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Shu Rui's answer was yes, but for other questions, he asked to talk face-to-face after he finished the meeting, and then hung up the phone in a hurry.Lu Ting was not in a hurry, took a shower carefully, and then had a very sumptuous dinner, holding the after-dinner fruit to blow the warm air, chatting with Lucy for a few minutes, and then started Following Aldebaran-b out the door.

He came to Xingu Hospital, the smallest public medical institution in the Special Administrative Region.Of course, the word "small" does not refer to the size of the hospital, but the number of patients it receives.Since its establishment nearly 70 years ago, although it is called "public", it has always implemented a member recommendation system. Only a very small number of residents in the special zone are eligible to have a medical record file here and enjoy the most refined and complete health resources here.

Therefore, this seven-story building suspended above the volcano looks very empty, with bright lights on the top and bottom, and lack of popularity on the top and bottom. The ward of R179 is on the sixth floor. Lu Ting did not take the straight ladder, but passed by the escalator layer by layer. , the most encountered are bionic robots for cleaning, followed by humans such as nurses, doctors, handymen, etc. As for patients, he only encountered two.

Everyone was quiet, and even their footsteps were very light. When Lu Ting went up to the sixth floor and ran into the nurse with a loud voice, he had the illusion of getting out of a different dimension.

"You are here! Mr. Lu," the short-haired middle-aged woman with a Middle Eastern face, wearing a very fitted nurse's uniform and the head nurse's blue badge, said with a warm smile, "Dr. , I may not be able to contact you for the time being, but he has explained everything to me, the child has been transferred out of the isolation ward, slept for a day, and just woke up for a while, I will take you to see it?"

"Thank you." Lu Ting smiled at her.

The corridor in front of him is very long and bare. Although it is clean and bright, it somehow reminds Lu Ting of those criss-crossing in the Blood Cube. The person walking in front of him is not the smiling expert head nurse, but the poker-faced king Dun Mo Chi, Deng Mochi knocked the slag off the concrete wall with an electric arc knife, and the space magically rotated.

He realized that he was about to wander off again, and knew that he couldn't go on in a trance like this, so he started to take a deep breath again, which was what he did most often recently.

When the door of the ward was pushed open, R179 was leaning on the conical sponge pillow at the head of the bed, lifting his neck, being fed by the nurse.Because there is also a gap at the corner of his mouth, he can only hold the straw in his mouth and cannot really open his mouth.There was a scent of milk and oatmeal in the air, and his bandaged hands were hung by the sides by protective soft belts, shaking slightly as he swallowed.

Lu Ting approached and stood by the bed without saying a word. The head nurse was guarding the door. When the young nurse finished feeding the porridge and the medicine that could not be taken on an empty stomach, she led him away tactfully and closed the door silently. Leave this room silent.

R179 has been straightened up, with the quilt tucked up, one eye is still not swollen, and he looks at Lu Ting with the other.

"You shouldn't be able to talk yet." Lu Ting pulled up a chair and sat down, keeping a fistful distance from the edge of the bed.

R179 nodded, but struggled to speak: "Mouth...don't open, say no, clearly."

"It's okay, it's okay," Lu Ting said softly, "Don't worry, I'll be fine."

In fact, he himself has nothing to say. Facing such a child, he doesn't know how to express his concern while softening the truth.After thinking about it, he decided to start with relatively good news and said: "I've already dealt with that bastard, and I won't bother us again. During this time, you can rest here and recuperate. When you recover, I'll take care of you." go home."

This also seems to be boasting.

But R179 said: "Sister."

Lu Ting tried to change the topic: "By the way, after I went back that day, there was a big fire in that building——"

R179 interrupted him: "My sister is dead."

The pronunciation was ambiguous, especially the word "death", he couldn't open his mouth, and he spoke in a barely audible way, half of his face was covered with dressing, and he couldn't see the expression.Lu Ting stared at him for a few seconds, his tense shoulders relaxed, and said, "Yes."

