To die

The time that the heart can be preserved in vitro is very short, usually no longer than 6 hours.

It was already eleven o'clock in the evening when Lu Hanqian arrived at the hospital, that is to say, Lin Yan had to enter the operating room before four o'clock in the morning the next day at the latest.

Otherwise, if you miss this time, you may never have a second chance.

...however it was all too sudden.

Although Lu Hanqian had been looking for a source of heart for Lin Yan, when this day came suddenly, he still felt hesitant, struggling, and caught off guard.

The risks of heart transplant surgery are self-evident, and many people have also gone through the test of matching, but died on the operating table and the rejection reaction after the operation.

If the operation failed, Lin Yan would probably die quickly within a few days, and he would lose consciousness forever without even opening his eyes and speaking to him again.

It is equivalent to shortening Lin Yan's life instead.

"...would you like to have surgery?"

Lu Hanqian asked blankly. He looked at Lin Yan who was not awake, and asked with a glimmer of hope: "Lin Yan, would you like to have an operation?"

He really couldn't make this decision for Lin Yan.

If Lin Yan was conscious, it would be fine. Now that Lin Yan is in a state of infatuation, if the operation fails, Lu Hanqian will live forever in the shadow of Lin Yan's death, thinking that he pushed him to death.

However, Lin Yan sank sleepily on the sofa and just sat quietly without making a sound.

He was usually asleep at this point, but tonight Lu Hanqian suddenly woke him up and rushed him to the hospital, Lin Yan's eyelids kept blinking along the way.

He was very resistant to being woken up suddenly, it seemed that this would make him anxious and depressed, and because of this, Lin Yan's mood was obviously wrong from just now, he kept his head down, refused to look at Lu Hanqian, and refused to let Lu Hanqian touch him .

"...Mr. Lu, you have to make a decision as soon as possible."

The doctor stood aside and urged gently: "Time waits for no one. The longer it is delayed, the higher the risk of surgery will be."

Lu Hanqian nodded mechanically, and he held everything with his fingers crossed, so hard that his joints were slightly blue.

This will be the riskiest gamble of his life, and no financing or venture capital can compare.

Once something goes wrong, what he loses is something he can never win again in this life.

"...You guys go and prepare."

After a long time, Lu Hanqian said in a hoarse voice, "I'll take Lin Yan to the ward, and after he falls asleep, you will come over and anesthetize him."

The doctor nodded and notified immediately.

It was very late now, close to twelve o'clock.

Lu Hanqian carried Lin Yan to the bed, took off his shoes and soaked his feet as usual.

When Lu Hanqian did this at first, Lin Yan was still a little reluctant, not too happy for people to touch him.

But then Lu Hanqian grabbed his calf and pulled him back.

Lu Hanqian smiled and said, "What's the matter with embarrassment. I've touched all the more embarrassing places on your body. I'll soak your feet and make you feel so shy."

Lin Yan couldn't resist him, and Lu Hanqian refused to let go. After a few times, he gradually got used to it.

It is worth mentioning that during the period when Lu Hanqian was taking care of Lin Yan, he also bought several pairs of pink carpet socks for Lin Yan with a straight man's aesthetic.

From the top of the sock to the ankle, there are two protruding red panda hairballs on the left and right sides.

Before Lin Yan lost his mind, he had never bought such an indistinguishable item.

But since his daily life fell into Lu Hanqian's hands, he couldn't help dressing up more and more.

Fortunately, these carpet socks were worn by Lin Yan. His ankles were beautiful, white and thin, and the curves until they connected to the calves were very graceful, quite well-proportioned and beautiful.

At first glance, people's first reaction is that they don't feel how ignorant they are for the time being, but they think...it seems so cute.

And after Lin Yan found the little panda at the top of the socks, he couldn't help but touch it when he sat cross-legged from time to time.

"almost."

After soaking for about 15 minutes, Lu Hanqian stuffed the phone into Lin Yan's hand and asked him to hold it by himself first, preparing to dry his feet before going to sleep.

Lu Hanqian rolled up the sleeves of his shirt, revealing his strong forearms, while Lin Yan put on his sleep socks.

His suit was custom-made, and when he put on socks for Lin Yan, it was inevitable that Lin Yan would step on his leg.

