To die

The past of Lin Yan and Lu Hanqian is like a switch, which cannot be mentioned. Once it is mentioned, Lin Yan will feel an uncontrollable self-loathing and depression, making their story impossible to continue.

But if you want to go on for a long time, how can you escape without ignorance.

The scar is there, and the pain doesn't go away whether you look at it or not.

Lin Yan was trapped under the quilt, quietly looking at the darkness, exhausted and unable to fall asleep.

At around eleven o'clock the next morning, Lin Yan opened the door and came out. It seemed that he had finished washing, but his expression was still a bit cold.

This time Lu Hanqian had learned to be smart, brought breakfast ahead of time, arranged it on the dining table, and was sitting on the sofa waiting for Lin Yan.

As soon as Lin Yan came out, he immediately stood up, like a primary school student meeting the dean.

But when he saw Lin Yan, he didn't seem to know what to say. He opened his lips slightly, closed them again, and finally moved his hands unnaturally, pointed at the dining table, and said in a low voice: "Then what... .Don't go out to eat today. I'll bring the food for you."

Lin Yan didn't speak, just sat down and ate slowly.

News is being broadcast on TV, reporting that a Chinese international rich man is suspected of sexual assault in the United States.

Lu Hanqian didn't have breakfast at first, and had been waiting for Lin Yan, but Lin Yan finally came out now, and he didn't dare to lean over.

——If Lu Hanqian knew what Lin Yan was thinking at this time, he would be glad that he made such a correct decision.

Lin Yan has been repeating a sentence in his mind since yesterday, he was thinking whether he should say to Lu Hanqian: "Forget it, let's stop here."

Fortunately, Lu Hanqian didn't walk over, and he didn't say this sentence after all.

Lin Yan finished his breakfast absent-mindedly. When going out, Lu Hanqian subconsciously stood up and said, "I'll see you off."

However, this time Lin Yan blocked him, and then passed Lu Hanqian by mistake, and hurried away without meeting Lu Hanqian's eyes: "No need. The driver is already downstairs."

Lu Hanqian turned his head and looked at Lin Yan's leaving back until he walked around the corner and was no longer seen.

Lin Yan walked out of the hotel gate, and sure enough, there was already a Rolls Royce waiting at the gate.

He opened the car door and sat in the back seat, but before the car started, Lin Yan raised his head and looked towards the sixth floor of the hotel as if he suddenly remembered something.

That was a very delicate angle, Lin Yan knew that if he looked down from the French windows on the sixth floor, he would definitely be able to see him getting into the car.

And Lu Hanqian was standing in front of the window at this time, Lin Yan could see a vague shadow of him, standing there motionless, unable to see the specific expression, but Lin Yan guessed that it must not be a pretty expression.

Lu Hanqian quietly watched Lin Yan go away in someone else's car, like a large abandoned dog that was left in place and not allowed to chase.

In the afternoon, Lin Yan went to Wall's private banquet to perform.

Walben is a person who likes the piano, and he was very surprised by Lin Yan's talent. After learning that Lin Yan and Lu Hanqian still knew each other, he contacted Lin Yan frequently and invited him to play at his various banquets.

"Mr. Lin, I'm really, really sorry for inviting you to perform today."

Waldau: "I am very honored that you agreed to go, and I wish you the best of luck."

Lin Yan was a little puzzled, he would usually come over to play a piece or two, and this was his first visit, why Walter was so polite today.

It seemed that today was very special, and I felt sorry for delaying Lin Yan's time.

But in the following time, nothing unexpected happened, so Lin Yan didn't pay much attention to it, and quickly focused on other things.

In the evening, Lu Hanqian called and said that he had to go out temporarily for something, and he would return later, so he might not be able to pick up Lin Yan.

Lin Yan didn't think it mattered, Wall also had a car here, so just trouble the driver to make a trip.

When we arrived at the hotel, the room was really dark.Lin Yan turned on the light, and saw that the living room was neatly tidied up, and the dishes left on the dining table before going out in the morning were also washed clean.

A small note was left on the refrigerator: "The mango juice is fresh, you can drink it directly after taking it out for a while."

Lin Yan is allergic to mangoes, but he likes to eat them.

Most of the substances that cause his allergies are attached to the mango skin. Every time he wants to eat it, someone has to peel it for him and put it on a plate, or squeeze it into juice to satisfy his hunger.

During the period of amnesia, Lu Hanqian helped him peel mangoes every day, until the nails were yellow.

Think about when Mr. Lu went out to sign the contract, he stretched out his golden hands and signed a beautiful signature with a swipe of the pen, but the partner took a careful look and saw the mango skin under Mr. Lu's nails, and he didn't know what mood it was .

Lin Yan opened the refrigerator and saw that there were three cups of mango juice neatly inside, two cups with ice, and one cup with a yogurt cover.

He took out a glass, sat cross-legged on the sofa and drank while watching TV.

Lin Yan left Paris when he was less than four years old. Having lived in China for so many years, he is still not quite used to European culture.

