clean moonlight

Shen Zhizhou lay on the back seat and fell asleep in a daze, until he was awakened by the noise around him, and he reluctantly climbed down from the back seat.

"Come here, why do you bring so many things?" Grandma moved Shen Zhizhou a bottle of peanut milk while moving the things in the car home.

Shen Zhizhou frowned and said nothing.

Zou Yi calmly took the milk from Shen Zhizhou's hand, and handed it to a child who just ran over.

Shen Zhizhou doesn't eat peanuts, and he can't even accept anything that tastes like peanuts, which is the same as Zou Yi.But grandma's house only buys peanut milk, and grandma never thinks that anyone can not like to drink peanut milk.He only said that Shen Zhizhou was used to living a good life and couldn't drink this cheap peanut milk.But every time I see Shen Zhizhou, I still stuff peanut milk into his hands.

After the meal, Shen Fang and Zou Yi took their grandmother to the town to buy a new washing machine.Shen Zhizhou didn't want to go, so he lay on the sofa in a daze.After a long time, he turned on his phone. He glanced at the chat history, but Yang Qingze didn't reply to him.He told his cousin and rode his mountain bike out.At first, I just walked forward aimlessly, and gradually my feet uncontrollably pedaled and turned, walked straight and turned again.

I don't know how long he rode before he stopped in front of a reservoir.There is no obvious boundary in winter in the south, and the reservoir is still surrounded by green plants.There are people fishing in twos and threes around the reservoir. It is actually difficult to catch fish in this weather.But there are also many enthusiasts who love to catch those lazy fish on such a sunny winter afternoon, maybe it is a silly fish waiting to take the bait.

Shen Zhizhou found a tree and sat down, his coat was pressed under his buttocks as a cushion.He used to like it very much, but at that time he couldn't ride a bicycle, so he climbed up the mountain step by step with his cousin.He spends almost every weekend in this reservoir with his cousin, playing with stones or doing homework around, while his cousin carries some cakes and snacks for sale.

Uncle Shen Zhizhou's family conditions are actually not bad, but he raised his daughter just like the child brides-in-law married from other villages in the old days.It's fine to cook and wash clothes at home, but she has to go to this kind of place to make money even on weekends.

Shen Zhizhou had the impression that his aunt was not bad to him, but he had an inexplicable dislike for her.Maybe it came from his cousin or maybe it was something else very philistine, he couldn't make it very clear.

To be honest, he was not qualified to do anything.He thought of countless ways of revenge, and he even stood at the gate of the police station.But everything is always going around and calculating, these people don't owe him anything.For the sake of his parents, they are actually kind to him to a large extent.Except for that, except for that one week, they didn't apologize to him.

A gust of wind blew by, and the branches on the tree squeaked.Even though he chose an angle where the sun could shine on his body, Shen Zhizhou was swept by the wind and hugged his arms tightly.It was obviously a very free time, although it was a bit cold, it could definitely be called a gentle wind.But he really felt the coolness engraved into his bone marrow, making him very uncomfortable.

Shen Zhizhou looked at the surrounding mountains, and finally his eyes searched for the various routes at the foot of the mountains among the mountains.I silently wondered if there was a road at the other end of the road?What kind of road will it be?

In fact, he has seen many of them with his own eyes, and he clearly remembers that there is no way.There are still mountains behind the mountains, and further down is the village where my grandmother's house is located.Shen Zhizhou couldn't help but sighed in his heart and thought: "Why aren't there other roads behind these mountains? So many roads and small roads add up to the road to the village."

There was laughter in the distance, and Shen Zhizhou turned around.Watching the two children chasing each other with barbecue skewers, there are several busy adults standing beside them.They set up a barbecue grill by the side of the reservoir, and the shelves were filled with all kinds of food.And just behind them, there is a publicity sign taller than one person: "Fishing is prohibited, barbecue is prohibited, and offenders will be fined from 50 to 1000."

Shen Zhizhou stared at the billboard and smiled, suddenly feeling powerless.He said silently in his heart: "It is forbidden to favor boys over girls, and it is forbidden to marry underage. Violators will be fined from 50 to 100."

