My green plums are very sour

The night sky in early summer is not so dark, just a little dark blue.I pushed the car and walked behind Ning Ran, her back looked much more relaxed, as if she had untied herself and shed some burdens.Anyway, it relieved me a lot, at least she can feel better.

But after not walking very far, Ning Ran suddenly slowed down, then stopped and turned around, and asked me with a worried face: "But if this is the case, will she be disappointed? You don't have much time to spend together."

Of course I understand who the "she" Ning Ran refers to.

"It doesn't matter, she will understand." I suppressed the trace of apology in my heart, forced a smile on my lips, and comforted her, "I have communicated with her just now."

Ning Ran still looked faintly worried, but his eyes were a little dodged, his white front teeth bit his lower lip, as if he was restraining something.

"Well, that's good. I'm still thinking, although Liu Yiren's words are not pleasant, but what he said seems to make sense, you may need some space, I..."

"Just listen to that kind of crazy talk, you don't need to think so much." I stopped and frowned to interrupt her wild thoughts, "Besides, Tao Songnian didn't go home with us before, didn't he? Did you come here? What impact does it have?"

"If there is something, I can still send her a message. There is no need to stay together every day."

There was a hint of impatience in my tone, and I didn't want her to always think so much.

Ning Ran was stunned for a rare moment, pursed the corners of his mouth and didn't say anything more, but his eyes softened a lot, and he didn't hide any small temptations anymore.

Her actions made me laugh secretly in my heart, and a sour feeling welled up in my heart.Obviously I should be very happy. I refused to go home with Tao Songnian, but I wanted to care about me as a friend.Why is this so?If she smiles openly and flamboyantly, and don't deliberately embarrass herself, I won't feel anything.

For the first time in my life, I felt so distressed, even because of emotional matters.If possible, I'd rather be a child who doesn't understand anything, than to be trapped in such a situation and be full of worries.

Tao Songnian has always been very considerate, maybe he knows how confused I am inside, and he doesn't want to make things worse, so he hasn't looked for me for several days.The usual greetings in the morning and evening have also gradually decreased in frequency, and gossip has never been sent again.I really didn't have the heart to respond to her, so I procrastinated like this.

There seems to be an impasse between us.Although she pierced the window paper and forced me to face an incredible thing.But at the same time, she tried not to put pressure on me, and she didn't approach me when I was upset, so that I could make a decision as soon as possible.Instead, it left room for me to think about it carefully and deal with it properly.But the more she thinks about me like this, the more I feel ashamed, and I can't let it go.I can't stand her kindness.

The seed she planted in my heart frantically absorbs energy, takes root firmly, and will spread to the whole body bit by bit along the blood vessels.

Maybe it's a kind of psychological effect. After touching that little bit of clues, I still want to find more evidence.I began to observe secretly unconsciously, and secretly recalled what kind of state Ning Ran and I were in.

At first, I really doubted whether it was because I listened to Tao Songnian's words, my thinking was led astray and I had an illusion, and I unconsciously put on colored glasses to look at Ning Ran. Maybe she is a kind of possessive desire for friends .

However, if you think about it seriously, this statement seems to be untenable at all.They are also good friends. When Ning Ran faced A Rui and Qiu Zicheng, his attitude was obviously much gentler, and he could even be said to be happy to hear and see them. He occasionally teased A Rui with me, without any emotional fluctuations.No matter how it is placed on me, it looks completely different.

It can be seen that Ning Ran does not have the so-called possessive desire for good friends, my initial thought was wrong.It's ridiculous that I made a guarantee with such an idea early on, and said self-righteously that my relationship with her would not be affected.It's as stupid as it gets, as funny as a clown.

We have been inseparable for so many years. I thought I knew her very well, but it was not until I jumped out of the original perspective and observed her with a completely different perspective that I realized that she had changed a lot from when I was a child.

Her appearance has grown a lot, and her facial features can still see the outline of her childhood, but her childishness has faded, and she is not so soft and cute.At this time, the lines are softer, with the greenness of a teenage girl, and the thin body is no longer just a skeleton, but has some curves unknowingly.Only those eyes are always so clear, as if they can see the bottom of your heart at a glance.

