To die

Lin Yan hated being such a useless self.

When he first discovered this symptom, he locked himself in the room and memorized the forgotten bills and regulations many times.

But no matter how eloquent he could be when he was alone, Lin Yan's mind would go blank and he couldn't speak a word when he first simulated a real court.

He punished himself by not eating if he couldn't recite.

However, even if he sat from noon until late at night, Lin Yan still couldn't overcome himself.

He was so hungry that he couldn't concentrate, stared at the computer screen drowsily, and his performance was getting worse and worse.

Because of this, he hated his incompetent self more and more.

Lin Yan's strong heart is directly proportional to his self-esteem, as much as he is proud of his self-esteem, he will not allow himself to fail.

Since he was a student, every time he did not perform well in an exam, he punished himself in this way. While eating cold food, he held a meeting in his mind to reflect on the problem.

I have a bad stomach because I eat a lot of cold rice, and now I always drink porridge.

Lin Yan's behavior at home has been obviously not right lately.

Sometimes he reads in the study and stays bored all afternoon.Then within a few days, Lu Hanqian found Lin Yan's civil law book in the trash can in the study.

Lu Hanqian was stunned for a moment, subconsciously picked it up for him from the trash can, put it back on the bookshelf and tidied it up.I thought Lin Yan accidentally dropped it.

As a result, the next day, Lin Yan was thrown back again.

In the past, Lu Hanqian could never have imagined that Lin Yan would throw away his civil law books one day.

When he was in Lancheng, Lin Yan had a small box specially for storing the small gifts he received by scanning codes on the street.

They were all low-quality watercolor pens, small fans printed with advertisements, and paper towels with a pungent smell.

Lu Hanqian felt very baffled, because Lin Yan didn't need these things at all, and it wouldn't be of any use if he accepted them, so why would he waste his time scanning codes for others.

Later Lin Yan said: "Because they are vulnerable groups."

"There are many scammers who will pretend to be lost tourists, beggars who can't eat, part-time workers who need to scan codes to traffic people, and sell kind-hearted girls to remote mountains isolated from the world."

Lin Yan said: "Then when women who are weak and vulnerable to conflicts are inconvenient to provide help to others, more men should stand up so that those who really need help do not feel isolated and helpless. As a powerful Legal personnel who are able to protect themselves should be at the forefront.”

But in fact, at that time, Lin Yan was being restrained by Lu Hanqian's side, and he was enduring rape and torture every day.

Lu Hanqian couldn't imagine how the strong sense of social responsibility that had supported Lin Yan for so long and so far, almost fused with his flesh and blood, would disappear in Lin Yan like this.

He wanted to know what went wrong, but he usually asked Lin Yan, but Lin Yan didn't say anything, so he had to ask in bed.

He specifically endured not playing with Lin Yan for more than a week, until a weekend when both of them were free, and Lu Hanqian had enough time to "extort a confession", then he implemented the plan.

He prepared the perfume in advance - Lin Yan's favorite scent. After taking a shower, he sprayed it from the beginning to the end, and began to lean on the bed, waiting for Lin Yan, while watching a small video to review the operation.

"Don't you blow your hair?"

However, Lin Yan came out soon, and when Lu Hanqian raised his eyes, he was wiping his hair with a dry towel.

The steam made Lin Yan a little red from his neck to the back of his ears. The lack of oxygen from the steam seemed to make him a little uncomfortable. After a low "um", he walked to the other side of the double bed.

Lu Hanqian looked at him, following him from one direction of the room to another.

Then, when Lin Yan sat down, he dug out a hair dryer from the bedside table, plugged it in, and knelt behind Lin Yan: "I'll blow it for you."

He kissed Lin Yan's earlobe, where a drop of water slipped from Lin Yan's hair.

Lin Yan trembled reflexively, and then struggled a little. Lu Hanqian immediately pressed his shoulder: "I was just playing with you, and I didn't do anything except blow my hair."

