[Qin Shimingyue] On the development of love through improper households

On the third day of February in my memory, the sun was so bright that the peach blossoms on the branches were almost melted.

In such sunlight, what cannot be hidden is joyful anticipation.

But he told me that it was raining from the third day to the sixth day of February.

"Ash, we need to talk."

"...not good." I shook my head and said lightly, "If you are right, I am a fool. If I am right, you are a liar. No matter what, the ending is not what I want, what I missed is I missed it. Your Confucius once said that the dead are like husbands."

Time is like flowing water, it never returns.

Don't chase after the past, it's a pity to come.

"Take care, old Zhang."

I stood up and walked towards the door. Before I reached the door, he said again: "You are running away."

"escape?"

"You're blaming me for not taking Xiang Yu's side."

"...The words are too obvious, it's time to end the friendship." I sighed, "This is not the ending I want."

"Ah Zhen, do you still remember the Battle of Changping?"

The Battle of Changping was a strategic decisive battle between Qin and Zhao.

Zhao Wang was caught by Qin's divorce plan, and he abandoned Lian Po, and appointed Zhao Kuo, who was on paper, causing Zhao's army to run out of food and grass for more than [-] days, and finally collapsed completely, and Qin finally won the war.

The Zhao army was defeated, and the Qin army won and occupied Changping, killing 40 surrendered soldiers from Zhao.

"What are you talking about for so long?"

"In the Battle of Changping, Qin Guokeng killed 40 surrendered troops from Zhao State. In this Battle of Julu, the Chu Army pitted and killed 20 surrendered troops from Qin State."

"I know." I paused, and continued, "King Xiang was worried about surrendering troops and rioting, and he couldn't guarantee that he could subdue them, so he murdered them in Xin'an."

"Among the 20 surrendered soldiers, there were young youths and gray-haired old men. Many of them had originally harmonious and beautiful families. The war took their lives and destroyed so many families. It can no longer be complete. Xiang Yu's behavior is no different from that of King Qin."

"If the riots cannot be stopped, then the Chu army will fall short."

Who wants to see bloodshed and death?

On the battlefield, there is no kindness.Gunpowder smoke fills the air, not cooking smoke curling up.

"Xiang Yu's hatred for the Qin State has extended to the people of the Qin State. The Chu army entered Xianyang all the way, burning, killing and looting, committing all kinds of crimes. Those victims, what crimes did they commit?"

"..." I was speechless, I could see Chu Jun's actions, but I couldn't stop them.They poured their hatred of subjugation on ordinary Qin people.

Blood feud, hatred of subjugation, repeats itself again and again.

"If the world is owned by the Xiang family, it will still be in dire straits. The people are the most important, the community is second, and the king is the least. The vitality of the people is the most precious and important. Only in this way can there be a country and a king. The emperor is not benevolent , do not protect the world; princes are not benevolent, do not protect the country."

"Then Liu Bang is your Mingjun?" I said coldly.

"Pei Gong understands righteousness, makes quick decisions, can bend and stretch, uses talents only, and has a heart of benevolence." Zhang Liang paused, and asked slowly, "Ah Zhen, you don't want to see a country full of benevolence, where the people live and work in peace and contentment. ?"

"I didn't see that Liu Bang has so many advantages. I only know that what I saw was a scumbag who was greedy for life and afraid of death, and could kneel in front of young people who were dozens of years younger than him and cry for his father and mother."

"Those who achieve great things must not stick to small details, and can bend and stretch. At the end of the Spring and Autumn Period, Goujian, the king of Yue, was defeated by Fuchai of Wu.

"...Ovary." I stretched out my hand and rubbed my sore eyes, and said softly, "A good bird chooses a tree to live in. You have your pride, and I have my choice. Since ancient times, the way is different, and we don't seek each other. We are our own masters, you don't need to say more."

"...I understand." A desolate smile hung on Zhang Liang's lips, and the space between us returned to silence, so that the sound of the rain became more and more clear.

When I pushed the door out, a gust of cool wind hit my face, it was wet and a little cold.I didn't look back, and waved my hand behind me: "It's cool, put on more clothes."

