liquid.But he withdrew slumpedly, letting Dun Mochi rest his head on the table, while he crossed his arms and looked away helplessly, everything hurts when he looked at it.He couldn't believe it. He remembered that when Dun Mo was not around, he would dream every day, find a pile of that person's things and bury himself in them, but their smell would also dissipate, just like memories would also dissipate. Years, two years, ten years... He was afraid that Dun Mo would not come back later, that he would not find him, and when he died alone, he would become an empty shell that could not empathize with him.

But I didn't expect that this forgetting had already happened in advance, but it was not on me.

Well, Lu Ting took a second to accept this reality and a night to make up his mind.Although he was willing to turn into something and hang it on Deng Mochi's body, so that people would never throw him away, or compress the ashes into a small bottle, but he tried his best to cut off these thoughts, just for the reunion. happy.Deng Mochi was so gentle, so sensible and sober, he obviously didn't want to make trouble for no reason.

But his eyes were red again, and under that focused gaze, he began to speak in a panic: "So I say we'd better be friends," he dawdled back, trying to be quicker, and jumped off the bed. table, "I'll go out and take a while."

But Deng Mochi grabbed him.

"What's wrong?" Lu Ting wanted to break free.

"You are not reconciled," Deng Mochi tightened his wrist, "Speak up if you have something to say."

Lu Ting was numb from being pinched, and the numbness flowed from his wrists, through his shoulders, his spine, all the way to his brain, disturbing everything about him.Then, an ordinary second passed, and he felt that these bones had been pulled out by Deng Mochi, and there was no strength left in his body.

I can't even fight with myself anymore.

"Yes, I am not reconciled, why should I be reconciled, I am so sad that I am going to die," he suddenly smiled brightly, and said happily, "Deng Mochi, you are so smart, of course you guessed right, how could we be friends ah."

"I am your Omega." Finally said it.

Dun Mochi didn't frown, didn't blink, the wrist was pinched with blue marks, and the nails were embedded in the skin, and he didn't let go.

Lu Ting couldn't stop laughing, he suddenly saw his grievance, held it like that, put on a calm posture, was he afraid of getting hurt?But why did he still taste bitter.He simply bent down, bowed his waist to avoid the injured hand, but his face was very close to Dun Mochi, and said softly: "Boss, do you know what this means? I am your Omega, physically With your mark, the rope is tied around my neck. When you are away, I have no desires and desires like you, and I don’t need to take inhibitors, but as soon as you come back, I will become your bitch,” he didn’t expect This kind of explicitness can confuse others, but I blushed, paused, and then continued firmly, "Vulnerable, emotional and annoying, bitch, every minute I talk to you or be with you, including just now, We were talking about important things, and I was having a lot of nasty crazy thoughts, but I was trying to act like you didn't care and you saw it, and I failed."

After all, he didn't wait for Deng Mochi's response, and kissed directly, the kiss was so arrogant that it was the last time.But Deng Mochi was not as stiff as expected, he even opened his mouth as he licked the seam of his lips, the tip of his tongue touched his, and then brushed against the sensitive upper gum, it was very itchy.Lu Ting widened his eyes and closed them again. He shivered violently. He was about to shut down. His cold nose, soft lips, and honest breathing, everything he missed...

Everything is the same as before.

The iron was rusted, but the magnetic poles were still there. Those tiny electric charges permeated his blood vessels, reaching his heart.

And Deng Mochi even stretched out his hand, touched under the back collar of the shirt, rubbed gently on the sad skin, touched every dent that never faded with his fingertips, and he was drawing. "Don't be afraid. Don't cry." Between the kisses, these words were like raving.

Only then did Lu Ting realize that he was crying again, but he didn't want to resist anymore, and let himself go completely. When he opened his eyes, his eyelashes brushed Deng Mochi's wet brow.

"I lost." Lu Ting said.

"I want to be with you," he said again.

Compared with the fog all over his body, Deng Mochi's eyes were still clear and bright. He exhaled hot air and carefully rubbed the redness under his eyelids.

Lu Ting sniffed and rubbed the bridge of his nose against his fingertips, "It doesn't matter if I can't remember those things before, and it doesn't matter if we get to know each other again. Let me be with you, that's fine. Anyway, now I and I It's not the same before. You like this now. You and I said a word, connection, boss, our connection is still there."

"Connect." Dun Mochi repeated hoarsely.

"So you will definitely fall in love with me again," Lu Ting suddenly smiled stupidly, wiped away his gloom and troubles, cupped his cheeks and did not let go, "I will work very hard, but if it is only the mouth Speaking of which, it feels pointless.”

"No." Deng Mochi hugged him with one hand.

"Well, you will rate me in the future, based on my performance."

"No need."

"Boss, please cooperate!"

"……don't want."

