[Qin Shimingyue] On the development of love through improper households

This is the second time I've been in the inner room tonight.

Zhang Liang was rearranging the bandage on his wrist, the previous wound had opened again, and under the dim oil lamp, I saw a deep red patch.

When he saw me coming in, he stopped what he was doing, and asked, "Ah Zhen, what's the matter with you?"

I moved my lips and said with difficulty: "Sorry, I accidentally spilled that bowl of blood just now."

As soon as the words fell, I saw him undo the bandage on his wrist again, and said softly: "Fortunately, the wound hasn't healed, and it happened to be able to bleed again, saving a knife... This is also my luck."

I took half a bowl of blood and was about to leave when he said again, "Ah Zhen, I want to go to the backyard."

"Okay." I nodded and said, "I have already sent someone to seal the backyard, no one will see you, if you need anything, just go and talk to Snow Song."

"Thank you." After he finished speaking, he began to lower his head and wrap the bandage again. Since he could only use his right hand, it was very difficult to move.

I put down the bowl in my hand and said to him, "Let me help you."

When I was a teenager, after I was tortured by the General's Mansion, the wounds were basically treated by Mo Ya and Wan Ge.The blood coagulation pill specially made by the General’s Mansion that Mo Crow used has been lost, and after Wan Ge wraps the bandage for me, he always tie a small knot at the end, shaped like a dancing butterfly.

That young man is actually very gentle, so gentle that every movement is done carefully, but I never took it to heart, and until now, I have never had the opportunity to say thank you to him.

No more chance.

After the passage of time, most of what time leaves us is remorse and regret.

"Okay." I also imitated Wan Ge's technique, tied a small bow on Zhang Liang's wrist, and asked, "How is it? Doesn't this knot look good?"

Zhang Liang smiled and said, "I've seen this knot before."

"Oh?"

"The end of Sword Saint Gai Nie's hair is also tied with such a knot."

"...He knows how to be cute."

Zhang Liang nodded: "Ah Zhen, thank you."

"I'm busy, you should have a good rest."

After going out from the inner room, I saw Long Qi who was hugging him.Long Qi looked worried, and hurriedly asked: "Is he all right?"

I didn't answer Long Qi's words, and looked at Buyi who had gradually stopped crying. He was still staring at me, his eyes were full of resistance, and he seemed to be resenting the slap. A child who can hold a grudge.

I squeezed out a smile, and approached him with a small bowl: "Don't doubt me, come on, be obedient, drink it up."

No doubt seeing me approaching, he desperately waved his little hands in protest, almost overturning the bowl in my hand again.My eyes moved slightly, just as I was about to raise my hand, Long Qi quickly took a big step back with no doubt.

"Long Qi, you put him down."

"Ah Zhen!"

"He is one year old and should be learning to walk."

"Busu is sick!" Long Qi complained while comforting Busu, "I know you are worried, but Busu is just a child, he still doesn't understand anything."

"If he doesn't understand, I'll teach him." I said coldly, "If he doesn't understand, just beat him."

"How is this possible! I absolutely do not allow you to educate him in this way."

"My father taught me the same way. If you don't listen, you will hit me. This is the most effective and direct way. Long Qi, let me say it again, put him down."

"Ah Zhen, don't be angry. You give me the medicine, and I'll coax him to drink it. I don't doubt that he will—"

"He has already knocked over a bowl. He is young. He doesn't know Zhang Liang's current situation, but what about us? Are we only one year old?" I closed my eyes and sighed softly, "...His body has already It's getting worse."

Perhaps, there is no way to last nine days of No.40.

"My health is fine."

"Zhang—" I turned sideways and looked at Zhang Liang who was walking slowly.

He looks like this, how can he be called very good?

Obviously already... How could he become like this?

Before, a long time ago, he was very healthy, he could dance the sword, he could play the flute, he always had a calm smile on his face, and he always looked confident, but this time, I Did not see his Ling Xu.

Could it be that he was so downcast that he became a sword? I heard that Liu Bang was very poor.

"Doesn't Buyi refuse to drink the medicine?" Zhang Liang asked.