"I... took the ashes back two days ago," he added, "When you are better, we will send her off together."

"Hmm." R179 was stunned for a while, then lowered his head.

The answer to why this kid who likes to shake his head and turn the volume to the maximum while wearing sound leaking headphones and loves to talk back to himself is what he is now is obvious.Lu Ting also has many guesses about the specific details. For example, R179 chased after him, trying to rush into Erebus to rescue his sister, but of course he failed. He squatted at the door and asked everyone who was about to step in for help. On Ridi, he was driven away and ran back, beaten all over his body and never received any help.

Until his brother, and the person who tripped his brother, came late.

Lu Ting warned himself, you can't think about it anymore, the continuous guilt will only lead to dullness and weakness, and has no other effect.At the same time, it is not a wise choice to conceal the report. The longer the delay, the greater the final disappointment, because he is powerless to change, so he thinks that R179 has the right to know the facts.

So he said simply: "One more thing, your brother is missing, I'm looking for it."

R179 raised his head abruptly, dumbfounded.

He has only one leg under the quilt, empty and thin. Lu Ting looked at the piercing white light reflected on those folds, and said again: "He didn't have any serious problems, so you don't have to worry about it. He just left temporarily for some reason. I will find him." of."

R179 immediately asked: "What's the reason? My brother, no, we're gone?"

"I don't know." Lu Ting wanted to be more calm, and forced himself to look at his face, only to realize that the gauze around his lips had been soaked with new blood. He jumped up, and desperately rang the calling bell on the bedside. The string of screaming bells resounded throughout the corridor, and about a minute passed, when three nurses rushed over, before Lu Ting realized his gaffe.

His fingers slipped from the bell, and he took two steps back, watching the nurses around the bed checking the wound, discussing softly whether to remove the cloth and change the dressing, "I'm going first." He said suddenly.

The head nurse followed him to the door.

"I brought some food and play, and I handed it to the main station downstairs," Lu Ting said softly, "You guys take it out for him according to the situation, and usually stay with him for a while."

"Hey, okay," the head nurse looked concerned, "Please rest assured Mr. Lu, Xingu Hospital is committed to giving the utmost care to every patient, and will notify you in time if there is anything."

"Well, brother," Lu Ting half-body leaned back into the house, and called out the title bluntly, "I'll come to see you again in two days!"

R179 has no echo.

Lu Ting lowered his eyes, and didn't pretend to tell him nonsense like "don't think about it and take care of yourself", because he understands that he can't do it, and now he is the person who can empathize most in the world, walking away from the ward , He maintained the decency and calmness that his identity should have, but felt like he was running away.

According to the previous agreement, Lu Ting found Shu Rui's office on the top floor of the hospital and waited in the reception room outside.

Both sides of the sofa are covered with green plants, all of which were slouched by Shu Rui. Lu Ting counted them from left to right, thought about the names and families in turn, and then counted from right to left.Then he watered them, trimmed off dead branches and leaves, and looked a little healthier, Lu Ting sat back on the sofa with satisfaction.

Now he may be able to look at the surveillance video again, limited to the ones he has the authority to retrieve, and do some repetitive work to gain psychological comfort, but in the end he didn't. People do have times when they don't want to do anything practical. It did take some time to say goodbye. He put his hands on his stomach and looked at the ceiling at the same angle. He still didn't understand what Deng Mochi was looking at every time.

Maybe Deng Mochi couldn't see the tricks from the ceiling, he was simply too lazy to look elsewhere, and looked up to let others not bother him.

Until Shu Rui came back, Lu Ting kept this posture.His sleep with his eyes open was suddenly interrupted. When he looked at his watch, it was already past midnight. Shu Rui looked exhausted, his red hair was scratched like dead grass, and his dark circles were as heavy as coal dust. The hem of the white coat was also crumpled.

"Are you okay?" Lu Ting asked.

"It's not very good." Shu Rui kept silent about the situation of the meeting and said instead, "I thought you must have left."