However, Lu Hanqian didn't care about whether the trousers were wrinkled or not, he just focused on putting Lin Yan's socks on, and motioned to him:

"It's time to go to bed. Give me the phone."

It was obvious on his face that he was worried.

When he finally took away the phone, Lu Hanqian looked at Lin Yan, and suddenly looked at him very carefully, and asked softly, "Let me ask you one last time, Lin Yan, are you willing to have an operation?"

Lin Yan did not say anything as expected.

He looked at Lu Hanqian quietly, then blinked, and closed his eyes sleepily and kept them closed.

Lu Hanqian smiled lightly, but the smile didn't reach his eyes.

He helped Lin Yan cover the quilt, and then kissed him on the forehead: "See you tomorrow night. When you wake up, I will take you to Chengdu to adopt a panda."

The entire operation will last approximately 20 hours.

Lu Hanqian has been clenching his fists ever since he was guarding in the ward and watching the nurse come to give Lin Yan an injection to calm him down.

Lin Yan was silent and quiet. Lu Hanqian coaxed him to fall asleep as usual, but he didn't know that he was about to lose consciousness of his whole body under the influence of the medicine.

His life was hanging by a thread, his chest was cut open by a scalpel, and his tired and scarred heart was plucked out, replaced by a completely healthy source of life full of kindness and blessings.

Lu Hanqian used to be extremely jealous of the little nurse's right to sign for Lin Yan's surgery, but until today, when he had the same right, he felt no joy in his heart.

Only at this time did he realize that the best thing in this world is that Lin Yan will never be injured or ill, and be free from worries.

Lu Hanqian followed the cart and sent Lin Yan to the door of the operating room.

The doctor had no choice but to persuade: "Mr. Lu, please stop."

Lu Hanqian nodded, but his gaze remained on Lin Yan's tightly closed eyes.

"...Please do your best."

In an invisible place, Lu Hanqian's fingers trembled slightly.He repeated: "Please, please..."

The doctor nodded and entered the operating room.

This is the longest twenty hours.

Lu Hanqian sat from two o'clock in the morning until seven o'clock, unable to sleep or eat.

He couldn't stop thinking, where is the operation?Everything all right?After anesthesia, what dream is Lin Yan having now?

Until after nine o'clock, Lu Hanqian's legs were numb and his feet were numb, and he became unresponsive after being highly concentrated.The phone rang several times before he heard it.

It was Li Nan who called from the company, and Lu Hanqian was not in the mood to deal with business at all at this time, he hung up several times upset, and did not press the connect button until the ninth time.

"......I am busy now."

Lu Hanqian said: "If you have any questions, please contact the vice president."

"No, boss, this matter is very important."

Li Nan's voice was tight, as if he was asking a very urgent and difficult question: "Boss, is Lawyer Lin with you?"

Lu Hanqian paused for a moment, then raised his head and glanced at the lit sign lights in the operating room.

He rubbed his brows and said, "This is not something you should ask."

"But boss, it's about Jinye, it's about you—"

Li Nan said anxiously: "Do you know that people from Beijing have come, and they are looking for Lawyer Lin throughout Lancheng. He is the informant, and now the situation is like this. If you get involved with him again, you will burn yourself!"

"..."

After a long silence, Lu Hanqian said hoarsely: "But Lin Yan, he is in the operating room now."



"...when did the man arrive?"

After a moment's pause, Lu Hanqian asked, "Have you found the company yet?"

Li Nan shook her head: "Not yet, but I'm afraid it will be soon."

"fine."

Lu Hanqian exhaled and looked in the direction of the operating room. Lin Yan's surgery is the most important thing at this moment, and everything else can be put in the back row.

He looked quite calm, and said calmly: "Don't be nervous, tell the old animal if you have not told me, what did he say?"

"...Mr. Lu said it doesn't matter, it's fine to wait for people to leave. Now it's just a formality."

Li Nan was a bit hesitant: "But boss, I don't think it's safe. After all, lawyer Lin is with you now. His situation is unclear. It will be bad if he gets involved with you."

Lu Hanqian rubbed his index finger and thumb nervously, as if he was thinking about something quickly.

He knew what Li Nan meant——

As an informant, Lin Yan was retaliated against and turned into such a delirious appearance. The Lu family who was reported was naturally the first object of suspicion.

