[Bungo Stray Dogs] Attempted suicide is a disease that can be cured

I was terribly afraid that I would lose consciousness at this point, but luckily I didn't.Sakunosuke helped me up and carried me to the western restaurant.

I could vaguely see something red, with nauseating associations.

"Uncle..." I must be very embarrassed now.The sweat and blood on his body made the colors of those crayons a paste.Sakunosuke's clothes were also messed up.He put me down gently and went up to the second floor.

I shook my head slightly.

Please - I gotta get up -

"Baili!"

The tinnitus finally disappeared.I slightly turned to Dazai's direction, squinting my eyes to barely see him clearly: "Aji...I, I'm disqualified..."

Dazai's face was more ugly than ever.He shook his head, tried to grab my arm but couldn't - it was all wounds.

Odasaku walked down the stairs step by step.I don't know if I said it loudly, but I said it anyway.

"I'll go with you, uncle."

This time, Dazai directly grabbed my shoulder no matter how many wounds he touched.

Odasaku turned around: "I thought you would rather go upstairs and say 'good night'."

"I have to say..." I seemed to be stimulated by the severe pain that Dazai brought just now, so I stood up forcefully: "But revenge is also very important."

"And... I can't let you die."

The response was a hard punch in the stomach.

Uncle, I shouldn't believe your evil!

When he woke up, he was in Aoba's clinic.

As soon as I turned over, I sat up, and then my whole body seemed to have been electrified-it was so sour...

"It's been less than an hour since that young man who often committed suicide brought you to the present. Thank you for your good physique and my emergency medicine—although you will weaken a little later. Is it too late?"

Aoba has a cute face like a doll, but she never handles things innocently and sloppily.Never have I admired and appreciated her judgment so much.

Now that I have reached the point of "wake me up as soon as the wound is treated", I can't waste time.Dial Cheng Zi's phone number.I said earnestly: "Although you are very busy... huh? Mr. Ranpo has returned? Thank you so much for coaxing him. But the current situation... Please, lend me the treasure, just a moment."

Being active does not mean being able to fight.It would be absolutely unwise for me to go to Sakunosuke by myself now, so I should go to Dazai.

Aoba lent me the motorcycle.I followed Jiaqiao and found the building where Dazai lived.

Such an imposing manner, this is not the headquarters of the port mafia... My whole body is already drenched in sweat, and driving a motorcycle still requires a lot of strength.Fortunately, the timing was just right, and Dazai's figure appeared at the gate of the building.

There is no one around.

"Azhi!" I called to stop him: "Come on!"

Dazai's eyes widened: "Baili?! Why..."

I handed him the helmet and gave up the driving seat: "I don't know what kind of medicine Aoba used... Anyway, I can still move now, so I asked Jiaqiao to bring me here, ah, it has disappeared. No time Here you go, drive!"

Dazai looked at the hospital gown on Baili's body, the number of bandages indistinctly reached a level comparable to his for the first time—maybe even more.He gritted his teeth, got on the motorcycle, wrapped his hands around his waist, and pulled off the bandages on his body to bind them.

"Sit tight!"

Motorcycles frantically headed towards their destination.

Is there a God in this world I live in?

do not know.

I've only seen it in Miss Yuko's shop, "God".Cute creatures like dumplings.But in this world, I don't know if it is useful to pray to him.

"Sakunosuke!" "Oda Saku!"

The red-haired young man fell into a pool of blood, and the blood hole in his chest was constantly oozing blood.

It was too late.

Dazai and I knelt beside Sakunosuke at the same time.One on each side, like children vying for a hug.But Sakunosuke can't hug anyone now.

He is going to die.

"You're an idiot, Odasaku, you're an idiot!"

"Yes."

"Uncle, you really want to die with that kind of person! It's too shameful!"

"Yes."

Oda smiled.His expression showed the kind of satisfaction that only those who have accomplished something and paid the price are worth it.

In the end, my lacrimal glands are relatively developed, and the tears rushed out completely uncontrollably.

"Don't cry, Baili... and Dazai... I have something to tell you."

"No, don't talk. Maybe there is still salvation. No, there must be salvation. So don't do this..." Although Dazai hadn't cried yet, the expression on his face was close to collapse.