"Why should I leave before the work is done." Lu Ting followed him to the inner room of the office, and the lights turned on automatically, illuminating the whole room like daytime.The room is very deep and long, but there are only a multi-functional sign scanning table, a hospital bed and a set of office desks and chairs on the floor. Pot, pour tea for Lu Ting: "It seems to be cold, do you want a new brew?"

Lu Ting sat down on the guest chair in front of the desk, and said with a smile: "It's all the same, you can take a rest."

Shu Rui pulled out the high-backed chair, sat upright, and smiled: "Let's talk about it, why do you ask that kind of needle?"

Lu Ting sipped his tea: "Of course it's because I might be pregnant."

Shu Rui frowned: "Do you want to test it?"

Lu Ting didn't hesitate: "Not yet."

"...Then let's assume for the time being that you are indeed pregnant," Shu Rui pondered for a moment, "Why did you have to have it removed? To be more precise, it was removed by an injection. Because of your age? But your family has arranged a blind date for you, and you It shouldn’t be a big problem to get married now.”

"Because I think it's in the way." Lu Ting said quickly.

"Oh," Shu Rui nodded, "What about others?"

"who?"

"Deng Mochi."

Lu Ting put down his teacup, looked at Shu Rui and said, "I'm looking for you because I don't want to look for my sister. My sister will definitely ask the same questions as you just now, and ask more questions, so can we talk less and do more?"

"You quarreled, something happened to his younger siblings, so you quarreled," Shu Rui picked up his knife-like speaking speed, and retreated to the French window together with the rolling chair, "Then you can't face each other. To take the child to open the knife."

Lu Ting froze for a moment, unable to answer for a while.

"Or did he just disappear?" Shu Rui crossed his legs and stared at Lu Ting as usual, "Last time, Lu An arrested a bunch of people. I just fished He Zhensheng out more than a week ago. He If you have something to do with Deng Mochi, just say that you can't get in touch with him at all."

"No."

"Sure enough, he really left! I still don't believe He Zhensheng guessed that he disappeared, but I said he must be with you," Shu Rui frowned, "It's really good, just mark your ass and leave!"

Lu Ting knew that he was often like this when he was young, with a smart look that sees through everything, everyone is drunk and I am alone, but only this time he was upset, and he stood up: "Why are you so concerned about the two of us?" ?”

"Because you are asking me for help! Of course I have the right to find out the situation and choose whether to help or not," Shu Rui also stood up and softened his tone, "Yes, those two children are very pitiful, but Lu Ting, let me ask you, aren’t your children pitiful? Are you not pitiful? Is this all your fault?”

"It's not that I want to blame anyone, and he doesn't necessarily blame me. There may be other more important things before he left." Lu Ting walked to the window and looked at Shu Rui from the corner of his eye. "Anyway, there must be him." Difficulties."

"Leaving the pregnant Omega alone without saying a word is abandoning. No matter how you say it, it is a scumbag."

"Come on!" Lu Ting shouted.

"What's wrong with me, am I wrong?" Shu Rui also called.

"It was all voluntary at the time, and I agreed to take medicine, but I didn't remember it!" Lu Ting stared fiercely at Fa Xiao's face, "Why is he a scum? If you don't understand the situation, can you stop talking nonsense? "

Shu Rui suddenly closed his mouth tightly, and stared back motionless, his gaze gradually changed from sharp to dull, like the ice blade being worn off from an ice skate, leaving only the wooden handle.The two stood in a stalemate for about 3 minutes, and both realized that they had already passed the days when they had nothing to say.

"Okay," Shu Rui was the one who surrendered first, "I just don't want you to hurt yourself. But you are indeed an adult, and you can really make your own decisions. Do you still want me not to tell anyone about this?" People? Don't worry, I will keep it secret."

Lu Ting pinched the bridge of his nose, looked out the window, and said softly, "Thank you."

