A Thousand Mountains and Evening Snow: Searching for Love and Leaving Traces

(Qian) I opened my eyes, and there was a glimmer of light coming in through the curtains. I took the mobile phone on the bedside table and checked that it was still early, so I closed my eyes and fell asleep on the bed. It seems that my sleep has improved a lot recently, because I found that she It seemed that I slept more peacefully than before, and I no longer had nightmares, and I no longer screamed in my dreams, so I just went to see her after she fell asleep and went back to my room.I am afraid that the longer I stay, the less I want to leave.

The quilt was soft, and when I was about to fall into a half-dream and half-awake, a bang from the stairs outside the door pulled me back from my wandering thoughts, followed by a very soft complaining sound, although it was really very quiet, but it was still transmitted. into my ears.So, I woke up completely.

Looking at the sky is still early, this is a rare day in a year when I want to hide in bed.Today is my birthday. I remember when I was studying abroad, although my parents divorced, they would still come to celebrate my birthday with me on this day every year.But 14 years ago, after I got married to that woman, I never celebrated my birthday again, and I didn’t tell anyone about my birthday, because my father passed away and my mother left, I have no one to celebrate my birthday with, I no longer have happiness.Until I met her seven years ago, I was entangled in love and hate, but found that she had become the one I wanted her to celebrate my birthday with, but she never wanted to know.

I opened my eyes, staring at the carvings on the ceiling, and quietly listening to the movement from downstairs.

Since she came back here, she seems to wake up earlier than me every day, talking to Butler Ding in the kitchen, and for some reason today, she seems to lower her voice, is she hiding something from me?I rubbed my forehead, I was confused by her behavior since she came back, was everything she did sincere?Refusing to think about it, I got out of bed and went into the bathroom.

Wiping off the water on my face, I faced the mirror in front of the washbasin and put on my glasses. My camouflage, I was young and energetic at that time, and I couldn't restrain my eyes. I was afraid that my eyes would betray me. The most real thoughts, so I put on glasses to hide myself, and now, my mask is so perfect that sometimes I doubt my true thoughts.Putting on the sweater my mother bought for me, I went downstairs.

Another day, no changes, no waves, everything is in my hands, except for her, I can't grasp it but I can't let it go.

(Snow) I was sitting in front of the dressing table, flipping through the notepad in my hand, and the whole day's plan was sorted out a few days ago and listed on it one by one.I looked at the sky, which was not too early for me, and hurriedly wrapped up my coat and came out of the room.His door was closed tightly. I was afraid of waking him up, so I walked down the stairs lightly. Who knows, when I reached the door of his room, I hated to rush up from downstairs suddenly, making him unconscious. I was so startled that I even threw the notepad in my hand to the ground, but my arm hit the handrail of the stairs when I dodged.Holding back the sound that almost screamed, I picked up the notebook on the floor and fled the "crime scene" nervously.

In the kitchen, Butler Ding was busy as usual, and she was used to my presence.I gently told her my thoughts. During the three years of living here, she took care of me so carefully that I almost regarded her as an elder who could confide in her.But I just said my plan, and didn't tell her the details. Steward Ding didn't ask any more questions, but just listened quietly.

Not long after, I heard his footsteps coming down the stairs. I hurriedly ended this topic and immersed myself in stirring the coffee in front of me.He said nothing, as usual, but glanced into the kitchen and went to the garden.

I walked towards him with his coffee and sandwiches. The culprit who caused me to bump my arm in the morning was circling happily around his legs. Seeing that my expression was the same as that of the motionless man holding a newspaper, Turn a blind eye.I'm used to his reaction, but I know that although there is no reaction on the face, when he finishes drinking the coffee in my hand, his eyebrows will definitely frown together, and then he will give me a disgusted look, every day in this way!

"It's too sweet." He put down the coffee in his hand and continued to flip through the newspaper.

How is it possible, I have tried it, how could it still be sweet, I couldn’t believe it, I reached out and wanted to pick it up and taste it, but before my hand touched the cup, he had already taken the coffee and drank it, I just stood there in a daze , Is this considered "destroying corpses and eradicating traces"!With an innocent expression on his face, he left the garden with his arms around his feet, and I only had time to shout at his back

"Shaoqian, I'll wait for you to come home for dinner tonight."

