clean moonlight

Shen Zhizhou searched for a long time before finding the spare key under the shoe cabinet.Yang Qingze went to the kitchen to get the knife: "If you can't find it anymore, I'll chop it up."

"Chop hack, isn't this coming?" Shen Zhizhou shook his hands and inserted the key into the hole, before turning it, the door opened from the inside.

Li Sinian was wearing dark blue pajamas, looking at the two of them in a daze.Finally, his eyes stopped on the knife in Yang Qingze's hand, and after looking at it for a while, he backed away to let the two of them in.

Shen Zhizhou pulled Li Sinian to look at him: "You are so frighteningly frightening, I thought you were going to burn down my guest room."

Yang Qingze followed the smell to find the source of the scorching, opened it and found that there were instant noodles cooked into porridge inside.

"You..." Shen Zhizhou pointed at the kettle and stared at Li Sinian, the changes in the expressions on his face were like a big show.

"After sleeping, I felt a little hungry, so I cooked this." Li Sinian pointed to the package of dried noodles in the trash can: "This is a rubbish brand, it's so unpalatable to eat dry."

Shen Zhizhou glanced at the packaging: "It was my mother donating old clothes on a certain fish, and the website sent them."

Li Sinian said "Oh", and went to the living room to find something to eat, looking for the scent.

Shen Zhizhou kicked the trash can, and the hand holding Yang Qingze was covered in cold sweat.He checked and confirmed that there was only burnt dry noodles in the room, and then he dragged Yang Qingze out.

"It's delicious, isn't it the takeaway you ordered?" Li Sinian dug two spoonfuls of porridge into his mouth and said, "Why haven't I seen you order porridge before, eh! Are there any other dishes?" ? You are cultivating immortals, and you only order porridge?"

"It's cooked by Qingze." Shen Zhizhou took a look at Li Sinian, confirmed that there was nothing unusual, and said, "You can sleep with me tonight."

"No, don't you have any idea what you're sleeping on your own?" Li Sinian said rather disgustingly: "Besides, what else can I do, I really just want to cook instant noodles. I should have known that there is such delicious porridge , I still cook a fart."

"By the way, Qingze, can you cook?" Li Sinian called Yang Qingze affectionately, ignoring Shen Zhizhou's probing eyes.

Yang Qingze was stunned for a moment and replied to him: "A little bit"

"Great, I'll move to a new house and take you there."

"You want to move?" Shen Zhizhou looked at Li Sinian.

"Yeah, a room in the school district. I'll live with my dad." Li Sinian thought for a while and said, "I'm quite an asshole, but if I continue to live here, I'm going to go crazy."

Shen Zhizhou nodded, and he also felt that this was the best solution at present.If he stays any longer, Li Sinian's illness will not be good for anyone.

Li Sinian went into the room after eating, and left a sentence: "I'm really fine, I'm just sleepy. I'll be fine after a night of sleep, you two go to bed early too."

Shen Zhizhou looked at the closed door and sighed.

Yang Qingze moved his lips, but in the end he didn't ask or say anything.

After the two of them finished eating, Shen Zhizhou hugged the quilt and came out again before brushing his teeth.

Looking at Shen Zhizhou's dangling figure, Yang Qingze couldn't help thinking of what Li Sinian said about Shen Zhizhou sleeping, and suddenly felt a little awkward.

"Come on, fall into Dad's arms as much as you want." Shen Zhizhou lay on the quilt, and stretched out his hands to Yang Qingze who was still standing by the bed.

Yang Qingze didn't move, his eyes swept over the bookshelf vaguely.

Shen Zhizhou followed his gaze, and his eyes were a little erratic: "Those notebooks, I used to go to see a psychiatrist every year, saying that I wrote all the unpleasant things in a beautiful way, and slowly you will find that you What you write will get better and better."

Zhizhou paused for a moment and said, "It's a way to cure diseases. My mother has a good relationship with his parents, so she bought a bunch of them for me."

Shen Zhizhou got up and took some of them and spread them out in front of Yang Qingze: "Look, this is a nature collection. Inside are some seasonal flowers and plants. I'm really not sick, and I don't have anything to write down to cover up with beauty."

When Shen Zhizhou said this, he didn't look at Yang Qingze, but seemed to be remembering something.

"Are you a tear mole?" Yang Qingze didn't read those notebooks, his eyes fixed on the corners of Shen Zhizhou's eyes.

"Yeah, look, the fortune teller said it was a female tear mole. He said that he is doomed to have a rare love and an unhappy marriage in this life. I will go to his uncle. The point is that he also said that I love to cry. I don't want to brag about it. Dad, I have lived for 17 years, and I have never cried once."

Yang Qingze nodded, lifted the quilt and climbed onto the bed.

After a long time, the room fell silent.Shen Zhizhou raised his hand and pressed the light switch, and when Yang Yang Qingze thought he was asleep, he said: "Actually, there is no need to change the topic, it's not that I can't tell you."

Yang Qingze's body huddled under the quilt trembled, then turned to face Shen Zhizhou.

Shen Zhizhou was always facing his direction, seeing him turn around, he didn't have the nerve to turn around.He stared at Yang Qingze generously, and looked at him through the light that was exposed in the gaps in the curtains.