"I've prepared the injection, and it's in the freezer." Shu Rui leaned against the windowpane, as lifeless as the duck palm he raised, "Finally, I would like to remind you that this medicine has serious side effects. Let me just say a few things, it will take effect within six hours, accompanied by slight disturbance of heart function and insufficient blood supply to the whole body, in the long run, it may affect your future fertility, of course, it does not mean that It will not be able to have children. The problem of reducing the conception rate still depends on the individual's physique and living habits."

"Well, I checked them all."

"The last sentence, why not wait until the fifth week to remove it?"

"That would make it harder for me."

Shu Rui nodded, his mouth was pursed into a line, as if he was gritting his teeth, he walked to the reception room, took out a tin foil vacuum bag from the injection trough on the lower floor of the freezer, put it on the tray with the disinfection supplies, and took it out together come over.

Lu Ting had already taken off his coat, and rolled the sleeves of the sweater all the way to his shoulders, exposing his entire left arm.

"In fact, it is better to hit the spine, and the adverse reactions such as body pain will be lighter." Shu Rui reminded.

"Just here." Lu Ting sat on the office chair and put his hands on the table.

"It really hurts. According to clinical experience, it hurts more than pulling out a solid tooth without anesthesia."

"Can this be compared?" Lu Ting smiled.

"Just to tease you, so that you don't look so ugly when you cry." Shu Rui took the alcohol cotton with tweezers, and carefully applied it on the socket of the elbow.

Lu Ting still laughed, and he stopped talking. When the thumb-thick injection was removed from the tin foil, and when the needle entered the blood vessel, and the transparent drug flowed into his pulse, the corners of his upturned mouth sank, but still very quiet.

He didn't pretend to be calm, and he didn't think he was being patient, because he really didn't feel anything.If it is said that the process of pushing is actually like pulling out, pulling out his soul—isn't that too exaggerated?

Lu Ting was always sentimental before, but now he hates himself like that.There is no need for a ceremony, let alone self-pity, he reminded himself repeatedly, and then he pressed the cotton swab on the eye of the needle, just like getting a vaccination when he was a child, and then lazily threw it away after pressing it for 2 minutes, and put it back on the sleeve.

The difference is that the doctor didn't stop him.

"Go home?" Shu Rui asked.

"Wait a while," Lu Ting leaned back in the chair, "Isn't there an observation period?"

"Do you smoke?" Shu Rui asked again.

"what?"

Shu Rui pulled out a cigarette case from the first drawer instead of his electronic cigarette stick, "I got it from He Zhensheng."

Lu Ting rubbed the bridge of his nose and smiled: "I don't believe this is what a doctor said to a patient who just finished taking medicine, or in a non-smoking hospital."

"When I really want to die, I will smoke. It may cause me chronic poisoning, but it will not make me jump off the building right now." Shu Rui handed over one, "This is better than electronic cigarettes. Sure enough, everything is really good."

Lu Ting suddenly thought of the one that Deng Mochi was holding in his mouth in the glass window of the barbecue shop, and the one that Deng Mochi took from his hand and walked away nonchalantly biting.

That cigarette accompanied him to the pet store, and brought back his brother, sister, and puppy.

Lu Ting looked at his hand. Without his consent, he held the cigarette between his fingers. When he bit the cigarette holder hard, he still didn't dare to let go.Shu Rui sat on the edge of the desk, struck an antique-like match, lit it for him, and went to light his own.

Strangely, it was also tar and tobacco, but this time Lu Ting was not so choked.His tongue was bitter and numb, but he took a deep breath as if he lacked oxygen, without any intention of stopping.No one will snatch his cigarettes and finish them for him.His eyes were a little dry and sore, probably from the soot, Lu Ting blinked his eyelids, looking down at the night outside the window.

They are floating above the crater. The extinct volcano contains a round lake called Xingu Lake, which is not connected to the Renhe River, let alone the Renhe Sea.The surface of the lake is very large, making the luxurious and huge hospital small. The lake water is darker than the night fog, but in the impression it is emerald green during the day, with a saturation as high as that of paint. When the sun is good, it is very translucent.