If Lu Hanqian doesn't get out in time, if he keeps in touch, the most likely result will be to put himself and Jinye together.

...But judging from the fact that Lin Yan has just entered the operating room and his life and death are uncertain, let Lu Hanqian just turn around and leave, and ignore him from now on. Just die.

"Call Mr. Dyson. Let's talk about his proposal last year. I agreed. I hope he will come to Lancheng as soon as possible."

After a while, Lu Hanqian calmly said: "Don't panic, just come to check something, don't let them catch the handle, it will pass naturally."

"I have some private funds under my name, which will be transferred to Dyson, so that he can use it for Lin Yan's follow-up rehabilitation treatment in case of any emergency, in case of emergency."

Li Nan didn't speak, and only his slightly rapid breathing could be heard through the receiver.

Lu Hanqian smiled and said in relief: "It's okay, don't be nervous, I just made all the preparations. Since our family has been in Lancheng for so many years, this little wind and rain is nothing."

"But where is Lin Lu..."

Li Nan was still a little trembling: "Boss, you are committing a crime against the wind, and it will be over if you are discovered...!"

"But I don't care about him, he's dead."

Lu Hanqian asked back: "Do you know the consequences of letting him out now?"

"—Either my dad will cut the grass and roots to prevent future troubles; or be found by the people in Beijing, drag him to court, and be killed by the rejection reaction after the operation. Either way, it is a dead end, he can't survive .”

"...Once the ship capsizes, you're going to go to jail..."

"will not."

But Lu Hanqian spoke very confidently, he even made a joke: "Besides, even if you really go to jail, so what?"

Before Li Nan could answer, he went on to say: "Didn't Lin Yante tell me before that he wanted some hospice care? Then if I go to jail because of him this time, at worst, I'll give him a breakup gift and let him Happy happy."

"..."

"Li Nan, Lin Yan is lying less than [-] meters away from me, his life is hanging by a thread."

Lu Hanqian slowed down his tone, with some unconcealable fatigue in his voice, and said to Li Nan seriously: "You are saying that the court has summoned me, and I will not resist the law. I have to watch him come out with my own eyes. It’s good to open your eyes, otherwise I will stay here and won’t leave even half a step.”

When Lu Hanqian and Lin Yan were together, the most common cause of conflict was that Lin Yan ignored him, mocked him, and turned a blind eye to Lu Hanqian's awkward overtures.

So Lu Hanqian felt that he was being despised and despised, and couldn't help but use actions to suppress Lin Yan, let him understand his rights and status, and therefore bowed his head to Lu Hanqian.

However, Lin Yan's temper is stubborn and arrogant. Even if Lu Hanqian folded his legs and made him kneel down sometimes, Lin Yan's indifferent eyes like looking at garbage would only make Lu Hanqian feel more annoyed, but would not No sense of accomplishment.

"I used to think that liking someone and possessing him would be enough to be happy. Actually, it's not."

Lu Hanqian said softly: "But if you can make him laugh, protect him when he is helpless, rescue him when he is in danger, let him let go of his most sensitive psychological defenses and fall asleep in your arms... .That feeling will be ten thousand times better than the joy of forcibly possessing him."

Higher than physical pleasure is spiritual satisfaction.

Before Lu Hanqian liked to have sex with Lin Yan the most.

His body was so soft and warm. When he was integrated into one body, seeing Lin Yan's slightly humiliated and forced to bear it made Lu Hanqian feel as if a small green sprout grew in his heart, tickling him tenderly. The atrium broke through the ground.

But later, after Lin Yan lost his mind, Lu Hanqian could only kiss his forehead after he was asleep, and rarely even touched his lips.

Even so, seeing Lin Yan lying quietly in his arms, watching pet videos and seeing him falling asleep all the time, wanting to drink water and want to eat, he would first turn his head to look for Lu Hanqian in the whole room, and then look for Lu Hanqian with his dark eyes. Watch him stay still.

That peaceful sense of satisfaction made Lu Hanqian just touch Lin Yan's forehead, like a warm electric current, flowing slowly and persistently from the heart to all the limbs, creating a genuine desire to be with the person in front of him for a long time. //see.

......