I'm still a little unaccustomed to it, and the obsession I've had for so many years has just been broken.

In the face of state affairs and world affairs, the love of children really has no weight.

After that day, Zhang Liang and I lived together under the same roof whether it was intentional or not, but we never met again.The only thing that remains the same is that he asks Yinxue to bring me sugar cakes and bean curds every day.

It's just that I don't know what to eat.

I went out to visit flower houses, went out to cause trouble, no matter how much I did, Zhang Liang never appeared behind me again.

I understand that he is also tired.

A month passed quickly, and Fan Zeng Feige sent a message asking me to go back to Pengcheng.Just before I was about to leave, Shui Shuzi approached me.

This girl has always hated me, but I never hated her.

If I did it all over again, I would choose to fulfill her and Zhang Liang, instead of causing all three to struggle in pain for many years.

"I thought it was rat poison, but I didn't expect it to be Hehuansan." Shuzi looked at me resentfully, with tears of anger in her eyes, "I made you perfect."

I handed over a brocade handkerchief, but she didn't take it, she just bit her lip until bright red blood dripped down the corner of her lip.

"Doing that kind of thing with a man doesn't mean anything. What era is this now, besides, Zhang Liang and I were just accidental this time."

"You talk nonsense, you must be very proud in your heart, you finally got a good brother."

"In your heart, am I such a sleazy person?" Although I did have the idea of ​​forcing Zhang Liang's overlord back then, I was persuaded by Bai Feng, who said that Zhang Liang was defiled by me, It may be a death sentence.

"You are, you are, your father is an idiot, and you are his daughter. Like a father, like a son, you are no better!"

Like a father, like a son... Oh, this is also a famous Confucian saying.

"Okay, since you think so in your heart, do you want me to prescribe some medicine for Zhang Liang and fulfill your wish?" I was just talking nonsense, but Shuzi's eyes suddenly appeared A ray of incredible joy.

She has always been like a peach blossom tree, growing proud from the soil, bathed in the sun, smart and tall.

Did the years change her, or the unrequited love changed her?

I heard the branches outside the window creaking and aging rapidly, so fragile that they seemed to be blown away by the wind.

"Are you really willing to help me?"

"Yeah." I nodded, my heart was calm.

"You...you won't regret it?" Shuzi's eyes showed some doubts, but more of them were faint expectations.

"will not."

"Why?" Shuzi asked suspiciously, "You would rather die by Ling Xu's sword than Zhang Liang marry me, why are you willing to help me now?"

"You really want to know?"

"……Yes."

"I used to be from the General's Mansion, but he is from the Xiangguo Mansion. Now he is from the Han Camp, and I am from the Chu Camp. Whether it was before or now, it will never be the same way. The way is different, and we don't do each other. Mou." I turned my head, my footsteps were still leisurely, "Shuzi, if the one you sacrifice is incomplete, would you still want it?"

Zheng Yin asked Wan Ge a thousand times about this sentence, but Wan Ge never responded to him.

Going back to the room, pushing open the door, a faint fragrance greets you.

It is the incense of wintersweet.

Yinxue brought me an exquisite food box, opened it, and found steaming sugar cakes and tofu curds.

I looked at Yin Xue's greedy look, and said with a smile, "Do you want to eat?"

"Yinxue doesn't dare, Mr. Zhang Liang personally sent it to the young master...Mr. Zhang Liang is really kind to the young master."

I suddenly lost my appetite.

Zhang Liang was indeed very kind to me, extremely kind.

The tea he handed me was always at a suitable temperature, neither too cold nor too hot; he knew that I liked the incense of wintersweet, so he brought me the sweet cakes and bean curds that I liked.

Just ah.

...just overdue.

A lot of things have been thrown in the cracks of time. If it weren't for the hard work of these years that taught me to look back, I might not be able to discover those neglected details.I hated myself for being determined to go my own way at the time, and only compromised when I stumbled along the way. Fate is something I cannot overcome.

The ups and downs of fate washed away the youthful frivolity and high-spiritedness, and I understood through the pain and transformation time and time again that in troubled times, love between children is not important.

