drowning tide

On the same night, Bogu Hutong Taiguzhai.

"There is no inspection here...Hey, take it easy, don't worry, I'll just come."

A strong young man helped a gray-haired old man into the VIP room.

"Uncle Chen, just sit and watch me check. I'll send you back to my room to rest after I'm done. Is that okay?"

Uncle Chen waved his hands impatiently, and the young worker grinned, "I know, I won't be fussy anymore."

"I'm telling you to get rid of the ink stains quickly, and be careful not to get a taxi later." Uncle Chen tapped his crutch on the ground vigorously, "I asked you if you want to stay here. You don't know what's good and bad, so you insist Don’t blame me for walking in the rain at night.”

"Yes, yes, it's because I don't know what's good."

Uncle Chen has a habit of thoroughly checking and cleaning the store before going to bed, and it has been rain or shine for decades.Usually he was fine, but the problem was in this kind of cloudy and rainy day - when he was in his 20s, his right leg was broken once, and due to medical conditions, he didn't heal completely.The guys who worked in the store were not at ease when they found out, but Uncle Chen was very stubborn and refused to entrust this matter to others. After several collisions, the compromise solution he negotiated was to let a young guy in the store whom he could trust. Stay with him, so that no one will know about bumps and bumps.

"Wait, what is this?"

The young man swept the floor with a vacuum cleaner, and when he was arranging the sofa cushions, something was swept to the ground, making a crisp sound.

"U disk? Uncle Chen, did the guest who came in this morning drop it?" He picked up the gadget, pulled off the cover on one side but didn't see the familiar socket, "Huh? It doesn't seem to be a U disk... What the hell is it? ?”

That seat was occupied by Yi Huai during the day... Uncle Chen's expression changed drastically, "Show it to me."

"Uncle Chen, do you know what this is?"

In his cognition, Uncle Chen is so old that he should know little about electronic equipment.

"If you want to take it, just take it, so less nonsense!"

The young man who was scolded hurriedly passed the thing over, but Uncle Chen took a look at it and folded it into two pieces from the middle.

"Hey, Uncle Chen, what if this belongs to a guest..." Out of the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of Uncle Chen's terribly gloomy face, and he shut up hesitantly, "What's wrong? Did I get into trouble?"

"Don't scream if you don't understand." Uncle Chen stared at the wreckage on the ground, as if seeing a poisonous snake, and said through gritted teeth, "Idiot, this is a bug!"

He had to tell that person quickly that his injured leg hurt badly just as he was about to stand up, and when he fell back down, he slapped the armrest of the sofa hard.

Reporting the old days is just a show, Yi Huai knew that Nie Xicheng was inside, and was waiting to set them up, but they just fell for it so easily.

—— People will change when they live, but there are good and bad.

What Yi Huai said in the morning suddenly echoed in Uncle Chen's mind.

What the hell is he trying to do?Uncle Chen, who was very confident in the answer, was not so sure now.

·

The rain continued to fall without end, and the sound of the rain filled the tiny gaps in the silence.

In the quiet ward, Nie Xicheng put the things in his hands on the cabinet and sat down in Fei Chuan's previous position.

His eyes drifted aimlessly for a while, and finally fell on the unconscious figure.He really hasn't looked at this person carefully for too long, so long that he doesn't know if his past memory is still accurate.

Yi Huai slept soundly, her soft eyelashes trembling slightly, her breathing rate was even and long, and the skylight passed through the dim dark blue rain curtain, casting circles of flowing ripples on her fair skin, like a quiet white rose.

The outline of the facial features faded away from the immature childishness, from a beautiful boy whose gender was blurred to a handsome young man, but some things have been preserved, such as demeanor and eyes.Instinctively, Nie Xi wanted to straighten his messy sleeping hair as he did in the past, but stopped at the last moment, and slowly exhaled a bit annoyed.

After becoming Yin Yuan, he had a very difficult period: most of the Chinese gangs in San Francisco wanted his life, and in order not to reveal his flaws, he could not contact the people who helped him too frequently.Lacking sleep and rest for a long time, his spirit and body were overdrawn to the limit under the high pressure of the crisis. On the verge of madness, whenever he had a moment to catch his breath, what awaited him was the same bizarre dream.

Standing in the middle of the mourning hall, he could see the pale photos of his death when he looked up. It was pitch black in all directions, and he couldn't see a single person, only sharp and sarcastic words came at him like an overwhelming sea, no matter how desperately he stretched out his hand, he couldn't escape The fate of being drowned.

When he was on the brink of death, countless afterimages flew before his eyes, flying in all directions like broken pieces of a mirror, irreparable.

The final scene was fixed on a certain young man with his head hanging down. He tried his best to reach out his hand to hold him, even most of his body was suspended in the air, but that little distance seemed to be between life and death, and it would never be crossed no matter what.

It was the first time he yelled out.

——Please, don't leave me, I really only have you.

