Hidden Words

But he is just an outsider, and he has no right to ask for anything from the current Gu family.

Even if it is a beating.

"Gu Kai, I always thought you were very stable, but during this time, do you know what you have done yourself? How much your parents worried about you, you turned a deaf ear, didn't you? You spend all day What are you busy with in the team? Tell me what are you busy with!" Qiu Yan's scolding almost never stopped, during which Gu Kai just kept silent.

While Qiu Yan was scolding Gu Kai, Gu Kai's mother heard the voice coming from the corner of the corridor, and when she saw Xu Wenxiu standing stiffly at the corner, she had that sad look on her face again.Hearing Qiu Yan's scolding, in the end he just shook his head and wept silently, leaning against the wall in pain.

Xu Wenxiu wanted to help, but his body was stiff, as if telling him that he was not qualified.

Being scolded by Qiu Yan, Gu Kai's mind went blank and he felt nothing.I don't know if it's because of Qiu Yan's lack of strength or something, but he doesn't feel any pain at all.

In comparison, the sadness in my heart seemed so painful that it almost swallowed him alive.

These few hours outside the operating room and outside his father's ward, all the words he wanted to say before, the words he wanted to refute and defend, and even the words he wanted to play roundabout tactics, were squeezed out of him by the huge sorrow. head.

His pride, his reason, and his persistence all collapsed in an instant.

Fall into the abyss, beyond redemption

Throwing the trembling Gu Kai to the wall, Qiu Yanqiang suppressed the grief in his heart, his voice trembling slightly from anger or pain, "Did you worry about them all these years? Can you put All your time and energy are given to your game, your team. Yes, you have worked hard over the years, and you have stood at the top position for so many years, but have you ever shared even a little bit of worry with your parents? After your accident last time, your father was so anxious to find a relationship to get you out, what about you? You ran away as soon as you were able to leave, and you couldn’t even see your parents’ worries? Gu Kai, let me tell you, then It's not just your parents, it's not just your parents!"

After Qiu Yan finished cursing, he couldn't help it anymore, tears poured out uncontrollably, every time he looked at Gu Kai, his heart ached even more, and he simply left Gu Kai and left.When I walked to the corner and saw Gu Kai's mother who was crying, she immediately wiped away her tears and went to help her. Although she pretended to be calm, her voice was still trembling slightly.

"Auntie, why are you here? Didn't I tell you to wait in the ward? Don't cry, your eyes are not good, you should pay more attention. I just said a few words to Gu Kai Don’t worry if you’re fine. Uncle will be fine, Gu Kai and I are here, and Uncle Ze will be there soon, don’t worry. I’ll help you back first, okay?” As he spoke, tears flowed involuntarily flowed out.Quietly wiped away the tears that slid to the tip of his nose, Qiu Yan comforted him softly, and helped Gu Kai's mother to leave.

In the end, Gu Kai's mother just looked at Gu Kai again and left in tears.

When they passed by Xu Wenxiu, they didn't even look at him.

Turning around and seeing Gu Kai paralyzed by the wall, dejected and expressionless, Xu Wenxiu only felt a sharp pain in his heart.It was as if something was strangling his throat, making his breathing extremely heavy.

During the period when Gu Kai's father was undergoing surgery, almost all the relatives and friends of the Gu family could come, and it was not easy for Qiu Yan to find this place.It is not appropriate for him to appear at this time.But I don't know why, no one paid much attention to him, so he just quietly followed Gu Kai, not letting him out of his sight, and it didn't get in the way.

Until he heard footsteps coming from the corridor next to him, he turned to look, and Gu Kai, who was pale, also saw him.

The two did not communicate, Gu Kai just glanced at him, passed him and walked slowly in front, and he followed slowly not far behind.The footsteps of the two fell on the ground without making a sound.Walking to the door of Gu Kai's father's ward, they saw that Gu Ze had also arrived, talking with the doctor outside, while Qiu Yan and Gu Kai's mother were guarding Gu Kai's father in the ward.

Gu Kai didn't go in, but watched the situation inside through the small window on the door.

He saw his mother sitting in the chair beside the hospital bed, holding his father's hand, opening and closing her mouth as if talking about something, her brows never loosened.And Qiu Yan just accompanied him quietly, sending some tissues from time to time, and his face was also very bad.

He couldn't see his dad's face from his angle, but he didn't dare to look at it either.

Obviously, his father's life had almost come to an end, and even the line showing the heartbeat on the instrument fluctuated very faintly.If it is not maintained by the machine, it may not last even a few minutes.

After talking with the doctor, Gu Ze saw Gu Kai standing at the door of the ward and Xu Wenxiu not far away, walking towards them with a cold expression.

"Gu Kai, do you still remember how your dad taught you guys before?" Gu Ze walked over to take a look at Gu Kai, blurting out in a cold and deep voice.

