Shen Langgui

Smiling affectionately around the quilt tent, the brocade quilt turned red.A good night like water, sleep drunk among the flowers.

Xun He blindfolded Shen Yue at first, then turned upside down, the cloth strips fell off, Xing He had no time to take care of Xun He on his head.

After the matter was over, the two cheeks touched each other, and their noses blended.Seeing that the color around Shen Yue's lips was dyed, Xun He didn't see the color fading even after wiping it a few times, only then did he realize that it was stained on his face when he was making out just now.

Even Shen Yue is in this situation, Xun He really doesn't have the courage to stand beside the stream and shine on the water.

"It's dirty, don't kiss me."

"Blame you too beautiful!"

"You can also boast to the painted face cat, you are not ashamed."

"nonsense!"

Xun He originally thought that Shen Yue was going to try another trick to comfort himself, but Shen Yue changed the subject: "You are obviously a pig, so you should be considered a pig with a face!"

"..."

After being silent for a while, Shen Yue embraced Xun He, and said seriously: "But even if you become a pig with a painted face, you are still good-looking. Five senses can't deceive people."

When ordinary people hear praise, most of them feel self-respecting.But Xun He had a strange expression, first grief and indignation, and then gradually turned into helplessness like giving up: "Master, I have white skin, slender bones, and an indistinguishable appearance, and even my temperament...is meek and feminine. Many At that time, I really hated myself from the inside out, why can't I look like a normal man!!"

Shen Yue was surprised: "In your eyes, what is considered a 'normal man'?"

"Master Shen, Second Master, Cheng Yin, even Yan Ru, all have a masculine air..." After speaking, Xun He's voice gradually weakened until he fell silent.

"Yang was considered a man just now?! Where did you get the fallacy?" Shen Yue sat up abruptly, "Su Dongpo once said when discussing Wang's reform, 'The beauty of the land is the same as that of living things, but different from what is born. Only the barren In a barren land, there are yellow grasses and white reeds, so the Wang family is the same. The same principle applies to humans. If all men in the world are masculine and rough, what a boring scene it would be!"

Xun He was stunned for a while, moved to Shen Yue's side, hugged Shen Yue's belly, buried his head in it: "Master, you don't know, my stepfather once told me..."

Xun He actually took the initiative to mention his secretive stepfather! !Shen Yue's whole body was immediately excited, and he tried his best to maintain his composure.After not hearing the following for a long time, Shen Yue retreated to advance, and comforted softly: "If you think this is your personal secret, then don't say it, don't force yourself." After finishing speaking, he held Xun He's upper arm at the right time to give physical comfort .

"No, I didn't hide anything from Lord Shen. It's just that some memories come and go. I'll tell you when I remember it. I can't remember why. One day my stepfather punished me. During this period, he scolded me. Scold me...'A pair of eyes are more attractive than women, and they deserve to be taught by men'." After a while of silence, Xun He said quietly, "I can't think of the others."

Shen Yue was puzzled: "Didn't you say that your stepfather treated you well? How could he teach you a lesson?"

Xun He shook his head repeatedly: "I don't know, I have a headache, so don't ask."

Shen Yue helped Xun He up, and the two of them pressed their chests together and embraced each other.Shen Yue sighed and said, "Because of your stepfather's words, you blamed your appearance in Pengmen later on, didn't you?"

Xun He didn't answer.But Shen Yue clearly felt Xun He's body tremble, and then he began to sob like a fight.

With Xun He's reaction like this, the answer is self-evident.

After practicing medicine for one year, Shen Yue groped his way forward in this unfamiliar field.Either by coincidence or due to painstaking efforts, Shen Yue, who was exploring, actually helped many people get out of the gloom.Shen Yue compiled these experiences, together with the initial case of treating Li Cheng, into the book, pondered over and over again, and searched for the treatment plan for Xun Gu.

In those confusing and confusing years, in the precipice-like memories of Xunhe, I still hold the pipa half-hidden.Shen Yue had to carefully consider every word and every word, even his demeanor, Shen Yue wanted to ruminate back and forth in order to catch traces.