The strong desire shocked the will of the world, just like someone threw a stone into the water, the surrounding scene shook violently, turned into indistinguishable countless noisy colors, and then recomposed into another picture.

In the humid wind and the slightly hot sun, he sat side by side with someone on the soft green grass, and beside him were gorgeous flowers that were as red as blood.

The man turned his face, and the only thing he remembered was the beautiful outline and light red lips. In the next second, their foreheads touched each other, and they kissed each other tenderly.He forgot who took the initiative, maybe it was himself or this person, but it didn't matter, because he wouldn't let go of his hand again.This is not enough, this is far from enough, even he himself does not know that there is such a violent desire hidden in his body: they are surrounded by thorny branches, in the bright red flowers, he presses this person to copulate like a wild beast , unable to distinguish whether the bright red color on the pale skin like ice and snow is the juice from the crushed flowers or the blood from the stab wounds, all they have is one thought, that is to let every inch of this person's skin be stained with his own scent, let him There is no way to leave myself anymore.

So many details were like conclusive evidence that he couldn't explain this scene with pure sexual fantasies after waking up. He realized that he actually knew who this vague-faced young man was-this was a long-term experience belonging to his imaginary world. The grown-up Yi Huai.

Even after he escaped from that hell-like life, the illusion still intensified, invading from the virtual dream reality to the boundary of reality, making him walk on the verge of losing control all day long.

In order to cut off his almost blasphemous thoughts, he asked someone to buy a cemetery for himself, carved the tombstone with his own hands and dug the tomb, but what was buried in the end was only an empty coffin.The empty tomb was his last remembrance, and since the day of his burial, with his hallucinations of madness and depravity cut off from his world, he felt healed, or so it seemed.

Until more than half a month ago, under the afterglow of the setting sun, the undefended posture of that handsome young man suddenly revived the ashes in his heart.Every time he gets close to him, he has to grit his teeth to resist the temptation of the demon.

Yi Huai is special to him, and it is precisely because he is special that he must be cautious in everything related to him.

— do I love him?Can guilt and pain be transformed into true love?

When he heard someone calling his name, he woke up suddenly, and met Yi Huai with puzzled eyes.

·

Yi Huai, who just woke up, didn't have a clear mind, blinked his eyes, thinking that he might still be dreaming, "Is it really you?"

"Well, it's me."

After confirming that the person in front of him is real, Yi Huai's eyes lit up, "Why are you here?"

Nie Xicheng didn't miss that bit of joy, and thought bitterly, are you so happy to see me? If you knew what I was thinking, would you still be so happy?But he didn't show these emotions, "Come here if you can't sleep."

"Your injury..." Yi Huai's eyes fell on his bandaged arm, "Does it still hurt?"

"It's okay, it's just a minor injury." Nie Xicheng quietly hid his arms in the shadow of his body, so as not to make him think too much, "It's not yet dawn, you go to sleep."

"Then you left." Without waiting for a rebuttal, Yi Huai couldn't tell which was more lost or sad, and slightly closed his eyes, "I've had enough sleep."

It was easy to get sleepy while lying down, and he struggled to sit up. The infusion tube was pulled out early, so it wouldn't cause blood on the back of his hand, but he didn't know what was wrong on the way, and the place where he hit it before started throbbing again.

He frowned in pain, and wanted to cover his forehead but was afraid that Nie Xicheng, who was beside him, would find out that the back of his head was supported by warm and strong palms when he was in a dilemma.

From the back of the head to the vest, most of the weight of the body is on another person's hands. Yi Huai is still talking stiffly, "I'm fine, I'm really fine, my neck is just stiff after sleeping too long."

"Okay, okay, I know you're not in pain, don't worry, take your time." Nie Xicheng sighed again and again, but his hand movements were extremely gentle, and he took a pillow from the family's bed next to him and put it behind him, "I call the doctor Come to check... If you refuse, I will leave now."

"..."

Yi Huai, who had been poked into a weak spot, stared at him without speaking, and suddenly his eyes fell on something on the cabinet, and his dull thinking started to work again, "Where's Fei Chuan? Have you met Luo Yi?"

Nie Xicheng pressed the call bell on the bedside, "I met him in the corridor, and he asked me to bring this to you. I'll ask the doctor later if you can eat now."

"I'm not hungry...he didn't do anything to you, did he?"

"No." Nie Xicheng replied briefly, skipping the twists and turns in the middle.

The high-end wards are good at this point, and the interval between the bell ringing and the doctor coming in is only one or two minutes.

"Doctor, is it normal to have a headache now?"

"I……"

Yi Huai wanted to defend himself, but under Nie Xicheng's threatening eyes, he shut his mouth sullenly and asked the doctor to give him a routine examination.

"I'll know if it's normal or not."

The heart rate and body temperature were normal. The doctor lowered his head and scribbled on the medical record, and then asked a series of questions to confirm his logical thinking, "Do you remember your name? How old is this year? What is the date? What is this over here?" people."

"Yi Huai, 24 years old, July 29th." As for the last question, Yi Huai hesitated for a long time, "Friend... right?"