"Buji accidentally knocked over the bowl, Ah Zhen wanted to hit him." Long Qi said dissatisfiedly, "I told you that Buji is just a kid, he still doesn't understand anything."

"Indeed." Zhang Liang nodded in agreement, "Be patient with children."

"...Oh, be patient." I sneered, looked at Busu who was staring at me, and said through gritted teeth, "If I had to choose again, I would choose not to have you. If I had known this, it would be best not to have you. I've had enough, really, without you..."

He wouldn't be here without you!

"Ji Zhen!" Zhang Liang suddenly yelled, "You are too much! You are his mother, you should be more patient than anyone else. How dare you say such cold-blooded and heartless words!"

...I haven't seen him angry for a long time.

Suddenly feel wronged.

I haven't had this feeling for a long time.

Zhang Liang, it's not that I'm impatient, it's not that I'm cold-blooded and ruthless.

It's because, if you continue like this, you will die.

You will die.

you will die.

……

Do you understand?

In my memory, you have never been in such a weak state.You should have a better life than me, and you should be fat and white, like a steamed bun.But look at you now, you have a pickle-like face.

——I hate pickles the most.

Thinking of this, my nose started to feel sore again, I handed the bowl to Zhang Liang, and said sullenly: "Hey, you have a good brain, and you always have a lot of ideas... I want to go out and relax."

Pengcheng is the capital of Western Chu. It is very prosperous and beautiful, although it does not welcome me.

I thought of Xinzheng, and then of Xianyang.They are also very prosperous, although now things are different, no, things are different.

Xiang Yu's army almost ruined the entire Xianyang beyond recognition. It is hard for me to imagine that it was once a solemn and rigorous place. It was the capital of Qin State where I lived for two years.

In the end, it didn't even have a name.

Always, in a blink of an eye.

I bought a lot of sugar cakes at the corner of West Street, and then I sat on the stone steps and ate them in big mouthfuls. As I was eating, I choked.

I swallowed desperately, but I still couldn't get the point.A passer-by, seeing my embarrassment, wondered, "Isn't that the wife of General Sima Long's family?"

Then someone immediately interrupted him and said, "What nonsense are you talking about? If it's Mrs. Long, then there must be General Long next to her."

"makes sense."

I continued to swallow, but felt more and more uncomfortable. Just when I thought I was about to choke to death, someone next to me handed me a bowl of bean curd.

I quickly took it, took a big gulp without thinking about it, and then swallowed the sugar cake that choked in my throat.I raised my head and said with a smile, "Thank you, benefactor."

After seeing the appearance of my benefactor clearly, my smile froze on my face.

"If I put rat poison in this bowl of bean curd, you'd be a corpse now."

"Really?" I was stunned for a moment, and then I buried my head and drank the bean curd.

"You are very assured of me." She said again, "Don't forget, I poisoned you."

"...Then why did it become Hehuansan?"

"That's not to blame him!" Shuzi glared bitterly at Longyang Jun who was standing not far from us, and the latter quickly turned his face and looked up at the sky.

"Sookie, why are you still here? Aren't you going back to Xinzheng to deal with the funeral?" I put down the bowl, wiped the corner of my mouth and said, "Are you going to turn Zhang Ping into a mummy and let him blow away in the wind?"

"Ji Zhen, you are not allowed to be disrespectful to Uncle Zhang."

"He didn't even respect me."

"You are a junior, he is an elder."

"...Come on, don't drag me with that dead old man."

"Ji Zhen." Shuzi took a deep breath, suppressed her anger, and said slowly, "Long Qi told me everything about you and Zhang Liang, and about Zhang Buyi."

"...he," I said softly with a long and lonely expression in front of my eyes, "...he is really idle."

"I have never seen such an idiot like him, who is so happy to raise a son for others after being cuckolded." Shuzi angrily said, "If I were him, I would have kicked you and Zhang Buyi out of the house long ago, and let you Good food and good housing, and even—covering for a rival in love, come and explain to me—”

"...It's a good thing you're not him." I tilted my head to look at Shuzi, and said again, "It's a good thing you're not him."