"Li Sinian's mother was the first graduate student in their village. His grandmother raised her by herself to go to college and then to graduate school. When Li Sinian was young, she offered to take care of him. But he also has an aunt, who is That cousin's mother." Shen Zhizhou thought for a while and said, "This is also the reason why my parents and his parents are determined not to have a second child."

Chen Yan started a business with Li Wen, who had nothing, and had no time to take care of Li Sinian.The husband and wife discussed it, and finally decided to send Li Sinian to be taken care of by his grandmother.But at that time, there was a child beside my grandmother, my aunt's first child, and that child was half a year younger than Li Si Nian.

Grandma said that the two children can be taken care of together and can play and study together.Six-year-old Li Sinian thought so too, and he gave all his toys and snacks to his aunt's child, Zhou Jiangjiang.

But Zhou Jiangjiang would always grab what was left of him, and Li Sinian went to tell his grandmother that there would always be only one result: "Your brother is still young, as an older brother, you have to let him go."

Li Sinian at a young age learned to hide his beloved things after knowing that his grandmother would not help him.At this time, Zhou Jiangjiang would cry and tell his grandmother that his brother bullied him and would not give him toys to play with or snacks for him.

Grandma never scolded Li Sinian without exception, saying that he was so selfish at a young age.In front of Zhou Jiangjiang, he was forced to find toys and snacks, otherwise he would not be allowed to eat for dinner.

In the beginning, Li Sinian would take advantage of the phone calls with his parents to complain.But after each lecture, Chen Yan and Li Wen felt that conflicts between children were not a big deal.Over time, Li Sinian stopped talking.Every phone call is "um, oh".

Two years later, Li Sinian even refused to answer the calls from Chen Yan and Li Wen to his grandmother.They felt that Li Sinian was playing petty temper, and even asked grandma to turn on the loudspeaker and say on the phone: "If you don't answer the phone, you won't call in the future. Mom and Dad don't want you anymore."

At that time, Li Si was eight years old, biting his lip and not answering the phone.Later, Li Wen and his wife became more and more aware of their son's abnormality.After rushing to grandma's house, I found that Li Sinian's arms were all scratched with knives.

Chen Yan cried and wanted to hug him, but he pushed him away.Li Wen asked his teachers and classmates all over, only to realize that those wounds were all done by himself.It was also at that time that Li Sinian's parents learned from the psychiatrist that every time Li Sinian felt wronged, he would slash himself.Such self-harming behavior lasted for almost two years.

Li Sinian's parents took Li Sinian back to the city and saw many psychiatrists.At first Li Sinian would tell the doctor about his grandmother's house, but one day he found his parents were suspicious and cautious, as if they knew something.He couldn't accept it for a while, and jumped off the balcony of the hospital.

Fortunately, it was summer at that time. After the heavy rain, the soil on the ground was loose, and some flowers and plants blocked some resistance.Li Sinian did not break his body, but he began to refuse to communicate with the psychiatrist.

Until one day, when Li Sinian's parents took him to the hospital, he met a sister who was painting in the park.The elder sister is Zhou Yue, an amateur painter majoring in psychology, and also a college student in a university next door.

What made Li Wen and Chen Yan happy was Li Sinian's transformation. He began to pay attention to the maintenance of the scars on his hands, because Zhou Yue's paintings were not good-looking.At the same time, with Zhou Yue's help, Li Sinian gradually opened up his heart.He listened to Zhou Yue's words, and wrote down the unhappy things in a beautiful notebook, and then left a blank page next to the unhappy page, and wrote down the happy things when he encountered it.

Over time, Li Sinian found that the happy things in those beautiful notebooks far outnumbered the unhappy things.Others also like to keep accounts more and more, and at the same time, they have come back from the long and crooked road.

"The notebooks that Fangfang tore on the ground are all the things he wrote down over the years." Shen Zhizhou thought for a while and then said: "Fangfang's brother is the one who bullied Li Sinian back then. persuaded to quit."

"Zhou Jiangjiang?" Yang Qingze thought about it and asked him.

"Yes, you know him?" Shen Zhizhou said and moved a little towards Yang Qingze's side.

"Well, I beat you up last month." Yang Qingze said casually

"Well, good students will fight?" Shen Zhizhou snorted and said, "But he did owe it. Before, Chen Nuo and I also beat him."

"Oh, by the way, Chen Nuoyan and I are childhood friends with Li Sinian, so I'll introduce you to you another day, in the next class."

Yang Qingze hummed, but didn't speak.

"Why did you beat him?" Shen Zhizhou asked cautiously, "Did he also bully you?"

Yang Qingze was stunned for a moment, and said almost without emotion: "No, his father framed my mother for making a bad video. On the day my parents divorced, he came to blackmail me, and I beat him."

These two words contain too much information, Shen Zhizhou thought for a long time and could only come up with one sentence: "Good fight".

"What about you?" Yang Qingze asked for no reason, but after thinking about it, he thought it shouldn't be.After asking, he turned around and fell asleep.

Of course Shen Zhizhou knew what he was asking, but he didn't know how to start it for a while.Seeing the back of Yang Qingze's head not moving for a long time, Shen Zhizhou finally couldn't help poking him in the face, pulled his head and said in a muffled voice: "I also lived at my grandmother's house when I was young."

I also lived at my grandmother's house when I was a child.