To die

Before Lu Hanqian's water boiled, Lin Yan called the front desk and asked the waiter to bring the breakfast.

Lu Hanqian wanted to save face, he stood in the kitchen and said: "My water will be ready soon, or I can cook porridge, it's delicious."

Lin Yan asked, "Where did you get the rice? Do you plant it now?"

As he spoke, he even looked over Lu Hanqian, with his left leg resting on his right leg, his legs crossed gracefully, and his expression was very serious and curious, as if he was really asking a question.

"..." Lu Hanqian subconsciously wanted to call Li Nan, asking him to carry a bag of white rice within 10 minutes and appear in his sight, but as soon as his hand touched his pocket, he remembered that Li Nan was dispatched by him. I went to Southeast Asia and haven't come back yet.

"Come and eat."

Lin Yan spoke, while pushing another meal in front of him, while looking down at the latest fashion magazine.

Lu Hanqian awkwardly walked up to him, and had nothing to say when passing by: "You like this shirt with bees? Then I'll buy one for you to bring back tonight."

Who knew that Lin Yan asked back, "Are you still coming back?"

"...Where am I going if I don't come back?"

Lu Hanqian said: "Lin Yan, do you still want me? We slept through last night, you have to be responsible to me."

"We lay under the quilt all night, and we didn't even talk for a day! What am I responsible for?"

Lu Hanqian said: "Tsk tsk tsk, you are such a scumbag."

"..." Lin Yan was speechless. At this moment, he deeply felt that giving Lu Hanqian his business card last night might be the biggest mistake in his life.

"Baby, now I own all the money I have, and I sold myself to you to pay off my debts. You have to treat me well."

Mr. Lu didn't look like a little boy, but rather arrogantly said: "I love you, okay?"

"...who taught you this."

Lin Yan was silent for a long time, but still couldn't help asking in shock and incredulity: "How did you become like this?"

"Gu Zhao."

Lu Hanqian bit the bread, and said lazily: "He said that strong girls are afraid of pestering men, as long as I am shameless, I will always get your love."

"...He taught the same words as the elementary school students recited the text yesterday?"

Lu Hanqian nodded: "Ah."

Then he realized that Lin Yan's expression was a bit wrong, and he immediately added: "But every sentence is from my heart! It's just that he helped me polish it later!"

Lin Yan took a deep breath: "From now on."

He didn't even flip through the magazines, he looked a little angry, fixedly looked at Lu Hanqian, and said angrily: "If you say this kind of Gu Zhao's quotations again, I will never talk to you again."

The unswallowed bread in Lu Hanqian's mouth choked up, choking him for a while.

He hurriedly drank water, but before he could explain to Lin Yan, Lin Yan slammed the door and walked out without saying a word.

But Lu Hanqian is really a person who is not very good at talking about love.

When he was with Lin Yan, every time he was ridiculed by Lin Yan, he would just fuck him back and make Lin Yan moan//groan and shut up. Now he knows he can't do this, but he doesn't know how to coax people.

In the next few days, when Lin Yan refused to let him say what Gu Zhaojiao said, Lu Hanqian became very nervous and dared not say anything more.

He even bought the shirt that Lin Yan was looking at at breakfast that day, and he only put it by the bedside to make sure Lin Yan could see it, and he didn't even dare to leave a note.

Afraid that Lin Yan would think he was exaggerated.

One night, Lu Hanqian really missed Lin Yan, and besides, they had lived together peacefully for more than ten days. He even knew that Lin Yan was considering renting an apartment in Paris instead of staying in a hotel—this was obviously a plan to stay for a while. .

So Lu Hanqian boldly stepped over the pillow, put his arms around Lin Yan's shoulders lightly, kissed the back of his neck, and said in a low voice, "Lin Yan."

Lin Yan opened his eyes in the dark, silently waiting for Lu Hanqian's next move, breathing slightly short of breath.

However, Lu Hanqian remained silent. Seeing that Lin Yan didn't respond, he just stared at Lin Yan's soft black hair trapped in the snow-white pillow for a while, and his Adam's apple rolled slightly——and slowly loosened like a mollusk in the ocean. Lin Yan's shoulders and withdrew his hands.

