Chang'an fruit is not sweet

It was almost noon after I finished knitting the scarf with my mother. Linguo moved her neck and felt that her body was frozen.

Qin Shu rubbed Lin Guo's shoulders and legs, and said softly, "Baby is tired."

Linguo shook her head and said she was not tired.

The phone dinged, and he picked it up to see that it was an email.

The sender is Ye Qing.

He didn't turn it on. He thought for a while while clutching the phone, and said, "Mom, I'll go upstairs and lie down for a while."

Qin Shu urged him to go up quickly with some distress, "Okay, go and rest for a while, I'll make dinner and call you later."

Lin Guo said hello, took the phone and went back to the room.

Whether it's Ye Qing or Xi Lin, Lin Guo hasn't seen each other since saying goodbye at the beach, but there is Du Yu beside Lin Guo, Du Yu looks very cool and a little cold , is actually a gossip, dragging his brother to ask this and that every day, thanks to Du Yu, he was not out of touch with China when he was abroad.

Du Yu said that the professor of the business school said that Ye Qing is great. Now he has returned to China to start a company in the entertainment industry, and Xi Lin's company is against each other.

Linguo wiped the screen with the corner of her clothes and pressed the power button.

When the screen was turned on, the screen saver was an illustration he saw on Weibo, which was drawn by Gu Changan's fans. Judging from this drawing, this big fan should have watched the video of his roommate's drunkenness , and added some of my own imagination.

very nice.

Although Gu Changan doesn't wear glasses, there is no mole on the corner of his eye.

But enough.

Lin Guo opened Ye Qing's email, and he downloaded the attachment, which was a photo.

The person in the photo is Gu Changan and another boy.

The content of the picture made him a little overwhelmed.

Gu Changan was wearing a white vest and khaki shorts, and a lot of dust was rubbed on the vest.He had a cigarette in his mouth, squinted his eyes, and held a dozen skewers of food in his hand, as if he was about to grill them.The boy next to him was wearing a white T-shirt and washed blue jeans, and was writing something in a small notebook.Because he is good-looking and has a good figure, this kind of dress makes him look like first love.

He remembered this boy, who appeared in the video of "Roommate Drunk Records" that was popular at the time, hugging Gu Changan and crying very wronged.

"Ding--"

[Ye Qing]: I heard that you have returned to China?

Lin Guo came back to his senses and asked him, "How do you know?"

[Ye Qing]: That big mouthed brother Du Yan said, why didn't you say anything when you came back.

say what?Who to tell?

Apparently Ye Qing didn't know about his overseas affairs, before Lin Guo replied to him, Ye Qing sent another message.

[Ye Qing]: Have you seen the photo, are you going to find him?

"Why are you looking for him?"

After a while, the dialog box popped up.

[Ye Qing]: Why?you ask why

Linguo smiled, of course he knew why.

Gu Chang'an has paid a lot for you, but you went abroad to take care of yourself alone, as for him, a top student in undergraduate H university and graduate student F university, he has a bright future, and as soon as his head gets hot, he decides to sell barbecue in some place, and he can't earn too much. A lot, but a lot of suffering.

Besides, he is a Virgo, his clothes are covered in ashes, his body is covered in sweat, and he seems to be used to the smoky atmosphere.

How long has Gu Changan been there?

[Ye Qing]: Have you contacted anyone since you came back?

"No."

[Ye Qing]: I guess so.No one has been able to contact Lao Gu for a long time. A few days ago, I heard from Hu Yu that Gu Chang'an hadn't been home for two or three years, and he hadn't called his family.

what? !

Why did my mother mention it?

[Ye Qing]: I asked someone to help me search, only to find that his uncle has some background, but his uncle couldn't find him.

That is consciously taking precautions?So, he is not capricious, he really does not intend to go back.

[Ye Qing]: By the way, I met a domestic girl abroad. I didn't intend to make friends with her, but I always feel very familiar with her.One night many of us were playing together, and when we were leaving, I dropped by to take her back home. She must have drunk too much, and cried in my car, saying that she came abroad just to get a chance to breathe, and she would have to go back sooner or later. To the society that made her unable to breathe.

[Ye Qing]: She said that she couldn't adapt to the society, and she didn't want to change her shape. Her lifelong dream is to be herself.In fact, I also have the feeling that it is this person, she is standing in front of you chatting with you, but you feel that this person is not with you, there is a glass cover between you, you understand?

Lin Guo smiled, "Brother Qing, don't make detours."

[Ye Qing]: Hey, talking to a smart person is peace of mind.

"so?"

[Ye Qing]: I’m not saying that I look down on those who sell skewers. They make barbecue at least 10,000+ a year, but do you think this is the life he wants?

Ling Guo wanted to say how do you know this is not what he wanted, before sending it out, the white frame popped out again.

[Ye Qing]: Do you think he is happy?

"Zi Fei Yu"

[Ye Qing]: That's right. I'm not forcing you to find him, but I just remembered this and want to talk to someone. Anyway, you two have separated a long time ago, so it's not your duty to give him a hand.

self exile.

"Self-exile." Lingo read it lightly.

Linguo put the phone aside and looked out the window.

He touched the scar on his wrist, a slightly raised scar that no longer hurt.

