my cp turned out to be

12 years ago.

Ma Jiao, a sophomore, was riding a tattered bicycle on the way back to school.At that time, Ma had been away from home for eight years.Although the Ma family and his wife have been looking for their biological son, they can't find him no matter what.

Grandma Ma, who lives in the country, immediately ran to the city to have a big fight with her son and daughter-in-law when she heard that her grandson was missing. Grandma Ma scolded Ma Jiao one by one as a "disastrous star", saying that he forced Ma Yuan away and severed the mother-child relationship with the Ma family...

Ma Jiao felt very guilty about this, and became more and more well-behaved at home. Fortunately, the Ma family and his wife are not indiscriminate people, and they did not treat him lightly because of this, but became more polite. Ma Jiao does everything other than studying, and Ma Jiao is also very competitive. He was admitted to a key university in Beijing from a small third-tier city, and worked hard to pay for his own education. The reunion with Ma Yuan happened when he was working On the way back to school.

That night, after Ma Jiao finished his tutoring job, he was riding his bicycle to school against the northwest wind, when he suddenly heard a faint groan—for some reason it was very familiar.He immediately stopped the car and listened carefully, and followed the sound to look towards an alley on the right.

The hutong is a typical regulation of old Beijing. It is narrow, deep, and you can't see the bottom. The gates of the courtyards on both sides are lit with small light bulbs with extremely low wattage.Ma Jiao felt chills in his heart, swallowed and wanted to leave, but heard another groan.

The young man gritted his teeth, finally locked the car and walked into the alley.Go straight for more than 50 steps and turn right, and you can see three or four people beating up another person, and another person is leaning on a telephone pole with a cigarette in his mouth and watching.

The beating men looked dispirited, and they kicked the victim one after another: "Fuck! Did you steal something from a man? You're looking for death!" "The bones are still hard, say! Where did you hide it?" "How dare you show your face and take what you said as a fart!?"

The beaten person curled up on the ground, groaning once or twice from time to time, but never begged for mercy.

Ma Jiao felt chills all over his body, hiding in the corner, unable to advance or retreat, suddenly felt a tremor in his heart, raised his eyes, saw the person leaning on the telephone pole looking towards him, immediately shrank his head, but listened to the call of the person— — "Majiao?"

Ma Jiao was stunned, he opened his mouth wide in bewilderment, watching the man who looked like a gangster approaching with a cigarette in his mouth, he patted his head with a smile: "Is your name Ma Jiao?"

"Yes, yes." Ma Jiao nodded tremblingly.

"Ha! What a coincidence!" The man raised his eyebrows with a smile, his handsome face looked terribly beautiful under the dim light.He turned around and gave some instructions to the adults: "Stop." He stretched out his hand and grabbed Ma Jiao's arm, forcing him to walk in front of them, and kicked the half-dead one on the ground: "Hey, Ma Yuan, open your eyes and see, this is Who's coming?"

"Ma Yuan?!" Hearing the name, Ma Jiao's attention was immediately diverted.He knelt down, looked carefully at the bruised and swollen face, and struggled to find traces of childhood: "...Brother? Brother! I'm Ma Jiao, brother, are you okay?"

Ma Jiao closed his eyes and did not respond, only his chest rose and fell slightly.It was the smoking man behind him who answered: "Don't worry, he's fine, it's just that his hands and feet are not clean, and he has learned a lesson... You two have a good relationship, and you come to rescue him every time." As he spoke, he kicked him Ma Jiao's tailbone: "Boy, don't you recognize who I am?"

Ma Jiao was kicked so hard that he almost fell to the ground, and he stretched out his hands to support the ground to stabilize himself.Looking back at the condescending man, and seeing the latter smiling evilly with the corners of his mouth up, he suddenly felt that a corner of his memory was lifted: "Brother Zhao?"

"Full name is Zhao Yuanbin." Brother Zhao seemed very happy. He knelt down and patted Ma Jiao's head again, "Look at you, you're already a college student, right? Hehe, the brains of people who can study are easy to use. Come on, For your sake, let him go again today." He glanced at Ma Yuan with a bit of disgust, and continued: "Three days later, if he is still here, if he can return all the things he stole, I will Just let him go, understand?"

Ma Jiao nodded again and again, feeling that Brother Zhao reached out and touched his face, and shivered for some reason.After the man led the three younger brothers away, he threw himself back on Ma Yuan.He yelled for a long time without getting a response, so he gritted his teeth and carried the man on his back. He didn't even bother to pick up his bicycle. He hailed a taxi and went straight to the nearest hospital. He bandaged Ma Yuan's wound and had a full body check. At two or three o'clock in the morning, I spent all my money before Ma Yuan woke up.