(Humble) I am sitting in the office, facing the large glass window, and the outside is a piece of blue sky.I still remember the petite figure who saw me when I turned around after going out every morning.Could it mean something else when she yelled at me behind my back when I went out this morning, but I immediately overturned this idea.Butler Ding and Lao Ma never knew about my birthday, and since my mother left me four years ago, no one else in this world knows about today’s day. I know that if I don't hope, I won't be disappointed.

The sunshine outside the window is so good that it seems that even my heart can be illuminated, but why is my heart still so gray.

For some reason, Zhen Fei came to my office suddenly, and sat on my sofa with a sly smile on his face.

"Boy, are you free today? Why don't you know how to drive, so you came here to get in touch with your wife!" I leaned on the back of the back, idly flipping through the documents on the table.

"Brother-in-law, why are you still in the company today? There are no activities!" After exchanging ulterior motives with Hai Li who came in with coffee, he leaned over to my desk.

"Is today special? Or are you going to take me to the bar in broad daylight again! I don't care, but I think you will be in trouble." I bowed and looked at him with a smile.

"Brother-in-law, although it's your fault for hiding it from us, I don't care, Haili and I bought it for you." He took out a box and put it on my desk.

"What do you mean!" I was a little confused, but I seemed to have guessed something, but how did they know?My eyes began to wander between the two of them.

"Brother-in-law, uh, no, it's Mr. Mo, I only found out once I accidentally saw the ID you put on the table." Hai Li couldn't bear my gaze on her face more and more, and finally confessed herself.

"Brother-in-law, we also care about you. I sincerely regard you as my brother-in-law, my elder brother." Zhen Fei pulled Haili to sit down, "If you really want to blame, just blame me."

I pondered for a moment

"Thank you!" After taking the gift, I put it solemnly in the drawer, "But I hope no fourth person will know."

"Could it be that Tong Xue doesn't know?" Zhenfei quickly thought of the key point. He is indeed a smart person. He looked at me incredulously, "She has lived with you for three years, and she doesn't know This? I originally thought that you didn't want to tell my sister, but you will definitely tell her. I didn't expect..."

"I don't need to explain so much." I refused to get involved in this issue, "Zhenfei, since you're here, take Haili to lunch, Haili, get off work first!"

I turned back in my chair, not wanting to continue talking about today.

Seeing me like this, Zhenfei had no choice but to take Haili away, but before he left, he said something behind me that made me think about it all afternoon.

"Brother-in-law, since she is willing to pay for you with all her heart, should you consider trusting her sincerity and her feelings? It's like whether you choose to open the curtains to feel the sunshine outside, let the sunshine heal the wound in your heart, or hide Licking wounds alone behind the curtain."

Why don't I want to believe it? It's not that I don't believe in her, but I don't believe in myself and time.

(Snow) I carried a basket and picked carefully in the supermarket. The previous me didn’t know his birthday, his past, his family, or his preferences, except that I couldn’t mess with him. He was angry. I didn't know anything except that he was pinching uncle's evidence. Even now, I had to ask Butler Ding to find out what his favorite dishes were.Looking at the dazzling array of cooking materials in the supermarket, I couldn't help but start to feel anxious. Finally, I finally picked out a few dishes that I could make. When I checked out, I seemed to have a kind of wife who buys and cooks for her husband. Feel.

When I got home, I was very serious about washing and matching the dishes. I hope he can feel the feeling of happiness.

At around 4 o'clock in the afternoon, the doorbell rang suddenly. I was so confused that I went to open the door, but saw him standing in front of me.

"You, why are you back?" I helped him put on his slippers and asked puzzled.

"There's nothing to do in the company, so I came back first, why, I'll come back sooner or later, do you have any questions?" He just sat on the low stool in the entrance, looking at me with his head tilted, with a malicious expression on his face.

"Oh, no! Butler Ding has something to go home, you go upstairs and change your clothes first!" I put his leather shoes neatly on the shoe cabinet, "If you are hungry, I will warm up your cup first Milk up."

"No need." He didn't seem to notice anything, turned around and went upstairs to his room.I saw that he came home early, so I hurried to the kitchen to prepare dinner. I was only short of the last dish. When I turned around to pick up the dishes, I found that he had already sat at the dining table, staring straight at the kitchen. For me, I hurriedly turned my head, put the last dish on the plate, and then put all the dishes on the table.

"Shaoqian, happy birthday! I made all these dishes, and I want to help you celebrate your birthday with my own hands." I looked at him who was holding up the rice bowl, and told him softly.

