My green plums are very sour

In the past, when I was close to Ning Ran, I was taken care of by her a lot, and I didn't think it was a big deal, but ever since I had Xiao Jiujiu in my heart and had some other thoughts, I could always figure out some things from these ordinary actions. When the taste comes, there is a different kind of joy in my heart.

This state of mind is different from when facing Tao Songnian, such as eating ice and mung bean soup after every meal in summer.One begs for a quick bite, and comes and goes in a hurry.One has to rest for a few meals before it makes people think about it in every possible way.

But before I allowed myself to smack for a few seconds, I remembered that our relationship was so deadlocked, and I couldn't help but sighed sadly, the sense of loss was indescribable.In the past, I didn't have that kind of thought and never felt it. Now it's like suffering retribution, and I can't even think about it.

Mu Qing's attitude towards relationships has always been straightforward, as long as the two of them see each other, it's fine, so I can't understand why I am so meek.That time, after she met Ning Ran, she was very interested for several days. Whenever she was free, she would lie on the table and pull my collar, pulling me back, and then stretched her head to the back of my neck. The two of us could hear voices gossiping about me.

I only picked and answered a few words, and didn't admit it, but it didn't matter to her. Seeing my faltering attitude, I guessed it pretty well.Mu Qing thought it was fun, and encouraged me for a while, but because I was indifferent, gradually lost patience, and didn't bother to talk to me anymore.

"I really don't understand you people. You say no, it's impossible, and you stand in front of them with a coy look on your face. If you keep looking forward and backward like this and refuse to take the first step, you can only stay where you are forever." land." Of course Mu Qing would not understand this.What she doesn't know is that when I face Ning Ran, I'm always unconsciously a little timid. I've long been used to doing things according to Ning Ran's will, so there's no place for me to act arbitrarily.

Still, her prodding worked.I managed to force myself not to be distracted, but when she made such a fuss, I couldn't help but think about it. My heart was itchy like a wicker hanging, and the wind blew a ripple on my heart.It was so hard to hold back, it was both enjoyable and tormenting.

I think I need to find someone to help me figure it out, preferably someone who can help me out.A Rui is impossible, and Mu Qing is not reliable.After much deliberation, I still can only find Tao Songnian, she is the only suitable candidate.

She will be in her third year of high school after school starts.At this stage, no matter whether you like learning or not, you will unconsciously put your mind on learning and strive for a good result in the end.

The frequency of Tao Songnian's appearances in various parts of the school suddenly decreased a lot. It is rare for me to meet her once. I think she is very busy.In this way, even if we contact less frequently and our relationship is not so warm, it will not make me feel that there is anything wrong.Originally, this feeling came and went quickly, but now it seems to be back on track.

I sent her a message asking if she could come out for a sit down. I just put down my phone and tapped on the table with my index finger for ten seconds, and I received her reply, as always, in a timely manner.

- ok when ?where?

I picked an afternoon on the weekend, and I had a little more time. I would like to take this opportunity to apologize to her.

After posting the time and place, I suddenly felt a little ashamed. I didn’t contact her very much for such a long period of time, and now I ran to her when I had something to do. No matter how I thought about it, I felt that I was too much.

We made an appointment on Sunday afternoon, a dessert shop not far from the school.I don't have a special preference for desserts, but Tao Songnian is like most girls in this respect, he likes to eat something sweet.I wanted to take care of her taste, so I chose this store, which is said to have a good reputation.

I was already sitting in the store a quarter of an hour before the appointed time, and I was a little impatient for lunch, so I went out early.

Remembering that I hadn't seen Tao Songnian for some time, I was inexplicably a little nervous, sitting on the chair as if I had thorns all over my body, and I felt uncomfortable after changing several sitting positions.

"So positive." As soon as I relaxed my shoulders and leaned back on the chair, Tao Songnian came from behind me, with a natural and friendly tone, without any alienation.

"No, I just arrived." She pulled the chair across from me and sat down, looked up and smiled at me, I calmed down a little, took the store's menu and handed it to her, "Look at what you want to eat, it is said The mango pancake in this store is very good, and several classmates have recommended it to me."

Tao Songnian took the menu, but he didn't rush to open it, and put it in his hand, "Wait a minute, I just had lunch, and I'm still feeling overwhelmed."

I withdrew my hand, pursed my lower lip embarrassingly, and suddenly didn't know what to say.

Fortunately, Tao Songnian started the conversation, so he wouldn't be left alone at the beginning.

"You have just been divided into classes, so you shouldn't be too busy, right? But don't play too crazy in the second year of high school, and you should concentrate on studying, otherwise you will be paying off your debts in the third year of high school, which is too painful." Tao Songnian He wrinkled his nose and smiled, shaking his head and sighing.She looked much thinner than in the past few months. There was no flesh on her face, but now her chin is even sharper, and her facial features are more three-dimensional.

I scratched my temple hair beside my ear, "Well, it's okay. I can handle it now."

Tao Songnian nodded, sat up straight, and looked directly at me with gentle eyes, "If it's not that there is a problem with study, then what do you need to tell me?"

