To die

The Public Procuratorate has filed a lawsuit against Zhao Yu, and Lin Yan was busy investigating the case 20 years ago, so he did not meet Gu Li for some time.

He bought fruit and went to the inpatient department, but when he got to the ten-person room, Gu Li was no longer there.

"Bed number one?"

The nurse frowned and thought for a while, found out the medical records and rummaged through them, and said after a while: "Oh, did you mean that woman with leukemia?"

Lin Yan nodded, and the nurse said, "She, she has been discharged from the hospital."

"She was sued for defamation, maybe because she ran out of money, she got involved in a lawsuit again, so she simply died."

The nurse was busy writing the duty report with her head down, and said in a nonchalant and accustomed tone: "She was seriously ill, so she prescribed some painkillers and left. If she comes back to the hospital now, she probably won't be able to save her." came back."

Lin Yan was stunned in front of the nurse's desk, the fruit in his hand was so heavy that his fingers hurt from being strangled.

The nurse raised her head and looked at Lin Yan. Seeing that he was wearing a dark green double-breasted coat and a beige scarf, he looked good, and he was carrying fruit. She couldn't help but ask:

"Who are you to her? A distant relative?"

Before Lin Yan could answer, the nurse shook her head and said flatly, "Hey, you distant relatives are dying, so you came here to see what's the use. What did you do earlier?"

Lin Yan felt as if a stone had been crushed in his heart, making him speechless.

He remembered a case he had taken before, in which a worker's child came to the city to borrow to study, and was physically disabled by the teacher.

When he went there, the child was crying in the ward in pain, and was about to be pushed into the operating room in the afternoon to have his eyeballs removed.

His father sat by the window in overalls and a hard hat on his lap.He clenched his fingers awkwardly and looked at the child blankly in silence.

The man wanted to touch the child's face, but his fingers and palms were covered with calluses, and there was still white ash in his nails that couldn't be washed off.The little finger of my left hand was broken because of a work-related injury.

The child was crying and fussing. Since the accident, no one from the school or the teacher involved has come to visit.

A small class is actually a society. "Borrowing" and "local students" are like two labels, which are applied to children who are originally indistinguishable, selectively enclosing them in the center and selectively marginalizing them.

For a child on the edge, no one cares about his emotions, anger and pain, and tears are worthless.

Standing by the bed, Lin Yan gave the child two pieces of chocolate, very small, in the smallest packaging of Dove's.

The child had chocolate in his mouth, and his eyes were covered with white gauze, sobbing, he asked Lin Yan if he could give him another piece.

But Lin Yan was gone, he only had these things at the time.

Later, Lin Yan took three boxes of chocolates to the construction site and wanted to give them to the child's father.

But the man looked at him and said, "My baby has gone back to the countryside. She was not taken care of well, her wound was infected, she got sepsis, had a fever and died."

He looked at Lin Yan stupidly and foolishly: "Thank you, lawyer Lin... But if the baby is gone, even if the lawsuit is won, what's the point of asking for compensation..."

He was much taller than Lin Yan, with a solid body and a dusty overalls.

But in front of Lin Yan, she smiled and wiped her tears with red eyes.

That was Lin Yan's first case.

In the days that followed, Lin Yan couldn't help but recall the time when he entered the ward.

A sick child in black tugged at the hem of his clothes, his eyes were covered with gauze, and he sobbed and asked, brother, it hurts so much, can I have another piece of chocolate?

Every time he thought about it, Lin Yan would stay for a long time, asking himself why he didn't bring an extra piece that day.

......

Countless lives are lost in the hospital every day. Doctors and nurses gradually get used to it when they see many of them.

But four years later, when Lin Yan heard about Gu Li's illness, he still couldn't help feeling depressed.

Can what he did really change anything?

Gu Li's illness, the child's eyes, the appearance of a female lawyer... The wheel of fate is heavy and fast, and people are ants, but they try to block it with their arms. Is this stupid or lonely?

Lin Yan often thought that maybe Lu Hanqian was doing an experiment by keeping him by his side.

He was like a lab rat running wild in the dark, trying to break out of its cage and find a way out.

Lu Hanqian stood coldly outside the glass tank, looking at the white mouse with unrealistic fantasies boredly, fiddling with it from time to time, exhausting his patience, just wondering when he would give up.

When Lin Yan is finally boiled to death, he will lose interest and look for another object to play with.

How could he be so unlucky to meet Lu Hanqian?

He clearly could kill Lin Yan as easily as he would kill an ant, but he kept teasing and torturing him, as if he was wondering where the limits of human beings were, and was studying what it would be like to extinguish a warm heart. What a joy it is to break the back of the most self-respecting proud man.

Lin Yan was bruised from being rubbed by him, exhausted from running, but still running——

But how long he can run on this nailed wheel of fate, Lin Yan himself doesn't know.

In the evening, Lin Yan took a taxi back and called Gu Li, but the phone didn't go through.

At seven or eight o'clock, Lu Hanqian also came back. Seeing Lin Yan painting the secret garden on the tatami, he hugged Lin Yan from behind in a good mood, and kissed his earlobe.

"That crazy woman didn't scare you this morning?"

Lu Hanqian hugged Lin Yan's waist from behind, and whispered like coaxing a child: "This is my fault, I will give you a little surprise later, to calm your surprise."

But Lin Yan lowered his eyes and traced lightly with colored pencils in his hands, completely ignoring him.

"What's so good about it?"

Lu Hanqian looked over Lin Yan's shoulder and looked at his drawing paper: "Why is our lawyer Lin like a child and likes to play with this thing?"

Lin Yan didn't answer a word, and Lu Hanqian didn't care, so he lazily put his arms around his waist, watching Lin Yan slowly paint a peacock with its head and wings folded.