"Ji Zhen, you are very proud!" Shuzi looked at me sideways, "I have given up on Zhang Liang now, so you are very proud, right?"

"..."

"You are proud of yourself, why don't you even have a little bit of defense?"

"I have."

"you have not!"

"..."

"You didn't, you didn't! Otherwise, how could Zhang Buyi be poisoned by the father-eating Gu? Wouldn't this be Zhang Liang's life?"

"I never thought that he would be hit by a Gu, let alone this kind of Gu."

I have never heard of the Gu of eating father.

"You are so proud, that's why people think you are annoying. In the final analysis, it's all your fault. You didn't protect your son well, which hurt Zhang Liang, so you can't find an excuse for your behavior."

For her words, I really want to refute, really want to refute, but I am speechless.

I hate people who play Gu, and I hate myself even more for being incompetent.Painful to think about it, but the more I think about it, the more painful it becomes.

"That's enough, Shuishu." Jun Longyang stopped him, "I brought you to Zhang Liang, not to quarrel with Ji Zhen. If I didn't owe you favors, I wouldn't take care of your affairs. "

"Humph."

"Ji is really wrong, and it's not your turn to educate him." Lord Longyang rubbed his forehead, "I had something to tell Zhang Liang, but now I dare not tell him, for fear that his physical condition will not be able to bear the blow. .”

"What's the matter?" I asked hastily.

"Let's talk about it next time." Jun Longyang smiled lightly, "...it won't be a good thing anyway."

"..."

"Ji Zhen, let me tell you another thing."

"What's the matter?"

"After Xiang Yu conquered Xianyang, he robbed many precious treasures. I remember that there is a plant of Emperor's Blood Grass, which should have been taken by Fan Zeng. You can ask him for it."

"Oh?"

"For people with severe blood loss, it will have a miraculous effect."

Sima House.

Long Qi sat by the bed, and when he saw me push the door open, he whispered: "I have already taken the medicine, I am sleeping now."

"How did you do it?" I hesitated and asked softly.

"I have to ask Zhang Liang." Long Qie sighed softly, "Sure enough, my father's coaxing works, but I don't work anyway."

He lowered his eyes, staring deeply at Busu who was asleep on the bed, the smile on his lips seemed extremely forced.

I patted him on the shoulder and comforted me: "You have taken care of Buyi and me for so long, you are very useful."

He raised his face: "Really?"

I nodded affirmatively: "Small and most useful."

"Ah Zhen, let's go to the backyard and have a look... Zhang Liang is there, I'll go to the front and make some medicine. He had his blood taken twice today, so I guess he needs to get more medicine."

"Okay." I nodded, recalled what Lord Longyang said, and said, "Xiao Qi, I heard that Fan Zeng has a plant of Emperor's Blood Grass, which is helpful for Zhang Liang's recovery, can you—"

"I understand, leave it to me."

He is like this, never refuse my request.

Even to the point of death, he never refused.

I tiptoed and tiptoed to the backyard. After walking a few steps, I saw Zhang Liang not far away.

I didn't say anything.

Today the sun is so bright during the day, and at night, the moonlight is also so bright.

My hearing is very sensitive.

I heard him say, he said, the child is not filial, please don't blame the father, he will go home to apologize someday.

——From Pengcheng to Xinzheng, the round-trip distance is very long. Even if you take the extremely fast white phoenix, it will take at least two days. Undoubted illness cannot be interrupted for a day. Zhang Liang knows better than anyone else, so he did it So she resolutely rejected Shuzi.

He didn't explain anything, not because he didn't care, but because he didn't want to cause trouble to Long Qie and me.Come to think of it, over the years, he must have been misunderstood from time to time.

He was kneeling, facing Xinzheng.

I saw him kowtow three times in a row, and when he looked up again, two lines of tears had flowed down his thin face.

The moonlight was bright, making his face as pale as snow, with a desolate expression.

...he has no father.

He also has no father.

The Zhang family, his last relative, is gone.

There are seven sufferings in life, birth, old age, sickness, death, resentment and hatred, separation from love...you can't ask for it.