To die

"Why didn't I find out before?"

Lu Hanqian said suspiciously, repeating what he heard from Zhao Yu just now to Gu Zhaozai carefully.

"...Are you sure Lin Lu meant this?"

Gu Zhao sat on the sofa with question marks on his face.

He glanced at the psychiatric drugs he had brought, and suspected that maybe Lin Yan didn't need them, but Lu Hanqian needed to drink them for a few more days.

"Are you thinking too much, Hanqian...you wake up..."

Gu Zhao tried his best to be tactful, and wanted to tell Lu Hanqian to stop daydreaming, which was simply impossible.

However, Lu Hanqian didn't listen at all, and still said to himself: "I thought so before, but I didn't expect it to be true."

"...He always put on such a lukewarm look, so he wanted to attract my attention."

"..."

"No," Gu Zhao was confused for a while, not knowing where to start, unable to argue:

"Master Lu, have you read any sand sculpture books that you shouldn't read? "My Wolfy President: The One Hundred and First Escaped Marriage!"?"

"—Let me tell you, you can't read too much of these street stall literature. If you read too much, your brain will be broken."

Lu Hanqian immediately "tsk", frowned and looked at Gu Zhao:

"Gu Zhao, I'm a master's degree holder from the University of Pennsylvania's business school. Do you have to teach me for me when you graduate from the university?"

"Did you pay me back? When will you pay me back?"

"..."

Gu Zhao: Okay, I'll shut up, I'm too talkative.

In order to save his own life, Gu Zhao changed his mind and asked cautiously:

"Then Mr. Lu, when did you think Lin Lu couldn't help but fell in love with you?"

"I do not know."

A ray of confusion appeared between Lu Hanqian's brows, as if he was thinking about memories: "Zhao Yu said he is Stockholm, but I have never thought about it in this direction before. Can a person like Lin Yan also know Stockholm?"

Ordinary people can naturally bear it, but is it normal for you to treat him like that?

Gu Zhaoxin said, if Lin Lu hadn't been strong, he would have jumped off the building a long time ago.

"It should be recently."

Gu Zhaodao: "A while ago, didn't you guys still make a fuss, saying that he was dating a little nurse behind your back?"

"Maybe it's a trick to make me jealous?"

Lu Hanqian frowned and speculated, "The last time he called, I asked mb to answer it. He might be angry with me and wanted me to coax him."

Gu Zhao: "..."

"Lin Yan has always been seldom talkative and not good at words."

Lu Hanqian said: "So that's what he meant, why didn't he tell me directly? I also misunderstood him."

"...you're so right."

Gu Zhao was silent for a moment, then suddenly applauded vigorously:

"Yes! It must be like this! Hanqian, you are so smart! We didn't realize Lin Lu's little thought, and we didn't expect you to see through it at a glance!"

——This big fool can't be saved at all.

Gu Zhao thought sadly that Lin Lu's love had reached the point of madness.

It's better to make mistakes and make him treat Lin Lu better.

"Then what are you going to do next?"

Gu Zhao asked: "...Are you going to ask Lin Lu directly? Ask him if he likes you?"

"I have not decided yet."

Lu Hanqian's expression was bewildered, and there was even a trace of hesitation: "I didn't expect Lin Yan to like me...it was too sudden."

"I was almost tired of him. But he likes me. If I leave him, will he be overwhelmed and unable to bear it?"

After hearing the silence, Gu Zhao thought to himself:

I really didn't expect that you still have such sweet sadness.

"Then you should 'guess boldly and verify carefully', Hanqian."

Gu Zhao said: "You can carefully observe Lin Lu...but don't scare him anymore. He likes you so much, if you treat him badly, he will be very sad."

"..."

These words sounded right at first, but Lu Hanqian thought about it carefully:

Why are you so coaxing a fool?

"Gu Zhao, have you had itchy skin recently?"

His face darkened slightly, and he kicked Gu Zhao's calf: "How dare you be cautious in front of me?"

"No, no! Where, where!"

Gu Zhao immediately swears: "I am absolutely wholeheartedly for the good of you and Lin Lu. I also hope that you and Lin Lu will be amnesty on the day of great joy, and all the money I owe you will be written off!"

"Overjoyed?"

