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Yi Fan didn't mention the breakup after that day, and Qin Yu naturally wouldn't take the initiative to bring it up. The two of them acted as if nothing had happened. After getting up every day, they went to the training room to rank or stayed in their own room—or rather, it was Qin Yu. It was as if he was squatting at the door of the dormitory, and he would follow Yi Fan every time he opened the door, and he followed him when he went to the training room or the rest room—he was not talking and laughing like before, even other people noticed There was a strange atmosphere between the two.

"Zhang Yingxian finished his work, carrying a suit jacket, strode into the training room, raised his hand and touched Yi Fan's forehead, "It's not burning anymore? "

"Well, my fever will go down quickly." Yi Fan nodded, and pointed to the screen, indicating that he was live broadcasting.

Usually the team will be signed by the live broadcast platform to broadcast for a certain period of time every month without affecting the training. Yi Fan has a lot of live broadcast time left this month, so he simply used the vacation time to make up for the time.

There is selfishness. When he started the live broadcast, Qin Yu would restrain the eyes that had been falling on him, making people relax a bit.

Zhang Yingxian still wanted to say something, but he parted his lips but didn't say anything. He sighed, rubbed Yi Fan's head, asked about Qin Yu's body, and then turned and left.

The atmosphere between the two of them was too weird. When the vacation ended two days later, Fang Chi raised his eyebrows as soon as he opened the door and entered the training room, and raised his hand to press Yi Fan's head: "What's wrong, dog?"

Yi Fan's head was almost pressed against the keyboard by him, he pushed Fang Chi's hand away with all his strength, and looked at Wen Tu who was following Fang Chi: "It's nothing, I'm on rank , what are you doing?"

"You hit rank right after you came back? You're hardworking enough." Fang Chi turned sideways to let Wen Tu in first, and stood by Yi Fan's desk looking at him, "What stimulated you?"

"It's nothing, it's really nothing." Yi Fan shook his head and stopped talking, Fang Chi also nodded, stopped asking, and returned to his seat.

All the players have to return to the team today, but it's still considered the holiday time, and almost no one went to rank.The base was lively again, but there were still only the two of them in the training room, so quiet that only the sound of the keyboard and mouse could be heard, and even the air felt a little more sad.

After typing a rank, Yi Fan turned his head and glanced at Qin Yu. Seeing that the other party was still playing, he immediately took off his earphones, turned off the computer, got up and went out.Qin Yu subconsciously got up and chased after him. As soon as he stood up, he came back to his senses, and slowly sat down again, but the hand holding the mouse was getting harder.

Yi Fan took a deep breath after leaving the training room, and was about to turn his head to go upstairs when he turned around and saw Wen Tu squatting at the stairs to feed the cat.The assistant raised his eyes and glanced at him, and said expressionlessly, "Fang Chi is waiting for you."

"Ah." Yi Fan raised his hand and scratched his head, "Let's go together."

Wen Tu was noncommittal, picked up the suitcase and took the lead upstairs, and pushed open the bedroom door. Fang Chi was squatting beside the bed to pack his luggage. There were two suitcases on the left and one on the right, one for Wentu and one for himself.

Are you two going to live together?

Yi Fan opened his mouth, but still didn't ask.

"Are you here?" Fang Chi didn't even lift his head, "Wen Xiaotu, put it down on time."

Wen Tu's expression changed.

"I told you that you are not allowed to bring the cat into the dormitory." Fang Chi looked up at Yi Fan, "Come sit down and tell Dad what's wrong with you."

Yi Fan walked over and sat on the bed, and saw Wen Tu standing at the door of the dormitory with the cat in his arms, motionless, as if he was competing with someone, until Fang Chi raised his head helplessly and waved at him, then he put the cat down and came in Then he closed the door behind him.

"I'm fine." Yi Fan rubbed his hands, "Why do you ask me what's wrong as soon as you walk in?"

"I don't know if there's anything wrong with you," Fang Chi said, "Father has raised you for more than ten years anyway."

"Hey," Yi Fan yelled while staring at Fang Chi's back, but he didn't know what he was doing, so he scratched his face, got off the bed, squatted on the edge of the bed, and twirled his clothes with his fingers. Bian'er whispered, "It's nothing serious, but I found out that Qin Yu is my ex-girlfriend."

"What?" Fang Chi froze for a moment, but didn't understand.

"That's right, the ex-girlfriend I dated online, do you still remember?" Yi Fan took a deep breath. It's been three days since this happened, but he still couldn't say it completely, and the ending sound trembled unnaturally He didn't see that Fang Chi and Wen Tu quickly looked at each other, "It's Qin Yu, Qin Yu...ptup became a girl and didn't want to lie to me, but then he didn't want to lie to me when I fell into a pit." It's hard to say it clearly, because I'm afraid I'll be sad, I originally wanted to calm myself down, but I didn't expect me...he can only break up. "

After Yi Fan finished speaking, he paused for a while, and continued: "I just found out about it two days ago."