After a long time, he stood up and found an iron box in the closet.

This iron box was the only thing he brought back from abroad, and it was originally a box of chocolates.

Du Yu bought him the chocolate, but unfortunately he didn't eat a single bite. Strange to say, he got a stomachache every time he ate the chocolate, and Du Yu ate the last box of chocolate.

When he first started using the box, he could smell the sweet chocolate when he opened the lid, but now it's gone.

He sat cross-legged on the ground and opened the box.

The box was full of letters, one after another, recording Lin Guo's failure to save himself, and also carrying Lin Guo's sincere and heavy love for Gu Chang'an.

"Chang'an: I bought new ink today. Is it good? I think it looks good. Look, there is glittering powder. It's so beautiful. I went to buy coffee this morning. The girl smiled sweetly and said that I Handsome, haha, she hasn’t seen you before, if she had seen you, she wouldn’t say I’m handsome, yes, look at the photos you posted, the environment of F University is really nice, and you still look so good when you take pictures… ..."

"Chang'an: I miss you so much. I really envy my elder brother and sister Xu Xu. If only I were a girl, how can there be so many troubles, don't you think? In fact, domestic and foreign countries are nothing to me. The difference, I am just a person everywhere, it is difficult to breathe, it is difficult to integrate, I miss you so much, when I am with you is the happiest time in my life, it is a real feeling of happiness. Breathing is smooth. You Miss me? Forget it, as long as you can live happily, you must have a good life..."

"Chang'an: I met a boy named Du Yu. He is very handsome and looks cool, but I think he is a kid. He has a lot of homework today and misses you."

"Chang'an: Look, the more I write your name, the better it looks. Are you happy today?"

"Chang'an: I moved today and lived with Du Yu. It turns out that Du Yu is Du Yan's younger brother. Do you remember Du Yan? When we went to the movies in our freshman year, you said that you are the second most handsome in the world, and Si Yi is the first. The one in Si Yi was played by Du Yan, and..."

"Chang'an: I ate a very delicious egg tart today. Du Yu bought it. I'll go see if his house has any other delicious ones tomorrow."

"Chang'an: I'm broadcasting live today! Is the song you sang today nice? Oh, I miss you so much."

"Chang'an: You've lost weight, don't ask me how I know, I can tell you've lost weight just by looking at your shadow. Chang'an, I miss you."

"Chang'an: I met a Japanese boy at school. His eyes and nose resembled yours, so we left each other's phone calls. I miss you so much."

……

"Chang'an: I saw the video you posted today. Did you drink too much? Don't panic, you must have drunk a lot, right? Is there something unhappy? Is it something in school? Chang'an, don't cry Yes, you didn’t do anything wrong, it’s my fault, I myself, I can’t integrate into this world, I can’t hold you back, you are like a god, Chang’an, I miss you so much every day.”

"Chang'an: Insomnia has become more and more serious recently, but don't worry, I am also an adult man, and I am very strong. In fact, insomnia is also beneficial, and I have a lot of time to do things..."

"Chang'an: You haven't posted on Weibo for a long time. Do you have a lot of things to do after graduation, are you busy? You are so good, you must be able to handle it easily. Today is also a day I miss you."

"Chang'an: The actor said he wanted to bring me into the circle, but I refused. Chang'an, I love you, you are my medicine. I have been ill for so long, and I have been relying on you to continue my life, but the medicine will be finished sooner or later." That day, maybe it’s today? Don’t blame me for being okay, just be selfish this time, I really can’t hold it anymore, Chang’an, the only thing I regret is that I don’t know if you are doing well, Chang’an, I miss you so much, but It's useless, I really tried hard."

"Chang'an: Today is January 2018, 1, New Year's Day. It's been a long time since I wrote to you last time. It's funny to say that after making three-handed preparations, I still didn't die. Maybe God didn't want to let me go so easily. Right? How are you doing? I don't dare to miss you..."

"Chang'an: I'm going back to China. Do you think we'll meet? Will it be awkward? I want to see you, but I'm a little afraid of seeing you. I hope you're happy. I probably... won't write any more."

Lin Guo covered his hot eye sockets with his palm. After a while, he put the letter into the box, put it away, and thumped downstairs.

Mom is still cooking.

Lin Guo supported the glass door of the kitchen, "Mom...Gu Changan, how long has it been since you came back?"

Qin Shu stopped stirring for a moment, but it was only for a moment. She looked a little surprised, and seemed to have expected that Linguo would come to ask her.

"It's been a long time. It seems that I haven't come back since I was admitted to graduate school. It's been more than three years."

"Then..." Lin Guo said with difficulty, "How is Aunt Yan?"

Qin Shu put the dishes on the plate, "It's okay, I'll take you to see her someday when I'm free?"

"No, no." Lingo shook his head, "It's better to say goodbye."

Ling Guo put the dishes on the table, hesitated for a long time, but was still picking up the chopsticks, then lowered her head and said, "Mom, I want to find him."

Qin Shu didn't seem surprised at all, "Well, I have to bring someone back to celebrate the New Year next year."

"Well, don't tell brother..."

Qin Shu said: "Pay attention to your body. If others didn't find it, you fell down first."

"I know."

Lingo nodded.

Changan, let me go find you, okay?

I'll take you home, okay?