"Yinxue, go buy some kinds of pig's trotters, and bring a jar of good wine." I played with the pill in my hand, my eyes were calm, "Go and call Zhang Liang, if he doesn't want to, just say Ji Zhenconscience found out, please He has dinner."

"Yes." The Snow Song Thief smiled, "Mr. Zhang Liang will definitely not refuse if you have an invitation."

"Are you so sure?" I looked at her with a half-smile.

Yin Xue nodded, with a look of envy on her face: "Because Mr. Zhang Liang likes the young master, so he will definitely not refuse."

"is it?"

"My lord, don't you believe Xue Yin's words?"

"... The question itself is meaningless. Like it or not, it's the same... The ending is the same."

"how come?"

"Yin Xue, you go."

I don't really want to explain the complicated and entangled relationship issues with this little girl, she is still too young, she only knows that liking is happiness, not liking is pain.

Zhang Liang arrived as scheduled.

"Ah Zhen." Zhang Liang smiled down to his eyes, and spoke softly, "It's rare that you are interested in inviting me to dinner today."

"Yeah, I do some good deeds occasionally." I pointed excitedly at the dishes on the table, "You love the sauced pig's feet, roasted pig's feet, roasted pig's feet, Sweet and sour pork trotters, stewed trotters... well, there is also Xifeng wine."

"Ah, I really have a heart." Zhang Liang smiled helplessly, "It's just when did I fall in love with pig's trotters so much?"

"Just pretend, in fact, I have already seen that you like pig's trotters." I smiled teasingly, and made a gesture of invitation, "Don't worry, I won't talk nonsense for you about your love for pig's trotters."

Zhang Liang stopped bickering with me and leaned over and sat beside me.

A small round table, except for a jar of Xifeng wine, the whole table is covered with pig's trotters.

In fact, pig's trotters are quite cute in this way, round, fat, shiny, and shining.

It's a pity that Zhang Liang and I really don't like to eat pig's trotters.

Fortunately, there is Xifeng.

I drank one cup after another.

Wine juice overflowed from the corner of his mouth, Zhang Liang handed over a white handkerchief.

I took it, but it didn't work, but I played with it carelessly.

"Ah, if you use it, the veil is clean."

"I'm not afraid it's dirty, I just think it's missing something." I raised my face and smiled, "When I was dressed up as Niqi, the handkerchief you gave me had the word 'Shu' on it, embroidered on it." It's so beautiful, you don't know how envious I am, so I ruined it... Now that I think about it, I'm naive. Some things, destruction can't deny its existence... By the way, I have never had a chance to show it, Nich To read it the other way around is to marry you, at that time, you didn't know how much I wanted to marry you."

"Ah Zhen, I..."

I handed over a glass of wine and said softly, "How about a drink?"

"...I don't like drinking."

"If you don't drink, I'll pour it into your mouth!"

"Okay, just have a drink." Zhang Liang took the wine glass, his eyes slowly dimmed.His movements were very difficult, as if he was holding a cup of poison/medicine.

I felt guilty for a while.

He drank the wine in one gulp and looked at me fixedly.

There was still tenderness in his eyes, but there was no smile at all.

I coughed lightly: "I'm going out to get something, you wait here."

"Whatever Ah Zhen wants to bring, just let Miss Xue Yin go."

"...I do everything myself."

"Then I'll go with Zhen."

"No need, you've worked too much during the day, just sit down and have a rest." I just wanted to leave when Zhang Liang grabbed my wrist.

"Men and women can't kiss each other." I bluffed, "The old man, Fu Nian, saw it and wanted to spank your ass."

"It doesn't matter." Zhang Liang said seriously, "Ah Zhen and I are already husband and wife, so what if we hold hands?"

"...I warn you, you'd better forget about what happened that night. I admit that I raped you, but you won't suffer, we've settled it."

"How does Ah Zhen know that I'm not at a disadvantage?"

"Ah, hey, don't you get cheap and act like a good boy. I won't talk to you anymore, I'm leaving."

"Ah Zhen, I won't blame you." Zhang Liang's gaze passed through me and landed on the bed not far away, "It's just that I will be sad... You will also hurt others by doing so."

My spine tensed suddenly.he knows?