After Xun He calmed down a bit, Shen Yue said: "My Li'er, if you really think so, you have fallen into the trick of 'Chaos'!"

"?" Xun He turned his face to the side to listen.

"Think about it, did you voluntarily experience Pengmen's experience?"

After hesitating for a moment, Xun He shook his head.

"That's right. It's obvious that someone else inflicted harm on you, but you blame yourself, and even hate yourself because of it. Isn't this just a trick?"

"The worst thing about 'chaos' is that it lurks all around us without us knowing it. It creates ups and downs for everyone. Some people are bright in nature, like the gull, and can heal themselves in the future; It's a great honor to meet noble people and get relief, such as Xiao Lian, or me."

These words were like thunder on the ground, Xun He jumped out of Shen Yue's arms, and looked at the man in astonishment: "Master Shen's nobleman?"

"It's far away in the sky, but it's close in front of you." As he spoke, Shen Yue took a sip of Xun He's lips, and rubbed his ears together, "This is not the point, the point is that you happen to be neither of the above, so unfortunately you fell into 'Chaos' trap."

"'Chaos' makes you unable to recognize your own strengths."

Xun He was puzzled: "My strengths?"

"That's right, what you despise and cover up are exactly your characteristics and where you shine. You don't know, I just saw your back through the crack of the door, and my mind was already shaking and my heart was shocked Your so-called shortcomings, such as skin whiteness, just show Miss Du's pampering that stays at home; the sloping shoulders you dislike just smoothed the edges and corners of men playing dan roles; your appearance is neutral, so you can swim freely Walking in the two corners of life; even, the temperament you are troubled by, you must know that tenderness can temper your nature, and femininity is good for empathy. Contradictions coexist in the world, but 'wonton' makes you only see the negative side."

"Good things in the world are not strong, and life is short. For example, Chaojun, if you don't take advantage of the time to make progress and maximize your talents, it would be a pity."

After a long time, Xun He asked stupidly: "Is playing a role considered aggressive?"

"Why not! As long as you don't commit crimes, harm others or yourself, and live above food and clothing, you can pursue what you want. The so-called 'enterprising', the most important thing is the vigorous state in the process of pursuit. Life is worthwhile because of desire."

Xun He drooped his eyes, and the bottom of his eyes shimmered.

After making up his mind, Shen Yue asked: "Li'er, my birthday will be in two months. In previous years, I prepared it for you, but this year, can I ask for a gift?"

"Ah? What does Master Shen want?"

Shen Yue smiled: "I want that day, you sing me a discount of "Dream"."

After not listening to Shen Yue's words for a long time, Xun He couldn't believe it: "That's all?"

"This is not an easy task, do you really dare to play a role in front of me?"

Xun He didn't think about it: "I'm not better than others, and I won't be malicious because of my stunning appearance."

Shen Yue had mixed feelings, his eyes were wet: "Yes, I cherish every aspect of you."

Feeling moved, he leaned over twice, his mouth was everywhere, and his rouge was in mind.

The fragrance of the bucket tent disappears, and the screen window is warmed by the moon.

When they parted, Shen Yue seemed to have a disfigured face, and Xun He laughed: "Master, your face is even dirtier, let's go out, I'll wipe it for you."

"Okay." The two put on their clothes and got up.

Xun He was familiar with it, and soon cleaned it up for Shen Yue.After changing the towel, Xun He was about to pour pine oil, but Shen Yue grabbed his wrist: "Let me help you."

Xun He was slightly stunned, and immediately closed his eyes happily.

After a while, Shen Yue sighed: "Both have long eyelashes, mine are curly and curled, while yours are flat and straight."

"My mother once said that eyelashes are made of tears. The more you cry, the longer your eyelashes will be."

Shen Yue agreed: "Well, you loved to cry when you were young."

"After suffering too much, I realized that crying is useless, so I stopped crying. But Master Shen, you beat me back to my original form, and turned me back into a cowardly crying bag."

"So what about crying? It's good to be strong, but there's no need to be brave. It's just that there is no place to cry."

Xun He couldn't help laughing: "Master, in your eyes, even crying can be so righteous."

