Chang'an fruit is not sweet

Lin Guo came back with a large plastic bag of vegetables. The staff from the store downstairs helped move the mineral water into the house. The dollar slipped into his hand.

The employee looked young, with a baby face and a cute smile.I guess he was very moved. Lin Guo felt that the loss was ten yuan. If it was 100 yuan, the child would already be crying.

He kept saying thank you, and before closing the door, he said brother, next time you want to deliver something, you can come to me, I am very enthusiastic.

"Have you made any money, you are so generous." Gu Changan moved the water to the side of the refrigerator, cut open the button with a knife, took out a few bottles and put them in the refrigerator.

"Is ten yuan too generous?" Lin Guo carried the vegetables into the kitchen.

"Ten yuan today and ten yuan tomorrow, I'll see how you live in the future, you still study economics." Gu Changan said with a smile.

"No, there's not much time left." Lingo said.

Gu Changan's face suddenly changed, "What are you talking about?"

Lin Guo was stunned, and said with a smile: "I said that after working for a while, I realized that earning money is not easy, so I won't give it. What do you think?"

Gu Changan shook his head.

Lingo looked out from the kitchen, "Where's Auntie?"

"I said I'm going to sleep for a while when I'm tired, and I'm lying in the hut." Gu Changan took the plastic bag, "Ah, cucumbers, persimmons, potatoes..."

"Ah, the hut? What did you say?" Linguo asked.

"Just say it's my room. You can't say that it's the guest room. I'll sleep with you all the time, right?" Gu Changan said.

Lingo nodded, and asked with a smile, "Shall I help you?"

Gu Changan pushed him lightly, "Go out and do what you like, don't disturb Chef Ben."

Ling Guo giggled, "Hurry up, I'm hungry."

Ling Guo lay on the sofa and checked Weibo for a while, and then replied to a few comments casually after saying that she was safe.He looked up at his watch, it was almost twelve o'clock, no wonder he was hungry.

He lowered his head to check Weibo.

Suddenly he looked up at the photos again.

Lin Guo put down his phone and ran over. After checking, he found that he hadn't been touched.He breathed a sigh of relief and said that he forgot something.

Gu Changan in the photo was grinning, and he also became happy, humming a little tune and took down the photos at the back, carefully sorted them out and put them in a candy box on the second floor of the bookcase.

Gu Changan's mother couldn't sleep at all, she just didn't know what to do.

The information on the phone made her suddenly not know how to face her son, let alone how to face Lingo.

Those messages included both popular science and seeking help, and some posts were written about homosexual experiences.

She told Gu Changan that she was going to lie down for a while and then closed the door. She leaned on the pillow at the head of the bed and carefully browsed through the information.

Seeing help, for example [I seem to like a male classmate, but I am also a male, am I gay? ], she was as confused as the person who asked for help, so when she saw those posts, her anger became less and less text, replaced by heartache and fear.

[I came out with my family. I used to think that no matter what happened, at least my family would stand behind me and support me. After I came out, I realized that the love of parents also needs a price. Only by making them look good Only children deserve the love of their parents. Maybe now they wish they would never have me. 】

[What did I do wrong?I just want to be myself, with the people I love.Do I have to play a "normal person" to marry a woman and have children?Isn't that a disaster for other girls?Would you rather ruin the lives of two people and want me to be "normal"? 】

【Living is too tiring. It’s been 27 years. I’ve been depressed for 27 years. I can’t take it anymore. I’m really tired. If there is a next life, let me be a normal person too. 】

[Forget it, I've compromised, I've already promised my mother to go on a blind date tomorrow, and if it's a big deal after marriage, I'll just take medicine haha. 】

[If there is no reason to come out of the closet, I don’t think it’s a bad thing to stay in the closet. Anyway, after getting married and having children, I don’t want to play as I want. I know someone who is married and has children, but still lives with her boyfriend. The two of them are as good as a husband and wife. They give their wife and children living expenses on a regular basis, and they live a good life. 】

【My dad beat me up, but in the end he forgave me and said he wanted to meet my boyfriend. I called my boyfriend just now! 】