"Brother? How do you feel? Is there any pain? Uh, do you know me? I'm Ma Jiao." Seeing that the person on the bed woke up, Ma Jiao immediately leaned over and asked a series of questions.

"..." Ma Yuan looked up at him, without saying a word.

"Do you have a sore throat?" Ma Jiao was a little embarrassed, and had the cheek to find reasons for the other party.

As a result, he didn't appreciate it at all, and turned his head to the side and closed his eyes.

Ma Jiao pursed his lips and said, "Where have you been all these years? Parents and grandma have always missed you...well, I'll call my parents, they must be very happy to know that I saw you! "Said, stood up.

Only then did Ma Yuan speak: "Ma Jiao, why are you so cheap?" His voice was hoarse and his words were vicious.

Ma Jiao was at a loss.

The corner of Ma Yuan's mouth curled up into a sarcasm smile, this expression involved his wounds, making his face look distorted: "I used to be stupid, thinking that my parents never beat or scolded you because they were partial to you, and thought that compared to me Dear son, they love you even more as a loser. But now I understand that they don’t beat you because you are not their child after all, and you are different from me after all. I can leave home for eight or nine years without showing up. No matter what, I am their son, and I have their blood on my body... If you make a phone call now, they will definitely come over thankfully... I will break the bones with them You're stuck. But what about you? You can't. You weren't born by them after all, so they don't want to beat you, they're embarrassed to scold you, and one day you leave home, they won't miss you either."

Majiao was silent.He stood where he was, frowned slightly and looked at the somewhat ferocious expression on Ma Yuan's face, then returned to the hospital bed and sat down.He lowered his eyes and organized his words, and said in a deep voice: "Yes, I am indeed not the biological son of my parents. No matter what, I can't surpass you in their hearts. You haven't come home these years, but your parents have I have never given up looking for you. Dad’s hair is gray, and he always regrets that he was too strict with you. Mom always cries. I felt like a guest when I came home…”

Ma Yuan sneered, turned his face away, and said in a hoarse voice: "Knowing that you still stay and don't leave, you really are a bitch who depends on my family."

"Sometimes I also feel that I am quite cheap." Ma Jiao didn't raise his eyes, and answered in a low voice: "Obviously I was abused since I was a child, why do I still treat Ma's family as my own? But it's normal to think about it, after all, I am like this An orphan with nothing but the appearance of a false home."

He paused, and finally raised his eyelids to look at Ma Yuan, and said in an unprecedentedly severe tone: "Do you feel that you are very miserable and pitiful? Do you feel that I have been separated from your parents' favor and that you were unfairly treated at home when you were a child?" Treatment, after leaving home, you have suffered a lot?"

Ma Yuan turned his head to look at Ma Jiao, his miserable expression was the best answer.

Ma Jiao showed a somewhat sarcastic smile: "No, you are wrong. Compared with me, you are not miserable at all. You are living so hard now, and you are completely torturing yourself! You said that I will take away your favor , why don’t you think that I have no father and no mother since I was a child? If it wasn’t for my parents who gave their lives to save your mother, you would be a motherless child now! You feel that you have been treated unfairly, why don’t you think about how your grandma treated me What? You are living a hard life now, but the door of the Ma family is always open to you. It is you who refuse to go home, and you who refuse to live a good life!"

"You say I'm cheap, and I admit that I'm a bit. But I also want to tell you, Ma Yuan, I've never seen any more stupid trash than you!"

"CNM!" Enraged by Ma Jiao's last insult, Ma Yuan immediately forgot his pain and discomfort.He jumped up from the hospital bed and threw his fists towards Majiao beside the bed.

The two men rolled to the ground and fought for a while, knocking down the pole hanging the bottle and the empty thermos on the ground.In the end, the slender-armed and slender-legged Ma Jiao pressed down on the seriously injured Ma Yuan, and slapped the latter's bruised and swollen head a few times: "Garbage! Garbage! Garbage! You hate me, don't you? Tell you, I hate you too! I hate you! I hate your Ma family! I wish my parents didn't save anyone back then, let your mother die, and let me have my own home!!!"

Ma Yuan was dumbfounded.He couldn't tell whether he was beaten or was shocked by Ma Jiao's words. He felt his head buzzing, and he could only stare at the hideous and terrifying expression on Ma Jiao's face—it was an evil ghost. With a normal expression, Ma Yuan can be sure that if there is a knife in hand at this moment, Ma Jiao will definitely pick it up and chop off his own head.

