To die

After ten days of rest, Lin Yan went to work as usual.

Before he went out that day, Lu Hanqian asked him for a parting kiss.

He took a shower, wore a bathrobe, and didn't have to go to the office, so he lazily stopped at the entrance, and while Lin Yan was changing his shoes, he bent down and kissed Lin Yan while pinching his neck.

Lin Yan's expression was calm—in fact, he had been a little abnormally calm recently, allowing Lu Hanqian to kiss him from the socket of his eye to the corner of his lips.

In the end, Lu Hanqian rubbed his lower lip repeatedly, put one hand on the side of Lin Yan's neck, and when he pushed his chin down with his thumb, Lin Yan even opened his mouth slightly.

Lu Hanqian immediately became happy.

If it hadn't been for him getting more and more over the top, and almost misfiring his gun, trying to press Lin Yan on the carpet at the entrance to proclaim adultery once in a day, Lin Yan hardly resisted in this parting kiss.

But Lu Hanqian was already very satisfied with this level, he stood up, pulled Lin Yan up again kindly, patted his buttocks, and said with a smile:

"Come back early, I miss you."

Lin Yan said lightly, "Yes."

"The Gu Li case will be in court in a few days, and I will order you a new suit."

Lu Hanqian looked at Lin Yan: "How about the one in Dongxi Garden? I'll ask them to come to your door to measure your size tonight."

Lin Yan was a little absent-minded, but he still responded cooperatively: "You decide."

"You said it would be great if you were so sensible earlier?"

Lu Hanqian smiled and said: "I will spoil you to heaven."

He took Lin Yan's hand as he spoke, inspected the scar on his palm, and blew gently: "Don't make things difficult for yourself, let's live well together."

This is Lu Hanqian's rare warm side, but Lin Yan seems indifferent.

He said without emotion: "Got it."

Lu Hanqian observed Lin Yan's expression, thought of Lu's mother's nervous questioning not long ago, and suddenly asked, "Lin Yan, where are you from?"

Lin Yan paused for a moment, then said, "Hubei."

This is what Lu Hanqian asked him when we first met.Lin Yan didn't understand why he brought it up again.

"how?"

"It's nothing."

Lu Hanqian smiled: "After seeing you some time ago, my mother has been inquiring about you nervously. She is quite crazy, so be careful."

Lin Yan's eyelids twitched slightly.

After leaving Lancheng in the early years, grandma was always worried that someone would trouble them, so she took him to hide in the countryside.

The "foundation" had already been cleared at that time, and Mother Lu should not be able to find anything.

"...Gu Zhao also told me to be on guard against you."

Lu Hanqian raised his eyebrows slightly, and seemed to be planning to tell Lin Yan after careful consideration: "But I don't think you are that kind of person. Lin Yan, you won't bully me, will you?"

"..."

Lin Yan paused slightly, his lips moved slightly.Just when he was about to chuckle lightly and say, "I told you a year ago, don't put any blame on me, but you never take it seriously", but Lu Hanqian interrupted him.

"Actually, I'm expecting you to fuck me."

Lu Hanqian folded his arms lazily, turned his head to look at Lin Yan, and said casually: "If you dare to cheat on me, I will break your legs and lock them up, and lock them in my basement until you die."

"..."

Lin Yan stared at Lu Hanqian quietly with his dark eyes, and the arteries under the fair skin of his neck twitched slightly.

"But I like you."

Seeing Lin Yan like this, Lu Hanqian laughed again, and touched Lin Yan's face, the haze in his expression was swept away, and he instantly returned to the young and promising Young Master Lu who was willing to spend a lot of money for his sweetheart.

He held Lin Yan's face and rubbed his lips with his thumb, as if affectionately: "As long as you don't mess with me, this kind of thing will never happen."

"You're going to jail."

Lin Yan regained his composure, slowly pushed Lu Hanqian away, put on his shoes, and said lightly: "As for me, you can find me in the cemetery when you get out of prison. You can dig out my urn and throw it in whichever basement you like. .”

"Lin Yan, why do you keep saying such crazy things?"

Lu Hanqian snorted and didn't take it seriously: "Don't think about messing around. I won't find anyone else in the future, so I'll just spend time with you. I'm sure I'll take care of you comfortably, and you'll never leave me again."