Lu Hanqian laughed, took out a copy from the mountain of documents in front of him, and opened it in a good mood.He hummed a little proudly and said:

"Who is happy with him. Even if he is willing, I still don't want to."

Gu Zhao: "..."

***

At nine o'clock in the evening, in Lin Yan's small apartment.

Lin Yan and Lu Hanqian are both in the living room.

Lin Yan sat kneeling on the tatami, wearing soft beige pajamas, and lowered his head to paint a piece of "Secret Garden".

He likes to paint it very much. He bought a box at home and paints it whenever he is anxious.

It is Lin Yan's favorite way to reduce stress.

Lu Hanqian sat on the sofa farthest from him, with a laptop on his lap.

——But some people seem to be dealing with financial statements on the surface, but they don't know where to look.

From the corner of his eye, he glanced at the back of Lin Yan's neck that was not covered by the collar of his pajamas after taking a shower.

It's really thin and white.

...Looking at it makes people want to pinch and kiss.

Gu Zhaozai sent him a WeChat message: "How is it? Did you say it?"

Lu Hanqian covered the screen with the "China Finance" newspaper: "...not yet."

"Then you take the initiative to ask him?"

"..."

Lu Hanqian was silent, he turned his head quietly, looking at the back of Lin Yan's lowered eyes bent over the desk under the wall lamp.

The pajamas were very soft, made of cotton velvet, and for comfort, they were made loose and loose.

Lin Yan held the colored pencil, and his two thin wrists were exposed from the cuffs.

He tilted his head slightly, lowered his eyelids, and painted very seriously.

Perhaps it was because of the light that Lin Yan's outline was blurred, giving him a strange immaturity.

At this moment, Lin Yan looked soft and gentle, without any aggressiveness, as if he was several years younger all of a sudden.

Lu Hanqian could almost use this to imagine what he looked like when he was studying.

It’s probably the same desk lamp, writing the questions drowsily every night.

The lines from the neck to the shoulders are smooth and beautiful, with the kind of youthful meaning that only belongs to teenagers.

Under the dim light, a little tip of the ear was exposed under the black hair, soft and white.

Same as now, if you breathe lightly on it, it will turn red all of a sudden, and the owner of the body will also curl up trembling.

Lu Hanqian suddenly thought maliciously:

...I don't know what Lin Yan looks like in school uniform?

"what happened?"

Lin Yan stopped writing suddenly, put the colored pencils on the table, and turned around: "What's the matter?"

His face was a little pale, and there was a bit of indifference in his expression.

Lu Hanqian used to get angry when he saw him like this, but now it's different——

He said to himself, it was because Lin Yan was frightened by him, he had to be gentle.

Otherwise, Lin Yan would be too frightened by him to confess.

Lu Hanqian coughed unnaturally, and said casually, "Lin Yan, is there anything you want to tell me?"

"..."

Lin Yan paused slightly, feeling a little vigilant in his heart: Lu Hanqian asked, could it be that he knew something?

"No."

He turned his head indifferently, and continued to paint his "Secret Garden".

"Don't be afraid of me..."

Lu Hanqian crossed his fingers and put them on his knees, trying to create a friendly and friendly atmosphere:

"Although I am very angry sometimes, if you have something to tell me, I can listen to it..."

"Have you read your email?"

However, Lin Yan said nonchalantly, "You just do nothing every day, don't you have anything to do?"

"...didn't finish watching."

Lu Hanqian was ridiculed again, and felt a little annoyed, so he withdrew his eyes, stared at the screen, and stopped talking.

Silence flows between the two.

After about a while, Lu Hanqian still couldn't bear it, and poked his head out from behind the computer again:

"Lin Yan, do you really have nothing to tell me?"

"Just say what you want, really, I'm not angry...I promise you whatever you say."

"..."

Lin Yan was annoyed by him, he pretended to be something, but now he couldn't even be quiet:

"What the hell happened to you today?"

"...Not much," Lu Hanqian said, "Just... chat."

Lin Yan was silent, Lu Hanqian looked at him expectantly, after a while, Lin Yan suddenly raised his head and said, "...for a chat?"

"Yes, just chat." Lu Hanqian said kindly.

"Then...can you talk about your parents?"

After a while, Lin Yan hesitated and said, "We've known each other for so long, and I haven't heard you mention it much."

"Oh, my parents..."