Lu Hanqian had a strange feeling when he was quietly alone with Lin Yan.

Time seems to pass very slowly, everything seems to be still, the whole space is quiet, only the sound of the second hand of the clock in the living room slowly grinding across the dial.

Lin Yan was in his arms, his expression was quiet and silent. Under the light and shadow of the wall lamp, he looked like a white jade statue carefully carved by a god, with the indifferent and cold aftertaste of a chime bell between his brows.

But under Lu Hanqian's palm, his skin is warm and soft, and there is an unknown fragrance between his slender and fragile neck, which reminds people of Cangshan Mountain and temples, and his breathing is slow and long.

Lu Hanqian felt like he had captured a relegated crane. With mortal hands, he broke off the crane's wings, put it in a cage, escaped the search of the heavens, and took the crane as his own.

Before Lin Yan, Lu Hanqian never thought of spending his whole life with someone.

But at this moment, he suddenly had an idea for no reason: It seems that it is not bad to be with Lin Yan like this all the time.

To be able to see him all the time when he comes back from get off work, and he is within reach when he wants to hug him, regardless of whether Lin Yan is in Stockholm or not, generally speaking, Lu Hanqian is not tired of being with Lin Yan now.

...... But what Lu Hanqian didn't know was that he was too conceited this time.

From birth to now, Lu Hanqian has been pampered and surrounded by stars, so it is too easy for Lu Hanqian to get anything.

He thought that as long as it was what he wanted, he would get it sooner or later.

Even Lin Yan is the same.

He didn't realize at this moment that he was about to lose Lin Yan forever.

half a month later.

Lin Yan finally got in touch with Gu Li, and the two made an appointment to meet again at the coffee shop where they met for the first time.

Gu Li was completely thin and out of shape at this time, her cheeks were deeply sunken, her lower eyelids were red, and her eye bags were black and blue.

She was still wearing the black down jacket, and added a yellow sweater with the collar drooping under it as if she was afraid of the cold.

When Lin Yan entered, her gaze was dull and dull, nervously picking at the edge of a kraft paper bag in her hand.

"Lin Lu..."

Lin Yan sat down across from her, and she came back to her senses, as if frightened, she couldn't stop stroking the hair beside her ear.

"Zhao Yu sued you for defamation," Lin Yan cut to the point, frowning, "Really?"

Gu Li lowered her head, did not look at Lin Yan, rubbed her hands back and forth as if there was no place to put them, and answered after a while: "Hey."

"...How can you hide it from me."

Lin Yan remained silent, and said softly, "You should have told me. I am your attorney."

"It doesn't matter whether you win the lawsuit or not," Gu Li said with drooping eyes. "I found out that Zhao Yu's family lives at No. 301 Hengping Guang Road. Every time he finds a mistress, he takes him there to spend the night."

"......"

Lin Yan raised his head in astonishment, and looked at her in disbelief: "Ms. Gu, you...?"

Gu Li's hair was disheveled, and she was so sick that she seemed to be a ghost struggling in the world.

"Lin Lu, I know, you are a good lawyer..."

She smiled wearily, tore off the seal of the kraft paper bag, and pushed towards Lin Yan: "I sold the house, minus the hospital expenses, this is the rest...you take it. The lawsuit If you can win, you win. If you can’t win, forget it. We ordinary people also have our own ways to seek justice.”

Lin Yan was so stunned that he couldn't say a word, this was something he had never thought about.

"No... Ms. Gu, don't be impulsive, think about it carefully - the procuratorate has already filed a lawsuit against Zhao Yu, and it's not worth it."

"Whether it's worth it or not, I don't care."

Gu Li's face was ashen: "If I lose the lawsuit, I will never let that beast go. I will take him with me to make amends to my daughter."

"..."

This is the first time Lin Yan has come into contact with this kind of thought, which has a strong impact, and Lin Yan was speechless for a while.

"No, it can't be like this..."

Lin Yan's thoughts were confused, and he subconsciously persuaded: "It's not worth it...and the court, the prosecutor, they are not in cahoots, there will always be someone, there will always be someone who will stand up and speak for justice—"

Before he finished speaking, he suddenly stopped.

——He saw Gu Li's eyes.

What kind of eyes are those eyes, revealing half a lifetime of hard work, and once gave birth to hope, but that hope was finally obliterated by fate, trampling everything about her into the mud, leaving only ashes of despair.

"Maybe."

Gu Li said dumbly, "But there are too few people like that... I have never met them in my life. I can't wait for that day either."

Lin Yan was silent for a long time, with a stick in his throat, and only said in a low voice, "I will try my best... Please don't give up until I reach a desperate situation."

Gu Li smiled miserably, shook her head with tears in her eyes, and said nothing.

Maybe Lin Yan didn't realize that, in fact, there was always an unrealistic naivety in his character.

He is engaged in the legal industry, and he should have seen more darkness and injustice than ordinary people.But he has always believed in the public security law, and has never had the slightest doubt about this system.No matter when and where, I always feel that there will be vitality before we reach a desperate situation.

This is tenacity, but also cowardice——

He will always be, and can only be, Lin Yan who has seven apertures in his heart and is full of talent, but he can never be ruthless.

Near noon, Lin Yan paid the bill and separated from Gu Li at the entrance of the coffee shop.

He was very preoccupied, thinking about going to the lawyer's office in the afternoon and making some preparations for Gu Li's case.

However, I didn't expect that when I was crossing the road at the intersection, a strong heart palpitation suddenly struck me, and the pain was more severe than ever before.

Lin Yan felt bad. At this time, the green light was almost up, but he didn't even have time to react, when his eyes suddenly went dark, and he lost consciousness in front of a car rushing towards him.