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It's hard for anyone to talk about it, but Shen Baizhan is different from ordinary people. He always believes that the sexual contact between people is actually a normal and necessary category, and the person who confides is the doctor he has always trusted.

Ye Huayan poured a cup of warm water for Shen Baizhan, Shen Baizhan put the paper cup in the palm of his hand, and put his fingertips against the circle of the mural on the cup.When he vomited for the first time, he thought that he might not be feeling well, and it was most likely the sequelae of being drugged by Xie Jiangyu.But for the second time with Shang Yao, he didn't connect the previous vomiting until he was with Xie Jiangyu again.

He can distinguish between drug-induced vomiting and physiological vomiting, and it is no longer a coincidence that it happens again and again.The interval between going to bed several times is very long, and the body's metabolic capacity should have taken away the drug residues long ago.

"How long?" Ye Huayan asked.

Shen Baizhan stretched out three fingers, about three times.

Ye Huayan pursed her lips and thought for a while before asking, "What do you think?"

Shen Baizhan thought about it seriously, "The first time I vomited was because I was looking for news materials. I was drugged and dragged to the bed in the clubhouse. I vomited a lot the next day."

"You were drugged?" Ye Huayan's attention was obviously not on the vomiting itself.

Shen Baizhan nodded with a smile, "I suspected it was because there were still drug residues, but then I was with Shang Yao, and I also vomited the next day."

Although he was very reluctant to bring up the things that made him despise before, Shen Baizhan still told Ye Huayan every detail, "Actually, I have always felt that my mood is very unstable recently, especially after I separated from Shang Yao."

"I don't think I can't live without him, but it's easy for me to leave him."

Ye Huayan: "How easy?"

"I can't tell, maybe it's because I didn't need to rely on him."

At the beginning, Shen Baizhan thought that without Shang Yao, he would become like a child who could not take care of himself and made everything a mess.But now he is still living well in Anbei, his life is arranged in an orderly manner by himself, he never misses a meal, and eating some sweets occasionally can change his mood.

The young man sat in front of the doctor, slightly lowered his head and smiled.

"I was thinking about why I fell in love with Shang Yao when I was a child. He... seems to be born very gentle, just like the kind of male protagonist in a novel, who cares about the person he likes in every detail, but I am not the girl in a novel. Protagonist, I am a man."

The love between a man and a man cannot be treated as a relationship between a man and a woman. It is more about helping and helping each other, as the spiritual support of the other party, but not too dependent.Both are separate individuals who can live under one roof and work together to make life better.

But when did Shang Yao fail to meet his needs?Shen Baizhan didn't know either.

Some people say that the romance in the student days is not a romance, but just a yearning for beautiful things. Adolescence will chase the dim light and continue to challenge. Only what exists in memory is the most beautiful.

"You told me that you liked Shang Yao very much, and I thought so too." Ye Huayan recalled, "At that time, you were the same as those children who came to me for consultation because you liked the same sex. You couldn't face up to your sexual orientation. But what makes you different from them is that you think your sexuality is because of your uncle."

The reason why Shen Baizhan found Ye Huayan back then was that Ye Huayan's clinic was far enough away from home that no one would know him.

"I really thought he was handsome at the time. Have you watched "A Chinese Journey to the West"? The woman whose name was in it once said something, and she is quite famous now."

"My ideal person is a hero of the world. Since God arranged for him to pull out my Ziqing sword, he must be an extraordinary person. I know that one day he will appear in a highly anticipated situation, wearing a golden armor , step on the colorful auspicious clouds to marry me."

"Fairy Zixia." Ye Huayan added.

"Yes, Fairy Zixia." Shen Baizhan propped his chin and said, "I watched this movie several times back then, and memorized many lines, but I am neither Supreme Treasure nor Zixia. Fairy."

"You know, when I saw Shang Yao yesterday, I didn't feel as excited as I imagined. I was just afraid that he would find out my secret."

The grown-up Shen Baizhan has many secrets, who grows up without a few shady secrets?

Ye Huayan said in a deep voice, "Who did you sleep with last time?"

"And the person who raped me for the first time." Shen Baizhan said.

Ye Huayan's eyes were a little unbelievable, Shen Baizhan shook his head, "Shame is not worth a lot of money, it's the rule of our business to get what we need, I just chose the faster way to achieve my goal. Method."

He didn't continue talking, Ye Huayan didn't continue to ask, the woman walked to him, put her hand on his shoulder and didn't speak for a long time.

Shen Baizhan didn't wait for Ye Huayan's voice, he looked up at Ye Huayan, only to see Ye Huayan staring at him with sad and calm eyes.He also saw Ye Huayan's eyes the day he told her that he and Shang Yao had exchanged their hearts, and he didn't think much about it at the time.

"You are sick." Ye Huayan said.

probably.

Shen Baizhan shared his few compliments, "Your eyes are so beautiful."

"You too."

"You said you would vomit, and according to your description, I think it looks like PTSD." Ye Huayan sat back in her seat and resumed her normal work as a doctor. "How much do you know about PTSD?"

"Post-traumatic stress disorder." Shen Baizhan replied.

"It's very slight, but it should be taken seriously."

Shen Baizhan was drugged by Xie Jiangyu that night in the guild hall, and he had to exercise for several hours. Based on Shen Baizhan's reluctance, anger and humiliation, his body's instincts would resist such things.If it's just with Xie Jiangyu, then as long as he leaves Xie Jiangyu and doesn't contact this person, he can probably rely on time to adjust his status slowly.But Shen Baizhan also had this kind of problem when he was in contact with Shang Yao, so whether it is Xie Jiangyu, Shang Yao, or someone else, Shen Baizhan will still vomit.