Lu Hanqian felt a little lost, and couldn't help asking: "Apart from this, do you have anything else you want to tell me?"

"If it's not convenient to talk about it, forget it."

Lin Yan stood up, packed up the colored pencils and "Secret Garden", and was about to enter the room.

Lu Hanqian quickly grabbed him: "It's convenient, it's convenient! Don't go, come, let me tell you."

Although it wasn't a confession, it was the first time Lin Yan proposed to know more about him.

Lu Hanqian thought to himself, it's not bad, at least it shows that the direction is right.

"...My parents are not very good. Speaking of which, I am closer to my grandma."

Lu Hanqian grabbed Lin Yan's wrist, and pulled him to his side, so close that he could grab him, he spoke slowly.

"My dad is very caring and has many lovers. As long as I can remember, my mom's job is to catch his outside room all day long..."

While talking, Lu Hanqian observed Lin Yan's expression.

At the same time, his left hand slowly leaned towards Lin Yan, wanting to hold Lin Yan's hand, intertwined his fingers, and gently squeezed it in the palm of his hand.

"Although he has liked many women, I know that there is only one he really likes—"

"Those women who have been taken care of by him are just like her in one of the five senses."

Lin Yan's heart trembled slightly.

"Who...? Mrs. Lu?"

However, Lu Hanqian shook his head: "He doesn't like my mother... In fact, they have a very bad relationship. If my mother had me, holding such a hole card, the two of them would have divorced a long time ago."

"I remember, it was an aunt who was recuperating in our home. At that time, I was only seven or eight years old."

More than 20 years ago, Lu Hanqian's parents were at a time when their family was about to break up and their marriage was at its most dangerous.

They quarreled all day long, Mrs. Lu was about to hang herself every now and then, and the family was in chaos.

However, Lu Hanqian was indifferent to all this.

Mrs. Lu treated him badly.

Even at a young age, he can feel that his mother is different from other people's mothers.

She never cared about him, never hugged him, never loved him like a real child.

On the contrary, she often yelled at him like a stepmother when no one was around.

Like every child in childhood, Lu Hanqian also longed for a mother like Gu Zhao's mother.

I will personally pick out clothes for him, teach him the violin, and give him a hug when he is sad.

But Lu Hanqian did not expect that the first hug he got in his life was actually from a strange woman.

"My dad said that she was recuperating at our house..."

Lu Hanqian frowned, and recalled: "I live in the master bedroom on the second floor. On weekdays, no servants are allowed to go up, and even the food and drink are brought up by my father himself."

It was a woman in a long white skirt with a cinnabar mole between her eyebrows.

She is very beautiful, her eyes are charming and affectionate, just looking at her, even her soul seems to be taken away.

At that time, no one in the family was allowed to go up to the second floor, but Lu Hanqian was curious.

Taking advantage of a noon when his father was out, he sneaked up.

The moment he saw that woman, Lu Hanqian was stunned, and suddenly understood why his father wanted a divorce.

The woman in front of her seemed to have stepped out of a painting.

Innocence, charm, ignorance, and purity, these seemingly contradictory qualities are all concentrated in her.form a deadly allure.

"But she doesn't seem to be in good spirits..."

Lu Hanqian recalled: "It seems that the mind is a little confused...My father said that she is recuperating at my house, which is probably what he meant."

In the lazy afternoon, Lu Hanqian suddenly broke into the woman's room and stared blankly at her.

Women also look a little dazed.

She was originally sitting on the head of the bed, hugging her knees in a daze.At this moment, he raised his head and looked at the child in front of him, seeming a little dazed and confused.

After a while, she suddenly said to Lu Hanqian, "Yanyan?"

Wearing a small suit and black leather shoes, Lu Hanqian stood on tiptoe holding the doorknob, motionless at the door.

"Speak!"

The woman suddenly smiled at him, looking very happy.He stretched out his arms again, as if he really wanted to hug him: "Mom hugs, mom misses you so much!"

Lu Hanqian stood silently at the door, looking at this extremely beautiful woman.

For a long while, he didn't know if he was bewitched by her appearance, or he couldn't resist a hug he always wanted but never got.

Lu Hanqian walked over in a strange way.

She hugged Lu Hanqian tenderly, and wiped off the mud on his cheeks when he played around.

The woman looked at Lu Hanqian carefully, as if she felt that something was wrong, but she couldn't figure it out.

