To die

Lin Yan curled up beside the bed, the severe tinnitus made it take a long time for him to hear Lu Hanqian's words like an echo.

His eyelashes trembled, and Lu Hanqian's sudden slap almost shattered all his bones. After a while, he coughed and laughed very slowly.

"......like?"

As if hearing some big joke, Lin Yan gently raised his hand, touched the corner of his mouth with his uncuffed right hand, lowered his eyes, looked at the bright red blood on his finger, and said softly: "Oh, this is Young Master Lu's love."

He struggled to sit up from the bed a little bit, looked at Lu Hanqian as much as possible, and asked mockingly:

"——This kind of love, who in this world is willing to endure it?"

"...that's your own fault."

Lu Hanqian's eyes were bloodshot, and he threw a kit in front of Lin Yan, his voice hoarse: "Lin Yan, when I am satisfied with wanting to treat you well and be with you for the rest of my life, what are you thinking about, huh?"

He pointed at the crumpled kit, stared at Lin Yan's calm and indifferent expression, suddenly raised his voice, and roared, "Do you have the guts to take it apart and have a look!"

However, Lin Yan's expression was pale, as indifferent as a cold white jade carving.

He looked down at the kit, raised his head for a while, looked at Lu Hanqian, and suddenly smiled——

Not only did he have the guts to take a look at it in front of Lu Hanqian, he also had the guts to read it to Lu Hanqian face to face.

"Okay, if you want to see it, I'll take it apart and show you."

The gash at the corner of Lin Yan's mouth was no longer bleeding, only the bloodstain left by Lu Hanqian's slap on his face looked a bit scary.

But Lin Yan smiled, as if he was about to do something very pleasant.

"Don't you always want to know what's in my kit?"

He bent his lips and smiled, then opened the kit with one hand with a calm expression, and slowly pulled out the thin paper inside:

"—I'll tell you now, listen carefully."

Lu Hanqian felt slightly suffocated for breathing.His intuition told him that would be very cruel words, he wanted to pounce on Lin Yan and cover Lin Yan's mouth, not allowing him to say it, but it was too late——

"I say--"

Lin Yan slowed down his speech, raised his eyes, stared at Lu Hanqian coldly, and said word by word with his usual clear and cold voice when he read his defense in court:

"May I pray that Lu Hanqian raises his family, overthrows, overthrows, jails, clangs, and imprisoned. The great hatred will be avenged, and he will pay for his life with his life."

"..."

Lu Hanqian stood there instantly, motionless as if his soul had been taken away by a blow, staring blankly at him.

He had already regained his composure, but when Lin Yan read that sentence in front of him, Lu Hanqian couldn't help but his eyes turned red.

Tears fell unconsciously, Lu Hanqian gritted his teeth and wiped them away, but suddenly wiped them away and laughed.

He sighed with a smile, lowered his head, and said hoarsely, "...why."

"Why do you hate me so much?"

Lu Hanqian tried his best to hold back his tears, blinked desperately, and looked at Lin Yan with red eyes: "I love you... Lin Yan, do you have heart?"

He was standing while Lin Yan was half lying down.It was clearly Lu Hanqian's dominant posture, but for some reason, Lin Yan, who looked embarrassed, seemed to be the one who had the chance to win——

Lu Hanqian, who has long been defeated, is more like that insane ghost who is stuck in the quagmire, humble and desperate, waiting for Lin Yan to redeem him but can never be saved.

Lin Yan sat there calmly, without any emotion on his face, and looked at Lu Hanqian indifferently.

He still looks so handsome and handsome, his pupils are dark and silent, under the light, they look like a lake in late autumn.

But for Lu Hanqian, Lin Yan's silent appearance is the cruelest part of him.

He doesn't tell him anything.

What's on your mind, what you want, what you don't like.His world has always rejected him like this, no matter what Lu Hanqian does, Lin Yan has never accepted him.

"When I first met you, you weighed 116 catties."

After a while, Lin Yan opened his mouth and said without emotion, "It's 102 catties now."

He raised his head and looked at Lu Hanqian: "I am 177cm tall, do you think this is normal?"

"..."

"Lu Hanqian, since the day I met you, I haven't had a happy day."

Lin Yan said calmly and strangely: "You are like a mad dog, pestering me, biting me, asking me to play dating games with you. If I don't cooperate—"

Lin Yan smiled, raised his face, and let Lu Hanqian clearly see the five clear fingerprints on his pale cheeks:

"You can go to the street and ask, Lu Hanqian, if a person's partner doesn't respect him, rapes/rapes him at every turn, and dares to resist, he will be beaten—whether he will still love him."