After watching the talk show for a while, the rest of the content didn't quite attract him, so Lin Yan began to feel bored.

When Lu Hanqian was around, he felt depressed and uneasy, but when Lu Hanqian was really gone, Lin Yan felt that there was something missing.

He seems to be split into two people, one is the self who once felt humiliated and embarrassed under Lu Hanqian, and the other is the self who was at a loss when he lost his memory, and has no one to rely on except Lu Hanqian, 100% trusting in his self.

Sitting on the sofa until after ten o'clock, Lin Yan was really sleepy, so he couldn't help but go wash up first, and get ready for bed.

However, just as he was entering the bathroom, the hotel door was unlocked with a "tick", and Lu Hanqian finally came back.

Lin Yan paused for a moment, but Lu Hanqian didn't intend to look for him, and after a while outside, the movement stopped.

Don't know what to do.

Lin Yan couldn't tell what it was like, he seemed a little unaccustomed to it, and also a little inexplicably unhappy.

He wondered why Lu Hanqian was so mature today and didn't come to ask him what he did in the morning, afternoon and evening.

After Lin Yan washed up, he applied hot compresses on his eyes, and was about to change into pajamas and go to bed.

Lu Hanqian still didn't come to look for him, so Lin Yan simply walked over to lock the door behind him.

However, just when Lin Yan finished locking the door and went back to the bed to turn off the light, his eyelids twitched suddenly - there was a small pink envelope in the crack of the door, which was slowly stuffed in.

Lin Yan: "..." Lawyer Lin sat on the side of the bed stiffly with a suspicious mentality of doubting whether he had finished the hot compress and dazzled, without moving.

Lin Yan has lived for 25 years. Although he has never been in a relationship when he was a student and has been working hard, he has also heard about other people's experiences—but this is the first time he has opened his eyes to such a situation.

At the moment, he couldn't help but froze in place, and didn't realize what kind of trick this was.

The little envelope wasn't actually stuffed all the way in, and there was still an edge left outside the door.

Then, a scene that shocked Lin Yan even more happened - he watched the little pink envelope being pulled out again!

Lu Hanqian squatted outside the door, his feet were sore and his legs were numb. He was really nervous, and just now he managed to muster up the courage to stuff the envelope in, only to realize that he hadn't packed the envelope properly, and the envelope was so empty.

He prayed that Lin Yan never saw it. He was still in the shower, and when he stuffed the envelope, his hands were shaking like a Parkinson's patient.

However, when it was halfway through, Lu Hanqian suddenly thought, will this anger Lin Yan?

Lin Yan had said that he would not be allowed to say those dirty words taught by Gu Zhao again.

Although this was all his own thinking and had nothing to do with Gu Zhao, if Lin Yan misunderstood, wouldn't Lu Hanqian be able to clean up even if he jumped into the Yellow River?

It was hard for him to find a chance to reconnect with Lin Yan. If Lin Yan kicked him again because of such a trivial matter, then he wouldn't even have to be a bad boy. awful.

Holding the envelope in his hand, Lu Hanqian suddenly felt that he was a bit aggressive, and the risk of this move was slightly higher.

Do you want to wait a few more days?

It just so happened that Lin Yan was angry with him yesterday, and maybe he was still angry, so it would not be a good plan to provoke him again at this time.

Lu Hanqian hesitated, a little wanting to pull out the envelope again, it's better to make steady progress.

However, I don't know what happened to the envelope, maybe it got stuck somewhere, when Lu Hanqian pulled it out, he couldn't pull it out suddenly!

He tugged, but the end didn't move at all, it was still firmly stuck.

About stuffing the envelope, Mr. Lu was already nervous to death, but now that his luck was bad, he was still stuck somewhere, which made him even more flustered.

Lin Yan didn't know when he came out of the shower, and if he saw this letter by then, Lu Hanqian would be finished!

This feeling is probably a bit similar to cheating on exams in student days.

Finally, while the teacher was away, he took out a small note from his pocket tremblingly, but his hands trembled in panic, and he shook the note away before he could glance at it.

The mood at that time can probably be summed up in one sentence: "Who will save me..." Mr. Lu squatted outside the door and grabbed the envelope, desperately pulling it out from different angles, so urgent that his palms burst out. sweat.

However, on the other side of the door, Lin Yan pressed the envelope with two fingers, and happened to click on the word "Lin Yan" in "Beloved Lin Yan (received)", and he refused to let go.

It wasn't until a crack appeared in the middle of the envelope that it was about to be torn, that Lin Yan frowned and let go of his fingers in compromise.

The strength on the other side was suddenly withdrawn, and Lu Hanqian let out a long breath.

But before he had time to rejoice that the pink envelope was finally drawn out, the door suddenly opened.

Lin Yan stood at the door, looking at Lu Hanqian who was squatting on the ground.

He looked at Lu Hanqian with a complex, indescribable expression, not knowing how to express his mood at the moment, and asked after a while, "What are you doing?"