Then he found that Ma Jiao was crying.

Tears welled up from the gentle and introverted eyes in his memory, rolled over Ma Jiao's flushed and distorted face at the moment, and hit Ma Yuan's face drop by drop.Ma Yuan blinked, and raised his hand to touch Ma Jiao's face, but the latter stretched out his hand to open it.

Ma Jiao opened Ma Yuan's hand, pressed it on his brother, covered his eyes and cried loudly: "I hate, I hate so much! But I dare not hate! If I hate, I leave, then I... ...Then I really have nothing! I have nothing! I hate my parents for never forgetting you, but I can’t leave them! If I don’t want them anymore, they will have nothing! "

"I once thought that if you died outside these few years, I would be the only child of my parents! But, but I am very happy to see you alive today... I will help my parents You have found it, so I have repaid their kindness of nurturing!" Ma Jiao said while crying, shrugging his shoulders as if trying to curl himself up.There are so many unspeakable pains in his heart, he can't love, can't wait, can't thank, can't complain, he can only guard the huge loneliness and fear in his heart, and cry in embarrassment...

Then, he felt a big warm hand on his shoulder, and then his whole body was warmed up, the smell of medicine and blood, as well as Ma Yuan's body temperature enveloped him - it was Ma Yuan who sat up and clumsily hugged him .

Ma Jiao was stunned, and even stopped crying for a moment.He reacted with wide eyes for a while, and finally reached out and grabbed his brother's clothes, and let out a louder cry.

Hearing Ma Jiao crying louder, Ma Yuan was a little dumbfounded, but also inexplicably happy.He held Ma Jiao's head in his arms and couldn't help but think a lot...

He thought of how he bullied Ma Jiao when he was young, of all the hardships and dangers after leaving home, of missing all his relatives in sleepless nights, and of the thin and small Ma Jiao in his memory, who cowered even when he cried, like a sick cat. .Such Ma Jiao actually harbors so much resentment in his heart, but at the same time, he sincerely hopes that he can return to his parents...

Even though he was treated poorly, even though he was angry, he was serious. He regarded the Ma family as his relatives and himself as his own brother, right?That's why he fished himself out of the fire pit again and again, and wrapped himself around and took care of himself with a shy face, right?

...Thinking about it this way, I really can't compare to him, and it's no wonder Brother Zhao told me to leave when he saw him back then...I don't want such a good brother, so what do I want?

Thinking of this, Ma Yuan let out a long breath and showed a somewhat relieved smile.He hugged Ma Jiao even harder, and said hoarsely, "Don't cry...my brother is here."

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Ma Jiao huddled in Ma Yuan's arms and cried loudly, and the brothers' knots for many years were finally untied.After all, they are both adults in their 20s, and they were a little embarrassed after helping each other get up.

Ma Yuan returned to the hospital bed and lay down, while Ma Jiao cleaned up the messy ward.After finishing his work, Ma Yuan took the initiative to discuss with Ma Jiao, hoping to solve Zhao Yuanbin's mess before contacting his parents. He didn't want his parents to worry.

Ma Jiao sat down by the hospital bed, handed Ma Yuan the supper he just bought, and asked worriedly: "Speaking of this mess... how did you provoke that Brother Zhao?"

Ma Yuan opened the lunch box, and while wolfing it down, he talked about his job with some embarrassment: "After I ran away from Brother Zhao, I went to Brother Zhao's rival gang, and had many fights with Brother Zhao and the others. In the end, Our boss climbed up to a dirty high-ranking official, beat Brother Zhao and the others, and kicked them out of our hometown... As for me, I have been in the gang all the time, and somehow became a small leader. Three years ago, our boss wanted to come A nightclub opened in Beijing, and a group of brothers were sent over to step on the plates. Unexpectedly, Brother Zhao has become popular here, so he directly served us. We caused the boss to lose a lot of money, and the boss became angry. Let us Find a way to get the money back from Brother Zhao and the others, otherwise no one will be allowed to go back..." He smiled wryly and shook his head, "Isn't it that I can't even go back to my hometown? I don't have an ID card, and I live in Beijing. I couldn't find a serious job at all, so I became a purse-touching Buddha, and lived my life stealthily. Two days ago, I got a lot of money in a nightclub. I didn't expect that the store was opened by Brother Zhao. Master is also brother Zhao's friend..."