"It's not just crying, in front of me, you do everything with confidence and courage." Finally, wiping off a little rouge from the corner of Xun He's mouth, Shen Yue said joyfully, "It's done, it's white and tender, like a freshly peeled egg."

Xun He blushed.

Shen Yue is gratified, this is the reaction he should have when he hears others praise his appearance.

"Li'er, I still remember the time we first met. In order to make things difficult for you, I viciously stained your makeup." When we first met, I had pink face and red makeup, but now Xun He couldn't put on makeup because of his disabled right hand, so...

Unexpectedly, Xun He smiled calmly and said: "I also remember that under the magnolia tree, I first saw Lord Shen who climbed up the stairs and was dressed in black clothes." When he said that, Xun He snuggled into Shen Yue's arms, "Mr. , do you know what I was thinking at the time?"

Shen Yue frowned and thought: "It wasn't long before I punished my brother, and the rumors about me in the public should be that I was ruthless. You were probably afraid of me at that time."

"True, but only half true."

"Oh? Have other ideas? I would like to hear more about it."

"I've seen too many crooked melons and cracked dates in Pengmen. I finally met such an iconic figure as Lord Shen. I was half happy and half excellent at the time. But luckily, I finally caught up with Master Shen, and I have what I am today. "

"Little bastard, it turns out that you were attracted to me when you first came to me!?"

"Yes!"

"You have a lot of guts."

"Hee hee!" Xun He leaned against Shen Yue, hugged Shen Yue's cheek back, and asked again, "By the way, Lord, you just said that I am the noble person who untie your knot, what do you say?"

Seeing some dandruff on Xun He's lips, Shen Yue remembered that Xun He hadn't touched any water so far, so he brought a teacup to Xun He's mouth, and teased at the same time: "Silly carp, you treat me like I will You take it so seriously, just to make up for you? Or to add some love? No."

"The Qing side is successful. I received the first meritorious service of a military general, and I am an extremely human minister. Wu Xiang's faction was also brought to justice. But Shen Chao often asked me 'why I am still gloomy'."

"Who doesn't want to be clear? But I can't be clear. Until the misunderstanding of you is resolved, and I know everything you have done for me behind the scenes..."

"I thought I would go through all kinds of hardships, but I didn't expect that there would be such a stupid person who risked his life to pave the way for the Shen family."

Xun He was moved, and explained with a sob: "Master, the Shen family treats me so well, everything for him is worth it."

"Well, since then, I know that you are a person who knows how to cherish, so I dare to give you my heart."

"Master, you may not be able to imagine how important the Shen family is to me. The way of survival taught by Pengmen is to 'step on other people's bones'. That time, Lord Qin, I already counted as my mercy. , you don’t know those years…”

Shen Yue quickly comforted: "Back then you had no choice but to stop mentioning it."

Xun He wiped the corners of his eyes, and continued: "The Shen family really treats me like a family member, especially the old grandmother. At that time, I made up my mind that I must be worthy of the Shen family's affection for me, so... so I have the following In fact, if I am a pariah who can't even take the imperial examination, if I don't have the salvation of the Shen family, if I am still alive at this moment, I will be nothing more than a walking dead."

"Ah Li, you always take the outside world too seriously. You must know that it is not the imperial examination, let alone the Shen family, that changes your destiny, but yourself."

Xun He couldn't help laughing: "My master's words always make me feel that I am not too bad."

"You were great, but you were blinded by 'chaos'."

The author says: ① Depression was mentioned in the previous article. It was originally called 'Big Bad', but I didn't decide on a good name at the time, but now it's called 'Chaos'.From the "Shen Yi Jing" Xihuang Jing: "There is a beast in the west of Kunlun, which looks like a dog, with long hair and four legs. Intellectuality has the abdomen without the five viscera, the intestines are straight but not twisted, and the food passes through. People have virtues and go against them, and people with vicious virtues go to rely on them.”

②Shen Yue's classical Chinese is quoted from Su Shi's "Answer to Zhang Wenqian Book"

At three o'clock in the morning, I felt like I was gone.