But when it comes to things related to study, Ning Ran will have a little arrogant look, exactly the same as when he was a child.First, it keeps nagging to make you realize how stupid you are, and then pretends to be ferocious and grabs you to delve into the textbook and explain it to you in detail.

This is the appearance of a young girl in full bloom, as long as she bends her eyes and smiles lightly, people can stop for her.But after so long, I actually acted as if I hadn't seen it at all, as if both eyes were blind.

I think if Ning Ran and I were not good friends, maybe I would have noticed her earlier.I can see how good she really is.

During that time, I even felt like a thief, secretly observing her secretly. The more I observed, the more gratified and regretful I felt.

I tried my best to keep my gaze calm, not daring to let her find out.Ning Ran is such a smart person, as long as I am a little careless, she will very likely be caught by her, and then follow the clues and find that I already know her thoughts.She doesn't even need to torture me, she can get my words out in a few words.At that time, I hadn't figured out how to deal with our relationship.

No matter how careful I am, there will always be times when I show my feet, and occasionally I meet her eyes. Such clear eyes always make me suspect that I can't hide what's on my mind at all, and I will tell the whole story at any time.

Ning Ran is sometimes very restrained.Since she said she would not help me with breakfast in the morning, she really never handed me a bite to eat.Even taking my car to and from school is getting farther and farther away.The gap between us was wide enough to hold a schoolbag.I was really annoyed by this in my heart, but I couldn't vent it to her.

She is a smart person, and she originally thought of using this method to restrain herself from being a good friend, so that I would not be too embarrassed in front of Tao Songnian, but she was almost telling me plainly that everything about her guesses are correct.

There was simply no way for me to ignore her actions, no way to escape the meaning behind them.That seed grew crazily and savagely in my body and mind, forcing me to admit an increasingly clear fact that my good friend Ning Ran who grew up with me did have feelings for me beyond friendship.

As for the reason, I have no way of knowing. Perhaps, as Tao Songnian said, quantitative changes lead to qualitative changes, which is a kind of accumulation brought about by time.

I once thought about it, if I didn't know Tao Songnian and didn't learn about it from her mouth, when would I find out by myself?Will I also gradually fall in love with Ning Ran because of the accumulation of time?

The answer is of course unknown.I am very aware of how stupid I am. Many things need to be enlightened to get a glimpse of them, especially emotionally.If I hadn't met Tao Songnian, maybe I would never have discovered that I was actually interested in girls.The acquaintance with her was completely an accident, and even the germination of her affection seemed so incredible.If it wasn't for Tao Songnian, maybe when I was older, I would one day realize how much I value Ning Ran, but I might not be able to figure out why.

All this is fate.

Speaking of which, I should really thank Tao Songnian, she opened up another possibility for my life.Whether it was good or bad, she opened it completely in front of me, and it was brutally frank.

I'm glad I met her and not anyone else.From an ordinary point of view, when facing their potential "rivals in love", most people would like to strangle the other party in the bud, so as to save one trouble and count as one.Few people would wake me up clearly like her and let me deal with it myself.

If she keeps concealing it, and I must not find out so early, I will only let the goodwill between us heat up, and put Ning Ran in a tormenting situation unconsciously.At that time, I have no way to forgive myself, and I have no face to meet Ning Ran again.The deep friendship of so many years will go downhill with it.

Fortunately, Tao Songnian was magnanimous and cruel enough.She didn't bother to hide it at all, and was willing to tell me frankly what she knew, even though it would be difficult for me to say it, she would put it directly in front of me and tell me word for word.

I can't help but ask myself, how can I be treated preferentially by these two people? It really makes me feel ashamed.

The chaotic thoughts twisted my brain into a ball of wool, and various chaotic thoughts swelled in my mind, and my whole body was pulled and I was at a loss.

I don't know if this is the price of growth.If yes, then this question is really a bit too difficult for me.