"..."

Lu Hanqian's heart was like a boulder, like a child at a loss, trying to defend himself without knowing what to do.

"I do not have......"

He tried his best to explain in a panic: "I like you...I always, really want you to like me a little...you always hate me, hate me, no matter what I do -"

"Correct."

Lin Yan interrupted him indifferently, and said, "No matter what you do, I hate you, I hate you—because we are people from two worlds."

Lu Hanqian stared at him blankly.

"You're an asshole, scum."

Lin Yan said, "How cheap do I have to be to fall in love with you?"

Lu Hanqian was speechless.

In the past, he might have been exasperated and furious, but now he only feels bewildered and sad, as if a big hole has been dug out in his heart, and the wind is blowing.

"You also smashed my wine bottle..."

After a while, Lu Hanqian said in a low voice: "I have slapped me, kicked me hard, cheated me and betrayed me... How cheap do I have to be to love like this all the time?" You."

Lu Hanqian still remembered that when they went to Jingchan Temple together, the sun was very sunny that day.Lin Yan was wearing a beige windbreaker with rose-colored rose embroidery in the pocket.

He took Lin Yan's hand and put it in his pocket, with ten fingers tightly intertwined with him.

Lin Yan said that he would marry him for three generations, and see you in the next life.

The little monk stood in front of the old tree, and they watched him tie their iron plates with a red string, entangled them together, and they have been inseparable ever since.

Lin Yan didn't know how happy Lu Hanqian was at that time.

He is a man who is ashamed to say love.

But because of Lin Yan, Lu Hanqian gradually felt that there is no more beautiful word in this world than it.It was so beautiful that every time Lu Hanqian mentioned it, his heart would beat uncontrollably.

"But I never asked you to love me."

Lin Yan said indifferently: "It is your wishful thinking to give affection to me, and then force me to respond indiscriminately—"

"But what obligation do I have?" Lin Yan asked back: "Because your surname is Lu, your feelings are more noble than others and cannot be rejected. Knowing what is good or bad, you deserve to be disabled by you, right?"

Lu Hanqian's throat couldn't stop rolling, he couldn't speak a single word.

"Then you shouldn't, you shouldn't lie to me..."

After a long time, he said weakly and hoarsely, "Even a scum like me... it would be uncomfortable to be played around in the dark like you."

Now it was Lin Yan's turn to remain silent.

"You never tell me what you think. I don't know what you like and what you don't like."

Lu Hanqian said: "Even if I want to be a scumbag to please you, I have no chance to get close. I just want to give you what I think is good. I hope you like me a little bit. What's wrong with that.... ..?"

"I have never liked anyone so much, you are the first."

Lu Hanqian explained in a clumsy manner that he no longer cared about his face, no matter how embarrassing he was, he wanted to speak out all the words.

"I don't know how to please you. I gave you Humbert and you didn't treat him at all, or because of me...?"

Lu Hanqian looked up at Lin Yan anxiously: "You hate me so much, even the things I touch, do you hate them to the extreme?"

Lin Yan closed his eyes forbearance, and after a while, said hoarsely: "Yes."

"..."

Lu Hanqian nodded and smiled with difficulty: "Okay, I see."

As he spoke, he stood up and walked from the bed to the door.Lin Yan looked at him, following his gaze until Lu Hanqian was about to leave the room.

"Where are you going?"

Lin Yan couldn't help asking, and shook the handcuffs vigorously: "You let me go...!"

Lu Hanqian turned his head and looked at him calmly, his eyes seemed to be a little gentle: "The corner of your mouth is broken, I'll go get the medical kit."

"How long are you going to lock me up?"

Lin Yan was almost trembling with anger: "Don't you think you are perverted?"

"I've already gone crazy."

Lu Hanqian said in a hoarse voice: "I love you so much...you can't leave me, or if you die, I can't help but kill them and pay for your life."

He looked at Lin Yan like a dragon looking at his beloved little prince, and said softly, "I want to keep you by my side until the day you fall in love with me."

"...Then you will wait until I die," Lin Yan said in a trembling voice, holding back his fear, "If you like rape/corpse."

Lu Hanqian smiled, like a nervous lunatic.

"You will not die," he said, "I will protect you."

Lin Yan stared at him coldly, Lu Hanqian turned his head, and was about to go out, but Lin Yan suddenly smiled, and he said in a low voice:

"Lu Hanqian, do you know what the little black pill I'm taking is?"

Lu Hanqian's back froze suddenly.