"Uh..." I couldn't organize my words for a while, I frowned slightly and lowered my head in deep thought. After a while, I could barely utter a few words, "I...yes, I'm sorry..."

Tao Songnian raised his eyebrows all of a sudden, as if he was a little dazed, and then he reacted very quickly, and slowly raised the corners of his mouth, with a smile still in his eyes, "It seems that what I said is not wrong? Ning Ran, and yourself, right?"

I blinked unnaturally, pursed my lips tightly, and didn't dare to face her directly. After a long silence, I smiled bitterly in a low voice, "Yes, I thought too simply in the past, but now it seems that I finally see the light of day. I'm sorry to trouble you."

"Hey, it's not. You don't need to apologize at all. It's not a serious matter." Seeing me like this, she comforted me.

"I just feel that it's not good for anyone to be so unclear, and I'm sorry."

Tao Songyou sighed young, leaned forward and propped his chin, "Shu Yu, you don't need to feel guilty towards me. Really."

Her tone didn't sound like she was pretending, and I hesitated for a moment before looking up at her hesitantly.

"You didn't cheat me on anything, and you didn't make any promises. You don't owe me anything at all. I know you care about Ning Ran. As early as when I told you that conjecture, I was ready to be out. After all From the very beginning, neither you nor I thought about what must happen, it was just a whim, wasn't it?"

"It's not that I've gained nothing. It's not a loss for me to know you and become friends." Tao Songnian's eyes were full of sincerity, "Do you still remember what I told you before, no one is invincible? If you have the opportunity, of course you can try to fight for it, but you don’t have to be too determined. I am not so persistent and must ask for a certain result, there is no need for that. Just be happy when everything is done.”

There was no trace of reluctance in her expression, her eyes were warm and open as before, which made people believe it.

I thought of the apology that was entrenched in my heart before, and felt that I was a little worried. If she really minded, how could she tell me frankly and frankly about Ning Ran's guess.If he pretended to be generous, it would be too realistic.

Tao Songnian waited for me to contemplate for a moment before asking again, "So what's your situation now? Are you making progress?"

I pulled away from my thoughts, puffed my cheeks and shook my head, "No." Not only was there no progress, but the relationship was alienated.

Tao Songnian raised his eyebrows slightly, and smiled in surprise: "What? You didn't say anything? She didn't mention it either?"

"She may still think that I haven't found out, and don't know that I treat her..." I lowered my eyelids and pursed my mouth, feeling a little stuffy in my heart, "I think she doesn't want me to know."

"Why?" Tao Songnian seemed quite surprised.

I breathed a sigh of relief, "I know Ning Ran's temperament too well. When she makes a decision, she will definitely consider the result. If she is not sure, she will not make it."

"Ning Ran is too clear about what she should do. She has a steelyard in her heart and her own principles."

"Since she hasn't mentioned it all the time, and even dealt with it more and more coldly, it shows that she thinks it's not a good time yet. Or maybe she thinks I'm not good enough to accept it."

"Then when will it be a good time?" Tao Songnian laughed.

I rubbed my cheeks, my eyes darkened, "If I'm not wrong, at least she won't mention it before our college entrance examination, and has always maintained this kind of good friend relationship that is not close or far away."

As for Ning Ran's thoughts, I can feel all sorts of things, and I still have a lot of confidence.

"Do you have any plans for yourself? Calm down and wait, or what?" Tao Songnian restrained his smile and looked more serious.

"Heh, what can I do?" The decision is not in my hands, "Of course I can only cooperate with her and be a competent friend."

Tao Songnian's eyes twitched unconsciously after hearing this, and he stretched out his hand to stroke his eyebrows back and forth, with a compelling tone, "Are you sure you are cooperating with her, not avoiding her? I remember that your grades in arts and sciences are quite balanced, there is no need Give up science and go to liberal arts class. Isn't it because of this?"

I froze there for a moment, blinked slowly, and smiled calmly, "What does it have to do with class assignment? I have no reason to do this."

"Because you are afraid." Tao Songnian pointed his finger on his forehead, his tone was gentle but firm, "Ning Ran can bear it for a year or two, but you may not. The closer you are, the less you can control your thoughts, and sooner or later you will endure it." Can't stop. Should I say it or not? You know very well that Ning Ran has no plans in this regard at this stage, and it will cause bad things if you say it. But if you don't say it, you will feel uncomfortable."

"It's timid to hide, but it's the best way you can find right now."

"Choose a different subject from Ning Ran, isn't it to minimize the overlapping trajectories of study and life?"

I was speechless, and my heart was sour.

"Shu Yu, this is the difference." Tao Songnian had a slight smile on his face, "You think more than before. You have to think carefully about important things."

I stared at her stutteringly, suddenly lost in thought.The four words of careful consideration make me feel a lot of emotions.Ning Ran had said this before A Rui and Qiu Zicheng were together.I didn't expect that one day I would be like this.

I don't know if it's because the people I'm facing are different, or I've changed.