He dare not.

If Lin Yan didn't show his permission clearly, Lu Hanqian wouldn't dare to touch him.

Lin Yan was a little sleepy. Seeing that Lu Hanqian was very honest and didn't dare to move, he blinked tiredly and quickly fell asleep.

Lu Hanqian stared at the white, delicate and soft nape of his neck that was exposed in the night and didn't fall asleep all night.

He really wanted to take a bite.

The next morning, Lu Hanqian drove Lin Yan out as usual.

It's just that he seemed a little distracted, and he sent Lin Yan to the place where Lin Yan wanted to buy a piano, and there were already knowledgeable friends waiting for him at the door of the store.

Lu Hanqian glanced at the man, he was also Asian, but he seemed to be a Japanese, very elegant, when Lin Yan got off the car, he came over and greeted Lu Hanqian with a smile.

Lu Hanqian responded copiously, but his mind was actually on Lin Yan.

Why pick the piano and not be with him.

Lu Hanqian thought to himself, although he doesn't know how to play the piano, he is happy to discuss with Lin Yan and give him advice.

Lu Hanqian was a little unhappy, but he didn't show it. He waved to Lin Yan as usual, and agreed to pick him up later when he went back.



"your friend?"

Lu Hanqian's car drove away slowly, gradually disappearing from sight.Lin Yan withdrew his gaze, but the person standing beside him smiled and asked, "He seems to value you very much."

"why?"

"He looked at me warily."

The man thought for a while, and said, "Like I am a bad person. Afraid that I will hurt you."

Lin Yan smiled, and said lightly: "He is the worst person, who else should we guard against?"

The other party shrugged and walked into the shop with Lin Yan.

In fact, Lin Yan is a very delicate person.

Unlike Lu Hanqian, he has a strong ability to empathize and can easily guess what the other person is thinking.

From Lu Hanqian's recent performance, he can roughly imagine Lu Hanqian's psychological activities when facing him, and he also understands the answer Lu Hanqian wants to get.

He remained calm, pretending not to know, but actually hesitating, not thinking about how to respond.

In the middle of the night, when Lu Hanqian was lying beside him, sometimes Lin Yan would involuntarily tense up, subconsciously guarding against whether he would suddenly come over and grab his hand and pull his clothes.

The body is always impressed by bad memories.

Even if it is a small animal, if it is beaten by its owner, it will form a conditioned reflex, and it will not forget the pain of the whip falling on it just because it has been treated gently for a few days.

Not to mention the arrogant and self-respecting Lin Yan.

When going back at night, Lu Hanqian came early and waited at the door to smoke a cigarette by the side of the car.

He was wearing a navy blue overcoat, and his hair was well-groomed. He was about 1.8 meters tall, and he stood no less than Europeans, and because of his well-dressed clothes, he looked very eye-catching.

"Have you made your choice yet?"

He helped Lin Yan open the car door, asked casually, then greeted the Japanese gentleman quite naturally, and drove away.

Along the way, neither of them spoke much.

It seems that each has its own concerns.

When he arrived at the hotel, Lin Yan took off the stand-collar windbreaker, and went to the room to change into a more comfortable and casual sweater.

Lu Hanqian followed behind him and said, "Aren't you going out tonight? I ordered dinner, and they will bring it to you later—" "I've eaten."

However, Lin Yan turned his back to Lu Hanqian and said bluntly.

He was putting on the sweater, and from Lu Hanqian's perspective, he could see the two dimples above his tailbone.

It's not the obvious one, but superficial. If you hold it, it can be just as big as a thumb.

And that's where Lin Yan was most ticklish. Lu Hanqian used to play tricks on deliberately rubbing the calluses on his fingertips, and Lin Yan would suddenly tremble, curl up and twist away.

But now Lu Hanqian looked at this scene, but couldn't think of anything, only felt very irritable, sad, and disappointed.

Lin Yan has performed every day for more than ten days, and every time Lu Hanqian sent him out in the morning, and it was late when he came back at night, and he had to go to bed after a short shower.

There is almost no chance of sitting at the dinner table together for dinner.