Thinking of this, he found it funny again, he seemed to see his cousin's face through the water waves behind the billboard.Pieces and pieces of things appeared in front of my eyes as if they were forcibly dragged out.He still remembered that it was a day several years ago, and the almanac said that it was advisable to marry and avoid meeting relatives and friends.But on that day, grandma's distant relatives told her cousin about their marriage, and the family met in this small village to eat, drink, and talk about their children's life-long events.

He was young at that time, and because of his good relationship with his cousin, he sat behind the bed and listened for several hours while taking melons and fruits.Shen Zhizhou can't remember many things clearly, but he still remembers his aunt's expression when talking about gift money.He bet that was the only time he had seen his aunt talking about his cousin in all these years.He also remembered that number, 60.

Shen Zhizhou's cousin is the first child of his uncle and aunt, so it is reasonable to say that she is not loved by her parents.Unexpectedly, Uncle Shen Zhizhou was in poor health during that time, and the family's expectations for the only child were too high, so that when she was born a girl, everyone couldn't accept it.But it was only psychologically unacceptable. When the family thought that this might be the only child, it was better to treat her with more or less sympathy for her parents.But it didn't get better for a few years, because Shen Zhizhou's aunt had another child, and this child had fulfilled the wishes of the whole family, and he was a leader.The focus of the family is on the child, and they are becoming less and less concerned about cousin Shen Zhizhou.At first, my aunt asked her to wash diapers and sweep the floor, but gradually realized that this daughter was willing to do anything without complaint, and then began to entrust her with all the housework at home.If he was not careful, he would beat and scold him again and again.

During the years when Shen Zhizhou stayed at his grandmother's house, he often saw his cousin being beaten and scolded.At the beginning, he didn't like this tattered cousin. Although he didn't follow the people around to bully her, he didn't pay much attention to her.Shen Zhizhou really had a relationship with her because of his cousin.The whole family, the little ancestor, put a bunch of earthworms on his bed, and Shen Zhizhou feels like throwing up even thinking about that scene.

Shen Zhizhou was most influenced by Zou Yi, from the food he didn't like to eat, to the fear of fire and disgusting molluscs.It is also because of these messy little problems that Shen Fang dotes on his love rival in his previous life very much.According to Shen Fang, the Internet is full of deceitful people, it's like your mother, it's not bad if you don't fight.

Shen Zhizhou has gotten along well with the children around him since he was a child, no matter where he is, there are a group of friends who play together.When he first arrived at his grandmother's house, he held a large bag of toffee bought by Zou Yi and distributed it to the children around him one by one.Seeing those who are older or stronger, he will secretly give two candies.In short, he held his thighs and calves firmly, and soon became the key object of fawning and protection among a group of children.Because of this, his cousin was dissatisfied and poured a large box of earthworms on his bed when he went to wash his feet at night.

Shen Zhizhou will always remember the fear he felt when he climbed into bed, and he also deeply remembers his cousin who was attracted by his crying and his cousin who was kicked off the bed by his cousin.Then came the grandmother and aunt who heard the sound, and Shen Zhizhou was in his own panic, watching his aunt dragging his cousin by her hair and bumping her against the bed rail.I don't know how many bumps it took before he came back to his senses and rushed over to knock his aunt away.

He slept with his cousin that night. Amidst the comforting voice of his grandmother, he called for the first time to call his parents to complain.

Shen Zhizhou has always known that children living in his grandmother's house are different from those in his uncle's and aunt's house.Apart from kissing or not, the biggest reason is that he paid for it.Zou Yi and Shen Fang gave money to repair his uncle's house and asked them to take care of Shen Zhizhou for a period of time.So no matter whether Shen Zhizhou is a relative or not, they have to take good care of him.

That night, Shen Zhizhou stood in front of his cousin and pointed at a group of adults and shouted, "I want to tell my dad, you cheated him of money, and you didn't treat me well at all."

A group of adults fell silent for an instant, and my aunt took the clothes hanger by the bed and tried to wave at her cousin again.Shen Zhizhou didn't know where the courage came from, and yelled at her: "If you hit her again in the future, I will say you hit me."

At that time, Shen Zhizhou was only in the second and third grades.He didn't understand the twists and turns of the human relationship between adults, he just stubbornly felt that his cousin was beaten because of him.There is only a cousin and a cousin in this family, and the cousin is a bad guy, so I just play with the cousin.