What he said was sincere, as if it was true.Seeing that Lin Yan didn't respond, he added another sentence: "Sleeping with wet hair is not good for your health. If you catch a cold later on, you will have a headache again. If you take too much painkiller, your reaction will become dull."

This hit Lin Yan's Achilles heel by mistake, and Lin Yan fell silent immediately, and then obeyed: This hit Lin Yan's Achilles heel by mistake, Lin Yan fell silent immediately After a while, then obeyed: "...Okay, let's blow it."

Lu Hanqian smiled, a little cunningly trying to succeed.

He stuck his fingers//in Lin Yan's pitch-black hair, and rubbed his thumbs on Lin Yan's neck deliberately.

Lin Yan flinched a little, and Lu Hanqian pretended to say: "Don't move, it's not good to move around!"

Lin Yan paused, and said with some discomfort, "Itches."

Lu Hanqian coughed, and put on an upright face: "Hold on."

Lin Yan had never had someone else blow his hair, and he couldn't tell if it was just like this, or Lu Hanqian did it on purpose.

I only felt Lu Hanqian's fingertips touching his sensitive back of the neck, itching and numb, I couldn't help shrinking my shoulders, and Lu Hanqian pulled it back, saying that he didn't cooperate.

"I won't blow it."

Lin Yan endured it for half an hour, but he couldn't take it anymore, so he turned his head away from Lu Hanqian's touch: "You make me itchy."

"Then let me see."

Lu Hanqian paused, turned off the hair dryer, pulled Lin Yan's chin to make him turn his head, and examined: "...It's okay if you don't blow it. It's almost done."

Lin Yan made him feel uncomfortable, and after reading it, he wanted to turn around.

However, Lu Hanqian pinched his chin, smiled suddenly, and said, "Lin Yan, you smell so sweet."

The posture of the two of them was that Lu Hanqian was kneeling behind Lin Yan, and Lin Yan was sitting up to his chest.

Lu Hanqian suddenly bent down without warning, and kissed Lin Yan's hair: "What kind of shampoo is this, why is it so fragrant?"

The words have come to this point, if Lin Yan has not realized it, he is probably a fool.

He has been using this shampoo for a long time, why did Lu Hanqian find it fragrant today?

Lu Hanqian looked at him with a smile, but Lin Yan didn't move, Lu Hanqian pulled him over and sat on the bed facing him.

He looked at Lin Yan's eyes, very cold and indifferent eyes, like the eyes of a hermit who plunged into the mortal world but was not disturbed by the mortal world.

As the heat dissipated, Lin Yan's slightly flushed ears and cheeks slowly returned to their usual paleness, only slightly warm to the touch.

Neither of them spoke, Lu Hanqian slowly lowered his head and kissed Lin Yan's forehead.

Lin Yan's eyes were still open, Lu Hanqian couldn't help but smiled, and raised his hand to gently cover his eyes: "Shh, don't look."

Then he kissed down little by little, from the eye sockets to the bridge of the nose, kissing inch by inch, until he reached Lin Yan's lips, and then stopped slightly.

Lin Yan was covering his eyes and couldn't see anything. He thought that Lu Hanqian would come to kiss him, so he didn't move.

But he waited for a while, but Lu Hanqian's kiss never fell.Lin Yan frowned, and subconsciously wanted to break away from Lu Hanqian's hand to look at it, only to hear Lu Hanqian whispering in his ear: "Lin Yan, I want to kiss you, do you agree?"

Lin Yan was taken aback, he had never seen Lu Hanqian do such tricks.

Never before had he kissed when he didn't want to, it was a little abnormal to be so polite.

But Lu Hanqian asked again: "OK, do you agree or not?"

Lin Yan nodded suspiciously.

"Then you have to hold me."

Who knew that Lu Hanqian said: "Little couples kiss each other with their arms around their necks. If you don't do this, I'll be a bully. It's a crime."

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