Lin Yan smiled lowly, as if he didn't believe it, but also seemed a little mocking. He couldn't tell what it meant, and he opened the door and left without answering a word.

...How ridiculous, when he caused irreversible harm to a person, he only needs to say "get along with you in the future" in an attempt to get forgiveness?

In this world, there are so many lovers who have done nothing wrong but can only miss because of their personality differences.

Lin Yan sneered in his heart, why is he, Lu Hanqian, so self-righteous that as long as he condescends and apologizes, others will accept his favor with gratitude?

--impossible.

Don't even think about it.

Lin Yan walked out of the apartment building and tightened his scarf.

It was now April, but he felt that spring was far from coming.

Before he came to Lancheng to go to college, his grandmother was already seriously ill.

An old woman who is close to 80 years old is lying on the bed and fell asleep in a drowsy state, barely awake for much time in a day.

But she always turns on the TV when she is conscious, and watches the weather forecast of Lancheng with reading glasses in the dark and obscure room.

"Winter in Lancheng is so cold, it was windy again yesterday. After the words are over, you need to wear more clothes."

"We really live up to our words. We have been admitted to such a good university."

"It will take more than 20 hours by train. In the future, grandma will not see our words in spring and autumn..."

But is it more than just winter cold?

Lin Yan thought silently, in this city where there are so many rich and powerful people who can almost cover the sky with one hand, even spring seems impossible to come.

***

After resting for more than ten days, the first thing Lin Yan did when he arrived at the office was to take out the notebook that was locked in the drawer.

He sorted out the newly collected information and put it in his pocket.Then I took a taxi to a mental hospital outside the city.

His mother's agent was Chen Xi. After the accident, she worked as a gardener in Lu's family for a period of time.But not long after, Chen Xi accidentally encountered an accident and suffered a severe blow to the head. After finally waking up from a vegetative state, Chen Xi was sent to a mental hospital by his family.

It has been more than 20 years now.

Lin Yan had great doubts about whether she had been in an accident by accident or was premeditated to murder her.

To be cautious, he did not report Chen Xi's bed number directly, but entered the "intensive monitoring" inpatient department under the pretext of visiting another patient on the same floor as Chen Xi.

...What kind of environment is that?

The light is dim and cold, and it is located in a remote corner where the sun cannot shine.Behind the cold iron fence, there were several beds staggered here and there. The patient looked down at the ground with dull eyes. There were puddles of wet water stains on the concrete floor.

The smell of urine in the air and the pungent smell of 84 disinfectant mixed together. Even the nurse who came in with Lin Yan couldn't bear it. Impatiently, she stopped at the stairs and waved her hand: "At most half an hour. You Go and see it and come back."

Lin Yan nodded and walked towards the depths of the corridor.

Perhaps it was because no one had been here for a long time, when they heard footsteps, many patients turned their heads towards Lin Yan.

Some stared at him blankly; some were expressionless; some crazily clawed at the iron fence, making a "clang bang" sound, and suddenly stretched out their hands from the narrow gap, squeezed bruises, trying to grab Lin Yan Clothes, hoarsely shouted: "I'm not crazy!! Let me out!"

Lin Yan was taken aback, turned his body slightly, and hid.

He concentrated on searching from room to room, but the phone suddenly rang.

Lin Yan glanced at the caller ID, it was the little nurse.

"what happened?"

"Lawyer Lin, are you home?"

There was a lot of wind on the phone, and the little nurse seemed to be outside. "The doctor in our department went abroad for a meeting last month. I asked him to bring you some medicines that have not been introduced in China. You should try them first. Maybe they will work..."

Lin Yan was silent for a while, and after a while, he sighed softly and said in a low voice, "No, thank you for your kindness."

"Lawyer Lin, don't give up."

The little nurse's eye circles were red again, and when she heard Lin Yan's voice, she couldn't help crying: "Take your medicine well first, I have a suitable heart source here to help you watch, if the operation is successful, you There's nothing wrong..."

"..."

Lin Yan smiled lightly, Lu Hanqian's face appeared in his mind, and said in a low voice: "Thank you. But I... have no expectations for the rest of my life."