"Mum's words, how did you grow taller all of a sudden?"

Lu Hanqian didn't dare to say anything, for fear that if he woke her up, he would lose this hug.

But the woman's mind was indeed quite confused, and she didn't realize at all that this was not her child.

Still hugging the young Lu Hanqian, he hummed nursery rhymes all afternoon.

It wasn't until four or five o'clock in the afternoon, when Mr. Lu was about to come back, that Lu Hanqian found an excuse and went downstairs secretly.

No one knew that he had slipped to the second floor, but Lu Hanqian was inexplicably flustered for a long time.

He felt like he had done something bad.

He stole a hug that wasn't his.

"...Isn't she very sane?"

Lin Yan listened quietly. It wasn't until Lu Hanqian said this that he couldn't help trembling: "...how could it be? How could she not be awake?"

"I do not know either."

However, Lu Hanqian said: "She has been like this since she lived in our house. When my dad brought her in, she seemed to have been seriously injured."

"Why do you get hurt?"

Lin Yan couldn't help asking: "How did you get hurt? Who hurt her?"

He remembered very clearly that before his mother was filming, she was fine when she left.

Not long after that, bad news came.

He always thought that it was Lu Hanqian's father's illegal detention that forced her to death.

But if not, who made a good person turn into such an insane look in just three months?

And hide it so well!

In the past 20 years, not even a little bit of wind has leaked out!

"I do not know......"

Looking at Lin Yan's appearance, Lu Hanqian felt a little strange:

"Why are you so excited? This is just an old story in our family, you just listen to it and it's over, don't take it so seriously..."

Lin Yan didn't say a word, only the veins in his neck throbbed.

"I'm going for a rest."

Lin Yan stood up with a tired look on his face, as if he became very tired all of a sudden.

But Lu Hanqian still held his hand, and wanted to hold it for a while, so he couldn't help but say:

"Wait, let me tell you again, do you want to know about me?"

"...When my mother was in college, there was a silk road for all the girls in the school who wanted to pick me up."

Lu Hanqian hinted in a reserved manner: "Everyone is very beautiful, and they are not afraid of me at all, and they all confessed to me directly...so—"

"I'm really tired."

However, when Lin Yan interrupted him, he didn't understand Mr. Lu's hint.

He even drew his hand from Mr. Lu's palm.

"Good night and thank you for chatting with me tonight."

After speaking, he turned and went into the bedroom.

But Lu Hanqian stood on the spot blankly, so stimulated that he almost suspected that there was something wrong with his ears.

What did Lin Yan say to him?

good night.

thank you.

--Good night!

--Thank you!

God, Lu Hanqian never thought that he could get these two words from Lin Yan.

I didn't expect to get it on the same day!

A large-scale plot that has never been dreamed of!

It was almost twelve o'clock in the morning, after Gu Zhao sent a few messages to Lu Hanqian, Lu Hanqian chatted with Lin Yan and didn't reply.

After that, Gu Zhao didn't send any more messages.

Probably asleep.

But at this moment, Lu Hanqian frantically shook Gu Zhao's window until he went online again.

"What are you doing, Lu Hanqian! Are you crazy!?"

Gu Zhao was awakened by the shock in the middle of his sleep, and was about to die of anger: "I owe you a lot of stinky money, and you don't even let me sleep? You, a stinky, heartless person like you, will go bankrupt tomorrow!"

However, Lu Hanqian suppressed the agitation of his mood and said calmly: "Gu Zhao, Lin Yan said 'good night' to me."

Gu Zhao was silent.

After a while, he said, "Oh."

"He said 'good night' to me! And 'thank you'!"

Lin Lu probably took the wrong medicine today, thank you, you fucking scumbag.

Gu Zhao thought in his heart.

"So what?"

Gu Zhao said speechlessly, "Why are you so excited?"

Hearing what he said, Lu Hanqian's tone became a little cold.

"What's the matter goodnight?"

Lu Hanqian said: "Did Lin Yan say goodnight to you?"

Gu Zhao: "..."

"No."

Lu Hanqian: "Do you know why?"

Gu Zhao's inner eyes rolled out of the sky, but he still said hypocritically on the surface:

"why?"

Mr. Lu pretended to be cold and said: "Because you didn't get his love."

"..."