He picked up the bowls and chopsticks calmly, and each chopstick was holding the dishes on the table.

"It's salty."

"Faded."

"old."

"It's burnt."

"The size is different."

"There is sand."

He picked out a mistake while eating a plate. At the end of the pick, my head was almost buried under the table. I thought my cooking level had improved, but it seemed to him that it was still unpalatable.Frustrated, I wanted to take away the dishes and invite Butler Ding back, at least he can have a good meal on his birthday.

But when I looked up, I was surprised to find that he did not put down the chopsticks in his hand, but continued to eat every bite of food, and even motioned for me to add another bowl for him, and I had to pick and pull the bowl I have not yet recovered from the shock of watching him almost finish the meal.

(Humble) After sitting in the office for a day, I finally couldn't sit still anymore, so I left the company early.When I got home and saw the stunned face when I opened the door, I felt something was different.Sitting in the porch and watching her change my slippers, out of the corner of my eye, I caught sight of the different atmosphere in the living room. She didn't seem to want me to know something, so I followed her heart and pretended to be something. Did not find the general back to the room.

After changing my clothes and sitting at the desk, I heard vaguely busy voices coming from below.I have a little longing for the guess in my heart, is it really what I think?Can I really hope?I opened the drawer and fiddled with the paper cranes in the drawer. I folded them up and gave them to her before, but now she had to put them by my bed every day. She wanted to say something.

An orange paper crane seemed to be caught in a drawer. I took it apart carefully to prevent it from being broken by the drawer. But when I took out the paper crane that was half disassembled, I found that there was written inside the paper crane. Three words "I love you".My heart is like the color of this paper crane, orange and warm.

I finally couldn't sit still in the room anymore, so I went downstairs quietly and sat down at the dining table. From this angle, I could see her busy figure in the kitchen. When I was by the sea, I felt like she was like that. The busy figure fascinates me so much.When she brought all the dishes and said happy birthday to me, I didn't know how to react, so I mechanically took the bowl she handed over and stretched my chopsticks towards the dishes on the table .

"It's salty."

"Faded."

"old."

"It's burnt."

"The size is different."

"There is sand."

I can only use this method to conceal the surprise in my heart, and then bury my head and finish the meal.

(Snow) After I cleaned the kitchen, I saw him still sitting on the sofa. I walked over curiously, but saw him staring at the handle of the game console beside the coffee table.

"Shao Qian, let's play games." I peeked at his expression, and it seemed that he didn't intend to refuse, so I connected the handle on my own initiative, and forced one into his hand.

He turned his head to look at me, took the handle, and pulled me to sit on the carpet.

"Just fight, I will beat you this time." His expression of wanting revenge made me think he is so cute, like a kid in his early 20s playing a game he is interested in and vowing to win.

"You will never be my opponent when you play this game. If you don't believe me, let's play a few rounds today." I raised my eyebrows at him, "However, you are not allowed to drop the controller if you lose."

We just sat on the carpet like this, playing games until the sky was dark, until it seemed that all the love and hatred had disappeared, and I was so sleepy that I leaned on his shoulder and fell asleep.

Until the sound of Butler Ding's footsteps woke me up in the middle of the night.

(Modest) I looked at her sleeping on my shoulder, with a smile on the corner of her mouth, am I so happy to win!

I picked her up and went upstairs, pushed open the door, put her on the bed, tucked her in the quilt, pressed a kiss on her lips, and then quietly closed the door and left.

I turned off the lights one by one in the villa and went back to my room.Sitting in front of the bed, the bright moonlight outside the window illuminated the whole room like a piece of silver heaven. I didn’t turn on the light, opened the drawer and took out the familiar brocade box, opened it under the moonlight, and the moonlight shone on it, refracting A piece of beauty.

When I took her to see "Lust, Caution", I asked her how the movie was, and she only said that the ring in it was very beautiful.For this sentence, I actually ran to buy one, and asked someone to inlay it carefully for me.I have never given anyone a ring, including Mu Yongfei.And after I tied her by my side, I gave her countless jewelry and clothes, and I never gave her a ring, because the meaning of the ring to me has always been sacred and cannot be given away easily.But I actually gave it away, to someone who hadn't even looked at it.

