[Qin Shimingyue] On the development of love through improper households

The four eyes met, and in those black eyes, I saw too many emotions flashing by, and finally settled into a pool of loneliness.

It was only later that I realized that this boy had been looking at me like this all his life.

I am not willing to be down and out for others, entangled in the intricate process, and finally all turned into floating moons in the water, disappearing with the dawn, but his company has never left.

It's just that I never see it.yes.

…I was looking at people all the time.

Zhang Liang had no intention of giving me a starry sky, where the moon was bright and the stars were twinkling. I thought I would never have such a beautiful night in my life, but one day, I found that I saw it elsewhere.

The scenery has always been like that, but I am not very good at loving it.

"My lord, it's good that you're fine." Wan Ge's voice was a little hoarse, with deep tiredness, which actually moved me a little.

This cold-blooded little guy, the first thing he said when he woke up was exactly the same as what his father said.I sniffed, clenched my fists, and said firmly, "Dan Ge, it doesn't matter if you don't have children, just treat me as your child."

When Bai Feng heard my words, he immediately stomped his feet and exploded: "Ji Zhen, are you out of your mind?"

"I'm serious, as long as I ignore my age, isn't that all right?" After all, Wan Ge became like this because of me, so I have to make up for it anyway, as long as I don't call me a good girl in front of my father. I still don't mind.

It's just that Wan Ge seemed to be more silent, dammit... didn't such touching words warm him?Could it be that having a daughter like me would make him suffer even more?

I, Ji Zhen, is such an excellent girl, can he give birth to Wan Ge? (︶︹︺)

"Ji Zhen, you don't understand anything, don't talk nonsense here!" I was puzzled by Bai Feng's angry appearance. Although he has a bad temper and is arrogant, he rarely shows me such a big face.After Mo Crow scolded him severely, he flew away angrily without even patting his ass.Afterwards, Mo Ya followed the government doctor to grab the medicine, and Wan Ge and I were the only ones left in the room.

There was another long silence.

I was fiddling with my fingers boredly, and when I was in a daze to let go, I heard Wan Ge say: "Master, can you break a leaf for me?"

This was the first time in his life that he made a plea to me, so I naturally wouldn't refuse, nodded and said, "Okay."

As long as it's not the red lotus of Na Laoshizi, it's easy to break anything.

When I flew out of Dinglan Pavilion, I realized that I forgot to ask him what kind of leaves he wanted. There are at least a hundred species of trees in the General’s Mansion... Forget it, let’s pick a piece of each.So I flew around the general's mansion, picked a piece of each kind of leaves, and then returned to Dinglan Pavilion with a bunch of leaves.

Wan Ge leaned against the bed with her head sideways, her shoulders drooping slightly, her lines were lonely and gentle.

I presented a pile of leaves as if offering a treasure, cleared my throat and said, "You can pick them."

He suddenly laughed softly, maybe he was very beautiful but rarely smiled, I was slightly dazed watching it.Wan Ge stretched out her slender and clean fingers to pick and choose among the pile of leaves, and finally picked up a slender willow leaf.

I blinked and asked, "What is this leaf for?"

Wan Ge silently handed the leaves to her lips, and then began to play softly.The melodious music poured from his lips, filled the entire Dinglan Pavilion, and lingered in my ears for a long time.

I closed my eyes, as if I saw peach blossoms full of trees.

...I never knew that leaves could be used as musical instruments.And the tune played by Wange is the same as the one played by Zhang Liang under the peach blossom tree.

No wonder I can see the peach blossoms all over the tree.

After the song was finished, I opened my eyes, and before I could express my emotion, the evening song had already begun.

He said: "There are no flutes for evening songs."

The recent days have been very leisurely.

I practice swords in the courtyard every morning, lie down by the window of Dinglan Pavilion at noon to read some low-level scripts, occasionally drink with my father at night, and more often I drink by myself, and then enjoy the drink Fall asleep in the dark.I don't need to read those Confucian classics anymore, I don't need to think hard about a game of broken chess, and I don't need to learn to be a female celebrity to understand what a gentleman and a lady are.

In fact, I didn't need to do these things in the first place. No one ever asked me to do them. I just asked for trouble.

So I became more and more relaxed.

It's just that every time I dream back at midnight, I always think of the same face.

That clever and handsome boy, only in my dream is he not stingy with his smile.

I want to say that I have nothing to do with him, but when I think about it carefully, this word is used for the fateful mandarin duck.

We are not fateful mandarin ducks, I am just unrequited love.

When I was young, I just kept my head down and ran after him, but I never considered his troubles.In the end, I almost killed him. Now that I think about it, I'm still afraid.

I have a lot of memories with him, although it is not good enough or even a bit bitter, but at least it can show that he has been in my world, he has really been here, and he has been here in a down-to-earth manner.

It's just a pity that the memories can only go so far. In the summer when she was 16 years old, Ji Zhen was no longer willful.

Bai Feng is still Bai Feng, and he brings me sweet and greasy sugar cakes and all the news about Zhang Liang non-stop every day.

He said: "Zhang Liang drew a chess manual under the peach tree yesterday."

He said: "Zhang Liang went to the palace to meet Princess Honglian, and the two chatted happily."

He said: "Han Wangan seems to intend to point Princess Honglian to Zhang Liang."

He said, "Ji Zhen, are you listening?"

I put down the wine bottle in my hand, raised my eyes and smiled and said, "I'm listening. Listen carefully."

Bai Feng snorted coldly and said in a muffled voice, "Why did you give up?"

I stopped laughing, and after a long silence, I opened my mouth and said, "Baifeng."

"……what?"

"Did your big brother Mo Crow protect you too well, so you don't understand the right and wrong twists and turns of the world?"

"Stop talking nonsense here! Of course I understand, aren't you just afraid that the general will kill Zhang Liang?"

Bai Feng's puffy face made me unable to resist reaching out to poke his cheek again, but this time he didn't dodge and let my fingers touch his soft cheek.

"Today's Feng Bao seems to be very well-behaved." I admired, "I will be able to marry my sister in two years."

"Bah! I won't marry you in ten years!" Bai Feng was instantly irritated and threw away my hand.

I blinked and continued to tease: "How about 20 years?"

“休想！20年30年40年50年100年都不可能！”

"...It's like this." I asked with a look of regret, "Is it okay in the next life?"

"In the next life and the next life, it's impossible!" Bai Feng said arrogantly, "You don't want to take advantage of me!"

I stopped laughing and looked into his eyes seriously until I saw the puzzlement in his eyes, then I said softly: "Look, you don't even want to marry me, why should Zhang Liang do this?" kind of thing?"

"He's not me!" Bai Feng turned her head awkwardly, "...I don't like sibling love."

"But he is too inferior. He blames me for being too perfect, so he can't love me. He thinks he's not good enough for me..."

"You're out of your mind? Just talk to yourself here." As if she didn't want to listen to my narcissistic words, Bai Feng patted her little butt and flew away.

I watched his lithe figure disappear into the sky, and then heaved a long sigh.

I just want to find a reason, why Zhang Liang doesn't love me, why I can't be with him.

It doesn't matter if it's my own nonsense, anyway, the only person I want to convince is myself.

Just me.