To die

After finding the USB flash drive, it's not that Lu Hanqian didn't pay attention to the problem of the medicine bottle.

But at that time there were only two pills left in the bottle, Lu Hanqian was afraid that if he took one, Lin Yan would find out.

Unexpectedly, this afternoon, after Lin Yan drank the medicine, he flushed the rest into the pipe, and threw away the glass bottle, which completely cut off Lu Hanqian's thoughts.

"...What kind of medicine is that?"

Lu Hanqian turned around and looked at Lin Yan with a slightly tired look on his face.

Today he has been hit one after another, and he can hardly bear any new accidents: "Lin Yan, how many things are you still hiding from me?"

Lin Yan didn't answer, but only looked at Lu Hanqian.

His eyes were dark and quiet, Lu Hanqian could see his own reflection in them, but couldn't figure out his thoughts.

"...you like me, don't you?"

After a while, Lin Yan suddenly asked an irrelevant question.

Lu Hanqian was almost tortured to death by him, he didn't dare to say yes, and he couldn't say no, he just stood there silently, confronting Lin Yan without saying a word.

"It's an anti-anxiety medicine."

Lin Yan smiled. In the dark night, his smile was fleeting, as if it was hiding some unknown secret.Dangerous and alluring.

Lin Yan's appearance originally carried a lingering and sharp implication, but his expression was always dull and restrained, and he rarely had such an expression.

But when he occasionally smiled so brightly, it was thrillingly seductive.

Lu Hanqian's eyes were rather hesitant, as if half-believing.

"I need to take it every day. Go and buy some for me." Lin Yan said, "The black pill, whose name I forgot, is used to relieve mental anxiety. Otherwise, I will die."

Lin Yan smiled and said softly, "You like me, don't you? If I die, you will be sad."

Lu Hanqian's Adam's apple rolled slightly, feeling an invisible suffocation.

He turned his eyes unnaturally, pushed the door and walked out, as if fleeing, and replied in a low voice: "Got it."

Lin Yan sat on the head of the bed, his wrists were still cuffed.

But his gaze followed Lu Hanqian's back, and he suddenly felt a strange pleasure.

Even when Lu Hanqian slapped him just now, the burning pain on his cheek seemed to have eased a lot, like a pale, twisted, sickly flower suddenly blooming from the endless abyss.

Probably not only Lu Hanqian went crazy, he also became a psychopath long ago.

Lin Yan clutched his throbbing heart and slowly lay down on the bed.

He curled himself up, looked down at the criss-crossed scars on his palms, curled his lips, and smiled very briefly.

When Lu Hanqian reappeared, it was before going to bed at night.

He brought a full English book of ancient Greek mythology and Byron's poetry collection, and asked Lin Yan which one he wanted to hear.

"I'll read it to you."

Lu Hanqian said naturally, like any ordinary couple flirting at night.

But in the situation where Lin Yan was on the bed, his calmness and gentleness seemed very strange, almost creepy.

Lin Yan looked indifferent and ignored him at all. Lu Hanqian continued as if talking to himself: "Why don't you read Byron's poems today. It's getting late, so go to bed early after reading."

Lin Yan lay silently, as if he didn't hear anything, and didn't say a word.

Lu Hanqian read for a while, then he retracted into the quilt, covered his head, and said without a word: "Enough, let me sleep."

Lu Hanqian then closed the book, ticked off the "99 little things lovers must do" in the memo on his mobile phone, and said softly: "Good night."

"Give me a glass of milk."

Lin Yan closed his eyes, turned his face to one side, and said coldly, "...otherwise I won't be able to fall asleep."

Lu Hanqian nodded, went to the kitchen to prepare and sent it to Lin Yan's bedside, but he asked Lin Yan with a cup, "Do you love me?"

"..."

Lin Yan pursed his lips and looked at him coldly on the bed: "I don't love you."

Lu Hanqian seemed to be expecting it, smiled very calmly, then turned his wrist, and poured the milk on the ground in front of Lin Yan.

"...!!"

The handcuffs were instantly ripped by Lin Yan, and he stared at Lu Hanqian fiercely, and said angrily, "Are you crazy?"

Lu Hanqian smiled, held Lin Yan's struggling right wrist tightly with one hand, bent down, and forcibly kissed him on the forehead:

"Yeah. Crazy about you. Did you forget?"

His kiss was so hot that Lin Yan couldn't help shivering all over.

He felt that Lu Hanqian was crazy, his love and kisses were so hot, Lin Yan couldn't bear it at all, if this continues, it will only hurt both sides.

While kissing Lin Yan, Lu Hanqian slowly moved his hand down, unbuttoning Lin Yan's shirt one by one.

Lin Yan struggled violently, Lu Hanqian turned Lin Yan over, and put one knee on Lin Yan's back, completely immobilizing him.

Lin Yan was almost overwhelmed, but Lu Hanqian forcibly separated his legs, pressed against Lin Yan's crotch, and asked, "Lin Yan, do you love me?"

Lin Yan struggled like crazy, tried his best to throw Lu Hanqian off his body, and said with a sneer, "If I like a panda, I won't like you!"

Lu Hanqian grabbed Lin Yan's neck and immediately pushed himself in. Lin Yan groaned in pain and shivered into a ball, but Lu Hanqian was still asking: "Lin Yan, do you love me?"

Lin Yan's forehead was covered with cold sweat, and his side face was sunk in the quilt. Lu Hanqian kissed his cold cheek and whispered:

"Say you love me, and I'll quit and expand you."

Lin Yan's face was pale, and his lower body was painful and numb. Every inch Lu Hanqian pushed in, the tearing pain caused by the scalding genitals rubbing against his body became more severe.