"Remember." Gu Kai replied slightly, his eyes trembling slightly following his mother.

"Well, since you remember, execute it now. Just stand here until your father wakes up."

After Gu Ze finished speaking, Xu Wenxiu saw Gu Kai's originally decrepit figure gradually stand upright, standing upright against the wall outside his father's ward door, without any unnecessary movements other than that.

Gu Kai stood like this for more than five hours, his face became paler and his figure became weaker and weaker, until the monitor issued a harsh and alarming alarm sound again.After arriving at the door of the operating room, Gu Kai kept standing in the same posture for more than three hours, but what followed the doctors in the operating room was only bad news, and it was the worst news they could have imagined.

"We tried our best. The general suffered from severe cerebral edema after the operation... The time of the patient's brain death was 47:[-] in the morning. I'm sorry..."

Facing the Gu family around, the three doctors were apologetic.

Seeing his father being pushed out of the operating room, everything in Gu Kai's head basically collapsed in an instant following his mother's hoarse crying.Unable to hold on any longer, he knelt down on the ground, facing the direction where his father was being pushed away.

In Gu Kai's originally deep and bright eyes, now there is a emptiness and trance that Xu Wenxiu has never seen before.

Because he still couldn't accept this matter, Gu Kai's father was sent directly to the intensive care unit after he was pushed out of the operating room, where he used machines and drugs to maintain his breathing and heartbeat, creating the illusion that he was still alive.Gu Kai's mother stood by, sobbing silently, while Qiu Yan and Gu Ze stood beside them, also silent with their heads down.

Standing at the door of the ward, Gu Kai still walked in tremblingly.

Seeing Gu Kai approaching, his mother just choked up and called his name, and then couldn't speak anymore.

Slowly squatting down next to his mother, Gu Kai subconsciously held his mother's hand, only to realize that his mother's hands were actually cold.Different from the calluses he usually wears out from keyboard practice, his fucking hands are obviously the kind of hands that have been baptized by time, handled big and small things, and worn out by housework.

His mother held his father's hand with one hand and his hand with the other, trembling with grief, crying until her voice became hoarse, and she couldn't make any more sound, just sobbing slightly with.The tears on his face were dry and wet, wet and dry, melting away his pride and rebellion little by little.While tearing down the city wall he had built in his heart for nearly ten years, he also razed the castle he had been guarding to the ground.

"Mom..." Gu Kai shouted, only to realize that his voice was already too hoarse.There was something choked in his throat, and the tone of his voice was not like his usual at all. The voice just now was chopped off, it was so ugly.

"Your dad, when he got up yesterday morning, he said that he asked me to call you back for a meal to celebrate your re-entering that league. Your dad read some nonsense on the Internet about how old you are and can't play?" After the game started, the level dropped or something, he was very angry. After your team won, those rumors were self-defeating, and he was very happy. He also told me, you can play a few more games at your level. Years is not a problem. He doesn’t know how proud he is when he hears other young people call you a great god.” Gu Kai’s mother took Gu Kai’s hand, and her words were broken because of her sobs, but she still insisted. When he got down, he laughed while talking.

"Actually, last Sunday I said I wanted to call you back, but he said that you must celebrate with your friends and take the opportunity to cultivate relationships, so he didn't let me call you. He kept muttering that men have to be caught Get more opportunities to interact with people, and these relationships will be useful in the future. The day before yesterday, he talked about you for a long time, and when he was happy, he became angry again. He was angry with you for several days and did not call home. The anger at you is really solidly inherited I couldn't help but laugh because he was happy and angry at the same time, so I didn't stop him and let him drink some wine. In the end, he didn't take the medicine that night when he was drunk. Who knew that in the morning... Gu Kai, your father He actually misses you very much, but he just keeps his mouth shut, he... He is actually not angry with you for running away from home, he is angry because you don’t go home to see him, he is angry with you It has always made me worry that I have been neglecting my family."

While talking, Gu Kai's mother couldn't control the tears again, and they fell on the back of Gu Kai's hands one by one, burning his heart achingly.

"I got it, I got it... I got it." Gu Kai gritted his teeth, and took his fucking hand with his other hand, stroking it over and over again.

In my impression, he has never been so close to his parents, but this time may be the only time. The three of them have been divided into two worlds by life and death.

He really didn't think it would end up like this.

He still had a fluke mentality, thinking that his father was just out of breath for a few days at most, and at worst he would be kicked out for another two years.

He really didn't know that his father's body had deteriorated into that state.

He really didn't know that his father would be so happy for him, and he didn't know that his father missed him so much.

He really didn't know that this incident would make his dad so angry and excited.

in case……

Wouldn't it have been a lot better if he had told his family about this earlier, in a gentler way instead of being eye-catching and written like entertainment news...

