My green plums are very sour

This long-lost tone made me hold my breath unconsciously, my ears were itchy, as if someone was sticking to the ear pinna and blowing.My action of grabbing the thin quilt also turned into scratching, and my index finger bent back and forth on the quilt, like a restless child.

Ning Ran also paused for several seconds after calling my name, as if she suddenly didn't know what to say.The mobile phone became quiet again, only the sound of our deliberately suppressed breathing could be heard, and the atmosphere was full of strangeness.

She may have temporarily organized the language in her mind and spoke again, but she skipped the greeting part and entered the main topic.

"I went back to school last night. When I went to the dormitory manager to sell the vacation, she said that someone had come to see me. She had seen your card and remembered your name, and then told me."

"Hmm." I snorted lightly, without too many words, and my attitude was not very eager.

Ning Ran didn't pay attention, and continued to explain after a delay of two seconds, with a slight tremor in his voice, "I went home a few days ago, and accidentally lost my phone on the way. So——"

"I didn't expect you to come to school to find me. I called you in the middle of the night, but no one answered. I just called and I couldn't get through. I..."

Her cautious and conciliatory tone mixed with it made me feel a little bit sad, inexplicably sad.In the past, there was always a sense of arrogance in her bones, and she didn't bother to say much. When did she talk to anyone in such a tone.I should have been delighted at the special treatment I received, but at this moment it was just full of sourness.

"It's okay, I'm fine." I didn't want to hear her tone like this again, and I felt really uncomfortable, so I interrupted her directly, "It was originally on my spur of the moment, and I didn't notify you in advance, and you didn't do it on purpose. What are you talking about?"

Ning Ran seemed a little surprised by my reaction, stunned for a moment, and even stuttered when he spoke, as if he was trying to hide his embarrassment, "Huh? Well, I just wanted to explain it to you myself. Avoid, avoid..."

I know what the second half of the sentence she didn't finish is, so I won't think about it.If it were placed in the past, such a situation would definitely occur.But things are different now, people always change.

"Well, the mosquitoes here are more poisonous. Remember to wipe the bites on your forearms, otherwise they will itch for several days, and they will never get better after scratching." She seemed very confident that I could understand her The sentence that was not finished, and then forcibly changed the subject.

I looked down at the red spots on my forearm, it seemed to be itchy and hot again, and I couldn't help but want to reach out and scratch it twice.Eh?No, how did she know?

Ning Ranxu guessed what I was thinking, and before I could ask, he said it himself, "My roommate said that she saw you downstairs in the dormitory that afternoon, and the bag in one hand was so red that it was almost swollen. .”

"Be careful yourself, and don't scratch it. If you scratch it, it will hurt, and it will itch repeatedly. It will be more irritating. You have always been the most afraid of pain."

I couldn't help but grit my teeth when I heard the last sentence.Compared with the pain in my heart, this point on my arm is nothing.Besides, the point in my heart was imposed on me by her own hands.

She was unexpectedly gentle and nagging at the moment, and the taste of showing favor was very obvious, but what's the point?This made me very uncomfortable, as if I had traded for something, and I didn't need it.

"Ning Ran." I stopped her, then closed my eyes, rubbed my cheek twice with one hand, and pressed against my temple.

She immediately paused, then whispered back: "You say."

This superficial conversation didn't help our current situation in any real way. She was eager to let me understand that this trip was an accident, and I didn't mean to blame her at all. I just felt special. exhausted.Not just because of the journey, but because of our relationship.I no longer have the energy to be persistent.

"I saw your interview after the game, it was very good."

"……yes."

"Yeah." I covered my eyes with my palms, and the eyelids were warm, "You have achieved the result you wanted, and this is the reward for your hard work. I am very happy for you."

She fell silent, even the sound of her breathing almost disappeared.

"In the future, you will get more and do better, and of course you will be busier than now. I understand, and so do I." Perhaps none of us thought that I would use a tone similar to hers back then Let's draw this period.

"I know what I should do, and I will take good care of myself." When I said this, it was just a disguised rejection of her advances.

