born to you

As soon as He Jing saw him, he fell silent, rolled his eyes a little narrowly, and finally narrowed his eyes slightly, and looked at Li Qi with a three-point scrutiny and a few feelings of parting.

Li Qi was also so surprised that his head was two big.

The last time he saw Zhang Ju'an was in Linliang, in front of a supermarket, he didn't talk to Zhang Ju'an much, and Li Zuo didn't rest for a few days so he was in a hurry to go back to the hotel, so he didn't exchange many pleasantries.

He didn't quite understand why someone came here suddenly, and it seemed that he was indeed coming for him.

Didn't you clean up this mess before?

Li Qi didn't dare to look at Zhang Juan more, his mind was full of how to explain to He Jing.

In the past two years, he went out to play with Zhang Juan without saying a word, so that he missed his birthday and the next two years are still in his heart. He always feels that He Jing is also uncomfortable because of this matter.

He Jing was not as negative as he thought, and quietly finished his jasmine tea without fighting or grabbing, and he didn't even want to take a second look at Zhang Juan.

However, Zhang Juan was in a hurry to find him and was unhappy. He raised his eyebrows, raised the corners of his lips, and greeted He Jing who hadn't seen him for a long time: "I didn't expect that you are still by Li Qi's side after so many years."

He Jing said: "What nonsense, we broke up long ago."

He stood up and gently hung the deacon's uniform on the back of the chair on his arm, greeted Yu Feng and left first.

Before leaving, he still didn't forget to smile decently at Li Qi: "I won't bother you old friends to reminisce about the old days."

"He Jing!" Li Qigang hurriedly stood up and held him back, "I'll go back and explain to you later."

Again.

He also said to explain to him later.

That's what he'd said to himself before.

In an instant, He Jing felt that his two years of growth and experience were shattered at this moment. He seemed to have returned to the early autumn night two years ago, waiting resolutely at home, letting time pass by before accepting it. Reality.

He Jing was a little weak, and his straight and straight back turned out to be exhausted. He exhausted all his strength and said hoarsely, "No more. I don't want to wait for you."

Last time, he waited for three days, consuming all his unconscious youthful impulses.

This time, he really has nothing to spend, only his flesh and blood, and a little liking.

Don't dare to wait.

In the previous two months, even if Li Qi had shown that he was absolutely necessary, he knew that as soon as Zhang Ju'an appeared, Li Qi would still leave as soon as he said it.

How humble he is, he has to rely on a little bit of similarity to that person to deceive him even a little bit of cherishment and liking.

He is He Jing, a man with a name.

I don't want to be protected by someone and get anything.

Not at all.

When He Jing returned home, he threw the deacon's uniform on the ground. Jixiang meowed and rubbed his trouser legs. He picked up Jixiang with one hand and drove him to his shoulder, and unbuttoned him one by one with the other hand, and dragged him into the bedroom. By the time he finished unbuttoning his shirt, he casually threw it away.

"Auspicious, do you want to take a bath with Dad?" He Jing only wore a simple loose white T-shirt on his upper body. This size was too wide for him, and it looked like it was taken off Li Qi's body.

He scratched Jixiang's chin, and the kitten made a meaningless meow sound. He Jing smiled, and the cat was still the cutest: "That's a promise."

He Jing picked up Jixiang who didn't know that the danger was approaching quietly, first fed it two small snacks to make it take it lightly, and took the opportunity to go to the bathroom to find a big basin and put warm water in it to ensure that Jixiang would not be flooded or It was freezing, and put aside the special shower gel I bought for it before, and then held Jixiang in one hand and a small bench in the other to prepare to bathe it.

The shower gel was bought by Cao Tongtong for Jixiang before, and he gave it to him directly, and told He Jing that it is best to give Jixiang a bath in the next two days, and he can wash it once a month in the future.

Although Jixiang and He Jing are very close, but it still has the greatest attribute of being a cat, so that it meowed and blew its fur as soon as it entered the water, scratching around.

He Jing didn't dare to hide, fearing that it would drown him, so in desperation he got several claws, two of which were deep and left marks on the back of his hand.

He Jing endured the pain and comforted Jixiang, and finally let him be quiet. After bathing him, he took him out with a towel to wipe off the water on his body, and dried him with a hair dryer.

It wasn't until the last strand of hair on Ji Xiang's body was blown dry that He Jing dared to let it play by itself. He found a medical kit from the TV cabinet and wiped the scratched wound with a cotton swab dipped in alcohol. .

Only then did He Jing see how horrible his wounds were. There were deep and shallow scratches on the backs of his left and right hands and on his wrists. They were all soaked and a little whitish, but no blood was visible. Among them, the tiger's mouth on the right hand was the most pitiful. The paw print was deeply embedded, about half a centimeter thick, winding down half of the back of the hand, and the flesh was partially turned out due to blisters, and blood was still oozing faintly.

Ji Xiang didn't know, so he meowed and came over to rub He Jing's trouser leg.