At least, his father should not be lying here lifeless like he is now, relying on the machine to maintain that little breathing and heartbeat because of their reluctance.

At nearly 05:30 in the morning, Gu Kai's father's ventilator was removed, and he was officially declared dead at 05:30.This time was chosen by Gu Kai's mother, because Gu Kai's father wakes up at [-]:[-] every morning. This habit has been unshakable for decades, unless he is bedridden due to an injury.

At this point in time, whether it is for them or for Gu Kai's father, the meaning of forgiveness is very deep.

When sending his father away, Gu Kai saw many uncles and uncles he knew before, all gathered not far from them.Weeping and consolation were mixed, and some people came up to say condolences to him and his mother, but he just listened silently.

His eyes are very dry now, so dry that it takes a lot of effort to blink, obviously the grief in his heart will tear him apart, but he can't squeeze out a single tear.His whole body was as stiff as a rock, and he could even hear the sound of his bones rubbing against each other every time he made a movement.The picture in front of me was no longer clear, but turned into a bunch of distorted color blocks.He seemed to be unable to feel the crowd of voices and figures in front of him.

Because the incident was too sudden and the turmoil in the outside world has not yet subsided, the memorial ceremony for Gu Kai's father is scheduled to be held tomorrow.The scale is not too big, and most of the people who come are relatives and friends of their family, some old comrades-in-arms and subordinates of Gu Kai's father and so on.

There were cries from inside and outside, and Gu Kai was in it, standing upright, almost drowned.

On the outermost side of the crowd, Xu Wenxiu also stood in his most upright posture, looking in Gu Kai's direction.Someone cast a strange look at him, but he just ignored him, just stood there, following Gu Kai's figure with his gaze.

Before the ceremony was officially held, Gu Ze was in charge of it inside, and Gu Kai stood outside together with Qiu Yan, accepting the mourning of others and the accusations of open and dark arrows, and nodded dully to express his gratitude and comfort.

It is true that Gu Kai's father passed away due to a sudden illness, but the indirect cause has already been heated up outside, and there are many people who come here now who know about him and Xu Wenxiu.

Many elders who came over saw Gu Kai and Qiu Yan, and they just greeted Qiu Yan in the past to express their condolences, and then left with an angry sigh, and didn't even want to say anything to Gu Kai who was standing stiffly by the side.

In the end, Qiu Yan couldn't stand it anymore, so he threw him with his pale and frightening face beside his mother to accompany him.

After leaving the public eye and less accusing voices, Gu Kai also relaxed a bit, and quietly accompanied his mother to watch his father's photo, helping his mother wipe away tears from time to time, and bringing water and so on.His mother finally calmed down after crying for a while, so she took his hand and told him about his dad's bad days, and laughed while talking, and cried while laughing.

When the ceremony was held, Gu Kai stood beside his mother, bowed when asked to bow, and mourned when told to mourn, and stood straight for the rest of the time, with his eyes fixed on a point directly in front of him, motionless.Only when Rang went to see his father's body did he slightly turn his gaze to take a look, and then he maintained a straight posture, staring straight ahead. ,

In the past, when his father taught him, there were usually only two ways, one was to box him, and the other was to punish him to stand in a military posture.He has never taken advantage of the former, and the latter is also practiced day by day in the shortest one or two hours, long four or five hours of training.

When he first played Tianji, to be honest, his level and aptitude were not particularly outstanding among the general public. He didn't even have the touch that Xu Wenxiu had developed in other games.But relying on hard work with no turning back, and after making efforts beyond the reach of ordinary people, he finally succeeded in pushing himself to the top position.

Later, when he trained in the team, no matter how boring or how long it took, he could still resist.He sharpened his hand feel and skills through mistakes again and again, and obtained the honor that others were looking forward to with sweat and time beyond ordinary people's imagination, and it was twice.

To be honest, although he has been reluctant to admit it, he also knows that his success is absolutely inseparable from his father.

Thinking about it carefully, although he has always been at odds with his father, there are actually many shadows of his father in him.Not to mention their appearance and posture, their attitudes are the same tough when they encounter problems, leaving no room for each other or themselves.Such a tough attitude and method is called reckless at best, or reckless at worst.Not to mention the almost identical stubbornness and tenacity, the indomitable hard work and persistence.

He remembered that every time after fighting with him, his father would carefully apply medicine to him with a dark face, and asked his mother to make him nourishing but not tasty soup.He remembered that when he was a child, after his father had quarreled with his mother, when he turned around and suddenly saw his panicked appearance, his eyes flashed blankly.He remembered that every time he made a mistake and was punished to stand in a military posture, his father would come to him, explain the whole thing to him in a calm voice, analyze all the clues for him, and explain his mistakes and inappropriate places. He relentlessly dug them out and dried them all, and then asked him to think about it for himself.

But every time he recalled, his sorrow became more and his heart became heavier.

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