"Listen to me!" Odasaku held up Dazai's and mine's with blood-stained hands, and said to Dazai, "You said, 'If you are in a world of violence and bloodshed, you might find a reason to live. '..."

"Ah, I said it. I said it, but now that kind of thing..."

"Can't find it."

Odasaku said in a low voice.

"You should know it yourself. Whether you are on the side of killing or saving people, there will be nothing beyond your mind's prediction. There is no place in this world that can fill your loneliness. You will always be in the dark Wander."

Dazai and Gide are different.It is not that he loses sight of the value of his own life, desires death, and therefore jumps into violence and combat.

He's just a very smart kid.

He was just a crying child left alone in the dark, in a world of nothingness that was far more empty than the world they had seen.

Only then did Dazai realize that Oda Saku knew him better than he thought.Just near the heart, close to the center of the heart.

For the first time in his life, Dazai had something he wanted to know from the bottom of his heart.So he asked Odasaku: "What should I do?"

"Go to the rescuer's side."

Odasaku took my hand, put it on Dazai's, and said to me, "Hyori, take him."

My whole body shook.

"Dazai... Since both sides are the same, be a good person. Save the weak and protect the orphans. Whether it's justice or evil, the two don't make much difference to you... But it's better to do that."

"how do you know?"

"I know, I know better than anyone."

I tried my best to drive away the tears in my eyes so that I could clearly see the eyes of Sakunosuke - he was conveying to Dazai the road he had walked.

So Dazai was able to believe it.

"Understood... I will do this." Dazai agreed.

I squeezed Sakunosuke's hand and Dazai's hand tightly, and nodded: "I understand."

"'Man lives to save himself. He learns this before he dies.'  … That's right... that's right..."

Odasaku's expression quickly lost all color, and he smiled palely.

"I really want to eat curry...and hot pot..."

Odasaku reached for his pocket tremblingly.I knowingly helped him take out the cigarette and handed it to his mouth.Dazai took the match and helped light the fire.

Odasaku closed his eyes, inhaled the lit cigarette, and smiled contentedly.

If it was Baili, he would definitely be able to take Dazai to the sun.And burn all those crooked things deep in his heart.

That's great.

Cigarettes fall.

Dazai raised his head, closed his eyes, and his tightly closed lips trembled slightly.

I finally whimpered and cried out loud.

Sure enough, we can no longer walk side by side together.

The inner society is in chaos, but the outer society has not been greatly affected, and it is operating as usual.

Dazai never returned to the Mafia.I brought people home.Recently, Cheng Zi had an awkward relationship with Mr. Luanpo, and was ordered to run around.I haven't been home for several days.It's convenient for us.

Sakunosuke's body was transported to Aoba's clinic by us.Aoba hugged me and didn't say much.I am very relieved to let her ensure the burial.

Sometimes Dazai would hide from me and go out without making a sound, and then come back secretly.I reckoned that he was dealing with his troubles after becoming a "traitor", so I didn't bother.

Then the day before Sakunosuke's burial, Dazai was not there.I received a call from Cheng Zi.

[The leader of the port mafia is named Mori Ogai. 】

At that moment, I just felt that the space around me had collapsed.

On a hill overlooking the cityscape of Yokohama, in the middle of the green mountain road, there is a cemetery with a view of the sea.

The children's tomb and Sakunosuke slept there.

Sakunosuke said that they got eternal sleep.

Dazai and I wore black funeral clothes and held white bouquets.

I saw Dazai holding a photo in his hand, it was him standing with Sakunosuke and Sakaguchi smiling.

For the first time, I regretted that I didn't have the habit of taking pictures.

"I really want you to eat hard tofu..."

Dazai closed his eyes as the strong sea breeze blew past, and said so.

"Hey, Ji. Come to the Armed Detective Agency."

My gaze was finally able to move away from the nameless tombstone and turned to Dazai.

Dazai looked at me.

I smiled and took out a letter, which said "From the President": "This is a recommendation letter. With this, the president should think carefully. Trust me-this is not an advertisement for myself. ?”

Dazai was silent for a while, then continued: "I really want to see the place where Baili works."

"It's all right now." I breathed a sigh of relief.close your eyes.

"Aji, the leader of the port mafia, his name is Mori Ogai."

