[Comprehensive] People around me are always making trouble

Under the bright light, there is youthful porcelain white skin, black hair scattered on the beige sofa, and a frozen smile on the lips.

"Ah, it's really flattering that Shi Yin suddenly jumped forward so boldly."

A slightly frivolous laugh fell, and Dazai turned a blind eye to the sharp blade on his slender neck, as if he was not worried at all that she would do anything to him, and there was a loose light in his golden brown clear eyes.

He raised the metal wire in his hand, and said in a clear tone: "Of course, I walked in like this."

"Are you a thief?" Shi Yin took the knife away and got up with the sofa, his drowsy brain suddenly became dizzy, and the world was spinning. The girl who had just got off the sofa fell down due to the weightlessness of her body.

She subconsciously wanted to hold on to the tea table next to her, but Dazai grabbed her slender wrist, and then she was gently embraced by him. After the dizziness gradually dissipated, she blinked slightly, and her vision It became clear again, in front of her eyes was Dazai's delicate collarbone wrapped in bandages and clothes, she thanked softly, and wanted to stand up straight again, but Dazai did not let go, she looked up in doubt, Dazai seemed to be thinking about something, and then Said: "Shi Yin really drank a lot of wine, sleeping on the sofa will catch a cold, I'll take you back to your room."

He hugged Shi Yin, whose body was weak, and her body was suspended in the air. She could only wrap her hands around his neck to prevent herself from falling, and she didn't let go until she was placed on the soft Simmons.

Dazai looked down at the girl's blushing cheeks and earlobes, and said warmly, "Is your body still feeling unwell? Is there any milk in the refrigerator?"

Shi Yin shook her head, her voice was a little hoarse, so she spoke softly: "Just pour me a glass of water, there is a portfolio on the sofa, can you bring it in for me?"

"I'm going out for a while. Before I went upstairs, the supermarket downstairs was still open." Dazai rejected her proposal. After he stood up straight, he suddenly remembered something and asked, "Speaking of which, Shiyin, don't you know?" Drinking on an empty stomach?"

Shi Yin was silent.

So under the girl's acquiescence, Dazai sighed helplessly and said: "Although wine is a good thing, Shi Yin, you are too messy like this, but if you lack drinking friends, I am free anytime. Shi Yin Rest first, I'll be back in a while."

After saying this, Dazai thoughtfully closed the door of the room for her.Shi Yin took off her coat and shrank into the bed. She actually still had a headache and drowsiness, but she didn't want to close her eyes.As long as she closes her eyes, the bloody memory that is like glass shards reflecting sharp cold light comes to mind. Shiyin is not afraid of anything, she just... hates that feeling.

It's like a drowning person struggling more and sinking into the deep sea until there is no light around him. Even after waking up from a dream, the feeling of suffocation seems to be engraved in his lungs. The more he thinks about it, the more he wants to destroy something.

Disintegrate, destroy, shatter and trample—

Kill, kill, kill, kill, destroy it all! !

Ah, really, it's annoying.

Her ability "disintegrate causes" is the ability to touch the "truth" and "law", not a side effect of the ability, but a long-term use of the ability, and what she has habitually using the ability to spy on the world is An almost icy mind.

The composition of matter, the analysis of molecules, the rigorous and meticulous formulas... as long as there is a form, she can analyze and understand it, but for "human nature", she always looks at it almost indifferently, as if watching from afar.

Because it can't be understood.

Can't understand those who know the disparity in strength but go to death, can't understand the courage and perseverance of those who are dying for others, can't understand those who are struggling even though they know their future is uncertain, isn't that useless work?

The monster called "reason" dormant in Shi Yin's body, so far, has only been swallowed by the existence called emotion twice. The anger that swallowed everything seemed to burn her up, but it miraculously made her find the way to survive. reality of the world.There were only two times, but neither was anything worth remembering. Shiyin is not someone who likes to look back on the past. Even so, she would occasionally have the idea that it would be nice if such a thing never happened.

Four years ago, when she mistakenly thought that Kise Ryota was dead, she still had reason.As for the murder case 12 years ago, it is very contradictory. Shi Yin remembers the faces of everyone in the pool of blood, the sharp reflection of the fragments of lamps that fell to the ground, and the blood running along the road when the bullet was crushed into dust in front of his eyes. With the temperature flowing from his forehead and remembering so many details, Shi Yin's entire memory of that incident is vague.

It was as if the exquisite multicolored glass was suddenly shattered on the ground. Every fragment was sharp and shiny, but it couldn't be pieced together into a complete piece.

Even if it was anger, it was the first time that Shiyin, who was free from this world, felt the existence of "emotions" so clearly.

There was a quiet knock on the door once or twice, awakening her from her memories. Tokine propped up the mattress and got up, and the door creaked open. Dazai held the file bag in one hand and the other in the other. Glass with milk.

"Here, take a good rest after drinking the milk." Dazai put the cowhide bag on the bedside table, waiting for her to drink the milk.

I always feel a little weird.

After receiving the milk from Dazai, Tokine found that the milk was warm, and drank it all in one gulp. The discomfort in her stomach after being warmed by the milk was relieved. When she handed him the empty glass, she suddenly Knowing what the strange emotion trapped in his heart was, his fingertips trembled slightly, and then he pulled his sleeve.

"Huh?" Dazai responded suspiciously, "What's wrong? Shiyin."

"I can't sleep, can you stay with me for a while?" Shi Yin said softly.