He wasn't like this two months ago.

At that time, Lin Yan was still seriously managing his life, thinking about how to live after getting rid of Lu Hanqian.

Maybe Lu Hanqian won't let him go easily, so he has to hold on to Lu Hanqian's handle and have a chance to negotiate with him... If it really doesn't work, he should leave Lancheng first to avoid the limelight, and come back when the time is right.

But now he recalls the kiss in the morning, the bruises under the scarf, last night and the past six months, the countless chaotic, painful, depressing and embarrassing days and nights, Lin Yan is not only loathing himself, but even has a feeling Self-destructive emotions.

"Don't worry about me anymore."

Lin Yan closed his eyes and said in a hoarse voice, "I'm... very dirty now."

In the past, he liked light colors the most, the windbreaker was off-white, and the scarf was camel-colored. Now Lin Yan was wearing a black woolen overcoat, standing in the damp corridor of the ward, his face pale and gloomy.

Lin Yan thought that this was already the lowest point in his life, and that fate had pushed him to the point where he didn't even want to continue his life.

But he did not expect that soon after, he would be forcibly sent in with "mental problems" tied up, and tied to a restraint bed like a real mental patient. The man shocked him and asked:

"Still checking?"

......

Lin Yan passed by Chen Xi's ward twice, afraid of arousing suspicion, he didn't dare to stay too long.

Out of the corner of my eye, I caught a quick glimpse of her sitting alone in the corner of the ward, surrounded by a pile of children's literacy cards and children's puzzles, the woman curled up on the ground with unkempt hair, smiling and drawing a crayon drawing of a family portrait.

...he had to find another chance to do it again.

Lin Yan thought to himself, it is unlikely that Chen Xi would go crazy by himself.

Otherwise, Lin Yan's mother entered the Lu family because of mental problems, and her manager also became insane after working as a gardener in the Lu family for a while. How can there be such a coincidence in the world?

Lin Yan was full of worries. After he came out of the hospital, he kept thinking that after Chen Xi had an accident, her relatives sent her to a mental hospital.

But when a person finally wakes up from a vegetative state, is weak, and clearly needs the care of his family the most, what kind of family member is so cruel that he doesn't care about it, and dumps it directly to a mental hospital like a burden?

Does she have no children? Where's her husband? Why hasn't he even come to see her for so many years?

It was already past two o'clock in the afternoon, Lin Yan took a taxi back to the office, planning to go back and drink the medicine first, and then go to Chen Xi's house tomorrow to take a look.

The hospital is located in the suburbs, quite remote, Lin Yan waited for a long time before a taxi arrived slowly.

"Master, go to Chunguan Road."

"now go?"

The driver rolled down the window, feeling a bit embarrassed, and discussed with Lin Yan: "The car is out of gas, there is a gas station ahead, can I go to fill up the gas first, and then send you there?"

Lin Yan hesitated a little, but there was indeed a gas station not far ahead on the map, and he was anxious to go back, so he got into the car.

The driver got out of the car while refueling, and Lin Yan also stood outside the car and waited.

In the wilderness, a young man wearing a hat seemed to have lost his way. Seeing Lin Yan standing by the side of the road, he walked towards him.

"Excuse me, is there a hospital near here?"

"Hospital?"

Lin Yan pointed in the direction he came from, without paying much attention: "Go forward 3000 meters."

——However, an accident happened suddenly at this moment. The young man suddenly snatched Lin Yan's cell phone and ran away.

——There are messages on the phone that he hasn't had time to deal with today, and it will be very troublesome if someone snatches them away.

However, Lin Yan didn't notice that there were so many employees in the entire gas station, and when they saw someone robbed, none of them chased him out, and they all stood where they were.

Lin Yan followed for about 1000 meters. Seeing that the road was getting more and more desolate, he felt a sudden shock in his heart. Thinking of the accident caused by the reporter investigating the ground/ditch/oil, he suddenly stopped and did not dare to follow up.

...However, as if to confirm Lin Yan's conjecture, the young man who snatched Lin Yan's phone slowly stopped after seeing that Lin Yan was not running away.

He threw the phone on the ground, turned around and looked at Lin Yan.