Dazai froze.

Baili's tone was firm and cold.

"I should have asked about this earlier - if I had known it was him, I would never have let you follow him so leisurely."

Then things like this don't happen anymore.

"If I had known it was that person...!"

Every word of Cheng Zi's phone call hit the sore spot of my body, making me tremble all over.

"This is really worthy of the name... The old hatred is not gone, and the new hatred is added."

Dazai grabbed Baili's wrist in a jerk, and the expression on his face revealed the emotion called "high tension".

so similar.

Baili is now doing what Odasaku just did.

"Don't go, Baili!!!" Dazai grabbed me tightly with a force that could crush a wrist bone: "You can't go!!"

But he couldn't say anything else to save him.

Just killing Oda Saku and the children made Baili have an irresolvable hatred for Mori Owai.If you add what she calls "old scores," she's as unstoppable as Odasaku.

But……!

Dazai opened his mouth, then closed it in pain.

Some of his feelings, some of his words, are of the least value to him.He knows this better than anyone.

I hesitated, and assured Dazai, "I won't die, Aji. I swear."

"I still have enough reasons to want to live. Although I have to work hard, I will still come back alive."

Dazai still held on to Baili's wrist firmly.Such words are too feeble.He couldn't help showing a chilling smile: "Do you have any evidence?"

Damn it, it's going to be blackened!

I trembled a bit, and in a hurry, I pulled him to my side with my backhand, and kissed him.

Dazai is very good at kissing, and for a moment I felt that I might be rejected.

There was a warm touch on Dazai's lips, and he left as soon as he touched it.But that wasn't an illusion, because Baili didn't withdraw a long distance at all, just raised his head under the tip of his nose, and said with a soft smile:

"Can this prove it?"

There were dark waves in Dazai's eyes.

"Again."

Dazai rubbed Baili into his arms with great force, and bit on it.It was not a gentle kiss at all, although there was no blood, it had a clear feeling of tearing.For Baili, who was exposed to deep kissing for the first time, it was a great challenge.

I could feel the strong emotion that Dazai wanted to convey.

Trying to adjust my breathing, I returned the kiss.

"I like you, Aji. So I cherish my little life~"

"……Um."

The author has something to say:

In fact, when I wrote this paragraph, the TV hadn’t come out yet... I thought the stairs going upstairs were inside the house (covering my face), but I didn’t expect it to be outside.

The Japanese "disqualification" is actually very interesting, and I think it can be used here-Baili means that she failed to keep the children and lost her qualifications.

Mokona is indeed a "god", to be precise, it is a replica of the god created by Miss Yuko.Specifically, I can supplement the work of clamp, I always feel that all their works are a big game (horrible

I'm really sorry I couldn't save Odasaku - I will open his article in the future, but I won't open it now because I am waiting for the progress of the manga.Odasaku's article will continue with the part where he fights the rats in the house of death. The girl he met...is a second-year-old in a different sense from Akutagawa...

And you see!Sure enough, Odasaku is taking care of the child!You two, call Dad! (No

The TV clip of the last cigarette was also deleted, and it was described in the novel.

In Baili's memory so far, the number of times he has cried can be counted on one hand.What Oda did was one of them.

Then, this is one of the reasons why my painting style collapsed a while ago-the question about Mr. Mori.Baili, Chengzi and Mori Owai have a grudge against each other.

The TV segment of the tombstone was also deleted.

About Mr. Gengtian—in fact, Baili had already greeted him.Baili and Chengzi had met Mr. Natsume and had been approved by Mr. Natsume.So that cat never appeared in front of Baili, because he wanted to retire (forcibly circled the bug

Dazai knows that he likes Baili, but he is good at sweet words in love, no matter what kind of words he says, even if they are sincere, he himself feels untrustworthy.So he couldn't speak.And even if he gave Baili such an answer, he might not be able to stop him.

That's right, Baili's strategy was successful.It’s all teased to this point, Dazai should react a bit (laughing and crying

In fact, when the bandage on Dazai’s face was taken off by Oda Saku on TV, I was a little hesitant—so Dazai didn’t have so many injuries on his body, did he… Is there any problem with his face being fine… Then I Be careful when driving in the future (shh-