dull time

The sky was full of yellow sand. At that time, Qi Yang, a freshman in high school, met Zheng Hao, 25 years old, here.

Qi Yang was on a trip, and Zheng Hao was on a business trip, but even Zheng Hao never thought that he would be interested in a minor.

They shared a room—the last room left for them in the only hotel in the area, taken by a tour group.

They were so tired that day, they didn't complain, they just washed up and went to sleep in their respective beds.

Afterwards, the two got closer and closer, and the man stayed behind, spending a month and a half with the boy.

Then on the last night, they had sex, and when the man knew the boy's age and the boy knew the man's family, they made love decisively and happily, on the last day.

The boy knew that men also had feelings for him, and so did men.

They didn't poke until the last day.

When they came to the hotel that day, Qi Yang walked and didn't refuse Zheng Hao to help him with his luggage.

He thought in his heart that he still cared, he cared about the man's arrival, he cared about the man's attitude, he cared about this hotel, he cared about the years when he didn't see each other.He even felt a little aggrieved, thinking about men to vent his heavy desires in nights when no one was there.

But caring does not mean accepting.

There is a lyric that says it well, what you can’t get is always in turmoil, once you get it, it’s nothing precious, isn’t it?

At least, Qi Yang doesn't want to lose this feeling, not yet, even in front of someone else's mistress, he doesn't want to.He loves men too much, he is afraid of losing.

But he also loves himself.He is also afraid of losing himself.

a room.The man said to the front desk.Qi Yang stepped forward and took out his ID card.a room.

I'm sorry sir, it's full today, why don't you share a room with this gentleman.Said the person at the desk.

Qi Yang helplessly followed the man into the room.

He showered and came out fully wrapped.

The man glanced at him and went in to take a shower.When I came out, I saw a piece of spring.

The man wrapped him in a quilt.

Don't make trouble, I won't do it with you today.

Why don't you share a room with me.

Full house.The man smiled with satisfaction.

How much did you pay that woman?

The man was startled.

Qi Yang knows the tricks of men.Now is not the tourist season, so naturally there are not so many people.

That's not okay, I won't do it with you.

Why?Didn't you come here for this?

The man smiled angrily.Do you think you are so attractive?Go to sleep, my darling, dad won't move you today.

Do you think I'm young?

I don't know why the conversation became weird, and the man was helpless.

I know that if I did it with you today, there would be no tomorrow for both of us.

If you don't do it with me, we will have no tomorrow.Qi Yang thought to himself.

In the end Qi Yang put on his clothes and rolled to the side to sleep.

Zheng Hao put his arms around him and fell asleep too.

This was the best time for Qi Yang to sleep, in the past he always woke up very early, the next morning at eight o'clock in the morning.

Zheng Hao was no longer in the room, Qi Yang got up to wash and change clothes.

Qi Yang, why haven't you come home yet?

Mom, I'm going on a trip.

Where did you go?Why didn't you tell me?

I went with my classmates and just decided yesterday.

Okay, then you have to pay attention to safety, have fun, have you finished drinking the Banlangen I sent...

Qi Yang was chatting with his mother, but he didn't notice the man behind him approaching.

The man hooked his waist from behind and buried his chin in the hollow of his neck.

Qi Yang froze.The voice froze.

What happened to Qi Yang?

It's nothing, Mom, then I'll hang up first.

Mmm Good.

wake up?

What do you say?

Qi Yang broke free from the man's restraint.Where are you going today?

go to a place.

The man kissed Qi Yang deeply.Qi Yang didn't refuse, but he didn't respond either.

Qi Yang felt upset.

let's go.The man opened the car door.

There is dust and sand along the way, and there is nothing to see.

The man stopped at one place, behind the car was the dust raised by the driving.

look.

It was a row of poplar trees, lush and full of vitality.

Qi Yang knew what it was, a few years ago, this place was still barren, the first time they came here, the poplars here were all withered.

Like it?Like a gift for a lover, Qi Yang smiled wryly.

Should I say I like it?

This is all grown by myself.

An investment for a lover.

I really don't understand the style.

The man was not angry, he took Qi Yang back to the hotel.

Chinese food is eaten on the first floor, and there are very few people.

Among them was an elderly couple drinking a pot of Pu'er.The tea should be brought by themselves, there is no such good thing in this place.

"Listen, Blue Danube." The wife said softly to her husband.

"I can't hear very clearly." The husband seemed to be hard of hearing.

"I'll play it for you." The wife left, came back with a violin case, and played there by herself.

The husband was intoxicated when he heard it.

Qi Yang put down his chopsticks and left.

I go to the next room.Qi Yang said before leaving.

He was crying at the corner, holding a crumpled and yellowed business card in his hand, tremblingly pressing the unfamiliar numbers on the phone.

The phone went through, but the other party didn't speak.

"Zheng Hao, Hao... I love you."

"I love you too." The man on the opposite side smiled slyly.

The song "Step by Step" came leisurely from the microphone of the mobile phone.

No matter what the future holds, how long love is, how many fragments life needs, at noon accompanied by the sound of violin, Qi Yang decided to love a man with his life, and bravely took that step.

Then, in the ordinary, look for your own happiness.