"What a fart, I saw it caught by your father. If I knew it, I would have cut your nails bald." He Jing reached out and pinched the small dried fish, shook it in front of its eyes and threw it on the sofa, "Go play by yourself, I have to Apply the medicine."

He Jing simply wiped himself with alcohol and disinfected it briefly. He didn't apply wound medicine or wrap it up with gauze. He only bathed Jixiang, but he didn't wash himself.

Fortunately, Jixiang's vaccine has not expired, and he doesn't need to get an injection.

When He Jing took a bath, he intentionally avoided his right hand, and used his left hand to wash with difficulty for a long time. He secretly hated that he knew that he would not give Jixiang this name. One or two people named Jixiang made people worry.

After He Jing took a shower, wrapped in a bath towel, went to the living room, hugged Jixiang's soft fur, and then went back to the bedroom. Jixiang rubbed back and forth on his body, meowing and having fun on the bed.

Li Qi always looked at Jixiang as if he were a rival in love, and never allowed He Jing to be alone in bed with him. This was the first time that Jixiang could be alone with He Jing, so he seemed very excited.

He Jing let it play with himself. It was already five o'clock in the afternoon when he came home, and the sun was moving down a little bit, and it was not as bright as before, and he was used to pulling the curtains tightly, so the bedroom Except for the bright side brought by the bedside lamp, there is no other light source.

He Jing had a lot of troubles in his heart, and he couldn't sink or pour them out.All the bits and pieces since he met Li Qi went through his mind again. Every time he recalled an experience, his breathing became heavier, and the long-lost feeling of drowning pressed against him again.

Fuck!

It was rare for He Jing to swear, she took a few breaths to try to recover her mood, and with trembling hands went to get the medicine box that hadn't been opened for a long time in the bedside table.

The pills were bitter, and he swallowed them whole before pouring water, not even daring to savor the bitterness of the pills, just as he swallowed the pills, the strange feeling in his throat forced him to rush out of the bedroom to the sink Spit out the medicine.

He rinsed his mouth and thought sadly, anti-stress medicine is so bitter, it resembles the misfortune in people's hearts, how can they be expected to heal others?

In desperation, he had no choice but to re-squeeze the pills and go to the living room to pour water. After that, the suffocation feeling on his body was slightly relieved, but it was not much better.

When he heard the sound of the key getting into the door lock, he was pouring water with trembling hands. His vision was a little blurred because he was not wearing glasses. More water was poured out of the cup than into the cup, pattering along the edge of the coffee table to the floor Drop on.

Before he could find a rag to wipe it off, he peeled off two pills and stuffed them into his mouth, holding a cup to take.

Before a sip of water reached his mouth, Li Qi rushed over to his chin, put his finger into his mouth and forcibly took out the pill.

"Cough, cough, cough..." He Jing was taken aback by his sudden movement, and accidentally coughed for a long time, choking on his saliva.

Li Qi hurriedly patted He Jing on the back to comfort him, holding back his anger and asked, "What's wrong with your hand?"

He Jing took a look at the ugly bandages wrapped around his hands that were about to fall apart, he didn't want to talk, but took two more pills to take.

Li Qi's eyes were almost red, he hurriedly asked Zhang Juan to a place with fewer people and said a lot, to the effect that you don't come to me, I was just young and ignorant before, but now I look back and I like it The only one who treats you is He Jing who is just youthful and ignorant.

Zhang Juan still wanted to quarrel with him, so he hurried back to explain to He Jing without paying attention, but he didn't expect to see clothes scattered all over the room when he entered the door. Although there were only two pieces, it was too much for He Jing. too abnormal.Immediately afterwards, he saw alcohol scattered on the floor, blood-stained cotton swabs, scissors and medical bandages, his heart skipped a beat, and he rushed to the living room only to find that He Jing was stuffing pills into his mouth!

I rely on him to swallow sleeping pills? !

For some reason, the sleeping pill bottle that He Jing kept hidden at home flashed in front of him in an instant. He stepped forward a few strides and took it out forcefully before He Jing swallowed the pill. Bandaged up to the back of the hand?

How dare he kill himself? !

Li Qi's heart became even more angry, hating him for not cherishing his body so much, and wanting to take sleeping pills again in front of him?

He Jing was taken away by him for the second time, and he tried to take the pills again, but Li Qi took them away again.

"Give me the medicine..." He Jing's voice trembled a little, the feeling of chest tightness made his eyes dark, and he was on the verge of passing out.

"What kind of medicine are you taking?" Li Qi held back his anger and almost gritted his teeth.

"Deanxit..."

He Jing was gasping for breath, the air in front of him was getting thinner and thinner, and it was about to turn into darkness.

Seeing that his reaction was not right, Li Qi quickly glanced at the medicine box, and after seeing the pressure relief on it, he quickly fed the medicine to his mouth, and brought him a cup to bring him water.

He Jing swallowed the pill, not sure if it was a psychological effect, but felt that the light had finally recovered a little bit before his eyes, and the cold sweat that had been tight and oozing from his forehead gradually dissipated.

Li Qi carried him back to the bed in the bedroom, only then shyly realized that he was only wearing an old white T-shirt, and his two slender white legs were exposed in the air, which looked particularly attractive.