The cousin who played with Shen Zhizhou was indeed beaten less, but there was still a lot of scolding.Shen Zhizhou even heard his aunt scold his cousin bastard, wild dog, etc. His aunt scolded no matter how ugly, and never regarded her as her own child.

At that time, Shen Zhizhou was still too young, and would only ask Shen Fang and Zou Yi full of curiosity about what bastards and wild dogs meant when they called Shen Fang and Zou Yi.The aunt was so startled that she lost her balance and fell to the ground, and the grandmother hurriedly snatched the phone from him.

After that, when Shen Zhizhou and Zou Yi talked on the phone every week, his cousin was always by his side.Of course, his aunt's complexion will also be much better, no matter who it is.

Shen Zhizhou always felt that her cousin was not born to his aunt, and after getting better and better with his cousin, he didn't have the heart to tell her.He was eight at the time and his cousin was 14.

Until later, that person appeared in this village out of thin air.His cousin began to borrow pocket money from him frequently, and she also began to have her own little secret. It was only then that Shen Zhizhou discovered that his cousin was actually born to his aunt.His cousin told him herself, she said it was just not his uncle's own.

At that time, Shen Zhizhou didn't understand the meaning of not being born, but only knowing that those who treated her badly were not born.It wasn't until many years later, when he frankly mentioned the time at his grandmother's house to Zou Yi and Shen Fang, that he suddenly understood what he meant.

It's a bit funny to say that after his aunt got married, he was pushed into a hurry by his grandmother.In desperation, he went to the hospital for an examination and found that there was nothing wrong with him, but he dared not ask his uncle to do the examination.I was fascinated by ghosts for a while, so I found someone else to try to hide it.She was sure that his uncle would not go to the hospital for an examination, and his grandmother would not blame him for the reason.In the first few years, taking his cousin with him was barely enough.Who knows that there will be another child later, all of which remind her of the dirty things she has done.She thought in a twisted heart that all of this was because of her daughter, and she couldn't be allowed to stay at home anymore.So I don't know what method I used, but I just made an engagement with a distant relative who is far away.

Cousin Shen Zhizhou knew about this when she was very young, and she overheard it during the conversation between her mother and her grandmother.So she never made noise, just afraid that one day her mother really didn't want her.The only thing she has done in recent years is two things, one is to beat her own brother for Shen Zhizhou.The other thing is to flee from her hometown with a person who promised her the rest of her life, and has never been seen since.She didn't regret the latter matter and Shen Zhizhou didn't know, but she said she didn't regret the former matter, and she even said goodbye and thank you to Shen Zhizhou.After walking away for a long time, she came back to say sorry.

Shen Zhizhou didn't know who her cousin had gone with, she didn't give him any hint.The only thing he gave him was a bank card number, and he promised her to call his grandparents to lend her money.

That call was not made in the end, and all the people in the village gathered at his grandmother's house that day.He was interrogated by three circles inside and outside three circles of them like a death row prisoner. He didn't say anything, even if it was a sentence I really didn't know.He was just sad that he didn't have a chance to call his grandparents, and he gradually forgot their grandparents' phone numbers amidst the noise of a group of people.

Shen Zhizhou lay under the tree and fell asleep. In his dream, he was locked in an empty room.It was dark all around, and earthworms were thrown in from the window from time to time.This dream merged with the scene when he was young, and he couldn't tell the real from the fake.I just remember that before I fainted from hunger, I was still silently chanting the first few digits of half of the phone number: "13777...".

"Don't come here..." The child's scream suddenly sounded, and Shen Zhizhou was also awakened.He rubbed his hair, the coldness coming from his body was exactly the same as in the dream.The two children were still playing in the distance, but this time the little boy was chasing the little girl with a stick full of earthworms.

He shook his head and changed direction again, trying to avoid the two children.He only raised his eyes to look into the distance, and then closed his eyes again.After more than ten seconds, he opened it again uncertainly. The setting sun shone on his eyes, making him a little uncomfortable.But he didn't even want to move his eyelids, he just stared at the figure in the distance walking step by step.The sun spread in front of him, and every step he took seemed to be getting closer to the circle of light in front of him.A few minutes later, the man came out from the aperture, stood straight in front of him and asked him in a low voice: "Have I covered your sunlight?"

Shen Zhizhou shook his head and closed his eyes tightly, trying to put back the tears forced out by the glare of the sun.

"No, it's in front of me."