[I came out to my family with my boyfriend back then, and I was beaten to the hospital. His family forced him to break up with me or they wouldn’t let him go out. He never compromised. After being locked up for a week, he jumped off the building. After so many years I have always regretted that I proposed to come out with my family back then.I have been alone for the past ten years, but sometimes I hate myself for not having the courage to let him go.If there is a next life, please meet me again, I will love you with my life. 】

[I just want to love someone I want to love, but they want to make me into someone they want to see. 】

She is not a stubborn parent. After seeing those words, she felt as if her heart was being choked. Is it the same in Chang'an? She always doubts herself and her parents' love for him, so she never dared to say anything. come out?

Is Changan as scared as that child?

Think you're abnormal, a pervert?

Chang'an...would he also feel that living is depressing?

She really wanted to tell herself to trust Chang'an, as she always said, mom and dad have always been your strongest backing, and then told her son, it's nothing, mom and dad don't object, you are always the pride of mom and dad.

But after thinking about it, Changan hasn't mentioned it yet, is it because I think too much, or they are not serious?

Most of the photos on the second floor are Gu Changan kissing Lin Guo's face. Could it be just a way for them to express their feelings? In fact, they are not in love, but they are just thinking too much?

He's in his early twenties, the time of uncertainty, maybe he thinks he's gay, but he's not?

Or... feel very fresh?

She decided to wait.

Gu Changan quickly prepared four dishes, and he put the dishes on the table. When he entered the room, he saw Ling Guo lying on the sofa and fell asleep. He walked over and stroked Ling Guo's hair.

It seemed that he was exhausted after tossing all night, and he usually didn't take a nap.

"Baby, wake up, we'll finish eating soon." He whispered.

Lin Guo didn't sleep well at first, but he woke up when Gu Changan called him. When he opened his eyes, he saw Gu Changan's face bounced up and hit Gu Changan's chin directly.

"Oh, I'll go, it's very exciting." Gu Chang'an covered his chin with one hand and rubbed Lin Guo's forehead with the other.

"I was scared to death." Lingo shook his head.

"What's wrong?" Gu Changan asked.

"You don't want to die, call me Linguo, Linguo, do you understand!" Linguo said.

"My mom isn't sleeping yet, I can't hear you." Gu Changan said, "I'll call her, you are awake and have eaten."

Gu Changan knocked on the door of the guest room, "Mom, it's time to eat."

No movement.

He knocked twice more, and the inside replied: "Got it!"

Gu Changan's mother rubbed her eyes and cleared her browsing history before getting out of bed.

As soon as she went out, Lingo greeted her with a smile, still the same as before, gentle and kind.

Sudden aphasia, she just nodded in response, unable to say a word.

What tone should I use to speak to this child?

If the two of them were serious, she really couldn't be as close to Linguo as before.

If they were playing around, who was the instigator? Should she feel guilty or angry towards the child?

Before she walked out of the room, she took several deep breaths and told herself over and over again to act as if she didn't know anything, but when she saw the two of them, she couldn't help feeling sour again.

How do you act like you don't know?

Changan, mom knows, I hope you can take the initiative to tell me, I will not beat you, and I will not drive you out of the house, I just hope you can tell mom what you really think.

Do you...do you love Linguo?

Or do you love Linguo?

This child I have known for several years, this Lin Guo whom I like like a son?

When did it start?

If you are in a relationship, can you be sure that you love him, can you be sure that he loves you too?

The meal tasted like chewing wax, but Gu Changan was actually good at cooking, but her mind was in a mess, and she really couldn't devote part of her energy to the sense of taste.

Lin Guo was originally a quiet child, Gu Changan sensed that something was wrong, he tried his best to adjust the atmosphere, but he still couldn't relieve it.

Gu's mother ate a bowl of rice wearily, and she just said nothing to Gu Chang'an's questioning, maybe she was really tired after driving for several hours.

After eating, Gu Changan went to wash the dishes, and Lin Guo took the trash from each room downstairs to throw it away.

Before Linguo went out, she got up from the sofa and walked towards the photo wall.

She twisted it with her hands and found that the second layer of photos was gone.