The doctor looked suspiciously between the two of them, and finally landed on Nie Xicheng, "Some sequelae of concussion are not immediately manifested, such as memory confusion, slurred speech, aphasia, etc. He was in serious condition when he was sent. So family members should be extra vigilant, after all, a brain injury is not a trivial matter. Are you really friends?"

Nie Xicheng avoided the doctor's gaze in a rare embarrassment, "Yes, it's...a friend."

The doctor felt that the warning had already been warned, and no one would be serious about making jokes, "Is it true that my friends are still so hesitant? Forget it, let's just believe what you are telling the truth." He looked at Yi Huai again, "Remember what his name is? ?"

"...Yin Yuan."

Nie Xicheng nodded in confirmation, and the doctor hummed in satisfaction.

"It doesn't look like a big problem. After four hours, remember to ask him the same question as I did just now. The span between the questions should be as wide as possible. If you can't answer it, there is a problem."

The doctor explained a lot of things in bits and pieces, such as not to eat too much and too much oil, try not to shake your head, etc. Nie Xicheng listened as carefully as the students who were being lectured by the teacher.

Before leaving, the doctor quietly waved to Nie Xicheng, signaling him to come out and speak.

Nie Xicheng touched Yi Huai's forehead reassuringly, and followed the doctor to the outside of the ward.

"Looking at his appearance, he won't be able to sleep for a while. No matter what he says later, you should follow him as much as possible and don't bother with him. After all, this disease will make people lose part of their logical thinking ability and highlight the moody part. In short It just won’t be the usual him.”

Nie Xicheng nodded, "I know, I won't provoke him."

After sending the doctor away, Nie Xicheng returned to the ward and met Yi Huai's eyes staring at the door. The obvious anxiety and dependence caused his heart to be stabbed and throbbing.

"I will definitely tell you before I leave." He rushed ahead of Yi Huai and said, but he didn't know who he was trying to comfort, "Don't worry."

Yi Huai stared at him, he was a little uncomfortable being looked at, but he didn't turn his eyes around.

"I'm sorry." Yi Huai's voice was as thin as a gnat, "I'm sorry."

Nie Xicheng didn't realize what he was saying at all, "Why?"

"Without me, Luo Yi wouldn't have discovered your identity so quickly."

Yi Huai was the first to cut off the line of sight communication. He looked at the rain-covered glass, "Did I mess things up again?"

"It has nothing to do with you." Nie Xicheng couldn't tell what he was anxious about, "You did nothing wrong, so you don't need to apologize. If you have to say something, I am the one who should apologize."

"what?"

"I didn't expect to involve you." Nie Xicheng sat down, hesitated for a while, but still didn't hold Yi Huai's hanging hand.

He had read the message Uncle Chen sent him, and strangely, he didn't feel panic or fear at all, instead he blamed himself more and more.

If he could be more determined, then this person wouldn't be lying here in such pain now.

"I've always been the one who brought you misfortune, from the past to the present. I'm sorry, Ah Huai."

"No, it's not like that." Yi Huai looked a little panicked, "It's not like that, I don't think you're at fault."

The rain gradually decreased in the second half of the night, but the night was still endless.

"You said that you have changed a lot, become unscrupulous, and will use everything that can be used, then you can also use me, use me to keep you alive, I won't..." His mind was in a mess, and he didn't know What are you talking about, "Even if I die..."

No matter what the doctor said, death is an eternal silence, and the strings in Nie Xicheng's mind snapped.

"Stop," he said coldly.

Yi Huai closed his mouth and lowered his head silently, "I'm sorry, did I make you angry?"

The temptation and panic in his tone made Nie Xicheng extremely painful.

What Luo Yi said before was like a thorn in his heart, he took a deep breath and suppressed his anger - the person who was wrong was himself, he could not blame Yi Huai.

"I'm very angry." Nie Xicheng noticed Yi Huai trembling violently, "I'm angry with myself, I hope you can cherish yourself more."

He always thought that his desire was just a remembrance of his lost first love-because he never got it, he couldn't forget it.However, the current Yi Huai still makes him so eager.This longing is like a thread of substance, entangled in every inch of his flesh and bones, tightening his beating heart, making him feel this pain all the time.

Cautiousness and reason melted at this moment, he put one knee on the edge of the bed, leaned forward, and clasped the man's jaw and slowly pulled him towards himself without hesitation.

"You are more important than anyone to me."

The soft touch fell on Yi Huai's lips, so gentle that it was almost pious.

Like tears falling in the rain, this kiss will also dissipate in the twilight of dawn without leaving any trace.

"I've wanted to do this for a long time."

All this is real, sweeter and more tempting than the wild fantasy of the verge of falling. If he has been on the verge of falling before, then now he has succumbed to fate.

He stroked the soft skin under Yi Huai's eyes, "You can reject me, you can find me disgusting..." He smiled bitterly, "Don't sacrifice anything for me anymore."