Li Qi poured him a glass of warm water and put it on the bedside, and stroked Jixiang, who was startled and worried, to appease him, fearing that it would disturb He Jing's rest, he picked up Jixiang and tiptoedly turned off the bedside lamp, and went back to the living room.

Li Qi tidied up everything in the house, and only then did he dare to look at the small pill box that He Jing took, which contained instructions.

He doesn't understand medical knowledge, and he can't read it even after reading it, but he can clearly see the column of functions and indications.

After reading it, I just feel that it is nonsense.

What is called for the treatment of mild and moderate depression and anxiety?Since when did He Jing have depression?

He took out his mobile phone to search for entries, trying to comfort himself through the discrepancy between the above description and He Jing's actual situation.

He didn't know whether the explanation on the entry was the most accurate, but every time he compared an item, his heart skipped a beat.

He couldn't quite see other symptoms. He Jing has always shown that he doesn't care much about anything, which has almost become a norm.But he and He Jing have been together for such a long time, he has basically never seen He Jing letting himself relax, and even before going to bed, he reads a book with his hands, at least turning over dozens of pages.

As before, Li Qi can still use He Jing to be more interested in these things, so he will show great interest.But what if, apart from interests, for He Jing, this is actually a task that he has set for himself and has to be completed?

He suddenly remembered that when he was in Linliang during the National Day holiday, he went to He Jing's house to look for him, and Wang Miao said that his brother had just taken the medicine and it would take a while to come down.

Why didn't he ask a few more questions then?Why didn't you pay more attention to it?

Li Qi rubbed Jixiang's head: "Are you worried about your father?"

Auspicious meowed.

"I'm worried too."

The two Jixiang looked at each other, and a few seconds later, the one who had grown into a human figure reached for He Jing's cell phone, opened the contacts, and called Luo Mingshan.

Luo Mingshan hadn't woken up yet, he jumped up from the bed after hearing the call, and quickly connected: "Hello? Brother Jing, you haven't called me for a long time. What's wrong?"

"Hello...I'm Li Qi." Li Qi said softly, "Don't scold me in a hurry. I have something urgent to do with you, and it has something to do with him."

"What's wrong with Brother Jing?" Luo Mingshan became nervous instantly, "Did you kid bully him again?"

"I'm not..." Li Qi hurriedly explained, but found that He Jing's current appearance is indeed because of himself, "I want to ask... I saw Deanxit and sleeping pills from him...the kind that treats depression ..."

"You still have the guts to ask!" Luo Mingshan suddenly exploded and roared loudly, "Do you know how much brother Jing lost in his third year of high school? A person who was already thin lost twenty catties in a daze Meat! They're all thin and out of shape, you know?"

"He's on a diet?" Li Qi was startled.No wonder there was still a bit of hidden sensuality on He Jing in the past, but now there are only clanking steel bones left supporting him.

"Diet? Is it necessary? Since you have seen Deanxit, you must have checked it! Isn't the typical feature of depression just losing weight?"

Luo Mingshan went on to say: "At first we thought it was because of the high pressure of the college entrance examination. We knew that he couldn't sleep all the time, and the bruises could fall to the ground, so we reacted and went to see a psychiatrist."

"The doctor diagnosed him with mild depression and mild anxiety. The conversation was not very successful. Afterwards, the doctor told me that Brother Jing seemed to be shrunk into a shell, and he was unwilling to communicate with others."

Luo Mingshan sighed: "I never asked Brother Jing and you what happened back then, even when he was so stressed that he would get angry at every turn, and he didn't have the same demeanor as before, I never asked, even later when he was under pressure. I didn’t dare to ask when I missed the college entrance examination math. I was always afraid of making him uncomfortable, so I could only stay with him.”

"Li Qi, but now I really want to know, what did he do to you? You just walked away without saying a word, and your family even came to go through the formalities of transferring schools. I still remember that Brother Jing knew you had transferred. That day, I didn’t communicate with anyone for the whole day, and I did math papers all day without getting into it.”

Li Qi couldn't say a word, it was the first time he heard these things, and he never knew that He Jing had suffered so much because of himself.

He was tortured by himself, causing pain all over his body. It was a graduation period that was extremely stressful, and it was because of himself that he suffered from mild depression.

He didn't dare to think about how He Jing, who was in the treatment period, got here.He Jing was not good at communicating with people at all, did he completely shut himself off during that time, unwilling to see even a glimmer of light?

"Brother Jing didn't let me say these things, but I still thought about it, and I just wanted to say something..." Luo Mingshan knew that he was talking too much, so he simply broke the jar, "Before I met you, He Jing He has always been a Moon Immortal in the sky. It is not bad after being dragged to the ground by you forcibly, but you must protect him well and don't let the ugliness of the world stain his white body, or don't do it from the beginning. disturb him."

After hearing this, Li Qi suddenly hesitated.

Is it really okay for him to break into He Jing's life again this time?

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He Jing hasn't woken up yet, Li Qi is about to shut himself up, tsk tsk tsk tsk.