There was silence for a few seconds, I was not in a hurry, I waited with my breath held.Ning Ran really understood what I meant, took a slow breath and said in a low voice: "Okay, I understand." I guess she was probably relieved, I didn't hold on to these things, but unexpectedly "knowledge in general".

Of course, this is just a decision I made out of desperation, because no matter how much I hold on to it, there will be no results.Might as well let her go, and let me go too.

The entanglement between us these years is like fighting a protracted war, which makes me feel exhausted physically and mentally, and I don't want to continue anymore.I dare not say that I have completely given up, but this heavy exhaustion makes me daunting, and I don't want to spend more energy on it and kill the remaining years.I can't be stuck in this situation forever and can't get out, after all, the days ahead are still very long, and it's impossible for me to bet all my wealth on one big gamble.What if we lose?

In the past, Ning Ran said that he wanted me to think more about my own feelings and not always think about her first.If she faced me at this time, she probably wouldn't be able to say such a thing.In the past, it was just that I didn't go to that point. When it comes to the stakes and the need to make a choice, I will still instinctively think for myself, won't I?I've had enough of feeling sad and sad for such a long time.It is human instinct to seek advantages and avoid disadvantages.

I don't know when it started, I also learned to think like her, I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing.

After we hung up the phone that day, there was very little communication.In the beginning, she occasionally sent me a few innocuous messages, but I had no intention of replying, so I just read it.So she gradually stopped saying anything.Everyone is very busy, so there is no spare time to indulge in these small thoughts.

Not long after returning to school, I found a part-time internship job. I usually go to class and practice continuously, and my life is very fulfilling.At first, I was a little uncomfortable with the suddenly accelerated pace of life, but after a period of time, I felt that this kind of life is actually not bad. What I have learned is directly proportional to the sweat I put in, and it has also affected my future invisibly. The presupposition of life has a preliminary goal.

Not long after the start of my senior year, I, like most of my classmates, was ready to start looking for a job. My daily routine was to go to various college recruitment seminars, submit my resume and wait for the written test and interview.

It was during that time that I received the last message from Ning Ran.

"I may want to take a postgraduate course."

She didn't say anything definitive, but from what I knew of her, it was almost a certainty.She will not let go of any opportunity to make herself better.In that case, what else is there to say?

"Oh." I didn't think too much about it, I just replied a word in a flat tone, put away the phone and turned to the next lecture.

Thanks to my previous internship experience, when many people are still anxious about the resumes they submitted, I have successfully got the offer I want.The busy internship work in the next few months, as well as the graduation thesis that followed, really bothered me. I didn't touch the ground every day, and I even felt a little lack of energy.Fortunately, I have learned to grit my teeth and resist, as long as I get through it.

After graduation, I chose to stay in the provincial capital. The urban environment is more open and there are many opportunities. I have lived here for four years and I am familiar with everything.More importantly, the provincial capital is neither far nor close to home, so I can keep a relatively appropriate distance from my parents. I have enough freedom, and they won't feel uneasy because I am too far away from home.

This can be said to be a perfect arrangement.While breaking with the past, it also paves the way for the future.

My life has begun to enter a new stage. After busy work, study and research, leisure and entertainment have not been left behind.I also developed a new hobby, going to watch a play from time to time and accepting the influence of art.Generally speaking, life can be regarded as dull and fulfilling.

If it weren't for the occasional jokes among colleagues and being asked about my love life, I would hardly think about it.

Why not fall in love?It's easier to have someone with you.They always say that.

why not?I can only smile seemingly meaninglessly.I'm used to the life of such a person.

I can't remember exactly what day it was, but when my mother and I called, she said excitedly that Ning Ran's mentor strongly invited her to stay in the coastal area, and recommended her to an institution that was famous in the industry.

"Uncle Ning and the others are overjoyed, this kid is really competitive." Mom's tone was more excited than when she heard that I had entered the world's top [-].

She is still as good as ever, and people can't help but want to applaud her.I'm really happy for her too.

So I never thought that one day she would give up the great future she had already obtained, and she would come back.At a time when I've almost fully adjusted to life without her.

It's hard to say whether this is a surprise, but for me, it's really too much.