"Then I'll figure it out myself." Lu Ting was still in high spirits, and his tone made people feel like he was counting his fingers to list, even though his two hands were still glued to Deng Mochi's cheeks, "It made you unhappy For example, if you cry like this once, you will lose [-] points, but today is not counted. Then I will give me extra points if I do well. If the food is delicious, I will add [-] points. If I become smarter, I will add [-] points. [-] points, plus [-] points for making you laugh once. We will talk about other options later.”

Deng Mochi still looked at him strangely.

Regardless, Lu Ting said confidently: "Then when you like me a little bit, you must let me know, I will be very happy, and when my score is high enough, you have to hug me well when I get [-] points." , more vigorous than the current one, [-] points, just kiss me. Wait until [-] points... If you make me like this again, wet..."

"You have to be responsible for blocking it." Lu Ting's words were barely audible.

"Block?"

"Just, that's—"

"I understand." Dun Mochi blushed and covered his mouth.

Lu Ting protested a few times, and said vaguely, "Did you agree?"

"Yeah." This time it was straightforward.As if for fun, Deng Mochi poked the soft flesh on his cheek which was still wet.

Lu Ting seemed to be getting hot even at the tip of his hair, and thought that he couldn't go on like this anymore, bit the palm of his hand, turned over and got off the table consciously, not to be outdone, turned his back and said: "Why are you nervous, I didn't let you Just block."

Deng Mochi sat up straight, and he really didn't intend to stop now. He rummaged under the writing desk and found a long robe from the pile of manuscript paper. It was thick and warm, "Take it." He said.

Lu Ting turned back and took it with a half-knowledge.

"Don't you want to look at the source of radiation? It's easier to see at night." Deng Mochi squatted back under the table, flipped deftly with one hand, and quickly took out a robe of similar texture, but it was a short one. "Put it on." No more runny nose."

Lu Ting was quite apologetic. He helped the wounded man put on his coat and straightened the splint, and then invited him out first. He still had two things to do in this room, one was to wipe his face and the other was to clean his legs.The handkerchief was laundered several times, but in the end he couldn't take it anymore, so he threw it into the wastebasket, and walked out the door with the leather jacket pocket in his pocket.

Deng Mochi was waiting for him at the door, carrying the high-power flashlight that he dug out together just now.

"I saw a lot of pill boxes in the trash can, all of the same kind." Lu Ting took the flashlight to light the way forward, "Are you taking sleeping pills?"

"I don't want to waste time with insomnia."

"You never lost when you slept with me," Lu Ting tiptoed and bumped against Deng Mochi's shoulder, the leather robe was heavy, and his collision was heavy, "Tonight, try it."

"Okay." Deng Mochi was still serious.

This is another long road, and they are not used to being accompanied for a while, and they still have nothing to say, but the coldness around them is no longer there. Lu Ting put his right hand into Deng Mochi's left pocket, and the man's hand was The inside caught him and shook him back.

On the way, the two of them climbed over a hill, and actually met wolves, like the coyote species in the illustration book, there were more than a dozen of them, but Lu Ting also understood at that time why Deng Mochi knew that there were wolves but still Walking so calmly in the open air at night.

The wolves didn't dare to approach them at all. When they were about 30 meters away from them and just entered the range of the flashlight, they ran away with their tails between their legs.

Deng Mochi was used to this, Lu Ting put the gun back on his belt, thinking silently, it would never be his fault.

This time, with the electronic map given by Deng Mochi, Lu Ting had some points in his mind. After walking for about an hour and a half, the two drank half of the hot water on his back. There is only one rocky mound covered with thin soil.

There is a faint green light coming from the opposite side, overflowing the edge of the hill, the higher the climb, the thicker the light.

And Deng Mochi was still wandering, which made Lu Ting feel that it was nothing important. When climbing the slope, he even had the leisure to look at the moon. The rusty orange had faded, and the moon emerged from the dusty clouds , as if it has been cleaned and polished, it is now a round of shiny silver, hanging far away from the dome.

Lu Ting was fascinated. No matter how far away this planet is, it is still too huge and too clear. It seems that it will fall down at any time. It reminds people of many more open words, such as mythology, such as time, "Boss, I took a few books from your house, and when I think of you at night, I will read them," he murmured, pinching Deng Mochi's fingers, "Many books in the last century liked to describe the moon, so I just Remember to keep one in it, and it says, 'Susanna, I asked you to come back...there was a big moon. I looked at you—'”

"My eyes are broken."

Dun Mochi answered.

Of course he also read the book.His determination seemed never to be forgotten.

Then he pulled Lu Ting and stood side by side on the top of the mountain. Below the mountain was a deep ditch. The dark granite on the surface gleamed with moonlight, and there were cracks formed by years of weathering and subsidence, just like a smooth drumhead being pierced by a drumstick, tearing out one by one. holes.

And the underground seems to be empty, there is a grand green light filtering through these cracks, emerging from the ground like bushes, and the faint blue color pierces the black of the night and the white of the moon, extending to the end of the valley.