Lin Yan kept tugging at the handcuffs, gasping for helpless despair, his wrists had been worn out from the struggle.

"pain......"

He moaned in pain, his lips trembling uncontrollably: "Lu Hanqian, it hurts...ah!"

However, Lu Hanqian held on to Lin Yan's waist so tightly that he couldn't break free at all, and could only be forced to bear everything.

Lu Hanqian stared blankly at the weak and struggling body below him, and suddenly remembered the time he had just met Lin Yan.

He was wearing a moon-white soft shirt, washed blue slim-fit jeans, and a pair of camel-colored buckskin Martin boots.

He dragged the contractor out of the room, pushed his knees up hard, and was thrown out by the fat man who was pressing against the wall.

Very sharp and beautiful, sharp and good-looking.

......how so.

Lu Hanqian wondered in bewilderment, how did they come to this point.

Lin Yan was almost numb from the pain, and he didn't have the strength to struggle, so he could only hold on.

Cold sweat rolled down his forehead and stopped on his eyelashes. He blinked tremblingly, and then fell down.

It wasn't until he realized that Lu Hanqian was about to ejaculate that he struggled to move forward a little bit, and said tremblingly, "...Come out. I'm hurt, Lu Hanqian, you can't get in there..."

However, Lu Hanqian hugged him even tighter, didn't speak, just kept kissing him vigorously, hugging him until Lin Yan could barely breathe.

After a while, Lin Yan shivered, feeling a heat wave in his body, and lowered his head in a slumped manner, without any sign of disappointment or anger, just stuck in the quilt, and said in a low voice: "Forget it."

Lu Hanqian seemed to have fallen into some kind of obsession, and every day after that, he would ask Lin Yan once if he would say he loved him.

Even when Lin Yan was injured, he wanted to eat Four Seasons porridge the next morning.

At first Lin Yan would talk to Lu Hanqian a few words, but gradually, he simply didn't ask any more, even if he didn't have anything to eat, he didn't say a word, just lying on the bed in a daze.

About a day or two later, Lin Yan didn't have any water or rice. He was so hungry that he began to fall asleep continuously.

Lu Hanqian did not expect this to happen at all.In his mind, this was just a sentence, even if Lin Yan said it to deceive him casually.

But Lin Yan didn't even want to lie to him.

He brought four seasons porridge, hugged Lin Yan into his arms, and wanted to feed him with his own hands.

However, Lin Yan's lips were blue, his face was pale, and he was so hungry that he had no strength at all. Even if Lu Hanqian let go of his hand now, Lin Yan probably wouldn't be able to escape.

Lu Hanqian picked up a small spoon, blew it cold one by one, and brought it to Lin Yan's lips. With red eyes, he said in a hoarse voice:

"Lin Yan, wake up and eat something."

Lin Yan moved slightly, opened his eyes with great difficulty, and slowly struggled to raise his right hand.

Lu Hanqian thought he wanted to eat by himself, so he quickly handed over the spoon and whispered: "It's a little hot, slow down..."

However, Lin Yan jumped over the spoon, reached directly for the porcelain bowl, and then pushed with all his strength, the bowl of hot porridge fell to the ground in an instant:

"roll."

If Lu Hanqian knew Lin Yan a little better, he might know that you can kill a crane bird, but you can never tame it.

If Lin Yan once asked someone for something, but that person refused to give it, then even if that person brought it to him in person in the future, Lin Yan would not look at it again.

Lu Hanqian blankly hugged the skinny Lin Yan, his shoulders were extremely thin, his spine was straight but also extremely fragile.

During the two hours when the water didn't enter, Lu Hanqian didn't dare to touch him, fearing that if he moved slightly, Lin Yan would suddenly leave him forever.

The family doctor of the Lu family was called over to give Lin Yan a nutritional injection.

But what Lu Hanqian didn't know was that for Lin Yan, hunger was more terrifying than hunger.

The human body can go without food for six to seven days and without water for three to four days, but Lin Yan's heart beats more fragilely and struggles when his body feels hungry.

And the hunger is precisely difficult to be relieved by nutritional injections alone.

During Lin Yan's infusion, Lu Hanqian was by his side.

He looked at Lin Yan's pale and bloodless cheeks, and gently held Lin Yan's right hand in his palm like holding a precious piece of porcelain.

Lin Yan's fingers were slender and beautiful, slightly curled inward, icy cold.

Its owner was in a deep sleep unconsciously, and Lin Yan did not improve significantly even after receiving nutritional injections.

He lay there lifeless, occasionally woke up, saw Lu Hanqian, and quickly closed his eyes sleepily.

Lu Hanqian felt anxious and panicked, and his intuition told him that if he didn't do anything, he would just watch Lin Yan die.

But he thought it was all because he couldn't find the little black pill that Lin Yan said to relieve mental stress, so he urged Li Nan and Gu Zhao to help him find out.

At night, he and Lin Yan hugged each other tightly to sleep.

Listening to Lin Yan's weak and irregular heartbeat, Lu Hanqian felt as if something was passing through Lin Yan's body quickly.

Even if he tried his best to keep it, he couldn't stop it.

"...Lin Yan."

Lu Hanqian hugged him from behind, hugged Lin Yan who was curled into a ball, and protected him like a flexible shield.

He lowered his head slowly, buried his face in Lin Yan's shoulder lightly, and kept this position motionless with the sleeping Lin Yan.

Lu Hanqian's voice was very low and hoarse. After a long time, Lin Yan, who was unconscious, felt that there seemed to be some vague dampness on his shoulders, and then he heard Lu Hanqian choked up and said:

"What do you want me to do with you..."

——He finally broke down, and bowed his head to Lin Yan in despair.

Lu Hanqian no longer even hoped that Lin Yan could deceive him.