Lu Ting thought of Deng Mochi again, and thought of his right eye.In fact he was thinking about him all the time.The adverse reaction seems to have begun, at least the soreness appeared in the eyes, and Lu Ting subconsciously flicked his eyes away, and Lu Ting looked towards the capital not far away.The dense buildings spread all the way to the foot of the volcano. Cold colors are cold, and warm colors are still cold. The neon lights of the high-rise buildings that fill the city are gorgeous and barbaric. They have no civilization, but they are all civilization.

After smoking to the end, a pile of ashes fell out of his pants, and his heart was about to be crushed. Lu Ting didn't want to feel the loss, and he didn't shed tears after all.

"We are quite alike." Shu Rui suddenly started talking.

"Where does it look like? It's been the opposite everywhere since I was a child."

"They're all the type to ask for trouble," Shu Rui chuckled, and he softened, "Maybe it's because the people who make us suffer are so charming, and such fools who are smooth sailing will be attracted to them. As long as You can blame yourself for being unlucky."

"I'm not unlucky," Lu Ting corrected earnestly, "You said you were asking for trouble, do you regret it?"

Shu Rui remained silent for a moment, then suddenly asked: "Hey, I'm really curious, when will you feel broken? Like now?"

"No," Lu Ting rubbed his face, "It's not so fragile, there are still a lot of things to do."

"Losing someone very important, will you?"

Lu Ting was a little anxious, thinking that you must watch me collapse?Haven't I lost it already?He bumped Shu Rui's hand holding the cigarette with his fist: "Don't ask such a frustrating question."

Shu Rui hesitated to speak, the gloom on his face has not dissipated tonight.

"What's wrong?" Lu Ting frowned.

"Let's go," Shu Rui walked quickly to the reception room, and brought Lu Ting a cold medicine box, "I guess there is such a thing, I will prescribe some medicines for you before the meeting, and I know the usage and dosage. Label it, eat a little if the reaction is too big, I have to work overtime, you go home and rest."

Lu Ting looked at him suspiciously, and took the medicine box silently, "Good night then." Standing at the door, Lu Ting turned his head again, "You should at least lie down for a while, it takes 100% sudden death every day."

"Okay." Shu Rui leaned against the air purifier and smiled at him.

Lu Ting pressed the doorknob, and when you get out of this door, you have no reason to be weak, he said to himself, took a deep breath and pushed the door out, only to meet someone right in front of him.It was Lu Zhi, who was as haggard as Shu Rui, holding a stack of documents in one hand, and was about to knock on the door with the other, hanging in the air.

"Sister?" Lu Ting's forehead froze.

Lu Zhi's expression could be called frightened: "It's so late, is there something wrong with your body?"

"No, I came to the hospital to see someone. It happened that I hadn't seen Xiao Rui for a long time, so I just chatted." Lu Tingheng had an indescribable premonition. He calmed down and observed his sister's reaction.

"Oh, let's go home early," Lu Zhi walked into the room by mistake, and patted his arm again, "My sister won't see you off, there's something urgent."

"What is this?" Lu Ting held her wrist.

The second he rubbed shoulders, he saw the stack of documents in Lu Zhi's hand. The first one was a person's information card or medical record. The face on the ID photo was familiar.

At this second, he clearly recalled that he had watched it on TV, in front of the small TV in that light yellow bungalow, on Deng Mochi's shoulder.

It was the captain of the advance team, a colleague of his mother.

Lu Zhi pulled out her hand forcefully, put the document upside down in front of her chest, her eyelashes flickered uncomfortably, "Lulu, this is a secret, Xiao Rui and I have something to discuss, you go home first—"

Shu Rui, who had been silent for a long time, spoke at this moment: "Tell him."

Lu Zhi was stunned: "What did you say?"

"I said, tell him." The melancholy between Shu Rui's brows became more intense, and Lu Ting finally realized after watching it all night that it was actually pain. Shu Rui just turned his face away in pain, not looking at the two of them, "We can't hide from him about his own mother."