Ma Jiao listened with mixed emotions, and patted Ma Yuan on the shoulder reassuringly: "It's okay, everything will be fine in the future. Do you still keep the big money? Return it to Brother Zhao and the others in three days, and we will go home."

"This..." Ma Yuan stopped his chopsticks and scratched his face embarrassingly: "I still keep the bag and the documents inside, but the money... I broke a hundred for food and cigarettes."

"It's okay, I'll add it to you. I've already paid for the two days of hospitalization, so you can relax and have a good rest. You'll be discharged from the hospital the day after tomorrow. I'll go with you to your place to clean up."

"Well, okay."

In this way, Ma Yuan stayed in the hospital for two days, was discharged at noon on the third day, and took Ma Jiao to the simple house he rented—and the accident happened on this day.

Ma Yuan's rented house is in the suburbs of the city, next to the national highway, and it is one of a row of rented houses transformed from containers.Ma Jiao followed his brother into the small space of less than 10 square meters, and saw some moldy quilts on the wooden bed, various stolen goods piled up in boxes in the corner, and a very familiar portrait of Guan Gong on a small incense table.

The statue of Guan Gong was wiped very clean, and someone took good care of it at first glance; the incense table on which the statue of Guan Gong was placed was made of high-grade logs, and the wood was so red and purple that it made people speechless; the incense burner in front of the statue of Guan Gong was also gold-plated. The ruby ​​inlaid on the furnace body is not an imitation made of red glass... Such a set of utensils, even if it is placed at the front desk of a high-end hotel, it will not feel inconsistent, but it is not as good as this simple renting brother.

As soon as he saw the portrait of Guan Gong, Ma Jiao felt a sense of discomfort and disobedience.He silently watched his elder brother offering incense to the statue of Guan Gong devoutly, and after he put the incense into the incense burner, he tentatively asked: "This statue of Guan Gong...is it the one that brother Zhao offered?"

"Yes." Ma Yuan replied, looking for the leather bag to be returned in the box in the corner, "This is the spoils we got back after driving Brother Zhao away. I have been offering it for many years."

"Hmm..." Ma Jiao frowned, and took his eyes away from the portrait of Guan Gong: "This incense burner... looks very high-end."

"That's right, I bought it from Panjiayuan. The gold leaf and precious stones on it are real, and it cost me 2000 yuan!" Ma Yuan replied, squatting on the ground and turning his head to look at the statue of Guan Gong. Ling Majiao saw a morbid obsession on his face.

The discomfort in Ma Jiao's heart became stronger: "2000 yuan? Don't you live by stealing things? How much can you earn in a month? It doesn't constitute any major criminal case..."

"How can it be?" Ma Yuan laughed, "I'm handy, and I can touch thousands of yuan in a month. The one who got the most money is Brother Zhao's friend, so I don't have to pay it back...Although money is tight, But the supply to Guan Erye cannot be sloppy."

"...As for what, your incense table and the incense burner can add up to thousands of Guan Gong statues."

"Hush!" Hearing what his younger brother said, Ma Yuan suddenly showed a nervous and irritable expression.He stood up, pulled and dragged his younger brother outside the house, and asked in a hoarse voice: "How can you be disrespectful to Guan Erye?"

Ma Jiao looked at Ma Yuan as if he was insane: "Isn't that just a ceramic portrait... Am I wrong?"

"That's not only a ceramic statue, it's Guan Yu and Guan Yunchang!" Ma Yuan said seriously, and when he saw Ma Jiao smiling, his words were filled with anger: "What I said is true! It is the famous Guan Erye. Guan Er Grandpa once entered my dream, he knows everything that happened around me, all these years, he is my family - you are not allowed to be disrespectful to him!"

Ma Jiao pursed his lips and remained silent.Although he doesn't believe that Guan Gong on that cheek is the second master Guan, he can understand his brother's feelings for that ceramic portrait - he has been away from home for so many years, and he probably can only talk to the Guan Gong portrait when he has something on his mind, and he has feelings over time , Take that thing as a spiritual sustenance.

Seeing his younger brother no longer being disrespectful to his second master Guan, Ma Yuan finally looked a little better.He took his younger brother back to the room, handed him three incense sticks, and asked him to worship Guan Gong's statue three times to express his apology.

Ma Jiao pouted slightly in his heart, but he didn't want to make trouble with his brother because of such a trivial matter.He took the incense and was about to bend down when he heard the door behind him open, and a somewhat familiar voice sounded lazily: "Hey, this Guan Gong looks familiar."