I would rather use 60 yuan to buy it back from her uncle than let it fall into Mu Yongfei's hands.That day I threw it on the ground in front of her, in fact, I wanted her to keep it with me for future emergency needs, but when I returned there, I found it was still lying on the ground alone , Did she bother to pick it up, or did she ignore it so much that she forgot its existence.After I picked it up and put it back into the brocade box, I hid it deeply in the secret pocket near my heart.

It is my heart, once it is sent out, it cannot be taken back.

In this way, it has been lying in my drawer for 4 years.

I fell asleep on the bed with the ring in my hand until the growing cramps kept me from sleeping.I opened my eyes and found that my whole body was sore and weak, but my throat was thirsty and uncomfortable, so I forced myself to go downstairs in the dark, going to the kitchen to pour a glass of water and take a pill before going to sleep. Maybe it was a cold, and it has been a long time since I calculated it carefully. Haven't been sick.But as soon as he picked up the water glass, his stomach felt cramped again, so painful that his waist bowed down, and the things in front of his eyes became more and more blurred, and then he seemed to hear the sound of glass breaking, and the whole world instantly went dark .

(Xue) In the dream, it was his unhappy expression after losing the game. I was just about to reach out to pinch his face, but I was suddenly woken up by the sound of hurried footsteps and noisy voices.

Wrapped in a sweater, I followed the sound and went downstairs, only to find that Butler Ding and Lao Ma were entering and leaving his room one after another. Looking at Butler Ding's face, I felt that something was wrong, so I rushed over in three steps at a time. , The person who opened the door came to his bed.

He was lying on the bed, so different from the one I saw before going to bed, weak and weak, with drops of cold sweat on his forehead.Beside the bed is Dr. Gu doing a careful examination.I just hugged myself and waited.Looking at him like this makes me feel that the world seems to have lost its sense of security.

"Doctor Gu, what happened to Mr. Mo?" Steward Ding asked anxiously.

"I checked. Shaoqian had a gastrointestinal reaction caused by a food allergy. It may be the severe pain that caused him to faint. And when he fainted, he hit the sofa, so there is a possibility of concussion, but it will take specific It can only be confirmed by inspection, but it seems that there should be no other problems." Dr. Gu turned and looked at me, "Miss Tong, long time no see."

"Yes, Dr. Gu. Shaoqian, is he allergic to food?" I grabbed my arm and asked in a trembling voice.

"Yes, what did he have for dinner? Is there any coriander, peanuts or something like that?"

"Peanuts? Doctor Gu, you said peanuts? Yes, there is a dish at night, I added peanut butter in it." I suddenly remembered, "Is it because of this?"

"That's right. Shaoqian is like his father. He can't eat peanuts, and he will be allergic to them. When Lao Jiang was around, the family never bought them. They probably didn't eat them much later, so this kind of peanuts never happened. Things. I guess Shaoqian himself doesn't know." Dr. Gu said while putting away the equipment in his hand.

I sat by his bed and stroked his cheek with my hand. I never knew that little peanut butter would make you feel so uncomfortable.You who are drowsy have lost your usual calm appearance. It turns out that you who have lost your mask are more fragile than an ordinary person.I took the towel from Butler Ding and gently wiped away the sweat from your temples. I will guard you until you wake up and recover. Even if you put on your mask and tell me you don’t love me, I won’t will leave.

(Humble) I have countless dreams. In my dreams, there are father, mother, her, and the child who left us; there are also the clamor of Mu Changhe and Mu Yongfei, and the two gossips of Zhenfei Haili " There are cute and annoying mouths, lots of sea water, and sunshine all over the sky.

I fell asleep drowsily, waking up and sleeping, I could feel as if there were two hands holding my hand, someone fed me water, someone wiped my face, but it seemed like a dream, she in the dream He held me in his arms, and pressed her face against mine, cool and warm.It's as peaceful as a baby sleeping in amniotic fluid.

I don't know how long I slept, but I finally woke up. The sunlight outside the window shone on my eyes, forcing me to open them.I moved my exhausted body, only to find that my hands seemed to be being held. I looked down and saw her small body kneeling beside my bed. Her hands were holding mine tightly, and her head was resting on my shoulder. Beside, fell asleep deeply.

"Mo..." Butler Ding, who entered the door, saw that I woke up and was about to shout, but I interrupted her and motioned her not to wake Tong Xue, "Mr. Mo, you are awake! Ms. Tong should rest assured, she has been here all the time. Watching you, maybe I fell asleep just now."