"You mean, Qin Yu lied to you with the girl's photo, you were fooled, and he didn't explain it for so many years, until you found out about it two days ago," Fang Chi dropped the luggage in his hand , looking back at Yi Fan, "Is that what you mean?"

"Ah." Yi Fan thought for a while, then nodded, "Almost."

"When you two were on the phone, couldn't you tell it was a man?" Fang Chi asked.

"He might have a false voice, maybe he used a voice changer, I don't know." Yi Fan leaned his back against the bed and let out a long sigh of relief.After these words were uttered, I finally felt much more comfortable. The gauze above the covered wound was exposed to the sun, and it hurt and itched, but I finally saw the light.

"...Damn," Fang Chi stood up, and inadvertently kicked the suitcase in front of him making some noise, "Fuck. Fuck."

"The knife is in the kitchen." Wen Tu reminded kindly.

"Hey!" Yi Fan was taken aback by Wen Tu's words, and quickly pulled Xia Chi back, "What are you doing?"

"You just told me about what happened three days ago, why didn't you tell me before you were reincarnated in your next life?" Fang Chi's voice sounded a little heavy, reminding Yi Fan of when Fang Chi beat him up in the yard when he was a child. When he always called him fat boy.

"...It's really stupid, I didn't tell anyone." Yi Fan swallowed, "I'll tell you."

"Is this a question of who to tell first?" Fang Chi looked at him with a look on his face that your brain has been eaten by a dog, "After that, did you hit him? Or had a fight."

They fought and quarreled.

and then?

What's next?

Even if he wants to transfer, the summer transfer is almost done. At this time, it is too late to contact other clubs. Not to mention that he has a contract and is forbidden to contact other clubs. Even if he does, he is really Don't want to leave NK.

But if he continues to stay in NK, he will fight side by side with Qin Yu, communication will be unavoidable in the arena, eating and training will have to stick together.

No breaking up, no breaking up.

"I don't know what to do," Yi Fan raised his hands to cover his face, squeezed hard twice, and said in a hoarse voice, "He said he likes me, but I always feel that he doesn't really like me."

Fang Chi and Wen Tu looked over in surprise.

"In the past three days, I have gone through all the scenes we have realized now. It seems that every time he approaches me, he has a purpose, just to appease the idiot who was hurt by him a few years ago. He said he likes me at the beginning At that time, I was thinking, what do I like, I don’t look good, my mentality is not good, my brain is not good, and I can’t say good things, what do I like, he is not blind. "Yi Fan took a deep breath, and suppressed the soreness rushing up his throat, "I only realized after this happened, he was nice to me because of guilt, not because he likes it but because of guilt... maybe I like it a little bit, but it really doesn't matter that much, fuck, I don't know what I'm going to say...do you understand?"

When Yi Fan finished his last sentence, his voice was already trembling, Fang Chi squatted down and pressed his shoulder, and said softly, "Do you like him?"

"I don't like it, who the hell likes it." After Yi Fan said this, he raised his hand and wiped his eye sockets vigorously. His eye sockets were flushed red by his wiping. He paused for a while, then raised his eyes and looked into Fang Chi's eyes , he found that Fang Chi was also looking at him.

The distance was neither close nor far, their eyes met, after a while, Yi Fan nodded and muttered: "I like him."

I think he likes me wholeheartedly.

Dare I?

Wen Tu at the side handed over a pack of tissues, and Yi Fan raised his hand to take it, took out one to cover his face, patted it with his palm, and stopped talking.

Qin Yu outside the door stopped for a long time, he couldn't quite hear what was said inside, but he heard Yi Fan's voice faintly, and the phrase "Who the fuck likes likes."

Normally, he would definitely be able to distinguish whether this sentence was angry or sincere, but at this moment his mind was in chaos, and he bit his lip hard to resist the urge to open the door and go in.

He thought for a while, then turned around and went to the downstairs lounge, where he sat blankly without saying a word.Others saw the strangeness of Ueno these two days, so they didn't rush to talk to him. After waiting for a while, Fang Chi came down, went straight to the sofa next to Qin Yu and sat down, looking straight at him.

"Where's Yi Fan?" Qin Yu asked.

"Wen Tu is with you." Fang Chi said, leaning down, resting his elbows on his knees, clasping his palms in front of him, and said softly, "I told you that Yi Fan is like a light bulb. "

Straight and brittle.

Qin Yu glanced at him, but said nothing.

"I really want to fight with you right now." Fang Chi pressed his fingers slightly, "Fight?"

"Go to the back door." Qin Yu said.

Unable to stretch in the lounge, the two went directly to the back door of the club.Behind the door is a small empty playground. It has been deserted for a long time, and even the trash can beside it has not been collected for a long time.

They really had a fight, punching to the flesh, avoiding the deadly point, not hurting their hands, probably still thinking about the two-day training match.

After the fight, both of them sat down on the steps beside them panting, shoulder to shoulder, raised their heads and gasped as if exhaling the depression in their chests.