"...Lonely and widowed in the same room, it's a shame to make such a request, Shion." He opened his eyes wide in surprise, and after a moment of silence, Dazai looked down at the girl's frank and bright eyes, helplessly. He bent his lips and asked, "Do you want to listen to fairy tales?"

"I'm not a child." Shi Yin pouted.

"Yes, yes~" Dazai chuckled lightly at Shiyin's unknowingly childishness, and tolerantly agreed. He dragged a chair beside her and sat down in front of her bed, asking in a clear voice, "Then do you want to talk?" what?"

"I don't know..." Shi Yin didn't know why she suddenly made such a strange request, it was almost like... acting like a baby.With a troubled look on his face, Shi Yin suddenly remembered something when he was thinking about something to talk about, and raised his eyes and said, "By the way, why are you here? And how did you know where I live?"

"Eh? This is after the fall." Dazai smiled slyly, "I also have my own contacts here. Someone sent me a text message saying, 'If I don't come back, my girlfriend will be snatched away' or something. Plus I wanted to see Shi Yin, so I came over to check on the situation."

"Come in by picking the lock?" Shi Yin tilted his head and questioned.

"Oh, didn't Shiyin do the same thing, each other~" Dazai didn't feel that there was anything wrong with it, and after answering calmly, he continued along the topic, "Speaking of which, I haven't told you yet. Thank you, if it wasn't for Shiyin at that time, I would have died alone in the apartment because of a high fever. Ah, yes, I haven't asked you yet, why did you save me? Shiyin, because a text message rushed over What, it's still a bit of a surprise."

"By the way..." Shi Yin was stunned for a while before remembering that when she planned to leave Yokohama temporarily four years ago, she ran into Dazai drifting along the rushing river by chance. Seeing the figure of Dazai who was about to drift downstream, she still asked the fisherman beside him to salvage him.

About the death of Dazai Osamu's friend, Oda Sakunosuke, Tokine later learned about it from Mr. Hirotsu.

— not sympathy.

Dazai doesn't need pity, and Shi Yin, who has always had an abnormal perception of emotions, lacks such emotions.She probably just, at a certain moment, really had the warm thought of "I don't want him to be alone again".

Is it... on a whim?

Staring into the clear eyes of the young man, Shi Yin was suddenly unable to answer. It wasn't that she didn't know what she was thinking at that time, but she just didn't know the reasons that filled her heart and made her think that way at that time.

Sure enough, very strange.

"I'm sleepy." The tone was frank and positive, and for the first time in history, she had the idea of ​​escaping. She shrank into the bed, pulled the quilt up to cover half of her face, and her voice came out of the bed muffled. Came, "Help me close the door when I leave, Dazai-kun."

"Hey, Shiyin, it's okay to act like a baby, but it's not good to be too self-willed." He stood up from the chair, put his hands on the sides of her head and looked down at her. Osamu Dazai has a beautiful face, very The deceptive smile made it impossible to see the true meaning behind his smile, but he stared at her, his expression looked cold and cold when he was not smiling, and his careless tone was like a knife blade hanging above his head that was about to fall at any time , making people shudder, "During the day, Shi Yin asked me if I was angry. I denied it at that time, right? That was a lie. To be honest, I was a little angry."

"It was Shiyin who first said that he wanted to date, and it was Shiyin who cut off contact without authorization. I understand Shiyin's feeling of wanting to bid farewell to the past. But ah... abandoning me without no regrets, it really makes people feel uncomfortable. .” He said lightly, but there was no usual relaxed smile on his face.

Shiyin was a little stunned for a moment, she looked at his clean and gentle eyes, and the storm in his eyes, suddenly, her heart seemed to be blocked, oppressing her heart and lungs, making her unable to say a word. Words come.

"Aren't you kidding, are you scared by my acting skills?" Dazai, who suddenly smiled lightly, lowered his head and planted a feather-like kiss on her forehead, "Good night, Tokine."

He got up and was about to leave, but the unknown gas in Shiyin's heart was expanding silently, turning into a haze. She opened her mouth slightly, and finally, before he left, she uttered: "Dazai."

"Huh?" Dazai turned his head, smiled without any abnormality, and listened to her words.

Just like so many times before.

Strange to say, Shi Yin is not a person who talks a lot, she is used to silence, not only tends to misjudge other people's emotions, but even lacks awareness of the existence of her own emotions, but in the relationship between the two, Dazai Always be on the side of the listener.

It's not because of what Shi Yin said to him - she doesn't really like to talk about herself.But as long as he is in front of him, even if she doesn't say anything, he can know her mood.

"I'm sorry," she said.

"Hey, Shi Yin doesn't need to apologize, it's okay, I said it's just acting." Dazai smiled lightly, "I just want to see Shi Yin being scared, it's so cute."

"Liar." Shi Yin propped the bed and sat up. She raised her hand and stroked the long hair that had fallen on her cheeks behind her ears. She looked into his eyes seriously, saying each word, "I can't understand other people correctly I don't know Dazai-kun's thoughts, but at least I know that what Dazai-kun said about 'acting skills' just now is a lie."

"..."

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make Dazai-kun angry, I just feel..." When she said this, the voice paused indistinctly, she lowered her eyelids slightly and did not continue to look into Dazai's eyes, and said softly, "If Dazai-kun It would have been better if you hadn't met me."

——Ah, I see.

——So she... thought so.

The author has something to say: The meaning of this chapter is probably——

#People with negative emotional intelligence should not talk nonsense×#