It was very hard for Lin Yan to have this day's free time. Lu Hanqian didn't know how long he had waited for it, and how long he had prepared for it.

For each dish, he went to several restaurants, picked the best one, and recorded it in the memo bit by bit.In order to prepare this supper, he had to taste half of Paris.

But when it finally arrived, Lin Yan casually ate with others outside.

"What time is it?"

Lu Hanqian complained unhappily: "Can't you wait for us to eat together when you come back?"

Lin Yan frowned slightly: "Are you a child, do you need someone to accompany you to dinner?"

Lu Hanqian remained silent.

After a while, he suddenly said: "You don't tell me about picking the piano today. You would rather watch it with others, but don't tell me."

Lin Yan was a little tired.After the operation, although my life has been extended, my physical fitness is still not good. I feel tired very easily and lose energy. I just want to stay by myself and don't like to move.

Lin Yan curled up on the tatami, hugged the quilt, and closed his eyes without speaking.

Lu Hanqian thought he was ignoring him and refused to communicate, but in fact Lin Yan felt a little uncomfortable in his heart.

He looked at Lin Yan quietly for a while, stood at the door, and suddenly asked softly, "Lin Yan, do you still don't like me at all, and hate me very much?"

Lin Yan felt an indescribable blockage in his heart, not the blockage in a bad mood, but a physical discomfort.

He hugged the quilt and said nothing, only moved slightly uncomfortable, thinking how to adjust his posture to make himself feel better.

"...I don't have the energy to talk to you about this right now."

Lin Yan said in a low voice with no energy.

"If you don't like, or hate me staying by your side, you can just say so."

Lu Hanqian said: "...I'm not the kind of person who clings to you and won't let go. But you clearly gave me your business card, why are you ignoring me like this?"

Lin Yan closed his eyes and didn't intend to answer at first, but when he heard Lu Hanqian say that, he couldn't help frowning and opened his eyes again, propped up on the tatami mat and sat up a little.

"What do you want to know?"

Lin Yan asked back: "The so-called ignoring you is just spending a few hours with people other than you? Then you are going to check his identity again, and then find a private investigator to investigate my relationship with him. Is there any unclear relationship?"

Those old things of repression and humiliation flooded into his mind again, and Lin Yan couldn't help but become emotional: "——Lu Hanqian, when will you learn to respect people? I'm not your plaything, the little canary you can control at will, I have to To have my own social circle, it is impossible to be locked in a small world with only you, how do you understand?"

This series of questions made Lu Hanqian feel wronged, he almost didn't know where to start to explain, he didn't mean it at all.

"Lin Yan, can you stop using such a dark mind to figure out other people's thoughts—" "Then what are your thoughts!"

Lin Yan asked indifferently: "I used to walk with a little nurse for a while, and you suspected that I was having an affair with her, so you had to strip off my clothes for inspection. Do you still want to check now? OK, I will take off wherever you want to see." show you."

As he spoke, he lowered his head to lift the hem of the sweater, Lu Hanqian hurried over to hold him down, but Lin Yan insisted on doing so.

During the dispute, Lu Hanqian touched Lin Yan's side. The rough and hot touch made Lin Yan think of something. He suddenly trembled very violently, opened Lu Hanqian's hand tremblingly, and shouted sharply: "Do not touch me!"

Lu Hanqian froze in place for an instant.

Lin Yan was panting violently, goosebumps immediately formed on the place Lu Hanqian touched.

After a few seconds, the trembling of Lin Yan's body subsided slowly, and then he took off his sweater, got up and stood in front of Lu Hanqian, choked up and said, "Okay, it's clean. Get out."

Lu Hanqian lowered his head, his Adam's apple couldn't help trembling.

He didn't want to look at Lin Yan, but Lin Yan was too close, he could still see Lin Yan's thin and thin shoulders and the ugly scar on his fair and delicate skin from the corner of his vision.

All of this is proof that he once committed an unforgivable crime against Lin Yan.

Lu Hanqian turned around and walked out without saying a word, closing the door of Lin Yan's bedroom behind him.

Then I squatted on the balcony and smoked a cigarette all night.