"...Yi Fan, when he was young, he was not confident because of his body shape," Fang Chi said, and paused, "Plus, his family's education method is a bit problematic, and his mind is actually quite sensitive...I can't say it myself. Do not believe."

Qin Yu didn't speak.

"But we can't blame his mother, the parents, who always blurt out some words...they think it doesn't matter, but it's harsh to the child's ears." Fang Chi said slowly, his thoughts seemed to drift to the distance, "Some Once I went to his house to play with him, and I heard his mother scold him, 'other children can do it, why can't you? Who would like you like you?'”

"He seems to be a little more sensitive than others since he was a child... He really meant what his relatives often said, 'Your parents don't want you anymore', 'Your mother said they gave you to me'," Fang Chi said. "When he was young, he went to sleep at my grandma's house and slept with me. After waking up in the middle of the night, he found that he was not at his house. He suddenly held his head and started crying. After crying for a long time, he remembered that he came to my house to sleep. Wipe away his tears and go to my mother. Make a phone call, come back to sleep after the phone call, and start crying again after not sleeping for a while."

"His mother sometimes works the night shift, and his father will pick her up. When I was young, I went to bed early. Yi Fan often woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't find his parents, so he called me crying, saying that his parents didn't want him anymore." , crying until his parents came back, and when he heard the sound of the lock being unlocked, he ran to the bed and lay down, then curled up under the quilt and whispered, 'My parents are back, I'm going to bed.'”

"Yi Fan was really annoying when he was a child," Fang Chi finished speaking, took out a cigarette from his trouser pocket, lit it, and handed one to Qin Yu, "It looks solid on the outside, but it's full of glass shards inside. , It’s all about myself. Although so many years have passed, I always feel that his mother’s sentence "who would like you like you" is still stuck in the bottom of his heart, a thorn that cannot be pulled out, which makes his heart shake Yoyo, it’s not stable no matter how you let it go.”

Qin Yu took the cigarette and opened his lips slightly, unable to say anything.

He thought about women's clothing before Yi Fan found out, Yi Fan carefully said to him, "I don't think you like me very much."

At that time, I thought it was Yi Fan's sudden hypocrisy, but now that I think about it, it was only the countless loneliness that grew from the dark that wrapped him tightly, and he was so overwhelmed that he dared to say that sentence. Want to get a sense of security, but Qin Yu has never found it.

Yi Fan is contradictory. On the one hand, he faces the sun, always full of vitality and vigor, and on the other hand, he is full of knife blades, which makes him unable to move.

"I'm not telling you this to make you feel sorry for him. After all, it's all happened, but you can feel sorry for him politely," Fang Chi said, "I mean, you give up, you lie If you cheat him once, he won't let you lie to him a second time."

"But I like him." Qin Yu's hand holding the cigarette was a little unsteady.

"Many people will like him," Fang Chi said.

"I hate him too." Qin Yu said.

Fang Chi extinguished the cigarette butt on the ground, and looked up at him.

"No one has ever been like him... scares me," Qin Yu said slowly, as if he was searching for words from his brain and stitching them together one by one, "He keeps saying how much he likes me, but he imagines No matter how much I like him, I have never been so obsessed with a person or thing. I had a good life, and the money at home was enough for me to live and die with peace of mind, but he appeared, in a different way. In a dazzling manner, on a rampage."

Rampage appeared in my life, with a fragmented but warm sunshine.

Qin Yu escaped for half of his life, shrunk in his own shell, and could have lived a peaceful life.But Yi Fan insisted on pulling him out of his shell. He originally planned not to touch the matter of match-fixing for the rest of his life, but Yi Fan wanted to defeat Ou Nian justifiably; , forcing him to admit that he likes it, and finally when he was about to give up, he suddenly confessed jealously.

But he was clearly in the dark all the time, separated from all the sunlight and darkness, and fled to his own place—he has always been like this, but he can't do it anymore.

These days, whenever he closes his eyes, Yi Fan's expression looks like he wants to run away from him, the back view of him slamming the door that night and every time he pushes away after that, and the phrase "Let's break up" is like a revolving lantern Playing it repeatedly in my mind, the fear of the unknown swallowed my reason little by little, and the only remaining and most critical point was still lingering in my mind.

He can't escape anymore, once he retreats, Yi Fan really won't come back.

I hate him as much as I love him.

"I'll wait for him to believe me, no matter how long I will wait." Qin Yu said.

"Talk about it to his face." Fang Chi smiled.

Qin Yu shook his head.Yi Fan won't believe it anymore, he can only use time to prove it.

Fang Chi probably knew that his persuasion would be ineffective. After hearing Qin Yu's words, his face relaxed a lot. He patted Qin Yu's shoulder with a bit of force, as if he had patted something on his shoulder too. As if, Qin Yu nodded, and when Fang Chi got up to leave, he let out a breath and lit the cigarette with trembling hands.

The wind carried warmth, blowing away the faint coldness in people's hearts, but after a moment or two, summer came quietly.

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