Perhaps it is true that there are gods in the world, and the success rate of heart replacement surgery is pitifully low in the world, but Lin Yan did not sleep forever on the operating table.

Countless people have connected their heart and great vessels to an extracorporeal circulation machine, and after digging out their original heart, even if they put in a new heart, they can't make it beat, and they leave this world forever.

But Lin Yan's body accepted it.

It makes the newly replaced heart beat weakly again in the body, urging a new round of goodness and hope.

Every day when Lu Hanqian went to the ICU to see Lin Yan, he couldn't help but pay attention to the string of wavy lines on the ECG monitor.

——The wavy line of life represents that Lin Yan still exists in this world and has got rid of the shadow of death due to heart failure.

So far, as long as Lin Yan recovers his sanity and survives the rejection reaction, it is equivalent to a real rebirth.

On the ninth day, the doctor transferred Lin Yan from the ICU to the general ward.

Lu Hanqian could reach out and touch him.

He seemed to have discovered some novel and precious treasure, and couldn't help but want to reach out and touch it.

He held Lin Yan's hand, it was soft, warm, and his pulse was throbbing, as if holding the most splendid miracle.

A few days later, Lin Yan's consciousness gradually recovered.

Once when Lu Hanqian interlocked his fingers, Lin Yan hooked them weakly.

Lu Hanqian was overjoyed immediately and called the doctor to see him.

He also didn't expect that after the operation, Lin Yan moved his lips slightly when the nurse came to change the dressing.

"......what?"

Lu Hanqian subconsciously bent down and put his ear to listen.

The nurse also paused, she just removed the gauze for Lin Yan, and didn't dare to continue moving.

After Lin Yan called Lu Hanqian "husband" in the bathroom that day, he didn't say another word.

At this moment, his lips moved slightly, Lu Hanqian's first reaction was to think that he was in pain, and his lips were trembling slightly.

However, it wasn't until he got close to Lin Yan's lips that he said in a low voice, "Eat lotus root."

"..."

Lin Yan leaned on the pillow, looked down at the nurse lifting the gauze, revealing a hideous scar across his body, and uttered the first self-conscious word since leaving the mental hospital:

"ugly."

"..."

Lu Hanqian was stunned immediately.

"what--"

However, before he came and asked Lin Yan to say it again, Lawyer Lin frowned, and said weakly and disdainfully in a quite righteous tone:

".......ugly!"

Lu Hanqian's eyes were sore, he didn't know whether to cry or laugh.

He held Lin Yan's hand tremblingly, and immediately coaxed him with a soft smile:

"Okay, ugly, this wound is so ugly, it doesn't look good at all, we don't like it... When you look back, I'll get you the best plastic surgeon to get it off, okay? good?"

However, Lin Yan had just woken up, and his body was still weak.

He couldn't quite hear Lu Hanqian's words, he could only murmur in a low voice, and the ugly scar on his chest always appeared in his mind.

After waking up for about 2 minutes, Lin Yan's raving soon subsided again and gradually became inaudible.

He fell into a coma again, and the fingers that hooked Lu Hanqian slowly loosened.

Lu Hanqian stared at him in a daze, he didn't expect that the first word Lin Yan uttered consciously would be "ugly".

"...You are really cute."

He laughed hoarsely, and kissed Lin Yan's cold forehead.

Over the past few days, his exhaustion and pressure from dealing with the search externally and worrying about taking care of Lin Yan internally seemed to have dissipated with this unexpectedly childish word.

Seeing that Lin Yan can still wake up like this, and dislike the ugliness of stitches so weakly with him, all the pressure and risks that Lu Hanqian has endured for the past few days have become worthwhile.

Sitting in front of the hospital bed, he buried his face in Lin Yan's soft, warm, unconscious palm very slowly.

The cold, salty liquid made Lin Yan's palms feel a little wet.

Behind Lu Hanqian is a whole floor-to-ceiling window, and the huge orange-red sunset behind the window at dusk.It is like a magnificent oil painting with a frame.

As if he had just reacted from the intense ecstasy that Lin Yan would not die again, Lu Hanqian choked up and said in a very low hoarse voice:

"I told you a long time ago. Even the god of death cannot snatch you from me."

"Lin Yan, I did it."