Shen Baizhan hadn't actually thought about PTSD. He thought he might be resisting instinctively. When Ye Huayan analyzed it for him, he still found it inconceivable.

"Do you have any good suggestions?" Shen Baizhan asked.

"I don't have any good suggestions." Ye Huayan said, "Is my suggestion useful to you?"

Ask Shen Baizhan to stop contacting Xie Jiangyu?No nighttime activities in the near future?Or ask for leave to travel to relieve work pressure?

Shen Baizhan didn't follow Ye Huayan's doctor's orders seriously when he was in high school, and now Shen Baizhan is even more uncontrollable.

"Shang Yao is your best choice." Ye Huayan said.

"It's not good to be too subjective as a doctor."

"As a woman older than you." Ye Huayan added, "Are you sure about an actor like Xie Jiangyu? Shang Yao will not harm you, even if you think you think your relationship has deteriorated, but you still get along with him." harmony."

Many times like and love are not enough to stick with a relationship, but rapport is.

As long as two people live together to make each other feel comfortable, no matter how much pressure there is outside, the real life is to relieve the pressure at home.

Before leaving, Ye Huayan stopped Shen Baizhan and asked what happened to Shen Baizhan's shoulder.

"Such sharp eyes?" Shen Baizhan said with a smile.

Ye Huayan pointed to Shen Baizhan's hand, "I think the movement of your arm is somewhat limited."

"Injury at work, Taiwan will be reimbursed." Shen Baizhan said goodbye to Ye Huayan.

Walking out of Ye Huayan's clinic, Shen Baizhan had nowhere to go, so he simply ran to the nearby park for a stroll.He seriously recalled the big and small things that happened to him during this period, and summed it up in four words - fleeting time is unfavorable.

The drugs found at Xie Jiangyu's place were not as many as at Ning Yiwei's, and after he asked whether Xie Jiangyu Dunhao Club had any further relationship with him, he didn't think there was any connection at that time. Now that I think about it, it seems that Xie Jiangyu deliberately let him Discover.

But why?There is no need for Xie Jiangyu to uncover the previous cases. How many cases will be reversed and justice will come?

If Xie Jiangyu was found and arrested by the police, he would definitely be involved. Shen Baizhan still had the bank card he took from Xie Jiangyu in his pocket.

In the photo he saw from the lawyer, the man who was receiving treatment just behind Liu Jianlong was the bartender of the Dunhao clubhouse.Shen Baizhan is extremely sensitive about everything related to the Dunhao Clubhouse. It is definitely not accidental that the bartender appeared in the detention center.

Shen Baizhan decided to go to the detention center again. He contacted the lawyer in Taili, and the lawyer said that he had no authority to see anyone who had nothing to do with the case.

Reason told Shen Baizhan that reason is a good thing, it should not be lost!

It's not a good thing for Shen Jiayao to live in the apartment all the time. It's inconvenient for Shen Baizhan to do anything, and now he has to make up excuses why he didn't go home last night.

He accompanied Shen Jiayao in the city for three or four days and then hurriedly sent Shen Jiayao away. Before leaving, Shen Jiayao also made a lot of side dishes and crispy meat and put them in the refrigerator, and repeatedly told Shen Baizhan to be sure. Eat on time.

The medicine brought back was finished quickly, and Fei Sili asked the doctor to follow up with Shen Baizhan and prescribe some medicine again.The doctor said that it is still necessary to take good care of it, and do not eat too irritating food, especially the kind that is prone to hair, and the wound is prone to problems.

Shen Baizhan asked the doctor to bring a message to Fei Sili, saying that he missed Fei Sili very much after not seeing him for a long time.

"I don't have time to take care of you recently, good boy." Fei Sili sent someone back as if coaxing a child.

Two months after the trial, it means that Liu Jianlong still needs to stay in the detention center for another two months. After the first month, Mrs. Yang couldn't hold back anymore. She brought the divorce agreement to Liu Jianlong. Liu Jianlong refused to sign anything. In fact, Shen Baizhan didn't pay much attention to it.One is that there are lawyers, and the other is that the last quarter of Taili was very busy.

I don't know what I'm busy with all day, but I just don't touch the ground, Shen Baizhan goes home after eight o'clock every day.Xie Jiangyu never appeared again, and Shen Baizhan paid special attention to the entertainment news and didn't hear him at all. People in the circle said that Xie Jiangyu went to retreat to study for a new play.

Another person in the circle said that Xie Jiang’s remaining film was a martial arts drama. Shen Baizhan was so frightened that he ran to the Sanda center to enroll in the basic Sanda class. The teacher squeezed Shen Baizhan’s arms and legs and said how thin you are like a girl .

"Then please let me be as strong as you." Shen Baizhan didn't care how the teacher described it.

As long as his wound is not pulled vigorously, it will be fine. The teacher said that he will come to learn after the wound is healed, but he can jog every day to exercise his physical fitness.Shen Baizhan agreed, and immediately set the alarm clock when he got home, and downloaded the exercise app.

The next day, it was Reporter Shen who clocked in at work, and it was Reporter Shen who sat at home to rest at night, except for Reporter Shen who didn’t run.

In addition to studying to enter the university to study the major he likes, Shen Baizhan often gives up halfway.

The first snow of winter fell, and the day of the court session finally arrived.

Liu Jianlong deliberately injured others, causing serious injuries, but cooperated with the investigation during the detention center, admitted all his actions and admitted his mistakes sincerely. He was sentenced to four years in prison and executed immediately.

Shen Baizhan looked at Liu Jianlong who was standing not far from him, and Liu Jianlong was also looking at him. When the police took him away, Liu Jianlong said sorry to Shen Baizhan.

"I'm sorry." Shen Baizhan said to him at the same time.