I moved my body inside, and with the help of the butlers, I finally let her lie on the bed. She must be very tired, and there was no sign of waking up at all. I held her in my arms, closest to my heart. that place.

Maybe Zhenfei's words are right.

And I still have the right to be happy.

(Snow) In the haze, I saw a meadow in front of me, and the warm sun shone on me. I walked barefoot on the soft grass, and a ray of wind brushed my cheek faintly.The grass is very empty and there is nothing around. Although it is calm, it is very empty.I walked along this meadow, and when I raised my head, it was a forest, and I couldn't see the inside, but a figure appeared in the forest not far from me. I started to run towards that figure, forgetting The seemingly gloomy woods.It got closer and closer, and finally I ran behind him.Even though I can't see his face, I know that he is my Shaoqian.

"Don't go! Don't leave me!" I grabbed the person who seemed to be leaving, and turned to him, "Shao Qian, don't go!"

I hugged his waist, smelling the faint smell of grass on his body, I pressed myself close to his chest, not letting him go

"Shao Qian, I don't want to leave you again. Although this dark forest scares me, you are here, by my side."

I took his hand, but he didn't shake it off, just looked at me with his quiet eyes, my shadow was in the dark pupils.I took his hand and left the woods step by step, running all the way to the lawn where I just walked.The footsteps of the people behind me stopped, and I was also forced to stop, and I slammed into his arms, just like that, I was embraced by him, and the sun shone on our bodies, so warm and so warm.

Hearing a very soft voice, I finally opened my eyes, and it was myself, my little self, reflected in a pair of black lacquered eyes.

"Wake up, get up and have something to eat. If you don't wake up again, Steward Ding should call Dr. Gu." He seemed to be a different person in front of him, without the depression and alienation before, and some of the things I used to love When he didn't leave him, he occasionally released tenderness towards me.I stared at him in front of me, not knowing what was going on, I just looked at him in a daze.Or am I still in a dream? !

(Modest) Looking at the little girl who is getting closer and closer to my arms, I can't help but curl the corners of my lips, how long has it been since I felt so warm.What did she dream about in her dream?

"Don't go! Don't leave me!" She muttered suddenly, and my heart tightened. I remember that a long time ago, I heard her words after she was drunk. At that time, I was too scared to listen. She answered, sealing her lips with a kiss.Now, what is her answer and who is the man in her dream.

I gently stroked her hair, and for a moment I even wanted to repeat the same trick, but I held back until the name she uttered made my heart see the sunshine outside the window.

Butler Ding brought up the porridge and side dishes. I wanted to let Butler Ding go down first, but she moved in my arms, and then opened her eyes. Me, I had to let her go.

"Butler Ding, I'm hungry!" I ignored her who hadn't figured out the situation, but slowly sat up and leaned against the head of the bed. Butler Ding took the coat and helped me put it on.Drinking hot porridge, my heart and empty stomach gradually felt warmed up.

(Xue) I finally remembered what happened. Looking at him leaning on the bed and slowly finishing the hot porridge, I actually forgot Steward Ding who was standing by the side. I sat up and threw myself at him. The back of his neck felt extremely stable.

"Shaoqian, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I didn't know you would be allergic, I didn't know, I originally wanted to help you celebrate your birthday, but I didn't expect it to end up like this." My heart felt extremely guilty, " I'll be careful in the future."

His hand patted my back lightly, making me calm down gradually.

"You've slept for so long, aren't you hungry?" He glanced at Butler Ding who was about to leave, which made me realize that I was actually sitting on his bed, and it seemed that I woke up from his arms just now. By his bed.Although I said I would take care of him, in the end I didn't even remember falling asleep, and I didn't even realize how I fell into his arms, my face was flushed, and I was so ashamed that I lifted the quilt and wanted to run away , but as soon as one foot stepped on the carpet, it was pulled into his arms, he wrapped me in his arms, and then tucked in the quilt,

"Shaoqian..I"

"Don't make noise, sleep." He rested his chin on the top of my head, and then stopped moving.

I leaned against his chest, the place closest to the heart, and as he breathed steadily and listened to his regular heartbeat, I seemed to be able to hear my heartbeat gradually synchronized with his, falling asleep together.

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PS: This article will be interspersed and narrated from the perspectives of two people, those who read the article, don't be confused! !

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